shatouto
shatouto
connoisseur of anakin tears and moe-wan
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shatouto · 19 hours ago
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Star Wars WLWeek 2021 is now accepting prompt submissions!
It’s awesome to see so many people interested in our event; we’re so excited! We are now open for prompt submissions for the week (Sunday, August 8th - Saturday, August 14th, 2021), so please send us an ask with your suggestions. 
These prompts should be short and simple AUs and tropes, such as Hurt/Comfort, Fake Dating, Soulmate AU, etc. We’ll make another post in a week or two once we’ve received enough prompts so y’all can vote on your favorites.
Thank you!
@swfandomevents
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shatouto · 21 hours ago
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yeees it’s another installment of the raised-as-sith anakin and jedi obi-wan AU im writing with @obiwanobi 💕 this is not the full fic bc the whole thing is 5.8k!! please read on ao3 and please check out the whole series from the beginning if you haven’t :’D
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It is undoubtedly another sleepless night.
Obi-Wan lays Anakin in his own bed. There is no describing the amorphous mass that is weighing down on his heart right now, leaden and cold and swelling. It's almost hard for him to breathe, no matter how much he reminds himself that a Jedi Master of his station should not be so affected by the plight of one man. No rules seem to matter anymore when he crouches beside the bed and pulls the blanket up over the former Sith, and watches as Anakin twitches in his – no doubt troubled – sleep. A drop of tear slips from the corner of Anakin’s eyes, while stuttering breaths interrupt the rise and fall of his chest here and there. Obi-Wan brushes back the golden curls, darkened by dampness, that sticks to Anakin’s flushed face, his hand stilling for a moment as it spans the crown of his head.
I’ve failed him.
Truly, how could he not have noticed? How could he not have anticipated, that a former Sith apprentice would expect punishment to the extreme and seek it out on their own if gone unheeded? That Anakin hasn’t seriously hurt any civilian is a fortunate thing, and – Obi-Wan would like to believe – is a testament to his changed, or at least changing, nature. But Anakin’s pain and grief and suffering and this entire episode could have been prevented if only Obi-Wan were more attentive and active. He shouldn’t have assumed matters done when Anakin doesn’t bring it up anymore. He should have been more explicit with his forgiveness. He should have spoken in plain words and soothe the nigh-broken man before his worries even arose. But all that, he has failed.
Eventually he has to rise to his feet and leave Anakin to rest, alone. With a heavy heart, Obi-Wan closes the bedroom door behind him. Now that it is done, there is no use in considering should haves or would haves any longer. All he could do is deal with the present at best he can. And the present is staring him in the face in the form of a Council summon.
“Master Kenobi,” Mace begins, his expression and tone neutral but underlain with exhaustion. “Very recently, it has come to our attention that a Force user unaccounted for by the Order is… residing within the Temple, unbeknownst to the Council.”
That is one polite way to put it, which Obi-Wan could appreciate at least. “That is correct, Master Windu,” he answers with as much grace as he could muster. “The Force user in question goes by the name Anakin. He has in fact been residing in my quarters for over a standard month. I am fully and singularly responsible for the decision to harbor him.”
“Would you care to explain why the Council has not been informed of any of this?”
“Yes, Masters.” Obi-Wan discreetly takes a deep breath. “It was because Anakin’s arrival overlapped with the death of the former chancellor. We had our hands full during the re-election period, especially with the remnants of the Confederacy going into hiding and planning assassinations. I saw little need to trouble you with an issue that – I believed – I could handle.”
“You believed you could handle,” Oppo Rancisis reprises flatly.
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shatouto · a day ago
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Anaïs Nin, from Ladders to Fire; “Cities of the Interior”
Text ID: when I attain love or ecstasy or a perfect moment, I expect it to be followed by pain.
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shatouto · a day ago
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Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet
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shatouto · a day ago
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“I never thought Palpatine would electrocute MY son,” says Man who voted for Palpatine Electrocuting People’s Sons Party
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shatouto · 2 days ago
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some sweet hurt/comfort for @impact-intent !!
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shatouto · 2 days ago
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Alejandra Pizarnik, tr. by Yvette Siegert, from “Someone Falls in a First Fall”, Extracting the Stone of Madness: Poems 1962 - 1972
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shatouto · 3 days ago
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“Space Blender” jfc i hate star wars 😂
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shatouto · 3 days ago
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reminder that anger isn't a bad emotion!! in fact, no emotions are inherently bad. your anger is usually trying to protect you. it's a part of you that wants you to be treated right. of course you should always consider your actions, and you may feel angry at someone that hasn't actually done anything wrong in which case you shouldn't lash out at them, but you're still allowed to feel angry. listen to your anger, sit with it, hear it out. maybe it's not always reasonable but that's not it's job. you're allowed to be angry.
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shatouto · 4 days ago
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in case it isn’t obvious already, @syssarcosis is my girlfriend and i love her 💖💕😭
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shatouto · 4 days ago
I've been gone for a while so this might have been made clear already, but are you sapphic/wlw?
Yes, my friend, I am! And I have a very lovely girlfriend ♥️
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shatouto · 4 days ago
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i know this is def an unpopular opinion so don’t @ me but honestly whenever im attached enough to a franchise with a fairly established storyline, i hate getting new official content, especially when it’s not chronological storytelling but like a spinoff set in the past
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shatouto · 6 days ago
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obi-wan: *makes an offhand self-deprecating comment to end the conversation and do something else*
anakin: Master is… sad? Master is suffering? Master is undeserving of love? I am running away. I am stealing my precious Master and leaving and it’ll be us against the world. I can no longer thrive in this household.
anakin: and you, master. what does your heart tell you you’re meant for?
obi-wan: infinite sadness.
anakin, his eyes enormous: infinite... SADNESS? you have infinite sadness?? infinite like the universe??? oh! oh! kisses for master! kisses for master for One Thousand years!!!!
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shatouto · 8 days ago
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Autistic Anakin Skywalker Headcanon
I've seen some posts about neurodivergent Anakin, and I think they're great!! So I wanted to make one specifically about autistic Anakin, since me being me with ASD, I needed this. Also this is ✨pure projection✨ on my part, so ofc everyone can have their own headcanons and interpretations of his character, and people can have different experiences with ASD!! These are simply a few of my thoughts just for fun 😊
Anakin might come across to many people as brash and confident or even flippant, when those who really know him (who are actually very few) know he is always self-conscious and considerate, and worries about how he presents himself to others. 
It's often hard to quiet all the noise in his head, and during the war it's even harder when he can't have space and time to himself to decompress at the end of a hard day of fighting or after a long meeting. But making sure he has a place where he's comfortable enough, like the cabin of his ship, enables him to recuperate wherever he happens to be.
It's very easy for him to get distracted or anxious with too much stimulation going on around him, and he can be prone to outbursts or breaking down because of a sensory overload, which can make using the Force dangerous for him and others around him. But he's gotten better at controlling it with Obi-Wan's support over the years, and Obi-Wan can still help with calming himself down if needed.
He can't sit still or concentrate on much for very long, and he's always fidgeting, which is why his mother encouraged him to start fixing things in order to have him do something with his hands, and why Obi-Wan let him tinker with spare parts all the time when he was a Padawan, even during lessons. Thus he always has some little project on hand, even if it is just taking something apart and putting it back together again, anything that is repetitive and satisfying.
He likes to wrap himself up in his robe or hide his hands in his big sleeves especially when anxious, because COMFY :D
His living spaces may come across as untidy or cluttered to others, but to him it's organized and he knows exactly where everything is and doesn't like when things are moved without him knowing. There's probably a specific reason for why that broken droid is in the middle of the floor... but there's honestly also a chance he may have forgotten about it and has already moved on to a new project.
Even if from an outside view it could seem the opposite, he is very competent in what he does and puts so much energy into everything, even to the point of pushing and overworking himself. Obi-Wan or Ahsoka often have to pull him away from something, because it's obvious that he's stressed and tired but won't allow himself to quit yet.
He is very passionate about certain things and loves talking about them, even if others don't care to pay attention all the time. His friends always try to truly listen though :)
He may come across as emotionless and uncaring in both tone of voice and expression, but really he is feeling so much and doesn't know the right way to portray himself, so instead he wears a mask of what he thinks people want him to behave and look like. Thus his emotions might come out strong and intense when he is around people he's comfortable with, because he's been keeping them inside for so long.
Sometimes he prefers the company of droids because their reactions are logical and predictable and he doesn't have to be so self-aware of how he comes across to them, because he knows they like him regardless (as long as they're not seppie droids of course). 
When he is especially confident and flirty or suave, he is probably copying what he's seen Obi-Wan do and putting on an act, and when he actually tries to flirt or impress someone who actually means something to him, it can turn out very awkward. Good thing Obi-Wan and Padmé have found it endearing. 😌
He keeps to himself often and only likes physical contact from those he truly trusts, and he doesn't trust easily. But to those he does trust, physical contact is sometimes the only way he knows how best to express his affection for them, and he likes to give it to them when he thinks they need it, too.
He doesn't mind conversation but he doesn't seek it constantly or need it all the time, and sometimes he's seen as rude for not wanting to talk for long right then. Sometimes it's easier to just talk to Obi-Wan and Ahsoka through their Force bonds, because he can express how he's feeling more easily that way without having to find the right words.
He can be very impulsive and prone to depressive episodes and quick to change emotion, as well as get frustrated or angry easily. His form being Djem So is a reflection of him being able to release those strong emotions from within him and putting them into use.
But he's also empathetic and sensitive, and very attuned to the Force and emotions because of that; he thinks of things or sees patterns others might have missed and pays attention to the little details. This is extremely valuable to him as a Jedi, especially since he's so powerful within the Force, that being able to feel so deeply and pick individual things out helps him navigate through how chaotic and loud the Force can often feel around him.
The experience of his childhood as a slave on Tatooine made him close his true self off from the world as a defense mechanism early on, to protect himself. It took a long time for Obi-Wan to coax him out of his shell when he was younger, and let him know that he doesn't need to put a mask on himself and his personality all the time, and that it's okay to be who he is. It can be hard for Anakin to remember sometimes, but he's learned that he's not a burden, that there are many people who care for him, and that he is very loved. ❤️
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shatouto · 9 days ago
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anakin would thrash the whole house and yell at me and then it would turn out that all he wanted was for me to cuddle with him on the couch (it's my fault though, i should've known him better, sorry bby i'll sit with you however long you want)
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shatouto · 9 days ago
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the idea of people having to be ‘useful’ is just so gross, like people do not exist to be used
having to produce something and have a use is a capitalist ideal and not an intrinsic part of humanity
just by being alive you are human and you are worth something and you can never be useless
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shatouto · 9 days ago
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Adonis, from Transformations of the Lover: V (tr. by Samuel Hazo)
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shatouto · 9 days ago
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“You will find that it is necessary to let things go; simply for the reason that they are heavy.”
— C. JoyBell C.
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shatouto · 10 days ago
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Louise Glück, Winter Morning
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