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uther doesn't approve of bottom!arthur, but nevermind the relationship with his manservant

[ALSO, thank you guys so much for all the love in the last merlin meme redraw, i really didn't think it would get that much attention!! :00 so thankyaa <3 you're amazing]

i'm so glad my parents don't follow me on tumblr

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I just gave a sermon at my church today about asexuality and how to be an ally. Not only did I get a lot of comments about how much people liked it (and how it was easy to understand for so many old folks), but one old lady came up to me afterwards with tears in her eyes and she said, "I'm 77 years old and I finally know what I am. Thank you." And that just made everything I've done worth it.

(also, thank you @onbearfeet for letting me use one of your blog posts. It resonated with a lot of people)

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As easy as breathing…

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i am. so sorry if i have ever used the phrase “i have an au where—” and led you to believe that there is an actual fic out there for you to read rather than, at best, a post where i explain the concept, and at worst it is simply something that lives in my brain

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I imagine that is because Arthur is so protective of Merlin, especially in that scene in episode three, where he tried deescalating the situation before anyone took it too seriously. Like the man loves his manservant so much that he is willing to cover for him admitting being a SORCERER, which is punishable by execution in some situations just because of suspicion, not even concrete evidence. And yet the future king sais "Nah, he's just a silly little guy." So how the hell are people supposed to say anything after that. When Arthur gives him a silly guy card to do whatever whacky shenanigans he wishes to do.

merlin is such a compelling character because he's so contradictory. he's a man of mystery who's really bad at lying. you can tell he's lying about something, but his behavior is so odd no one can guess what he could possibly be lying about. basically, every character looks at him and goes 'you're clearly hiding something but im not really sure if I want to get into all that right now.' this is why he's able to tell everyone he's a sorcerer in episode three and no one believes him.

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Words cannot describe how much this warlock means to me--

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Neil Gaiman once said:

“I love the idea of what Crowley's idea of Aziraphale is. His idea is a lot more heroic and standing-up to everybody than Aziraphale's idea of Aziraphale.”

“Just as Aziraphale's idea of Crowley is somebody who can be flippant and insouciant when faced with the monsters of Hell”.

“They're probably each rather better at dealing with things than the other one is, but that's what they think the other one is probably like, and I love that”.

Well, I love that too.

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Little Merlin comic from a textpost.

(Will remove if op asks!)

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Two Sides of the Same Coin

Merlin fanart

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Okay, so I may or may not have watched some stuff on rule 34 and got inspiration. To put it simply, there was a video where two cops were fucking a crim. One of the cops on ass duty and the other working his mouth while the crim stood on all four between them and took it like a champ.

Now, where is the inspiration part, you may ask. So you know how there is gta rp, and there are quite a few crims and cops there. Yeah, so to cut it short, I was thinking how when ziggy goes to jail for the first time for serious stuff, Flop could have his husband all for himself in his cell and properly punish him. Just taking out his anger and frustrations about the situation by fucking the love of his life senseless. For the first time in his life, he emits top energy, and no one questions it, not even buggs.

A lil scene as an example:

"So, Mr. Buggs, what are you in for?" Flop tilted his head with a blank face as if he was ready to kill. But that didn't scare the man in front of him as he replied. "Flop, you know damn well what I'm in for, or you wouldn't have come here to scold me." Ziggy stated in a low tone but still keeping eye contact with the police officer. Those eyes drove Dugong crazy and both of them knew it.

With a slight pause, Flop started again. "Ziggy, this is not a silly little joke that we can just laugh about. This is serious. You are in jail. You now have a criminal record. How do you expect me to treat you after this!?" Now could be heard from afar. Not that anyone dare intrupt this. "Nothing has to change between us, I will still choose you every time over anyone or anything in this world!" Now Buggs was matching the others' tone and volume. They've stepped closer to one another and grabing fistfuls of clothing which brings them even closer. The husbands standing so close together that their breathing and heartbeats increasing can be felt. Flop starts eyeing Ziggys lips as he could not iniate anything or the other would remind him endlessly. So for now he was waiting for the criminal to slip up cause by the looks of it he wants the same thing. As for Buggs he did not have anything in particular to lose in this standoff but he simply loved watching his lover squirm.

After having enough of the lustful staring contest Ziggy started with a soft but deep kiss. Maybe as a promise that his significant other means the world to him and he wants to spend the rest of his life with him. Or just wanting to get to the good part of their argument. And Flop did not need another invitation as he started devouring the other with what seemed like kisses, but sometimes felt like bites. Possessive and filled with want. He did so with such passion that the taller man stumbled backwards and was now pressed against a wall. Seconds later the orange jumpsuit was on the ground, but flop did not undress and when Buggs reached for his shirt he swatted the man's hand. " Now now who gave you permission to touch a police officers uniform." Was said teasingly while moving his head closer to Ziggys ear. "As a criminal you should be thoroughly punished until you are reformed." Now the rules of this play were explained and they both knew what was to come which made both parties exited.

#Cause lets be honest #neither of them know how to express their emotions in a healthy way. #So maybe letting their bodies talk is how they solve marital issues #ziggy buggs #ziggy #flop #flop dugong #zlop #ziggy x flop #nopixel #gta rp #fanfic #i have no idea how i was able to write this #i literally couldn't finish another fic and here I am #when i was making this post i did not plan to write a fic #it just happened #i swear

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I need to vent about irl stuff somewhere. So if it's not for you, then it's not for you.

I've inquired about this room for rent a while back, and it had been a wild rolercoster of shit not being what they needed from me, and a lot of changes had to be made, plus my god forsaken landlord was not cooperative which made things so much more dificult and took more time. But very long story short, I now have the contract and all even when I genuinely started thinking that they might not want to proceed with me. And so all the anxiety I went through during the weekend because they don't work those days and I just sat in my current shitty room twiddling my thumbs and hoping for the best was not needed.

All is finally okay. And now I'm just anxious about actually moving and all that. Plus, I'm having a call that's supposed to make the move easier for me and smoother, but it's so nerve-wracking. The appointment, yes, appointment is set for 90 minutes. What do you do for that much time. Do you want my whole life story. Cause that would probably be enough time for that. Even my therapy sessions were shorter. So now I'm worried that I might not be prepared for whatever that is. Because at first I thought I knew what that appointment was about. But 90 minutes??? That simply does not make sense. I hope they're just giving way more time in case some people are slow or need accommodations.

But I guess if I got so far, I'll be able to get through this. All I need is not to break down. I'll be moving in a couple of days. How bad can this experience be? I feel like I've gone through the worst, but I guess I'll finally feel relaxed when I spend the first night at my new place. Especially since I've had a fever for the past few days so I've been so out of it and just trying to think with my last braincell was dificult as all living hell. Especially since the company loves calling me at the worst times and almost always I've had to call them back. So just the social interactions while all I wanted to do was lay in bed and suffer was not my favourite thing to do.

Uhh. So yeah, for now all has been well. I have high hopes that all is good. Plus I already have a contract so they can't kick me out for no reason. So I will be housed in the near future. Hope it's gonna be quieter than my current place. And to be fair most places do not have all this noise. This place has me genuinely losing patience. I'm a patient man, but god damn this is more than I want to handle. The people that live here do not care about anyone but themselves. Especially whoever the motherfucker above me is. Because they stomp so loudly and at reasonable hours I get it do whatever, but at like 1 am.. please think of the people around you.

#vent post #adult things that still make me anxious even if i moved several times at this point #im tired and still sick #i need more Paracetamol in my system to deal with thes shit

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Arthur: *surviving because of pure dumb luck*

Merlin: *is pure dumb luck*

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I've been watching gta rp, nopixel, and some streamers on it for quite some time, and one of my personal favourite characters is Jackson "Tex" Devereux, played by Ziggy.

This above is a little digital sketch I did of Tex. Initially, I drew a sketch of it on paper, but it felt like I had to practice doing digital stuff. I need to practice drawing to be able to showcase my baby girl in the best way that my artistic skills allow.

I feel like while he is waiting for his application to the police department to be approved (or rejected), he's just drinking himself to sleep each day (picture for reference). And just how Ziggy mentioned in one of his streams that if he gets rejected, then Tex might be his serial killer character, and honestly, the only thing holding Tex together is the hope that he might still be able to be on duty and do his job, the only thing that he knows how to do. And I would love him being unhinged and killing people for the satisfaction, because that's the only thing that he's good at, that's all that he has known for his long life. He was a soldier made and experimented on by the government to be able to do tasks that they wanted him to do. And if the government (police department) doesn't want him, then he no longer needs to obide by the morals that he once lived by.

Also, the fact that Ziggy Buggs is technically his grandson is so fun to think. Especially because one of Buggs' biggest values is family. So if Tex started killing, what would buggs' reaction be. Would he support the unhinged man, especially now that he has dipped his toes in the criminal world.

#gta rp #nopixel #ziggy #ziggy buggs #Jackson Tex Devereux #fanart #drunk old man #unhinged old man at his wits end what will he do #just to clarify I do want what is best for him but at the same time maybe his happier killing people