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Brighton, England.

I find myself forgetting I’m not home

These city streets are more familiar than you to me

Nothing is the same and I wash my own hair in the shower

Every moment I am away, I fall in love with the strangers and

The backwards streets and

The cobblestone sidewalks and

The setting 5 o’clock sun and

I love this place the way I love my family

Comforting in some internal way that warms me from the inside out

I find myself forgetting I’m not home.

#poetry #short poem

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On Public Transit

I love when people are too loud on the 25 to Universities

Unapologetic laughter like the hollow voice of a preacher

Casual conversation between me and you and you and you

The world could be burning and you would just smile out the window and

Tell me everything I’ve missed.

#short poem #poetry

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today, i’m thinking about you. sweet like a gardenia and warm like a fireplace, and i’m letting myself remember why i fell in love with you. i couldn’t tell you exactly when or where it happened but i can tell you one of the many times i found myself absolutely sure of it.

we were sitting in your car at the lakefront, the water crashing in time with our hearts. i kissed you and kissed you and then i kissed you some more. my red lipstick smeared all over your face. it was like i painted you. the windows were fogging and i felt alive for the first time ever i think. you gave me this rush, this feeling i’ve chased every day since. i want to feel it again. i would go back there if i could, to that time of not knowing and not needing to. just being there together in the way we wanted. i’m so glad i decided to snap a picture before it really dawned on us just how much of a mess i had made you. it makes me smile even still.

well anyway, i love you and i miss you and i basically can’t wait to be with you again. for the rest of our lives. forever.

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I am always the one to get left behind.

My heart is so full I always force my eyes to see the best in everyone.

I never give up on anyone.

I give a million second chances.

I will fall to my knees and beg you to stay even when it’s me who should have left years ago.

It is a curse to love this way yet I continue to let love in between the cracks.

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byler headcanon i thought of on the bus this am:

* based on the song “how did you get so good” by lourdes (so good btw go listen to it)

mike has known will basically his whole life so he’s really confused when will starts like actually flirting with him to the point mike goes beet red and can barely be in the same room as him and when they kiss for the first time, mikes just like ??? i thought this was your first kiss ???

#byler

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TW: disordered eating, talking about weight and weight loss

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i may not know how much i weigh now but

i know it is less than a week ago and

it feels good to know-

but i have to remind myself that-

but then again it felt so good last time

and nobody knows you have an

eating disorder when you’re not

thin to begin with because

“you look so good!”

you can only hear the narrative

so many times before it’s

what you tell yourself in the mirror

and i only have one meal a day

and i walk and walk until the ring closes

and i look in the mirror

hungering for something other than

food, i hunger for a body

that looks like it’s 2020 and

it’s going through it’s first real breakup

and it only eats 600 calories per day and

it’s easy to fall back into this,

easier than i thought it was but

it feels better than before.

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Okay so I really want to start a Byler Fic that’s just like full of angst. All this deep pining and all the good stuff and then follow it with the fluffiest shit you’ve ever read. Also! I want them to be studying abroad in England together (mostly bc that’s what I’m doing so I have ideas)!

#byler

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"I feel so normal about him" well I dont. move

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quiet cities speak the loudest

if you just listen to the heartbeat

you could almost fall in love with

the honesty of a quiet city.

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It is beautiful to be with you,

warm and soft kisses shared

between latte in coffeeshops

before noon and after

forever and ever but

it is beautiful to be without you,

the piece of my heart that you keep

left somewhere behind

reminds me just how nice

it feels to be loved from afar.

#poetry #long distance relationship #sad #wlw love

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Why did this make me emotional

Yeah Mike and Will are gonna kiss to heroes (David Bowie version) in the last scene of one of the episodes of season 5 and it’ll roll into the credits with the song still going

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no because my little fan girl heart is screaming! me n bestie are in London about to watch stranger things: the first shadow. last week, Sadie was here. not that I think anyone will be at this show but I can still hope 🥺

#stranger things #Byler

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The stuffed cat I sleep with every night

Kind of smells like you

On the weekend of your birthday

With your dad’s cigarette smoke

And your body warm from the sun.

We sit in the backseat of your moms car

And I am reminded every love story

Is the same even after years and years,

I will love you like nothing happened

Before we met and I had never had

My first kiss in the bed of some girl

You know, but you like to tell yourself

You don’t know the girl who kissed her

Best friend in a Catholic school cafeteria

When she was 13 and didn’t understand

How people could be so mean.

I wish more than anything that

You were in the bed beside me and

Your hands were wrapped around me

Like the seatbelt on a roller coaster

But for now we must be this far,

I think about that song I used to like

As a child 1,000 miles felt so long

But now I know how much longer

4,678 miles feels when it’s between

You and the American girl and

Theoretically 6 hours isn’t that long but

I’m in bed and you’re still at school and

I just want to tell you everything and

Listen to you breathe even if

It’s over the phone and I learn

Something about myself,

That maybe I am ready for marriage

Because I want nothing more

Than to have a ring on my finger

And to show it off to strange boys

With green hair who text me at midnight

And ask me to meet them at bars and cafes

And ask me to sit next to them on couches

And tell me they want a bisexual girl

With a preference for women

Right after I told him about you and

I wonder what you’re doing now and

If you’re thinking about me.

I love you.

I’ll come home to you soon.

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Okay but imagine if in season 5, we get some kind of montage of scenes filmed secretly during season 1 with baby byler where they’re both so obviously figuring out that they like each other and they’re blushing and stuttering and-

#byler

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Somebody please fill me in. What is this local village inside joke??? I’ve been in class all day 😭

#byler #stranger things #byler is endgame

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I will not let you

fall through the cracks while I

fall for the cracks

in city sidewalks where

my heroes were born and

the sun kisses me to sleep

while you sit at home

waiting for me.

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