#[ caine headcanon ] i want to be the king of my body and mind

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in all modern verses, Caine always wears a planchette enamel pin that says ‘THEY/THEM’ on it. 

in non-modern verses, they’ll just automatically correct you if you misgender them; if it’s in modern, Caine will quite literally just look you dead in the eye and point to the pin. 

#[ caine headcanons ] i want to be the king of my body and mind #[ caine valikovna doe ] this heart keeps beating on to somebody before

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@cursedbcrn​ asked:  REFLECT + the first time caine learned about patrina || CAINE || Ask my muses about their memories || ACCEPTING FOR FOREVER, ACTUALLY! ||

“... So that’s sort of the thing, isn’t it? It’s that- in a sort of, um, knowledge-way, I guess, I’ve always known about Patrina. All duskwitches do- she’s a ghost story. Like the duskwitch boogeyman- the duskwitch who turned on her people, men, women, neither or both, children. Quite genuinely, I heard ghost stories and scary stories about her from- when I was very little.” They don’t really remember the stories anymore, but- well. Patrina is the boogeyman. Patrina is the big bad wolf, used to scare little kids to behave, to remind them not to sway to the darkest of magics, to that which is used purely for sadistic greed. 

Funny, to grow up on those stories, and then have the reality smack them in the face. “So- well, like little kids do, I had nightmares about her, but when I was... A little bigger, a little older, the dreams changed. They were still about Patrina- but now I was Patrina. My point of view, my eyes, you know? My hands doing the terrible things.” A slow, shaking breath and Caine closes their eyes. 

“The first one was the worst for a long time, I think. She used- cold fire, burned down a house with... Someone inside. Turned to the vampire, the one she loved, and she was so pleased, and I felt her joy and her- cruelty, alongside my horror. My fear. She listened to the screaming and reveled, and I listened and all I wanted to do was- help, or shut it out. Anything but keep listening.” Caine’s lips twist and they grimace a little. Even now the memory- their heart feels like it’s pounding out of their chest, and they lay a palm over that racing organ, trying to settle. 

“Of course that was nothing compared to watching her destroy the village and then- experiencing her curse and her death through her eyes. But that was a lot later.” The duskwitch swallows. “And up until- that one, honestly I just.. I thought it was like a dream where I was making it up. My mind filling in the blanks of the stories that I’d been told. But this one- I told Camlo.” There’s a quiet, helpless laugh, and Caine hangs their head- hiding. 

“I told Camlo, and he wasn’t- he wasn’t even surprised. And he gave me a journal, and he told me everything. And then- A month later, I was on my own. Gods I was so scared. I think I shut down for- almost a year, really. That period of time’s a blur. But I- decided that I’d fight it. It was why Camlo kept us moving so long, I know, and why when the dreams got to that point- we crossed an ocean, and then he left me... Here. Maybe because he was afraid of Patrina- maybe because he was afraid of being tracked down by... Well, you know, who.” Even now, it feels like a curse, to say the name of the vampire. 

The Mikaelsons aren’t the big bad wolves, to the duskwitches. Not even close. 

“... It was a lot. It was very much a lot, and I still don’t really know what I’m doing, other than that- every day I’m alive, Patrina isn’t. Every day I’m the awake one, Patrina isn’t. And I want to keep it that way.”

#cursedbcrn #[ caine verse: cursedbcrn ] fighting till the end like i promised you this could be the day i die for you #[ caine lore ] someone crying in the dead of the night was it me or was it just in my mind #[ caine headcanon ] i want to be the king of my body and mind #[ caine valikovna doe ] this heart keeps beating to somebody before #[ answered asks ] now we see what we're gonna regret #[ lmao caine is so desperately Not Okay ]

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legacies-specific caine headcanon  (lmao you’d think caine is a legacies oc w/ how much i write them there, but tbh they’re my dnd oc for curse of strahd)

From the moment that Caine entered into the Salvatore school, they didn’t fully trust Alaric, and so he got a very... Watered down version of who they are and what they’re capable of. Only that they are a duskwitch, they grew up in mostly Romania- and they have no family. Admittedly, seeing Alaric’s treatment of Hope (specifically @cursedbcrn​ ‘s Hope, but this can be true for any interpretation of her), convinced them only more fullt that if he knew their past, he would either use them, kick them out, or throw Patrina in their face any time they made a mistake or were anything other than shrinking, shy, and biddable. It’s all an act, for the most part; but it’s one Caine is very good at playing. 

Caine sticks to a single dorm room as best they can, because when they have Patrina-Dreams they often wake screaming. This is kept secret from the school via silencing charms. The fact that an ancient vampire by the name of Orphus is actively looking for Caine to re-awaken Patrina is also kept a secret from the school. So long as they have their cloaking locket and are surrounded by other supernatural creatures to ‘mask’ their signature, with a famed vampire hunter at the head of the school, they’re rather safe. 

They specialize in Romanian and eastern european spells, and all of their incantations are in one form of Romanian or another, mainly Proto-Romanian and Daco-Romanian. They speak many other eastern european languages though, and read them, and are the best in the school for translating these. Romanian is their mother tongue, so they will mutter to themselves in it a lot. 

Caine intentionally doesn’t stick out in any way- in classes, in physical education, they stick to middling, intentionally not giving their all in most things, but never to the point of outright failure. In reality, they’re incredibly adept and creative with spellworking, and lethal with a sword. 

They have nearly no friends, and for the most part tend to avoid those in the school with a lot of social power or notoriety, though are courteous when approached. However they’re also incredibly intent on being invisible, and have many ‘hiding places’ around the school grounds, so that they can spend time alone and not be bothered. 

#[ caine headcanons ] i want to be the king of my body and mind

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caine is never seen without a cold iron locket that has two garnets and a smoky quartz moon inlaid into it. 

the necklace is imbued with a heavy cloaking spell- as far as magic of any sort is concerned, caine doesn’t exist while they wear it. 

it’s also spelled to- lessen the impact of the patrina memories/nightmares, and lessen their frequency; it’s entirely impossible to completely block them, even through vampiric compulsion or memory spells. 

due to the whole- patrina issue, Caine has an intrinisic fear of vampires. they’re working on it.

#[ caine headcanons ] i want to be the king of my body and mind #[ caine valikovna doe ] this heart keeps beating on to somebody before

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Caine is a being of emotions more than anything else- they’re incredibly strong and often overwhelming. However, that being said, Caine is usually incredibly good at masking those emotions, so that no one can tell- if something is wrong, or even sometimes if something is right. 

They usually keep an incredibly cheerful mask, bright eyes, bright smile, as they try not to worry anyone else, or to let anyone else in. This repression leads to a lot of sleepless nights, or nights that require silencing  or muffling charms, so that Caine can cry without feeling like someone will barge in, or so that when Caine wakes screaming from a nightmare, no one will be the wiser. 

Still- most people only ever see the bright smile, and Caine would massively prefer to keep it that way. Even people they trust don’t usually get much more from Caine than that, and as such- Caine is incredibly lonely, though they’d prefer to never let that fact be known. 

When not incredibly cheery-acting, trying to joke and use humor to brighten those around them, Caine can come off as incredibly stoic or unflappable, often to the point of being unnerving. This is less on purpose- but sometimes even Caine doesn’t have the mental energy to keep smiling.

It gets more and more common after their 16th birthday passes, and by the time they’re 19, it’s a 50/50 shot on if you’ll get the cheerful, playful Caine, or the stoic and unflinching one when out in public eye. 

#[ caine headcanons ] i want to be the king of my body and mind

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Caine puts forth an incredibly bright and cheerful personality- bubbly and excitable, but it’s mostly a ruse. They either don’t feel comfortable or don’t feel safe opening up or being real with most people- and feel that putting forth an optimistic front, or smiling even in the hardest times, can help- if it doesn’t help them, perhaps someone else. 

They are a genuinely kind as they put forth, and simultaneously very naïve about people, and very untrusting of people, in an awkward dichotomy. 

Still- they almost never actually LIE, about anything other than how they’re truly feeling. 

Or you know, the fact that they’re supernatural. That does tend to be kept more secret. 

#[ caine headcanons ] i want to be the king of my body and mind

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someone remind me to fix all my old tags tomorrow but let’s start with Caine’s for now since their muse is WILD rn

#[ save ] but when i picked it up then it vanished away from my hands #[ caine verse: modern ] ask me no questions and i will tell you no lies #[ caine valikovna doe ] this heart keeps beating on to somebody before #[ caine aesthetic ] smoke is rising have you come to watch it burn #[ caine verse: dnd ] i've seen what love looks like the beauty when it's alive #[ caine musings ] someone crying in the dead of night was it me or was it just my mind #[ caine headcanons ] i want to be the king of my body and mind #[ caine abilities ] theres something in the air there's omens everywhere #[ caine likes ] i only miss you when it rains #[ caine relationships ] come through the dark into your into your heart

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legacies-specific caine headcanon (lmao you’d think caine is a legacies oc w/ how much i write them there, but tbh they’re my dnd oc for curse of strahd)

From the moment that Caine entered into the Salvatore school, they didn’t fully trust Alaric, and so he got a very... Watered down version of who they are and what they’re capable of. Only that they are a duskwitch, they grew up in mostly Romania- and they have no family. Admittedly, seeing Alaric’s treatment of Hope (specifically @cursedbcrn​ ‘s Hope, but this can be true for any interpretation of her), convinced them only more fullt that if he knew their past, he would either use them, kick them out, or throw Patrina in their face any time they made a mistake or were anything other than shrinking, shy, and biddable. It’s all an act, for the most part; but it’s one Caine is very good at playing.

Caine sticks to a single dorm room as best they can, because when they have Patrina-Dreams they often wake screaming. This is kept secret from the school via silencing charms. The fact that an ancient vampire by the name of Orphus is actively looking for Caine to re-awaken Patrina is also kept a secret from the school. So long as they have their cloaking locket and are surrounded by other supernatural creatures to ‘mask’ their signature, with a famed vampire hunter at the head of the school, they’re rather safe.

They specialize in Romanian and eastern european spells, and all of their incantations are in one form of Romanian or another, mainly Proto-Romanian and Daco-Romanian. They speak many other eastern european languages though, and read them, and are the best in the school for translating these. Romanian is their mother tongue, so they will mutter to themselves in it a lot.

Caine intentionally doesn’t stick out in any way- in classes, in physical education, they stick to middling, intentionally not giving their all in most things, but never to the point of outright failure. In reality, they’re incredibly adept and creative with spellworking, and lethal with a sword.

They have nearly no friends, and for the most part tend to avoid those in the school with a lot of social power or notoriety, though are courteous when approached. However they’re also incredibly intent on being invisible, and have many ‘hiding places’ around the school grounds, so that they can spend time alone and not be bothered.

#[ caine headcanon ] i want to be the king of my body and mind

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caine tag dump 1

#[ blog info ] trouble sleeping oh restless dreaming #[ caine valikovna doe ] this heart keeps beating to somebody before #[ caine headcanon ] i want to be the king of my body and mind #[ caine aesthetic ] unlocked secrets lie beyond far beyond #[ caine musings ] and i’m holding onto what i love know that i would’ve fell off for you #[ caine lore ] someone crying in the dead of the night was it me or was it just in my mind #[ caine verse: modern ] ask me no questions and i will tell you no lies #[ caine verse: main ] i’m in a cemetery playing hide and seek and i can’t go to sleep now #[ caine verse: cursedbcrn ] fighting till the end like i promised you this could be the day i die for you #[ cursedbcrn dynamic: caine x hope ] and i tried to save a life with these diamond hands of mine

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From the time Caine turns 14, and for the majority, if not the whole of their life afterwards, sleep is not peaceful. It isn’t even truly restful, it’s an ordeal that is necessary for life, one that Caine doesn’t look forward to, and sometimes actively dreads. 

The memories of Patrina started- slowly at first, and just in flashes. Memories of another life, but more like dreams, soft and deceiving. They could easily have been mistaken for just dreams, or even partial visions of someone else in the world as it was. 

But they increased- in frequency, in length, in severity, in intensity. They went from Caine having fever-flashes to full, long moments watching someone else’s hands, from someone else’s perspective, and hearing a voice so eerily similar to their own. It started as being curious of who this person was, or had been-  To seeing and hearing this person plan and commit atrocities, toy with dark magics that even Caine wouldn’t touch, despite their lenient attitude with most dark spellcraft. 

To feeling what Patrina felt in those moments, the twisted and sick glee, the delight, the all-consuming ambition, the cold lack of a heart. The obsessive, devastating love for a monster, to the point of wanting to become like him, to helping him destroy lives, people. 

To watching as Patrina helped Orophus kill most of the original duskwitch coven, all to create enough of an atrocity to desecrate the ground, attempting to cause enough fear and pain to fuel Patrina’s transition into something even more monstrous than just a vampire. 

They felt the blood on Patrina’s hands and felt each life she took. They watched as Orophus tore people apart and felt the original witch’s glee and bloodlust, as people she’d grown up with, cared about, known were left empty corpses. 

They felt it as her brother plunged a spear through Patrina’s heart- and the damning spell that Orophus forced into the aether, to try and bring back his love.  To allow him to try again. And again, if that was what it took. The spell that allowed for Caine’s very existence, chains around their mind, soul, and heart that bound them to Patrina’s, forever a part of her. 

And then became aware of her- in the back of their mind, only just barely there- but there. Alive, in a horrible sense, and present- aware. Unable to speak to one another, unable to excise her from their soul, but ever-knowing of how she watched, and learned, and knew everything Caine did. 

It created a certain sense of despair in the duskwitch, that they hid from the world and kept close to their chest. Covered it with smiles, and laughter, and a certain level of invisibility, a feigned lack of knowledge. This was a burden they didn’t know that they could trust anyone else with, and that they didn’t know how to. 

The dreams were almost every night, and often the majority of the time spent asleep- the mildest ones would have Caine startling awake with a cry, or almost throwing themselves out of bed. The worst would have them waking bleeding from their eyes, their nose, choking on blood that they weren’t even sure was their own. 

It was lucky, really, that Caine was thought of as weird, or creepy enough that while at whatever school they were at- no one wanted to be their roommate, and people would actively work not to be. Being alone at night meant no one had to know- and silencing charms, privacy spells, would ensure that no one had to know. 

The locket- cold iron, black opal and garnet, was spelled when Caine was 16. They’d worn it their whole life, a gift from Camlo- a large pendant that only opened with a drop of Caine’s blood, holding within a strange jeweled ring that sang with unknown magics, that refused to release its’ secrets. A charm that made them invisible to tracking or detection, heavily layered and with deep intent-  And another, to dull the dreams, to delay them as much as possible, so that rest could at least be found sometimes. So that it was possible. 

Caine suffers in silence and with a smile, with laughter that fills halls with light, because they don’t know how to let anyone in. They don’t know how to be close to anyone. 

Even if they want to. 

#[ caine valikovna doe ] this heart keeps beating on to somebody before #[ caine headcanons ] i want to be the king of my body and mind #[ drabbles ] always said i had a way with words never knew i could be speechless #[ meta ] try not to listen; noisy minds have sleepless ambitions #[ violence cw ] #[ long post cw ] #[ blood cw ] #[ toxic relationship cw ]

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Caine has three tattoos - a sun and a moon that are done in heavy linework on each side of their collarbone, close to their neck, very tarot- inspired 

and a tattoo of the ‘death’ tarot card like this one on the back of their neck, just where neck meets shoulders. 

#[ caine headcanons ] i want to be the king of my body and mind #[ caine valikovna doe ] this heart keeps beating on to somebody before

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@duskwolf​ asked:  ♦️ for a relationship headcanon || CAINE || Meme Tag || Accepting 

Caine likes to share stories from their home country with Jacob, and will always listen to any he tells in return. They also have a genuine appreciation for the weather and the climate of the area, and I imagine that Caine would probably try to get Jake to take them hiking places- he’s more familiar and probably knows the best spots to stargaze, they have a hunch and they’re not letting up on that belief until proven wrong in full. 

#duskwolf #[ caine valikovna doe ] this heart keeps beating on to somebody before #[ caine headcanons ] i want to be the king of my body and mind #[ answered asks ] in our dreams i said i'm so sorry to have kept you waiting around

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SLEEPING HABITS

NAME:  Caine Valikovna Doe

RESIDENCE:  Verse dependent. Anywhere from a magical boarding school to a hotel- rarely in a permanent residence, and if they are in one, it’s probably not theirs. 

TYPE OF BED:  Full

NUMBER OF BLANKETS:  Probably like 10. Not including sheets or comforter

NUMBER OF PILLOWS:  Again, probably like 10. They nest. 

TYPE OF CLOTHING:   Long t-shirts that they drown in, boxers. 

DO THEY SLEEP WITH COMPANY?: Rarely

DO THEY SLEEP BETTER WITH COMPANY?:  Honestly yes, which is also why they tend not to let themselves indulge often. The nightmare-memories lessen in company, and they’re able to actually rest. 

DOES IT MATTER WHERE THEY SLEEP?:  Caine can sleep almost anywhere- side effect of a roaming childhood and no stability in their formative years. Under a table, on a forest floor, sitting against a wall... It doesn’t matter. But given the choice? Mattress, pillows, blankets galore. 

WHAT DO THEY DO IF THEY CANNOT FALL ASLEEP?: Sketching, mostly, especially with charcoals. Journaling. Physical exercise or study of some sort. 

FREQUENT DREAMS,  NIGHTMARES:  Memories of Patrina. When they were younger, they rarely remembered them; after the age of 14, the dreams became more permanent and lasting, and sometimes far more confusing- making them doubt who they are when they wake up. 

DEEP SLUMBER OR NAPS:  Deep slumber

WHEN DO THEY SLEEP:  They genuinely prefer sleeping during the day, but sleep at night as needed. 

WHAT COULD WAKE THEM UP:   Just about anything abnormal. Even when sleeping deeply, they’re incredibly easy to awaken. 

TAGGED BY : @cursedbcrn <3 

Tagging: @norsecreated / @incogniiita , @phoenixmade , @duskwolf 

#[ caine headcanons ] i want to be the king of my body and mind #[ memes ] of us that get to look back when we're done; you took what you wanted to take #[ save ] but when i picked it up then it vanished away from my hands