#// this is how i am irl tbh

[panakoui]

post canon laishuro prelude :>

#laios touden #toshiro nakamoto #shuro #laishuro #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #pulling this out of my ass at 3 am im sorry if its weird #woooweee im embarassed sharing this tbh #i never make anything like this b4 idk making dialogue and stuff aaaaa #also 'friends' who fight like them irl have stronger bonds going forward this is fact #toshiro warming up to laios post canon and them understanding each other better /sigh #i need a slow burn fic of them so bad #idk how to put this but #the way toshiro just letting them call him shuro for years really speak volume about how extremely introvert he is #like!?! #bfrrrr dude #he's way too good at bottling shit up #the contrasts between him and laios.... peak fiction imo #p.s my pc crashed 10++ times when im making this i almost lost a page it was terrifying

[yardsards]

i needed to express a sentiment in the creative stylings of @dunmeshiminimumwage

#eliot posts #dunme #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi #sorry to put toshiro in the roll of shitty job interviewer lmao #but he was the best fit for ''guy that wants me to read their mind'' #laios being my internal monologue here #i was on my THIRD interview of the day i was Dying #tho since the prev two interviews i had were for similar positions and told me their salaries outright at least i could use that number #(though tbh my work persona is more of a kabru. my customer service voice is unparalleled) #(at my first job even my coworkers thought i was sooo cheerful til i got too comfy and casually made a joke abt wanting to asphyxiate on a #plastic shopping bag like a sea turtle. in front of my sweet elderly coworker. oops!) #(also this job was during quarantine and after weeks of working together i took my mask off in front of one coworker for the first time #and she called like half the department over from their registers to look at how pretty i was??? prettyboy powers unmatched ig) #(also my first interview today went SO well i charmed that interviewer so good despite my lack of qualifications) #(she even complimented my social skills and said i seemed like the type who could get along well and make good conversation with anyone!) #(which is important bc i was interviewing for an elder care position. also old people especially tend to think i am a Delightful Young Lad) #(unless i accidentally make a morbid joke around them ig lmaooo. or. well. some of them like those too. but not that one coworker lol) #(if only that skill transferred over to actually making friends irl. my autistic ass has so few close irl connections) #(i hope my exceedingly short list of character references does not prevent me from getting hired) #AND ALSO my first job asked the same wage question and i said twelve dollars #and they were like all our new employees start at 7.75 #the union insists that we pay all new employees a whopping 50 cents above min wage. (we'd pay less if we could) #like dawg why did you ask that then??? if my answer did not matter at all???

[jujutsustraycats]

Read the new chapter and I don't know how to feel.

Kaiser's disposition and actions are not something I'm justifying at all, but it's not something I can fully blame him for, either.

We saw his backstory in chapter 260. And while 261 has completely changed our attitudes towards him, I still really like his character. It shows a clear representation of trauma and how it can manifest. What I find most interesting, however, is his own admittance to that he's acting exactly like how his own father was towards him. For somebody supposed to be not definable, he's technically trapped within the mindset his father had. Malice. And he knows it, and yet continues. I'm not good at writing analyses out, but I wonder if that can be a plot point further.

Not to mention his treatment of Ness. Poor Ness. I wanna take him away from Kaiser. But I can't get this out of my head– that yeah, he considers Ness "a dog who will submit to his malice", but isn't he technically bound to Ness too? Having to use manipulation tactics to get him, so he could assist Kaiser?

I'm just wishing his character would develop more with how Noa said at the final page to fight with that ego. Soccer was one of the first joys he had, a form of escape, right? Maybe something relating to that awakening?

Chances are, though, if he evolves he's not going to use Ness. I don't know whether he'll get a goal in, though, but if he evolves, chances are Ness will be left behind. As for Ness... I really hope he breaks out of that mindset, cause what the fuck.

I want Ness to fight independently too please please let it happen

#kaiser i trusted you #i really trusted you #thing is i kinda expected it to happen #damn it i'm conflicted over everything now #cause his character? really well fleshed out #i wonder how the storyline's gonna go #and while i'm at it: I AM NOT CONDONING KAISER'S ACTIONS. WHAT HE DID WAS FUCKED UP #AND WRONG #all i'm saying is there's a reason why he is the way he is #and that adds depth to his character #tbh 261 made me love his character more cause of how much there is to unravel (wish i could put it into words 😭) #and mind you when i say *character* as in the way he's written #if i saw him irl i'd probably back the fuck out of there cause hell no #but i can understand why he did what he did... is that bad? #michael kaiser #bllk 261 #blue lock manga #bllk manga

[mwagneto]

sorry i can't hang out rn the two men from that 4 year old show kissed and i literally cannot think about anything else. yeah gonna be all month

#good omens #gomens #crowzira #deleted messenger haven't talked to any of my irls in a week #lowkey hate how nice it is to get a break tbh like oh my goddd im in the mental illness zone do NOT talk to meeee #it feels mean but also I've spent basically every second since September hanging out with #1 - 10 people near constantly. i need some downtime. although by downtime i did not #imagine stopping all human functions and just becoming a vessel for an engless loop of g0mens thoughts #not even true i CAN talk to ppl but only if it's someone that knows how ill i am or if it's #about g0mens. otherwise leave me alone #like i can literally only talk in terminally online tumblr terms rn i can barely remember hungarian #MY ASS LITERALLY GOT FACTORY RESET TO MY TERMINALLY ONLINE SELF😭😭 #not true coz back when i used to be this online i still talked to irls. mostly to get them to watch whatever i was watching but still #im gonna hang out with some tumblr mutuals who are just as ill as me soon. so that's something #idk how the fabric of budapest can handle that much mental illness in one room but whatever #ineffable husbands #i misspelled it.

[distant-velleity]

doodle of chrysos and yu in ouji lolita that got a bit out of hand… ah well

took inspo from gothic ouji for chrysos and classic ouji for yu, because i think it suits them

#my art #twst oc #chrysos pendentif #yuusona #ignore the weird colors and like. Yu’s weird two sleeve thing #ive been going to sleep at 1 am these past few days and havent been thinking very much #yu’s legs kill me but that’s. Also how fucked up my legs look irl #hyperextension in the wrong direction #u can tell ive never done an actual cloth study in my life #i gave up tbh. this is what it is

[itsza]

unwanted consequence of telling ppl u r not attracted to men so that they'll stop pestering you bout not having a bf is that they assume u r devoid of all sexual desire and start spewing acephobic bs

#lesbians exist. i am one. #can't tell them that tho #instead i have to hear bout how my life is incomplete without a bf rn and will be in future without a husband #sometimes they step it up to a if u do not have a bf rn u will not be able to satisfy ur husband???? #also there are certain ppl who are all if u don't want a bf u can fuck ppl casually #thats literally not the point. im not attracted to men and tbh i could be ace and be attracted to no one #why r u so nosy omg #tw acephobia #tw homophobia #AND U DID IT IN PRIDE MONTH #anyway i will delete this later dw #ive just been hearing this stuff a lot lately irl and needed to get it out #negativity

[spurgie-cousin]

so that goofy sister wives tiktok has gone semi viral and the only bad thing about that is in the comments, sometimes people will try to out knowledge me in the Sister Wives department

and someone they'll argue a little and it takes everything in me to be nice and not out myself as a total and complete lunatic like "listen u dirty bitch i am neurodivergent and have been hyperfixated on weird families for 15 years. i fall asleep every night to the sounds of Janelle worrying about debt and Kody leaving lasting trauma on 16+ children so if you think YOU can actually tell me something-"

#the can probably tell I'm a lunatic by just looking at my profile tbh #i have like. the Bates going to the grocery store #also my irl friend followed me profile but idk if she knows it's me?? i think so but if she doesn't and i ask #then she also knows i am a fundie lunatic but o well lol #truthfully with how much i talk about it if she doesn't know already that's on her

[deus-ex-mona]

series i’m gatekeeping from my family vs series i’m ✨ok✨ with my family knowing i’m into:

#‘why do you gatekeep hw from your irls?’ well. the thing is. i just ✨don’t want to✨ #and. like. i’ve already led my family to believe that i bought bl manga when i was buying idol sengen at animate #so i think im already past the point of no return in that regard. so. um. yeah. #thank you village vanguard for the unexpected μ’s content in 2k24 you truly are yappa saikyou #i s w e a r falling back into my ll phase almost 10 whole years after i first got into it is unexpected tbh #compounded with the fact that i can now actually afford whatever im looking for. so. like. my wallet is in crisis lol #i had just reached my savings goal last month but now i’ve overspent bc i saw great deals on resold honoka-chan hoodies and i couldn’t help— #so now i have 2 identical hoodies lol. but i’ll keep one of them safe in its packaging bc im unwell like that ig #my merch whaling is out of control i s w e a r but my oshis are just too cute aaaaaaaaa #i probably should open another savings account instead… maybe that’d keep my spending under control… #b u t for now honoka-chan jersey im looking for you #tfw ur oshi is decently unpopular amongst the fans so hardly anyone resells her merch lmao #so ig the relatively fewer fellow fans she has are more dedicated to her than fans of other more popular characters lol #but at least her stuff (when resold) isn’t as overpriced as the actually popular members (birb and tomato) #so my wallet isn’t crying as hard as it could’ve been? ig? hunting for almost 10 year old merch is a pain fr though #either way. the grip idol series have on my wallet is truly insane #i wonder how many bags of chips i could’ve bought with the amount i’ve spent on hw and ll merch to date… #at least a thousand… i think. maybe even 2 thousand if my past gacha game whaling is taken into consideration… #…this is probably why it’s important to have a decent paying job ig. #oh well. at least i may be making b a n k this month with how much ot i’ve had to do this week so far… #i hope i won’t have to work till 5am again over the next 2 days… that had been a horrible experience. #help what am i even talking about anymore why am i having a life crisis right here and now u m. #anyways. dni if you dislike honoka-chan. thanks for coming to my crisis rant. see you when the last stage mv drops ig ok byeeeee

[cat-brrr]

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#personal shit #i dont know how ppl make actuall online friends #i’m not very talkative i am very intrevertive but at the same time some times just want someone tall about goofy stuff and etc #my experience is like maybe like a couple peole whos i was chating as i was a kid and then just eventually stop #and weird order men who texted me to be a friends with benefits when i was about 15-17 #here on Tumblr one asked about my discord at first it was good when again its just gets weird i dunno and ends #tbh only my irl friend i made is was in art classes and she giggles at my dummy jokes and eventually i found out we are from same school #i want my social skills be better so much:(

[nyaskitten]

not to yearn for women on main but... man I love women...

#if only i pulled bitches irl sigh #women... #warm lips warm soft hands beautiful women #if i ever had a pretty woman id literally never do anything 2 wrong her tbh #id pour every feeling and thought ever to her #id treat her right #idk cant fall asleep and now all i can think ab is how lonely i am #raine's rambles

[pinkhairandpokemon]

Rotomblr rate my sandwich

#random trainers out here will give me random sandwich ingredients sometimes #which is nice but unfortunately I am a terrible chef #Auberi wanted to kill me for this one #I’m surprised it managed to stay up tbh #pokemon #pokemon irl #pokemon rp #pokeblog rp #pokeblogging #Blake’s Paldea Shenanigans #All I know how to make is curry T_T

[bluejayblueskies]

i've often yearned to be in a romantic relationship, from when i was pretty young to now even though i now recognize that i'm aromantic and it's not something i actually want when push comes to shove. and this probably isn't anything profound, but i've started to wonder recently if i'm actually yearning for a romantic relationship or if i'm yearning for a deeply meaningful, intimate, and loving relationship with somebody who i can trust and show all the parts of myself and know that they'll always be on my side and spend the rest of my life with, and society has just told me over and over and over again that i can't have that without the romance

#now i know what you're thinking: #'hey jay you talk a lot about queerplatonic relationships and how they're important #and you talk a lot also about how friendships are just as intimate and loving as romantic relationships' #and yeah i do! recently i've been involved in fandom spaces where we talk about these things (like malevolent) #with a lot of other aspec people who share their own experiences (esp. with malevolent with the aro!arthur headcanons) #but i've always been really bad at actually integrating that stuff into how i go about my own irl life #and tbh ... even if it crossed my mind before i never really thought it was a realistic thing to want yknow? #the thought of 'well who's going to give you what you want out of a relationship and be okay with it *not* being romantic' #has definitely crossed my mind many times #but idk! i've always just really wanted that One Person Who Will Be With You Always that i saw growing up irl and in media #and that i still see and love and want #and i still don't know if i personally will ever find somebody who i want that with who won't be looking for romance #but it's finally started to sink in i think that what i want and who i am are not two conflicting forces #i can want all the things that a romantic relationship has to offer (minus the romance of course) *and* i can be aromantic #and these are two things that can coexist #and that real people have! and that i'm seeing written into media! (malevolent my beloved) #it's just helped me wrap my head around all of this a little bit better #personal

[zmaragdos]

I think one of the great ironies of my life is that if I could communicate with my younger self she would be so so proud of me

but the me of the now is not proud of myself

is there a word for that? for discovering that what you wanted all your life just makes you feel miserable and foolish?

#Mar mutters #Sorry I will delete this but I needed to I don’t know #Reveal this to people I don’t know irl? #I can’t even imagine how to dig myself out of this pit #Tbh this negativity is probably just a symptom of a six month long depressive episode #That I am still in the throes of #(A life changing medical diagnosis as the result of having a kid) #(My gp tells me it’s just grief and it’s normal) #(Like sure sure) #(That’s fine) #(Having a name for it doesn’t make me less miserable) #(And the medication/adjustments are terrible) #(It feels like it’s never going to end)

[ultravioart]

Ngl it's pretty tiring seeing people misinterpret Rammatra's character as a memed up "racist against humans/exterminator" bc one: yikes, and two: litterally every interaction he has shows that he respects human individuals, just not the collective of humanity's inaction to stop injustice, nor individual humans that are *actively murdering his kin.*

He is trying to prevent omnic extinction, and is doing it in a way he thinks will work (in his story he tried pacifist routes, and they did not work).

Ramattra is the essence of "He is bad guy, but not bad guy." because his story is about war and trauma and how the horrors of war breaks a person. You can understand how he got to where he is, even if you don't agree with the radicalized viewpoints. And I don't mean the "stand up and fight omnic genocide" viewpoint, that is not radical, that is logical.

The major pushing point from freedom fighter to "uh what are you doing" is that Ramattra is willing to hack/take control of sentient omnics and force them to fight and die in war against thier will if it means they can win the war and prevent omnic extinction. His rushed desperation and willingness to deny an omnic's free will is what lost Ramattra his dearest team mates in NullSector, isolating him even further, (isolation which may or may not lead to more radical views down the road). From what we know NullSector still only uses drone (nonsentient) omnics, but that could change, now that NullSector joined Talon.

Ram is defaulting to his R-7000s programming due to trauma. Exactly what Bastion went through in the animated short, but instead of choosing nature and connections with others, Ramattra is pushing away all interpersonal connections and defaulting to artificial base programming: which just so happens for R-7000s to be leading omnics into war against humanity. But on top of that Ramattra also has an authentic take of: Winning, no matter the cost, as soon as possible, to save as many omnics as possible. It's a desperate attempt to save his people, because at the end of the day he was never fighting for himself. He is fighting for his people's future.

TDLR; Ramattra doesn't want human extinction, he wants to prevent omnic extinction. VERY different things.

#overwatch 2 #ow2 #rammatra #text #long text #genocide mentioned #< idk how to tag this since its a fictional story #and due to writing being haphazard there are unfortunate allegories #tbh omnic metaphors are a mess they really should have just made them robots and not comparable to any group #bc the way it's written implies minorities attacked first and were mindless labor. yikes. #doesn't help that the fandom constantly compares ram to magneto. #absolutely the fuck not. magneto faced irl historical events #and i refuse to sit there when ppl are comparing the holocaust to omnics like wtf. #ram is NOT comparable to magneto. omnics are NOT comparable to the jewish community. #ram is NOT comparable to Malcom X. Omnics are NOT comparable to the USA black community. #i am begging people in this fandom to not do crap like that. PLEASE. #and i don't mean people rightly pointing out the weird allegories ow has. i mean the people making tasteless comparisons “in appreciation”

[lieutenantselnia]

I currently have to write a thesis, work on the biggest project in my entire study programme and will have to start preparing for my bachelor's exam at some point, and my brain thinks now it's a good time to get back into Red Dead Redemption 2👍

#I bought the game last summer but I'm still only at the very start of chapter 3 because I'm slow as fuck with making progress in the story #tbh I think it's bcI've spent the majority of my playing time so far with just admiring the beautiful landscape and taming cute horsies🐴 #this game really brings out my inner horse girl again😭 I'd actually love taking riding lessons irl again once uni stuff is over - #but I'm gonna feel really awkward contacting my riding instructor again after such a long (unintentional) radio silence #like 'hello I got consumed with body and soul by university for one and a half years but here I am again do you still do lessons?' #also aside that I'm just really blown away by this game from a game dev perspective #I read that Rockstar used their own engine to make it so I don't have as much of an idea how they do stuff #but based on all the interactions you can do and things you can discover in the game - #my brain is imploding just trying to comprehend the internal structure of how like objects and their states are managed #and how it keeps track of everything and all that #I'm pretty sure it's not possible with a game like this since it's a company secret but I'd love to just get to look at the code #I probably won't even understand shit but it would still be absolutely fascinating

[threadmonster]

Do you ever think about how if a person got into a series/fandom after peak popularity they totally missed out? Not in a bad way, I just think getting to experience and participate in the explosion of a fandom is a totally fun and insane thing that might only happen to a person once. It's not just "a fandom" it's when the fandom of a series you totally love and resonate with happens.

#{domino talks} #this is 100% about haikyuu btw 😂 #LOOK my life would definitely different if i hadn't gotten into hq just before s2 #and i was at a con in a hq panel that was like 'shit all these people are totally younger than me' #and before i continue I AM NOT JUDGING OR CITICIZNG ANYONE I PROMISE #i could tell they all only watched the dub because they said 'date' tech like the english word whatever that's just how i could tell #and that's just what had me thinking about this #i have not watched watched the dub just heard some clips and just knowing the english language i personally feel like #watch the dub if that's your thing! dub is not bad! i probably would have watched this dubbed if it had existed back then tbh #BUT i think you wpuld probably miss out on the full spectrum of emotion because the english language is really... more bland #than so many languages actually it kinda sucks #and more than that the fandom explosion was before the dub released (i think) like no one talked about the dub #i only knew it had been announced (⁠・⁠_⁠・⁠;⁠) #uhhh so anyway feel free to ignore the nostalgic old man (⁠•⁠ ⁠▽⁠ ⁠•⁠;⁠) #i just don't think i will personally experience that again and *haikyuu* is hard to beat in it's irl effects