Small facts
Seeing cities, clothes and food make my heart ache in a very good way.
I was born in the fall and it stamped
itself on my heart.
I like quiet things,books and raw
moments.
Beautiful things make me cry a lot.
How the fuck are girls meeting other girls and falling in love?!?!?!?!? I don't have a fucking clue what to do or how to go up to a girl and talk to her!!!!!! Especially since I don't really know if a girl is a wlw or not!!!!!! PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!
If you read this it helps me air out my feelings about my ex boyfriend and I hope you get my point of view, we dated for 8 months it just ended last month.
When we met, i was 16 i thought you were weird and different enough to understand me because a lot of people don’t. I always had a crush on you but most of our friendship you dated other people so I resorted to crashing your wedding one day and sending weird random texts. I never thought you liked me but then again I can’t read minds so when I told you how i felt never expected a mutual agreement.
From the time you came to my school I knew you would have an impact on me. I didn’t expect to be In love eventually, I thank you for showing me what that is. We talked all the time I felt i could tell you anything and you would always be there. I enjoyed every moment with you, the last time we hung out in your town it was weird. i called you after that day you said you wanted to be alone you were a social person and you didn’t want your girlfriend at the time to hang out with you that was strange.
I wish you had told me then you wanted to closer to your ex in person instead of saying on your phone “I like her but she’s is out of my reach” right then i didn’t get what you meant. You friends with your other ex and I respect all friendships especially yours.
I just cried because i felt you were hiding something from me and i tried my best to be an open book. I hung up because I asked you immediately what you said you replied exactly what i meant.As I asked did you see a future with her i expected you to say your history with her but also anything about me but you just said “no she’s a caregiver”. I said to you i needed a break. But a part of me was confused with what was going on i called and texted you over 30 times not one reply i did the same the next day, the next day and then i thought maybe he’s phone not working remembering the battery. But it’s been two days you have other ways to reach me and so I ended things.
It hurt how as much I wanted your explanation to include me that night you didn’t but three days later you did.I was relived temporarily and said to myself things make a bit of sense so i thought the love of my life is back. But we would talk as friends a bit and about what happened and every time the called ended i cried. i tried to call you and get you to understand my point of view. While doing this I cried and begged you to take me back, only then did you offer a “let me think about it” but afterwards you said no its the distance and this could’ve been resolved. I respected that but you knew what it was we were an hour apart since our colleges were.
You mentioned how you wanted to be friends I didn’t get why. But then i thought we had always respected each other as friends so what would change because you said the whole thing was out of context. But then you ignored me when i called and texted or just didn’t call me back until days later.
You were not perfect but to me you were but now you’re gone and I miss our friendship the most. A part me wants to know why you ignored me what did I do to deserve this, I wish you were still in my life but wishing will not make a reality. I put the things you reminded me of you away in a box i can’t look at any reminder of something that’s gone. Goodbye I hope you’re doing well, I’m trying to heal and writing this helped me so much.
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