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Some days I wake up like "I want to write, or perhaps post something!" and then I sit at my computer to do so and instantly lose the urge altogether,

#riley rambles #notfic #have a pile of completed one-shots that will never see the light of day and also low levels of fleeting inspiration. it is what it is. sigh

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...I know it's contrary to that meme I rb'd the other day, but does anyone else have a bad relationship with actually posting fic?

Idk. I happily write, but when it comes to sharing what I've wrote, sometimes it just....takes all the fun out of it. Fills me with dread, zaps motivation, regardless of how kind any comments are - like it's not an issue with reader response at all, it's just smth that's broken in my head.

Like. I haven't heard any other writer feel similarly. But I just rarely want to share anything these days, bc it doesn't feel good or worth it or satisfying anymore...

#I'd like to leave my works somewhere others could possibly take some enjoyment from them #but lately I am like......actually others looking at these feels so so shitty. and idk why or what happened to change me. #notfic #riley rambles #can't even put it into words right and I'm sorry if this is hurtful or unrelatable #I promise it is NOT a problem with the lovely thoughtful readers. it is an issue with ME Idk how to fix #anyway thanks for listening and I apologize in advance bc I will likely chicken out of expressing myself and delete this post later #but I am tired and frustrated and wondering if I'm alone in this or if anyone can relate at all.....

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"youve already written that trope" yesss. i like it a lots. i will be writing it again. 1000 stories of the same trope over and over again for ten million years

#notfic #yea

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#notfic #😔

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my god roktavor you write the best stuff I’ve ever had the privilege of laying eyes on

!!!!!!!

Thank you so much! This means a lot to hear, tbh,, 💝💞💗💓💕

#notfic #asks #seriously thank you....!!! brightened my day-!

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so rude that fantasizing about writing alone is not enough to actually get the fic done. you have to actually sit down and write it. insane.

#notfic #truly dreadful

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Me, writing a fanfic about my favorite character:

#notfic #yea

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are you working on anything rn?

Short Answer: Yes,

Long Answer: I'm in a perpetual state of having a ridiculous amount of WIPs, so I'm always chipping away at stuff. It's all at various levels of completion, from like, bare notes&outlines to 'finished and in need of editing'. 99.9% of these WIPs are Gwinam/Cheongsan flavored atm, 8'D;;;

I have no idea when I'll post anything bc life is busy and chaotic for me rn, and I haven't had/don't have the time or headspace to write for a few weeks. Plus I actually don't always feel like sharing the things I've written right away or ever. so. >>

But thanks for your interest! If you're curious about any specifics let me know. :")

#notfic #asks

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this is advice I've given friends directly before and I've probably also posted it but I really like giving it so here it is potentially again: do not create something for an imaginary bad faith reader.

there will always be someone who finds fault in your work. there will be people who read the messages on it wrong. there will be people who will take every compelling aspect about your work off of it so they can put in their own.

you cannot make art for these people.

you will never write a story that is free from criticism. you will never draw a piece that everyone finds appealing. you will never compose a song that everyone enjoys hearing. you cannot, fundamentally, set out to create something and only think of how you can avoid someone not liking it.

because, and this is key, there will be someone who sees every angle of your story and feels its intent in their heart and gushes to their friends about it. you will draw someone's favorite art and they will make it their phone wallpaper because they want to see it every day. someone will fall in love with your song and loop it on their way to work because it gets them through the day. and THOSE are the people your work is for. THOSE are the people you have to care about, because they love what you make for what it is - because it's itself.

if you set out to create something and file off every sharp edge, prune every thorn, you will be left with something fragile and weak, and it will be fragile and weak for the sake of someone who does not exist but that you were scared of anyway.

sharing art is complex and tangled and powerful, and anything you care enough to create deserves to flourish as itself. get sillay.

#encouragement #YEAH

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Written for the 'trail of blood' square on my new @badthingshappenbingo card.

Rating: M Words: 5.3k Pairing: Cheongsan/Gwinam Summary: [different zombie apocalypse AU] In the midst of this most recent zombie outbreak, Gwinam hunts for a fresh meal.

He stumbles across someone familiar at the end of the blood trail.

[card progress under the cut]

#all of us are dead #yoon gwi nam #lee cheong san #gwinam x cheongsan #riley writes #aouad fic #bth bingo

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Your fics are amazing. I love love love your merfolk au. It's just perfect. So heartachingly good. Are you planning to write more on that au?

Ah, thank you so much!! I'm really happy that you enjoy my fics, especially the merfolk AU...! 💝💝

Unfortunately, I won't be writing anything more for that AU any time soon. Can't say it's completely impossible in the long run, bc I'd love to - but for now I'm burnt out on BruAbba, so I won't be writing about them anymore for the foreseeable future. Apologies for any disappointment.

Thank you for reaching out, and for being interested, though! :D

#asks #I realize I recently posted a BruAbba fic but that was actually written last year #and it was the last thing I was able to write for them.

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these percentages are optimistic and may not reflect reality

#notfic #yea

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Look, I'm going to be honest, I don't care whether people feeding other fans' fanfiction into AI is "legal" or "illegal".

What it is, is rude, entitled, and disrespectful of your fellow fans.

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Would you maybe do a gwi-nam x Reader?

Thank you so much for your interest in my writing, but I personally have no desire to write reader-insert fics, sorry.

#asks #apologies they're just really not my thing ^^;

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hii! I reeally enjoy your fanfiction can I make a translation of some of them with a link at you please? :) (thank u!!)

Hi! Thank you so much for enjoying my works! Really happy to hear that,, 💓

You're more than welcome to translate them, sure! I do only ask that you don't post the translations to sites other than Ao3.

#asks

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Written for the 'outnumbered in a fight' square on my @badthingshappenbingo card.

Rating: T Words: 14.4k Pairing: BruAbba Summary: [sci-fi AU] Leone endures his most gruesome arena fight yet, and Bruno does everything he can to get his human lover out of this alive.

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With this, my card is officially fully filled:

#jjba #bruabba #bruno buccellati #leone abbacchio #riley writes #jjba fic #bth bingo