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i suffer from the “i cannot draw characters just being hot and looking pretty and instead they are just 100% domestic or one of them is dying” and it makes me very upset with myself

#maybe its bc im ace idk #probably not #i just want to be able to sucesfully draw hot people

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i need to draw my wife more

#donna my beloved❤️❤️❤️

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halo

#i love being annoying about gay people #art #fanart #illustration #serennedy #luis serra #leon kennedy #resident evil #re4 remake #cw blood #blood cw

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anyways, if any of you have any questions about using my art in like edits/fanfics etc pls message me on my inbox :,) i dont see the messages unless i am on desktop and theres way higher chance of me answering them through the inbox option

#also im not really active here eathier way #usually come here only to post stuff so it can take a bit until i respond unfortanetly: #:c

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anyways idk how it will be in art terms for the next few weeks cause im preparing for my diploma and every single day i feel like the idea is getting worse and worse which makes me panic every day 24/7 basically and the idea of creating art is stressing me out even if its yaoi

#the idea is apperently not bad i have just been thinking about it for the last 7 months and it lost all sense #i love art school

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hey you know who it is but im writing this anon because my social position makes it hard for me to speak for myself/you have a bigger platform irt RE4 stuff than i do (for reasons i will mention shortly, i do not interact w RE4 fandom sans you and our other friend hahaaa)

hi. i'm a spanish person. i love RE4 both remake and OG but im unable to participate in the fandom because its directly harmful to my mental health, solely because of the way people talk about a certain spaniard in the game.

when i first played remake i was very excited to see a well written, interesting, and relateable spanish character in a video game for once. the closest i ever got to good spanish rep was zevran from dragon age, who was spanish only in the fantasy context which gave him an accent and a culture more or less adjacent to that of spain. i got into that fandom at a young age, and was swiftly driven out because of the way people characterized and spoke about zevran online. it was not only annoying and frustrating to see the stupid ass takes people had about him, but harmful to me as well, and as a result it damaged the way i exist with my identity because when you say something publicly, authoritatively about a character with a certain ethnic/racial coding (explicit or implicit), you are saying this about real people as well. the same is the case with luis in RE4r.

yes its a video game. yes its a character. hes not real. i know! im not fucking stupid. but if you are going to make grand statements about someone who is directly tied to a real life identity, do some baseline research first. i beg you.

in particular, i am disturbed by the characterization of luis as "evil" or otherwise immoral. i am not going to deny that his actions were not always morally clean, or that he is a Good person or a Saint. he absolutely isnt. but the world is not black and white! i also want to preface this by saying that nationality (which i take into question with luis in particular) is not equal to race. nor is it equal to political ideology, or social status, or ethnic identity, or religion, or anything. if i said that all people in the united states are white anglo saxon protestants and republicans living in mcmansions, would that be a true and informed statement? no. this kind of thought doesn't apply to any nation. not even ethnostates, where the percieved ethnic or racial homogeneity is a construction of the state and not a reality at all. anyways.

im thinking explicitly about a post referring to luis as a mad scientist, and general posts ive seen talking about how he has a "sick fascination" or whatever with las plagas, and how that makes him a Bad Person who agrees with Bad People. i wanna point out firstly the alignment this characterization has with nazism. nazis were known to use scientists and scientific research to commit atrocities upon their victims. without getting into the discussion of these scientists' personal morals and ethics, an unecessary and tired discussion IMO for what im trying to say ("they were just doing their job" im tired of hearing this), i wanna point out the issue of applying nazi coded traits on someone from spain.

after a horrific civil war from 1936-39, spain was under a fascist dictatorship until the peaceful death of francisco franco in 1975. during the war, and the subsequent dictatorship, the people of spain lived under horrific conditions -- families were torn apart, civilians were gunned down, children disappeared, babies were kidnapped from hospitals and given to right wing fascist families to raise. ethnic minority groups were violently suppressed. this was widely ignored by the western powers especially after WWII ended, though some people were conscious of it; participants in the international brigades included people such as george orwell, who wrote about his experience on the frontlines of the spanish civil war.

anyways, back to nazis: spain was indeed a fascist regime. this regime did indeed not only follow the lead of other fascist state leaders (hitler. mussolini.) but also were allied with them, despite not participating in WWII directly. but the only beneficiaries of these alliances were state officials. if you are familiar with picasso's Guernica painting, im gonna mention its historical context. if you aren't, i urge you to take a look at it. its a depiction of the horrors of the aerial bombing of the town of Gernika. the town is situated in the basque country, a region of the iberian peninsula whose people were violently suppressed and persecuted due to their ethnicity, and under the regime their language was banned from being used. so Gernika, already a target of the spanish state, was devastated by german bomber planes. this was ok, because the town was basque. basque people were targets, and so franco invited the germans to bomb the shit outta their region. this was the first of many air raids, and weapon tests carried out in spanish territory by the nazis in particular.

anyways. back to resident evil i guess. valdelobos is not canonicaly placed anywhere in particular on a map of spain, but from the landscapes its safe to say it is in the north, and from hints in names of people and places i tend to place it somewhere in the region of galicia, another one of those areas that wanted (still does want) autonomy and is ethnically and linguistically different from the rest of spain. additionally this is a very isolated village with no contact with the outside. theyre using pesetas in 2007, a currency that was phased out in the 90's and replaced by the euro in 2002. it would take thousands of words to explain what i would like to explain, but im trying not to be overly verbose, so bear with me. from personal experience with the fallout of the civil war and dictatorship, its safe to say that the people from this village were hurt deeply by war and fascism (everyone was!) which would explain their isolationism, and the vulnerability to a power hungry interloper like saddler makes sense considering post war/dictatorship instability. people from a village like this were victims of the state, and outside states.

so i ask, why would you align luis with nazi science? maybe im being overdramatic, maybe im too sensitive, maybe im overreacting, but thats why im on anon… why would you characterize a victim in the way of their oppressor?

i doubt anyone will read this but you and i doubt it is even coherent. i dunno. theres too much to say and too little attention to hold onto. but like, i dunno. if u wanna look into a character, understand their motives, understand their personality, why they are they way they are, maybe do some research before you make uninformed and harmful statements. if you are truly interested in a character from a different culture than your own, understand this culture before you speak about it with authority. understand that people from similar backgrounds as this character have been made to feel unwelcome and alienated in discussions about their own life experiences.

sit on it for a minute and think: should i say this? i understand ignorance. we are all ignorant in our own ways. something that is a taboo in my own country to be spoken of like the dictatorship and the war of course is not going to be immediately common knowledge outside my nation, but perhaps knowing that there is more to a character than what you know as someone from a different cultural and historical and social context will urge you to reconsider the way you speak about them in a public forum.

-- a nameless, silent descendant of mozarabs and gitanos, whose ancestry lies scattered across the countless mass graves that paint my country's landscape blood red.

here guys, if you are still believing that this spreading of this character take is not problematic, you can listen to an actual spaniard who has grown up in spain about why this thought process is harmful. thanks.

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little doodle while i’m drawing angst and having a panic attack over my diploma

#serennedy #luis serra #leon kennedy #doodle #art

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i fucking hate what tiktok is doing with the music industry and how they treat art of writing and creating, not as art, but as a product

people get defensive when you say that you hate when your favourite artist becomes popular there, but i’m gonna be honest if i have to see a tiktok after tiktok where a person fails to grasp a basic metaphor of a song in favour of making a 10 second trend, i dont think it’s unfair to be upset

i know not all tiktok is like that, but boiling down lyrics to fit a cute trend when you like an artist in part bc of their lyricism, its genuinely infuriating, especially when is the “sometimes the door is just blue” crowd that does it

tiktok does more harm than good to smaller artists and i will forever stand that ground, bc why is music treated like a product instead of art

#and god forbid you interpret a song in a personal manner #the moment people start payimg attention their english class is the moment i will stop complaining #not all tiktok is bad but jesus most of it really is #tiktok and inforcing capitalism towards art

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Did u delete this or is my tumblr perishing(/business as usual) ?

i did delete this yes LMAO not bc i disagree but i foget that i keep this blog mostly to archive my art and not talk, thats what i do on twt instead of here

i do have to say tho, there was only 1 note when i deletedbit so i have no idea where -227 comes from

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anyways the edited (“edited”) version be upon ya cause why not

#serennedy #fanart #art

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serennedy to too sweet by hozier 🫡

#serennedy #luis serra #leon kennedy #re4 remake #resident evil #art #fanart #illustration

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You have other social media outside of tumblr? Such as a Twitter account or a instagram

yessir, i have twt, insta and tiktok outside of tumblr, but my username is always the same on all of them 🫡

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anyways i read this fic like 3 days ago and the “serennedy cowboys au” worms have NOT left my brain so this is the consequence of that - i shall draw art for that fic soon hopefully, but for now pls take whatever this is

also this is very much loosely inspired LMAO i know the fic takes place in spain where this is very much us but reality can be whatever i want and inspiration does its own thing unfortunately

#serennedy #leon kennedy #luis serra #re4 remake #resident evil #art #fanart #illustration #cowboys

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who are your biggest art inspirations and influences?

ok SO i made a list of all my artists that are some of my biggest inspirations i could find

i dont think i necessarily want to replicate any of their styles, i just kinda look for certain pieces of „advice” from each of them so i can keep developing my own art :)

also, i do not only look for artists like painters, most of my inspiration honestly comes from movies/photography/music - i kinda take everything from everywhere, simply so i can keep on learning about things from different perspectives

but yeah, heres the list of artists whos work influenced me in some way/motivates me to where i wanna take my art:

- Frank Dicksee

-Wojciech Siudmak (and polish surrealists in general - surrealism is probably my fave artistic movement, and i get insane amounts of inspiration from all of the different artists) - he is especially dear to me bc of his illustrations put in the polish edition of dune - geniuenlly insane

- Marcin Kołpanowicz (another polish surrealist that i adore)

- J.C.Leyendecker, mainly bc of the style if im being honest - the way he stylised his faces and the colouring is so good

- Sergio Toppi (if i could posses the power to be able to perfectly replicate another artists style, it would be him, without a second of a doubt) i will mever be over the compositions, and the inking?

also honorable mentions to my two favourite concept artists:

- Edouard Caplain who worked on life is strange

- Mikhail Rakhmatullin who worked on ori and the will of the wisps

but yeah other than that im mostly inspired by eathier my mutuals and friends, or by musicians :)

#ask #honestly i could yap about this for the next 10 hours #i love art #i love artists

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halo

#linoprint #linocut #art #illustration #printmaking

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every time a fanfic author interacts with my art/follows me/does literally anything i do a little jig like i cannot express how insane it is to follow a link from ao3 to somebody’s twt/tumlr and recognise their pfp or see the „follow back” like thats crazy

#i cannot express my love for fic authors properly #it litteraly feels the same as when i get noticed by celebrities #that IS probably bc mentally i still have like 200 followers but im not getting into that #thsi happened today when i was reading a serennedy fic and recognized the pfp of the author bc they interacted with my stuff before #imsane feeing #anways