#:((( am sad one why have you done this

[exhaustedwerewolf]

when the dnd session was so insane you’re like “damn I want to rewatch that bit” but you can’t because it was not an incredible fantasy film but just you playing make believe with your friends

#INSANE SCENES THIS EVENING #dialogue echoing in my head includes: ‘resurrection isn’t my strong suit’ // ‘then make it your strong suit’ #‘oh darling! don’t scare me like that. come here. let’s go home.’ // ‘what the fuck have you done?’ #‘(laughs) oh yes. I’m sure if all those people had just had a sword and a shield that things would have turned out differently. I’m being #lenient but my patience is running out. so spare me the insult of your sword. cunt.’ #‘ten million is a big number. it should feel different to one body in a cage or one hanging from the rafters but somehow it… it feels the #same.’ #genuinely stopped typing to do a despair event horizon stare into nothingness #our dm can cry on command lads and he was weaponising that today :’) #so many unbelievably fucked up things happened I cannot believe it and I am having a conspiracy theory board moment trying to make sense of #it #DnD #so many other moments I have written down but can’t remember verbatim but also WHY DIDN’T THEY ASK ME… IF I WANTED TO LEAVE #@CASUALAGRESOR IF YOU ARE READING THIS HOW DARE YOU I AM SO SAD

[the-casbah-way]

not to beat a dead horse but jesus christ can you just leave people alone in public bathrooms i just want to fucking piss girl i'm so tired of feeling anxious and trying to avoid using public bathrooms because of how fucking weird cis people are about it. i tried to go into the bathroom at work today (i have worked here for years) and this woman who has worked here for two weeks and doesn't know me laughed and tried to like. steer me in the direction of the men's toilet instead and was like "wrong way!" are you fucking kidding me fuck off

#i have worked in this building for years. i know where the fucking bathroom is #like i'm sorry but cis people just don't want me in any bathroom at this point. i can't fucking win #i'm not kidding you i didn't really think that people in real life would actually make a fuss over who is in the bathroom #but at uni specifically i have had A LOT of people in the womens bathroom awkwardly tell me “uh i think you're in the wrong bathroom haha” #they're not even doing it in an antagonistic way it's like they genuinely think i've walked into the wrong one #and it makes ME feel like a creep or like i've done something wrong #like you guys are the ones that insist i should be in this bathroom !!!! but then i go in there and get told i'm in the wrong one !!!! #it's one of the few things that never fails to make me feel anxious and sad because it's a fucking bathroom it shouldn't be a big deal #why am i being made to feel like i've done something wrong when i'm just trying to exist here like everyone else #and you know what. it doesn't matter how i identify right. because i've actually done nothing to intentionally masculanise my appearance #like the entire time i've been out. i had short hair before i came out and i dressed this way before i came out #i have not done anything to try and Look Like A Man or Look Cis. i just have masc bone structure NATURALLY #so for all you know i could just be a woman with short hair ????? and you're telling me i don't belong in here because of that ?? #like sure i'm NOT a woman with short hair but my point is you literally cannot tell the difference #so just leave people alone

[thefrogdalorian]

Having of those moments where I wish to yeet the like button into the sun or maybe make it so there was setting you could turn on so that people can only reblog posts (even better with the minimum requirement of adding at least one tag)!!

It's kind of absurd that one of my fics is getting close to 500 notes while simultaneously being one I've had the least actual human interactions come from. Like...... come on, that's now how it should be AT ALL!

Don't get me wrong, I'm so thrilled people are clearly finding it and I guess enjoying it(??) but just having endless likes without people letting me know what they enjoyed about it or even if they liked it kind of makes me sad. That's not why I want to share my writing here!

I love having those little human connections with others. I don't ever want my writing to feel transactional. I would love to talk to more people about things I've written. It's truly one of the best feelings and I would hate to lose that, the more I write or the more notes my fics get. Please don't be shy!! I get the social anxiety, but there is no reason to be. I am truly just a Din Djarin obsessed loser.

Anyway, whine over. I don't want to focus on the negatives here and I appreciate every single person who has ever left a positive interaction with something I've written. You are truly a light!

#i don't JUST like posts too often #really the only posts i dont reblog but like are to save for later or if it's too personal/explicit #or i guess i have nothing to add and OP has said it all yknow #but if i see some writing or art i love then hell yeah i always force myself to add at least one tag i like just so the artist/author sees #otherwise it feels like a hollow transaction and i really want people to know i appreciate their art more than just pressing a button yknow #and I KNOW it's intimidating at first to interact with others!! TRUST ME i get it and i'm still awful at it #but just one little comment can make someone feel so good about their writing... why wouldn't someone want to try that at least #especially if you enjoyed it!!! even a key smash or a string of emojis!!! #and the death of the tumblr tag is SO SAD because where else am i meant to talk to you lot? #i mean these tags are longer than my actual post and that's the beauty of tumblr #you don't have to perceive me down here but you can if you wish and i love you for that! #and it's a nice way to organise your blog to make it navigable for others #ANYWAY said i was done whining and continued whining down here so there's that LOL but i always want to interact with more people #please do not be afraid of reaching out to me! scroll through my blog for 5 seconds and you'll see what a nerdy loser i am #akdjgds i mean aren't we all here #spud rants #writing #but thanks again to anyone who leaves nice comments im giving you a (consensual) forehead smooch MWAH

[shinyas-ashes]

Literally the most heartbreaking scene in OPM is those 6 pages in chapter 147 where child emperor is stuck underground and like legit doesn’t know if he’s going to be alive in 20 minutes 😭😭 why is this ten year old writing his last words to his ex boss?? Why is a ten year old writing his last words?? Bro where are your parents?????? Who let you come on this trip 😭 this kid (in what he thinks could be his last moments) sends in reconnaissance, updates on the battle, a call for aid (not for him in particular tho), AND STEPS MOVING FORWARD FOR THE S CLASSES IF HE DIES????? Wtf 😭😭 he is ten and I’m in tears who allowed this. “All I can do is hold my breath and wait.” THATS THE MOST HEARTBREAKING THING IVE EVER HEARD FROM A KID WHOSE MAIN PROBLEMS IN LIFE SHOULD BE THAT HIS MOM PACKED THE WRONG FLAVOUR OF GUMMY SNACKS FOR HIM 😭💀

PPP finding him aside I AM CRYING

HES SO TINY WHO LET THIS HAPPEN

#opm #one punch man #opm spoilers #one punch man spoilers #anyways #😭😭😭 #when I said I was in tears reading this I’m serious I shed like 3 #this is a child emperor Stan account why is my boy suffering #who authorized this #Fr tho where are his parent #I’ve just headcanonned they died or some shit cause this is getting rediculous #I hope he’s in therapy he probably needs it #sorry for long post I just reread this chapter and I’m rlly fucking sad abt this #isamu opm #child emperor #child emperor opm #:((( am sad one why have you done this #also I know it’s supposed to be like a funny haha like the comparison of the kid being more mature than the adults #I’m still upset over it :(( let him be ten :((( this kid will be like #here is my drone watchdog man 12x and his special features are tail wag super snif and decimating everything in a 1km radius

[paradife-loft]

Knight Artorias continues to be one of my absolute favorite boss fights

"victim of the Abyss" is the sexiest description one can read on a soul in this entire game by far

decided midway through fighting him that I wanted to go for a no-healing kill, mostly to prolong the experience and see if I could, and: success!! I can and did!

#dork souls tag #James liveblogs video games #yes this is what I've been doing lately instead of socmed #like listen. normal Artorias? sure; he's fine I guess. not really that interesting personally #but on the other hand: corrupted/screaming/broken arm/dripping Abyss sludge and trying to impale me!Artorias? yes. yes please. #I am but a simple human; I merely like to see a knight of the gods struggle and suffer and be metaphysically consumed by darkness :) #......ANyways. #I remember also liking the Kalameet fight mechanically quite a bit too #but the problem with him is. he reminds me of a cat. and also he's really done nothing wrong in-game; he's just chilling #and he's like the last real dragon #it simply seems sad/rude/unprovoked to go injuring his wing and then murdering him like that :( #there's something that's... really striking and stuck in my brain about the fact that one of if not the best way to learn about the world #about the PEOPLE in the world #is mechanically via murdering them #the inherent fact of curiosity and violence being linked together in playing #you want to understand this person better? the way to do it is to extinguish their life and take their signifiers into you #.... why do I feel like this game is going to join Star Wars and Tolkien as one of my cyclical dormant Obsessions #that I lose my shit over anew every several years even if it's been a while in between #I mean. people will simply have to deal.

[lixbf]

i was so productive in bg3 today fjsvcjdhd

#did the house of hope (aka fucked an incubus and killed a devil) #did the steel watch foundry (accidentally had a few gondians die but then still said fuck you to wulbren) #did the whole ansur thing (holyyyyy fuck why are there so many revelations abt this one characters identity like) #And killed gortash (karlach my bby..... 😭) #and after all this w karlach constantly in party her approval of me is at. 51 now. wtf girl. ily and this is how you treat me fjdvckdvcjdh #this also made me think of more like. wrong/bad endings for the companions #duke wyll. god gale. sharran shadowheart. ascended astarion. dead karlach??? i guess?? lae'zel??? idk whats like the bad ending for her #anyways i am rapidly approaching the end of my very first bg3 playthrough and it makes me kinda sad #but then again i keep adding more ideas to playthroughs i wanna do.... #like i wanna do everyones origin. i wanna do redeemed durge and evil durge. i wanna do regular evil. #i wanna make shadowheart and lae'zel have the enemies to lovers story they deserve #i wanna try to actually save every tiefling (rip rolan and also arabella i think bc i forgot abt her existence after the grove was done) #i wanna become half illithid and do a bunch of absolute stuff #i wanna maybe yknow uh save barcus in grymforge and not encourage nere to kinda maybe kill him and the other gnomes #i wanna play as ascended astarion but also as unascended astarion #judging by how im like 140hrs into this playthrough. all of this is gonna take me the rest of the year gjxbckdbdj

[todayisafridaynight]

there's only two things on this godless fuck of an earth i care about and one of them is kazumaji and the other is minedai which means half the time i am eating well and thriving and living my best life and the other half of the time i am clinging to your blog like a lifebuoy and devouring anything even slightly minedai related i see so what i'm saying is thank you for existing and doing what you do, it keeps me sane

my god you really are starving i'm so sorry my sweet summer child i'll do my best to take care of you. very happy to have you around Very Joyed to hear i can keep you afloat my brother

#snap chats #just posted a minedai fic so i mean. if pwp your speed go have fun go check that out LMAO #NO BUT REAL IF YALL LIKE MINEDAI BUT ARE LIKE. /ALSO/ 'PICKY' LIKE ME WE'RE IN THIS TOGETHER #despite minedai technically being one of the more popular ships in RGG its just... not really portrayed in a way i like #i could just be really particular tho cause there are minedai fics i absolutely love to bits #tbh it just the n/sfw thats never done in a way that i like BUT that's why we learn to cook yk cooking's a life skill #gotta make what you like <-- cannot write for his life #like Truly most of the sfw minedai fics i read i love so much theyre so cute and lovely or hit me in just the right way #otherwise tho there really is not. minedai stuff huh #like there IS and i am also slorping and sucking on the crumbs but yeah compared to kazumaji uhhh good luck LMAOOOOO #JPN twitter comes in clutch tho they keep /me/ fed.. love the art over there so much UGH i bust at 6AM #and anon my dear im so sorry you gotta see my cringe msada| postings when i do them. unless you got that tag blocked then gg AHA #very unfortunate the western freak makin a bulk of minedai stuff is also cringe very sad day we're all mournful about it #i do love minedai tho. theyre special to me.. i feel immensely about them.. #ok i have to speedrun my morning jesus christ i have to drive two hours back to school uuGHHHGH I DONT WANNAAAA #I HATE DRIVING DRIVING SUCKS

[clear-what-i-was-seeing]

hi hello update, i'll be 98% off tumblr and on queue for a bit, then online in super sporadic bouts until june 15 bc of final projects/exams. still on discord though and reading tags! (and likely procrastinating a lot so i might just have regular activity aslkfd)

#clear posts #locking myself in a crab pot until im done uh cooking #im not entirely sure what a crab pot is #until im done being caught? metaphor error help #uhh crab pot until i am done harvesting myself #ok this. doesnt work #why cant crabs have long seminars and essays to prepare. then they'd literally be a perfect metaphor. this is so sad #hrab school au. high school or university whichever is funniest #it takes hrab a very very long time to write because he has claws. he gets frustrated and starts crying. #and people keep flushing him down the toilet #that one isnt relevant to my experience it's just really funny #ok crunch time #CRUNCH LIKE A CRAB #the crab is doing the crunching to clarify. im vegan #ok bedtime goodnight all #see you on the other side (a few days) (as soon as i get distracted) #do i tag this hrab au

[born-to-lose]

Missing people and regretting shit o'clock

#why did i even let it come this far. 7 fucking months and i didn't realize what was going wrong so i could have saved it #i want him back fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck #was thinking of this notebook i filled for him with memories and poetry and quotes and general mushy things and goddamn #why am i crying i just looked at my desk and i don't have the heart to put everything in a box so i don't see it every day when i wake up #i know i can't change it and it's probably over for good now after i fucked some things up extra hard but fuck do i miss him #i wish i could have done something in time before even the thought of breaking up came up #just when i thought for once things are working out for me and it was really fucking good and happy until a week before it ended #guess i just can't be happy. i never could #i was really really willing to talk things out and fix whatever needs to be fixed while staying together #not go separate ways and maybe not so maybe definitely not possibly maybe see if we can try again in the future #which we (spoiler) apparently won't and i kinda came to terms with that but i still wish there was a possibility #or at least i would have liked to know from the beginning and not spend weeks hoping for a reunion and working towards that specifically #while i seem to be the only one with that goal #idk i just wish it had been more thought through and talked about properly so there wouldn't be the misunderstandings we deal with now #and like boundaries for the first two months or so after that but it takes two i guess #disclaimer i'm not bitter or mad at anyone just sad and nostalgic. if the person in question reads this i love you ok that won't change #deleting later but now i need to go back to sleep before i kill myself on a whim #mel talks #depressed bitch posting #i know i know i know i did some shit too that wasn't great and i'm not saying i'm innocent here i'm just so depressed about the situation #it's been seven goddamn weeks it never took me this long to get over anything before

[maddy-ferguson]

i was so ahead of the curve the curve became a sphere is literally me i skipped a grade and now my friends from high school are done with school and are getting their first jobs and stuff and i'm in school with people who were born two years after me. like i lost three full years lmaooo

#but i'm not that mad or sad about it because i don't mind not working like AT A JOB i'm even considering going into academia which would #mean even more years but like we'll see because i will have spent EIGHT YEARS in university when i'm done since it's five years to like. do #anything actually do something. only three more years to go yay #year 1: depressed year 2: not as depressed but i failed the classes i needed to pass to do the thing i wanted to be doing so i was kinda #stuck but i didn't know what else i wanted to study so i was like. i'll just do this get through my three years and then i'll do something #i like better. because i could have theoretically. except. i did not love it and i wasn't particularly good at it. also was still depressed #for like the entire first semester and my first year i passed for like my first semester so during my second year i had classes for year 2 #during one semester classes for year 1 during another semester. it's actually easy but i don't know if that'll make sense the way i wrote #it. year 3 was 2020-2021 so covid and like i was saying the other day i was NOT working like i was kind of for the first semester but. oh #my god. my favorite class i learned like 60 pages like what we had to learn was 60 pages long and then you had to do like an essay or #whatever idk. no it wasn't even an essay but i czn't explain. i got like. a 3.5. OUT OF 20 #so i was like yeah i'm not doing this anymore this is obviously not working for me so for the rest of the year (oh yeah we had class online #fully from november to well april when it ends) i was like. rewatching grey's anatomy and whatnot. that's when i rewatched grey's. also ahs #my not working semester in 2021 is also when i watched dawson's creek! because that's when they put it on netflix. #fun fact #good times honestly? but yeah #also i think about some of the things i learned a lot like it's very good to know i'm glad that i know it #i Am bitter but it's for other reasons #and like i say: brf slt #rory dropping out of yale is kinda so me if i had ever dropped out😁 which is why her graduating on time is very annoying and boring. her #ass should not have graduated on time...

[elytrafemme]

okay i will actually stop the public breakdown sort of now because it's kind of embarrassing but i do need to point out that my girlfriend sent me a video which i do not find funny and like i'm already splitting right now and i really do not need this energy in my life where are the funny men like what are we doing here

#public meltdowns are good to use in reserves bc people really care initially but after a while it's like #yeah okay here's mare again not handling her emotions which w/e that's my whole fucking thing but like #it is no longer fun so use it well when you have it that's just my advice #anyway. oh i forgot what i was going to say oh fucking whatever #now i'm just cold why is my room fucking freezing this time of year. i'm so fucked in college like actually #i'm genuinely going to snap in half in college it's going to be such a thing . i'm going to actually throw up i think #post canceled i got sad about going to college fucking sue me. okay? i'm going to go fucking crazy #do you know what it's like to watch yourself go crazy do you know what it's like to always be the crazy one #because i'm ALWAYS the crazy one like for years that's why i keep breaking down publicly #cause like everyone knows i'm THAT one you know. #and no i cannot talk about this one on one individually who the fuck do you think i am! who am i putting this on! #my friends are all like you should tell me your emotions No actually bc here's the thing #if people do not want to see me vent here they block tags and they unfollow and they block me #and like it's over. who cares. we're done bitches #but in text like there's no escape honey there is nothing #so like. even if i want that i don't do that i don't fuck with that. what am i even talking about #OH MY GOD THE UNFUNNY VIDEO WHAT AM I GOING TO DOOOOOOO #i'm going to listen to the recs alek just sent me because alek is the best. you all follow him right #i'll just leave her on read who fucking cares #she's not gonna notice

[rubberbandballqueen]

we finally got got the camp and playground rules posters i asked my boss to get printed, and someone redid all my beautiful and thoughtfully-made typography... :'c

#why is it in all caps now!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHERE did my BOLDED TEXT go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *WHO CHANGED THE FONT????????????????* #this unironically made me so so so so so sad at work today #this wasn't just done william-nilliam!!!!!! like idc that the background changed that's whatevs to me #but my TYPOGRAPHY............................................................................ #i am going to kill whoever made it all-caps and then [redacted for excessive violence] whoever changed the font #the worm speaks #also this week at work we have a group of kids who speak mostly cn bc they're from tw or mainland (mostly tw hehe) #n the tw kids were here last week actually but anyway i guess we got a new mainland kid this week #she asked me on monday if i was from mexico n i was like 'unfortunately i regret to inform you that i am asian.' #anyway as my soul had been languishing at my violated typography she came up to me n was like 'teacher is tw the same as china?' #or like 'is taiwan a part of china' sort of thing. similar enough you get the gist. n i was like. confused for a sec bc like. #that felt like a rather political question to be asking! anyway i was like 'what? no.' n i was surprised when she was SHOCKED #she was like 'WHAT? [repeats question more insistently]' n i was like 'no. it is not.' #n i guess she had been having an argument w/the tw kids bc they came up excited like they'd won an argument #n they were like 'teacher is from taiwan ofc they [know? will say? forgot specific wording] tw is tw & cn is cn' #n it reminded me of similar arguments i had w/one of my peers i had in middle school o(--( #ALSO. i saw the kids playing this one clapping game called 'pikachu' that apparently only exists in our direct area #n i was like 'omg. the children still play pikachu' #i say 'apparently only exists in our direct area' bc i have asked friends who went to school in the NEIGHBORING DISTRICT who had NO IDEA #what the HELL i was talking about. i found EXACTLY ONE RECORD of its EXISTENCE online!!!

[mondscheinprinzessin]

Today my therapist achieved the unimaginable and almost managed to make me cry. I was this close🤏 to go fuck it I’m shedding a few tears now.

#we're on the topic of thought control and bad patterns #and then we talk about a scenario and what I could think instead (of the negative ones) #and then we go over to well what would you say to a friend (she always gets me with this one) and then when I say it would be okay to [] #she asks me why that is and then I go all silent because I'm not there yet #but today she amde me say something to myself I didn't allowe myself to date and is connected to a lot of fear and then I almost lost it #and then she always asks me why I am laughing and I say well it's weird to hear that directed towards myself #because nobody ever told me this things #and that made me sad again #like pls warn a girl before you make her cry #(almost) #man therapy rocks I should have done this sooner #logic?? in this brain?? slowly imaginable