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are you actually more empathetic & considerate than all of your friends or did you grow up forced to cater to and mediate the emotions of adults & everyone else around you and now you’re hypervigilant & prone to fawning and holding people in your life to the standard of your trauma coping mechanisms—a standard you yourself shouldn’t be held to

#this socked me in the stomach but i needed it thanks #tbh i've. probably realized this for a while. subconsciously #i've started to compensate by shutting myself away and only socializing on very superficial levels #i don't connect with ppl around me anymore (and only partly bc they're french) #i have my full of emotional intimacy (with my bestie <3) so i'm under the impression i don't need anyone else #but tbh that's just a convenient excuse. i need to learn true balance #not just building walls to stem the fawn response before it starts

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Dark Urge

I need him to be a romancable companion... My Tav needs him. huge thanks and dedication to @dracobrooklyn for feeding me and brainrotting with me <3

#i want him so bad it makes me look stupid #please please please let me romance the evil lizard please please please

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kar'niss thirst trap

#OH MY GODDD?!?!?!!!!! #you are BEAUTFUL #ABSOLUTELY AMAZING IM IN AWE

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collection of posts for a very specific dynamic

#the way all of this is yin hanjiang to wenren e #go read The devil venerable also wants to know !!!!NOW!!!!

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it's even worse when you're like.. actively having a crush on said oc.. you'd be saying normal shit like "i would die for him" and your bestie can one hit k.o. you with a simple "he loves you too <3" it's a lethal weakness honestly

being a fan of a friend's ocs is actually so humiliating....... like yes my favourite character rn is tragically doomed and a pillar of humanity who i think is relevant to the current world. you can find information about them on discord dot com and sometimes in late-night conversations with this guy i know. what the fuck

#it's real it's happened to me many times #rellus my beloved #y'all haven't seen rellus (my bestie's oc) #he's fuckin REGAL #i have the hots for him #monty too tho monty is a down to earth dilf

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sparring

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 tav #kar'niss #oc: lorame #hi it's my useless sorcerer son with his spider boyfriend again #i've been so busy that i could only draw half an hour a day #so this took way too long to finish and by the end i've kinda lost interest LMAO #but i persisted bc i love kar'niss and i need more of him!! badly!!!

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ok that art kinda blowin up in the astarion circles. uhhh friendly reminder that im also rly into cazador as a character so if u don’t like that… u can ignore me now

#tbh if you know me on twitter you will have already seen my unhinged mommy caz twwets #but anyway #i think he’s horrible but i also think he’s as much a victim as he is an abuser #doesn’t excuse what he did but he’s not your saturday morning cartoon unsympathetic villain either #as much as he reminds me of my mother (whom i loathe) i also still like him (like i still love my mother) #complicated….. #anyway i don’t have to justify my villain love i just. want yall to know #i like cazador. he’s very compelling. and just as emblematic of the cycle of abuse as astarion is

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you hate it when wyll calls himself "the blade" because you think it's cringe to talk about yourself in third person. i hate it when wyll calls himself "the blade" because i want him to stop thinking of himself as a hero-object and start seeing the value in wyll ravengard. we are not the same

#YEAAAAHHHH #WYLL SWEETHEART BABY YOU ARE MORE THAN A WEAPON #YOU DONT HAVE TO BE USEFUL TO BE LOVED #WYLLLLLLL #sobbing on my knees #i would do anything for him

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@wizardarchetypes YOU GET IT!!!!!

don't they know they're making love to one already dead

#you're the first person i've seen who actually mentions the victims as being violated too #like i know most people are firmly aware that the true aggressor is cazador and not any of the people astarion slept with #but far too often i feel like the violation of the victims (who also got turned into spawn and suffered) is less talked about #both violated by the same power is so so correct here

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Le triangle.

Kickstarter du projet ici !

#OOOOOO CEST TROP COOL #save

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i see a lot of meta about astarion being angry that no one else has come to save him earlier and that's why he was Like That in act 1, and i absolutely agree, but also i keep thinking about how his victims would be 10000x as resentful to see his relationship with tav.

imagine being one of the shy sweet ones that he lured in. imagine being fucking sebastian. you trusted him. you loved him. you thought, finally, someone really likes me for who i am. and then he brings you to a place worse than hell.

imagine being one of them, and hearing astarion tell someone else, "you're the only person i ever truly cared for". imagine suffering for so, so long for the sin of trusting a man who did everything to make you trust him, and learning that your love meant nothing to him.

he ruined your life and sent you to hell, but your love never meant anything to him and never will. because you met at the wrong time and place? or because you were too weak, not the heroic adventurer he needed to rescue him - you were never enough?

it's not astarion's fault that his victims were kept in a cage for centuries with nothing to their name but scars and never-ending hunger. but it's not the fault of the people he encountered in those 200 years either, for not saving him. how could they have known?

#bg3 spoilers #astarion #meta #reluctantly tagging in case anyone blacklists tags #but plz don't let this break containment

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#ANSUR #ANSUR!!!!!!!

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#baldur's gate 3 #astarion #bg3 tav #oc: lorame #fluff for once lmaoo #i love when astarion is Silly

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pls reblog for sample size etc

at the end of april fools day* idk if they're removing it or not

#i completely missed the boop thing lmaooo #i was busy spring cleaning my apartment all day #i just got an influx of reblogs on an old art of mine that depicted a boop #i was wondering why....

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"oh Astarion is SOOOO effeminate" wrong. You are judging Astarion by human genders. Astarion is first and foremost a high elf and by high elf standards he is actually INCREDIBLY masc. Other high elves look at him and he reminds them of that one annoying straight guy in their elf-economics (elfenomics if you will) class in elf-college who loved playing devil's advocate. And then they see him kiss a guy and they almost die of shock.

#you are SO correct <3333

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don't they know they're making love to one already dead

#baldur's gate 3 #astarion #bg3 #yes yes angsty les mis music what is new #all the motifs in this pic are so quintessentially and stereotypically Me i feel like i'm plagiarizing myself

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so twitter user wyerframeZ posted this and im mystified, enamored, wondering what is really going on the new AI infested DA

#well well well #genAI bullshit #why am i not surprised