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[ssecretssanta]

@h-isforhome bro !! this is the last one !! holy shit !! :’)

MERRY CHRISTMAS, LOVE !! ✨🥰🎄 I seriously can’t believe it’s already Christmas ! (time isn’t real and no one can convince me otherwise lmao)

I read your message this morning and it literally made me tear up and I couldn’t stop smiling wow I can’t believe secret santa soul mates exist and we found each other :’) like wow can you believe that you’re also the sweetest and funniest person ever?? (my whole heart literally went like 😳💖🥺😍 when you called me babe wOw I’m a sucker for terms of endearment)

I’m a Pro at pretending that deadlines don’t exist and haha my room is already becoming a mess again bc I didn’t fold my laundry and now I have the Christmas Mess to deal with, but it’s definitely a mood booster to have a clean environment !

yeah I’m so excited for normal hours again and it’s not too bad working everyday cause the shifts are shorter ! your job sounds so fun ! I’m glad the scheduling is so flexible, that’s super nice ! I literally Could Not wake up that early lmao my sister and dad worked the early morning shift at Target for a while and I literally have No Idea how they did it ajsjakla I’d simply Die instead

me and my sister used to share a room and it was a Disaster lmao ! I put Christmas lights up all around my room and I just so happened to have a strand of rainbow lights and ofc I had to put them up around my closet for that Sweet Symbolism and I’m honestly gonna get a kick out of it when I come out to my family and point out how many hints I’ve been dropping lmao

(ALSJAKAL that family simply does not have rights !! who puts up more decorations RIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS??)

babe it’s mutual I guess bc you have my heart too :’) I would serenade you with some one direction songs but I simply cannot sing so I’ll have to learn the fingerstyle playing instead oR ACTUALLY I’ll play the kazoo instead of singing lmao (ukulele kazoo nonsense rights)

haha I’ve thought about watching hsmtmts but I just can’t get over how Ridiculous and Long the title is??? Like what was the Point of calling it High School Musical The Musical The Series when you could have just shortened it?? I’ve heard great things about Atypical but I haven’t watched it yet !

(literally wtf. some people just get to like See things?? without paying for it?? W A C K)

ANSBAKAL that’s so unfortunate !! (but also kind of funny ngl sorry for laughing but the image of that happening to anyone is kinda hilarious) I’m a queen of awkward situations and I’ve learned to just let myself feel Mortified for a minute and the just Repress It so I can function lmao (and then it comes back when I’m laying in bed and I can relive it and overthink my entire existence oop)

literally imagine just,,, not writing an entire essay every time we communicate?? couldn’t be me 🤷‍♀️

oh boy I Felt That. Family really is the only consistency in life, for better or for worse I guess lmao. and for real, my parents have gotten so chill and it’s nice but also frustrating bc my bro gets away with literally everything

it should be Illegal for younger siblings to be taller than older siblings tbh, it’s just not fair to disrupt the power balance like that

lmao you calling me smart made me laugh but thank you ! I live for a bit of chaos but I definitely also love the thought of having a more chill vacation so I can actually enjoy myself lmao

(that’s wack to think about)

if something ends bad I’ll literally make my own ending for it bc Nope No Thank You. fix it fanfics are truly the greatest blessing on this earth lmao. (I’m most definitely still a loser but like a Chill loser so it’s okay haha)

gay domesticity and yearning is what I live for. there’s no other point to life than to find a fellow gay to be domestic with and yearn for. (I literally had to put the book down and yell silently for a solid five minutes when I realized what he was doing lmao I was a Wreck) this is the fic !! (I haven’t read it in a While so I don’t remember much of it oof) and I want to buy trc so bad but I just have the mobile versions rn ! finding the Energy is really the biggest struggle in life

bro you’ll be able to flex so hard, just think of all that cash and like, Status. I’m already proud of you :’)

sleep deprivation and being gay are my only cultures lmao

askaklsjaka wHaT eVen?? I can’t imagine wanting to have a baby on my own birthday lmao !!

tøp is great !! I was really Into them for a long time and I still love their music but I’m not as involved in the fandom anymore haha (but !! Tyler and Jenna are having a baby !! i legit tested up when I saw them post about it on Instagram !!) your sister is Valid bc Alec Benjamin is a sweetheart and his concert was Amazing !! pit sounds like a nightmare sometimes but I want to experience it at least once in my life lmao.

I’m hoping it’ll be a fun summer bc I need some good after finishing highs school and before moving on to college lmao !

I would also love to go to Europe ! I really want to go to New Zealand, Japan, and anywhere in Europe really haha

teleportation would be So Nice like wow imagine not having to Walk. I’d personally like to be able to stop time because then I might actually be able to get Things Done for once (and sleep !! Imagine all of the sleep !!)

I’m,,, gonna cry holy shit. This is it. Time has flown this month and reading your tags is making me realize just how lucky I got to get you for this whole thing ! you’re literally The Best and I’m so glad I’ve been able to get to know you through all of these long ass messages (long is definitely our thing and i can’t imagine a better way to have done it) 🥺💕 ily !! can’t wait to be able to dm and talk more regularly !! (I feel like all our chats will end up being novel length anyways lmao that’s just the way we are I think)

merry chrismas again !! sending you all the love and good vibes !! 💕✨💞💖

with all the love,

kate @lightsupbabes (your not-so-secret-anymore santa 🎅) 

#aaaaaAAAAHHHHHH #!!! #im feeling some type of way #holy shit ! #ily ! sm ! #🥰✨💕🌻💫💛 #im gonna post this and then scream for the next ten minutes bc wOw this month has been So Good #talk to you soon hopefully !!

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@h-isforhome hello love !! keep reading for another novel length letter !!

sorry it’s taken me so long to respond ! life is going and time is flying right now lmao !

IM SO GLAD YOU FINISHED CHEM !! CHEM IS THE FRICKN W OR S T !! IM SO PROUD OF YOU WOOT WOOT !!!

yeah tumblr is a pain in my flat ass but i’m glad this is working out for us (i say as it’s christmas eve and this is one of the last messages. ohhh my goddd this is one of the last messages before i get to reveal myself wowww that’s a weird thought) 

it’s winter break and i still have so much to do ahhhhhhh !! but !! i’m trying to take at least these first few days to relax and not think about sc***l at all so i can get some seretonin back in my wrung out brain lmao. (i actually cleaned my room today and let me tell you - the power that a clean environment has on my mental health is truly amazing.) i still have work almost every day during break so that’s rough but we’re finally getting rid of our holiday hours so we close at 9 instead of 11 wOOt WoOT i can actually get home by 10 instead of almost midnight !! (i work today from 2-7 which sucks but at least it’s holiday pay so oh well)

my favorite fine line song list is always changing but falling and golden have stayed pretty consistent for my top two, lol. it’s hard to pick favorites when every single song is a bop wtf harry. 

i have christmas lights in my room year round and it’s honestly So Nice i love it. and lmao there are some really wack christmas decorations but i kind of love it sometimes ‘cause it’s like wow who really thought that it was a good idea to make a six foot tall inflatable santa with the Eyes and who thought it was a good idea to put it on their front lawn for everyone to see?? like really, come on. 

i play the ukulele and i can pluck at a guitar a tiny bit but my real strength lies with the kazoo. we may need to recruit some musically talented people to be in this band unless we’re cool with making ukulele kazoo nonsense the next hit genre, lmao. 

i need to watch wtfock so bad !! i’ve seen a bunch of clips and gifs of it but i haven’t actually watched it yet (maybe that’ll be one of my winter break projects after i (re)watch skam...) skfjlaklalksdj i also have so many pictures that i need to print out but i keep procrastinating it so like,,, i feel ya lol.

So Close to being done with school we got thisss !! (and lmao i love your thinking out loud bc it’s the same thoughts that go through my head every time it comes to pictures bc i’m like but Glasses and then i’m like oh yeah they can come off my face i’m just Dumb lmao).

yeah coworkers make or break the work and i’m just glad i got blessed with good ones (mostly,,, there is One Person that’s just,,, hmmm). 

(sTRONG !! it makes me Breakdown everytime i listen to it ahhh it’s such a Good One)

alskjdfl you’re literally so fun to talk to and i’m honestly excited for christmas when i can reveal myself bc then we can actually like dm or something (presumtious, i know) and lmao yeah we’re really good at novel length snail mail but honestly i love it so,,, 

being The Middle Child is like a mix of being Forgotten, having to be the peacemaker, and feeling the crushing weight of responsibility for the entire family all at once lmao (i’m just glad my siblings and i get along now that we’re all a bit older and more Chill. it was a Time when i was younger tho oof). having a brother is pretty cool now that we’re older but we definitely didn’t get along so well when we were younger haha (it didn’t help that he was the Baby and got away with Everything). but now it’s a pretty fun time and he’s a pretty cool dude (he’s slowly been getting taller than me and he won’t let me live it down tho which is Rude, i’m now the shortest one in the family :( ) 

the school trips are for a tech competiton that i do for my concurrent enrollment class so it really actually depends how well we do for our state competition first but we just have a really good track record for making it to nationals so i’m betting i’ll get to go again this summer, but it’s not competely set in stone yet (and im also hoping it won’t be as expensive as DC was bc my parents probably won’t be very happy to do it again haha time to Save Up).  i’m actually going on a class trip to california in february though so that’ll be fun !! it’s kind of an animation tour so we get to see different art schools in cali and tour some animation studios and talk to some industry profesionals (and spend a couple days at disney land). i went last year and my parents were able to pay for it but i’m pretty much paying for it all this year so it’s fun but also Expensive oof. i Love traveling but my family are such home bodies that we never go anywhere which is a bummer. (i seriously can’t remember a time we’ve gone on a family vacation - ever. we’ve done like family reuinions and stuff but never just a nice chill getaway for a bit). haha my mom is actually from texas and when she moved to where we are now it was an Adjustment and she’s scared to ever go back bc she thinks that the heat and humidity would actually kill her lol. 

(asldfkjaslkj i’m actually cackling that’s so funny did your dad enjoy the live concert?? aslkdfkj)

yeah i’m really the Worst at TV shows if they’re drawn out for more than like 3/4 seasons because i’ll get sucked into it and get really ivested but then either between waiting for seasons to release (i don’t have cable so i rely on netflix or hulu) i’ll lose interest and then just never finish oops. or even if the series is all out i’ll get like anxiety bc i know it’s ending and i hate when the endings are bad so i just,,, don’t watch them?? like with Merlin i got to the last three episodes and i accidentally saw a spoiler to how it ended and i was like oh Nope cannot Do It !! you’re valid bc spy movies are so Fun. i was never really into spy novels but now i wish i was that’d have been so fun as a kid wow younger me is such a little loser. (as a middle child i both resent and respect older sibling rights lmao)

(we really are ss soulmates, lmao i swear we’re the same person sometimes) and yES I READ RW&RB IN ONE DAY AND IT RUINED ME they’re So In Love and it was just Too Much sometimes i felt like i was gonna faint from the Thought of anyone caring about me half as much as they care about each other oh My God. (alskdfak sHut Upppp thaNk yoU, yOu wEre AmazIng and i’m fucksn Dead) ive been meaning to read six of crows for so long now !! (i read an aftg six of crows au and it was So Good) and i also love pjo, tgh, and tmr !! i’m not the biggest fan of divergent (the first one is amazing but the rest of them are Not my Favorites) but i also haven’t read them in a long while so idrk. I haven’t ever read the lunar chronicals but i’ve heard a bit about them ! i’ll have to look into the other one’s you’ve mentioned bc i’ve heard amazing things about the secret history !! and let’s see, i really tend to just reread the same things or just read a bunch of fanfics for them instead of actually starting anything new but some of my favorites (minus the one’s you’ve already listed, lol) would be simon vs, harry potter, the raven cycle, dante and ari, and the lord of the rings. i have so many books on my to read list though, it’s just a matter of actually finding the time and energy to Read again haha.

sleep sounds so good, always. i’m so happy that you get some time to chill, that’s the Dream ! a research internship would be super cool, i’m rooting for you and whatever you decide to do ! and oh wow i’m really glad there are people like you who make the sacrifice to become doctors because i Could Not for both the resons that i would Rather Die than do that much school and i’m also terrible with any sort of injury or bodily fluids lmao kudos to you !! 

i would tell you off for only having 2.5 hours of sleep but it’s currently 2:30 am so i really can’t talk lmao, i love sleep deprevation !! i hope your papers went well !! 

okay listen, lemonade mouth is Better but only because it’s just such a solid stand-alone film. the music, the story, everything about it is solid and while i grew up on hsm and i love it, lemonade mouth is just *chef’s kiss*

i never had a penpal but i always wanted one !! i could never figure out how to do it and we never had anything like it in school but it would have been so cool ! that’s So Fun that you got to actually meet your penpals, holy shit !! (we can consider each other e-penpals and hopefully it’ll work out to make up for your failed one haha)

lol everyone in my family are born in different months (except me and my dad are both in january - fun fact: my birthday is two days before my dads which happens to be the same day as my uncle’s so he had his younger brother ‘steal’ his birthday and then his own daughter lmao) but we’re split between winter and fall (january, february, september, and october). (september is obviously superior bc it’s fall)

 dc is so fun !! i really wanna go again to actually see everything in full and be able to take my time haha. alsdkjfla i’m cackling again but honestly i’ll never understand how people just Meet famous people like?? how is one supposed to Act?? i’ll never understand. i’ve never really met a famous person but my family does go to our local comic con every year and this past con i got a photo op with matthew lewis which was pretty cool !! (it was thanks to my friend bc she got a photo op for her birthday and didn’t want to do it alone so me and my sister went with her lol). it was a super fast experience though so there wasn’t any time for conversation (which also meant no time for awkwardness godbless). 

i’ve been to 4 concerts ! the first was actually hannah montana ft. the jonas brothers and i was like 7 and ended up falling asleep halfway through bc of sensory overload lmao. i’ve also seen twenty one pilots twice and alec benjamin once ! aND !! i’m seeing Louis in july !! (i’m hoping to get tickets to see harry but he’s not touring in my state so i’d have to take a road trip and idk about that yet, lol) i’ve never been in the pit but i would Love to someday !

sleep !! sleep is planned for the summer !! okay but really i have that nashville trip (hopefully) and then Louis in july, (Maybe harry in august??), and i’m hoping to take a small graduation trip with my best friend but we haven’t really discussed it yet so idk, lol. other than that i’m just planning to work and try to save up some before i go to college ! i want to travel more and be more spontaneous so maybe i’ll take a couple road trips or something too, we’ll see !! 

wow this has gotten insanely long ! i would apologize but i think we’ve both established that that’s just the Way It Is so here ya go !! i hope you have a wonderful christmas eve and an even better christmas !! wishing you the very best !! - s.s. 

#it's almost 3 am oops #but i procrastinated this for too long i couldn't help myself #i really don't want to go to work tomorrow (today??? whatever) but at least it's holiday pay so oh well #anyways #what would be your dream first concert? #i really wanna see hozier and ajr live #i feel like the smaller concerts are more fun bc it's more personal and intense #the twenty one pilot concerts were amazing and fun but they were also in a huge arena #the alec benjamin one was in a smaller venue and it was so fun to be closer to the performer and feel more connected with everyone #oh also what would be your dream vacation?? #like if you could go Anywhere in the world?? #also what would your dream super power be? #my brain is actually shutting down now bc i can't remember anything else i was gonna ask you :( #also my laptop is dying rn oops okay i gotta go #wishing you the very best and i hope you have a wonderful day #ALSO LOUIS IS 28 HOW COULD I FORGET TO BRING THIS UP EARLIER HOLY SHIT #time to go have a breakdown and then try to sleep lmao

[ssecretssanta]

@h-isforhome​​ Hi, Lovely !! This is your secret santa and I’m trying something out so bear with me lmao. I’m pretty sure Tumblr keeps eating parts of my asks so I’m gonna try to start replying to stuff using this blog instead of asks so things don’t get all split up (I’m still going to send asks don’t worry, just not obscenely long ones that get munched on by Tumblr, lol). So I’ll just put the message below the cut and we can hopefully communicate more coherently without Tumblr hating us. Feel free to either reblog and continue the conversation that way (you can add your own cut so they don’t get too annoyingly long for everyone, lmao) or make your own posts and @ me, whatever works best ! (or if it doesn’t work at all I’ll just keep sending anon asks instead, lol)

heya !! I’m really hoping this will work, lol (and if not we’ll just pretend like it didn’t happen). sorry for taking so long to sort my shit out and respond !! it’s been a hectic week for me and i’ve been trying to balance work and school because they keep overscheduling me so i’ve been neglecting my homework which is stressing me out more (rip to my grades rn lol).

anyways, time to respond to everything let’s go:

my favorite from fine line is probably falling because it makes me Feel Things but also golden and canyon moon and sunflower and wow this entire album is just so good holy shit.

houses 100% should not be decorated before thanksgiving. I can get behind some christmas lights because I strongly believe those should be a year-round decoration but other than that, No. I should not have to stare at a bunch of creepy santa decorations or have that whole red and green color scheme anywhere near me while I’m trying to devour some turkey and mashed potatoes. now you’re really making me think of how much potential thanksgiving music could have and i’m kinda Upset that it’s not already a thing. petition to start a pop punk thanksgiving band to take the Boomers down?

alksdjlfaj minutt for minutt I’m EMO. and yeah, the stress is already back full force but also less so towards work now so that’s nice?? like at least I know that people there won’t really care what I do and I’m figuring out where I stand with everyone so that’s nice (also my favorite manager told me that I’ll definitely get hired on after seasonal if I want so that’s nice !!) I’m putting “life is just a bunch of mistakes in a trenchcoat pretending to be perfect” on my wall bc I need the reminder every day lmao. my constant state of mind rn is just:

i would like to criticize you on using those contacts but honestly it would be hypocritical because I too cannot be assed to pay more for things and use things way past the time they should be used lmao

sasha sloan does have a lot of slower songs but sometimes that’s my Brand and i’m so glad you like her music !! oh boy i’m the EXACT same way with playlists lmao my friends have learned not to give me the aux cord bc my music taste varies so much from day to day and no one else seems to vibe with it lol (I’m always fine with listening to whatever they put on but when I’m alone it’s a shitstorm).

seasonal work is so Exhausting. like, I knew retail would be bad, but it’s Bad. at least the people I work with are super chill and nice bc if they weren’t I would have already quit lmao. tutoring honestly sounds pretty fun !! I’m sure there are lots of challenges that come along with it though so kudos to you for helping the youth, I’m sure you’re amazing at it !!

aksdj The Couple is the same reason I started watching Schitt’s Creek and it’s seriously just So Good. I didn’t know how I felt about the Good Place at first but I was bored enough to get through the first few episodes and then it just kind of picked up from there and now it’s one of my favorites, so I’d definitely recommend giving it another go !!

high school just sucks ass overall lmao, the breaks are always awful and most people spend them catching up on homework anyways so like??? there’s almost no point?? oh well. I’m just glad I’m almost done and then I can Move On. I’m always happy to send you asks that let you talk about yourself bc I love hearing about you so it’s a win-win !

I love your tags so much here we go:

I have two siblings that are both 4 years apart from me, an older sister and a younger brother. I’m literally right in the middle, lol. It’s a blessing and a curse.

I would love to visit New York for the first time or D.C. again (I went there over the summer for a school trip and it was so pretty and I would love to go again and actually take time to see every museum). I’m going to Nashville for another school trip this summer and like I’m always excited to see new things but like?? Tennesee is not really in my To Visit places so we’ll see how it is. you’re absolutely right about the South and you should say it. way too hot.

too sad to cry and smiling when I die were literally my repeat songs for like a week when I just needed some Emotions lmao !! sad bby hours for days

oof I think i’m more of a tv person but I also have really bad commitment issues so I tend to leave things unfinished oops. but I’ll honestly watch any movie and most likely will enjoy it which is why it’s hard for me to pick a favorite movie bc like?? all of them?? so idk really, haha. rom coms are the superior movie genre but I also enjoy some action and horror as well. (why would you bring that moment up oof).

okay I think that’s all for now. hopefully this was easier to deal with than having 20 asks but if not just let me know and I’ll go back to that, lol.

wishing you the best as always,

- s.s.  🎅

(i love your new sign-off. it’s perfect for you and makes my heart do Things)

#oh wow i get tags now !! #hell yeah bby !! #alright so i was stalking your blog (as i do) #(seriously it's so hard not to reblog everything you post bc i swear we're practically the same person) #and i noticed you blogged about a book called red white and royal blue #so i read it #and WOW holy SHIT #it's my new favorite book #it literally has everything i've ever wanted in a book and its romantic as hell #like seriously everything about it was almost making me throw up and the amount of sappy romantic lines had me in TEARS #anyways #i love it and thank you for unknowingly bringing it into my life #(i also saw that you blogged about aftg and that's my favorite series ever wow you have TASTE) #that being said: what are some of your favorite books/series?? #also i can't believe i haven't asked yet: what's your favorite song from fine line? #and what are you looking forward to most after your done with school?? #okay im done now #ily and i hope your day/week has been fantastic and that tomorrow/this week will be very kind to you