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We Were Always Meant to Say Goodbye (Scaramouche x Female reader)

(This is Chapter One of my fanfiction posted on Archive! Look for more of my work on there!)

Chapter 1:

“Please… Don’t leave me!”

I remember… Those were the exact words I said to him whenever he left. I desperately tried to get him to stay, but it just wasn't enough.

“Hey… Say something! Come on… Please, don't leave me!”

My mouth had worked faster than my thoughts, each word that had left my lips was like a plea that couldn't get him to stay, no matter how hard they worked. They just kept moving, just like now, except this time, I'm leaving.

“There… is no seeing me again… Except for the memories of us…you hold so dear in your heart…”

“Please…don’t leave me… Don’t betray me just like everybody else did!”

As my eyes began to close, I felt two arms wrap around me as I was pulled into a hug.

I slowly opened my eyes and was greeted by the bright sunlight. I forgot to close the curtains on the window last night, so the sun was shining directly into my eyes. I looked over at the wall to see what time it was.

9:37 A.M.

I let out a slight yawn as I tried to crawl out of bed, but I already felt myself feeling dizzy. Must’ve not slept well last night. As I stood up slowly off of the bed, I kept my arms close to the bed in case I fell back down. I just stood for a few seconds before moving anywhere.

I decided to walk to my kitchen and grab a glass of water to help with my sore throat. Every morning, I would always wake up dehydrated.

I have a small house, so my kitchen is not far from my bedroom. I took a few steps out of my bedroom door and I was already in the kitchen. I walked up to the cabinet with all of my cups in it and tried to grab a glass, but sometimes I forget how short I am. I have to get on my toes anytime I want to grab a glass. I hate being 5’3.

After a few tries, I successfully grabbed a glass. I walked up to the sink and poured some water into my glass and took a sip. Ah… Refreshing. Drinking a nice glass of water was always the best thing in the morning.

It was a Monday, so I decided to go outside and check my mailbox to see if I received the letter from my mother. My mother sends me letters a few times throughout the week. She doesn’t necessarily follow a schedule, she just sends them whenever she wants.

My mother used to be a Scholar in the Akademiya until she came down with an incurable Sumeru disease called Eleazar. She was sent to the Fatui to get treatment for her Eleazar, and she has been giving me updates in the mail ever since her first day there.

It was a sunny day outside, and the temperature was surprisingly high for only nine in the morning. The birds were singing to each other left and right while the trees swayed effortlessly in the wind. I walked down the gravel path and to the mailbox. I opened it to see a white envelope inside. It must be from her. And sure enough, when I flipped over the envelope, it had her name on it.

I decided to wait to open it until I went back inside. I walked back up to my front door and went back in. I decided to sit at my desk and read it in case I wanted to write a reply back. I quickly grabbed my reading glasses, turned on the lamp on my desk, and sat down on my chair. I eagerly tore open the envelope and grabbed the paper inside and unfolded it. It wrote:

Dear Y/n,

Hello, dear, I hope everything is going well for you. I’m sorry to tell you this, but I don't think I’ll be leaving this place any time soon. Researchers are still looking for a cure for Eleazar, but one has not been found yet.

If you would, hun, please tell your father that I said hello. I would love to come visit you two, but I’m currently not allowed to. Come and visit me sometime, okay? I would love to see your beautiful faces, and I would love to see how much you've grown honey. I want to know if you got your dad’s tallness!

Stay safe for me, okay? And don’t forget to come visit me!

Love you bunches, dear.

-Mom

I could feel the tears forming in my eyes after I finished reading the letter. I always cried every time I read a letter from my mom, knowing that she could die at any moment and I may not know when that is. It also scared me knowing that she was in the hands of Fatui, but she seems to be in excellent care.

After wiping my face full of tears, I decided to pick up my pen and write her a letter back.

Dear mom,

A year from today, you were sent to the Fatui due to Eleazar. My journey hasn't been the same without you, and you being gone is really starting to affect me. I cry almost every time I read your letters.

I still can’t believe researchers have found absolutely nothing, it's ridiculous! The Akademiya needs to educate people better, honestly!

I wish I could come to visit you, but I’m a little sketchy about the Fatui. They scare me a lot, Mom, and I hope they are treating you right. If I find out they aren’t, I’ll kick their asses.

Sadly, I did not take Dad’s tallness. I’m so short that I struggle to grab a glass of water in the morning. I’m only 5’3, and I haven’t grown at all in the past year.

I’m thinking about visiting Dad today to get my mind off of things, so I’ll definitely tell him you said hello!

Feel better soon! <3

-Y/n

The reason why I haven't seen my dad in a while is because he is never home. He works two jobs for both of us. We were a poor family before my mom left, and now he's responsible for my mom’s medical payments, so my dad is currently struggling to pay for our place to stay.

My dad gets a break and normally goes fishing around lunchtime, so I’ll visit him then. I folded up the letter I wrote and stuck it in an envelope and quickly put it in my mailbox to be delivered.

When I came back inside, I decided to throw together some egg rolls for breakfast. I didn't have many ingredients in my place to make anything, so egg rolls were all I could come up with. As usual, I struggled to reach the ingredients, and at one point I had to grab a stool, but I successfully grabbed all of my materials needed.

After cooking the egg rolls, I sat down at the small table in front of the window. I made sure to eat slowly, but not too slowly that my food was cold by the time I finished. While eating, I sat in silence with just my thoughts and the sound of my chewing.

I was worried sick about my mother. She loved studying for her classes at the Akademiya. She had amazing grades. But after she got sick with Eleazar, it felt like all of her dreams were crushed. After she was sent to the Fatui, I stopped visiting my dad. I isolated myself from everyone. Because it’s been a year since my mom was sent to the Fatui, I felt like it was a good time to visit my father.

I had finished eating my egg rolls. Most of it had been eaten, there was just a bite or two left. I stood up from the table and walked over to the counter, throwing away the leftovers and putting my dirty plate into the sink along with the other dishes I used to make breakfast. I probably should wash them, but I'll tend to them later, as I was eager to get him a gift. I went back to my bedroom to pick out my outfit for today. Since it was summertime, it was going to be hot outside today with a lot of sunshine. I was looking through my closet and decided to wear my floral Yukata, the colors of yellow and green worked together to give it a simple, but beautiful design. I grabbed some white socks long enough to cover my ankles that I could wear with my brown sandals.

I know how much my dad loves to go fishing, ever since I was little, he would take me fishing for food. Anytime he caught something good, Mom would cook it. Even if Mom wouldn’t be there this time, I knew the fish would still taste as delicious as ever. I had decided to buy him a new fishing rod as a gift. I grabbed some Mora and headed out the door. I decided to take a stroll to Inazuma City on Narukami Island to visit Kujirai Momiji. I had heard she was a member of the Inazuma Fishing Association, so I decided to go buy a fishing rod from her.

Narukami Island was absolutely beautiful. Many purple, pink, and a few red trees swayed elegantly in the wind. Since it was summertime, many flowers had recently bloomed in the grass. Some flowers are raised above the rest, others are laid flat on the ground from people walking over them, and some are still rising as the grass helps them stay upright.

I noticed a woman wearing a sage green Yukata standing by the shore while holding a fishing rod. She had short black hair tied back into two pigtails. She looked like a fisher, so I decided to talk to her.

“Hello there! Are you here to join the Kujirai Guild?” She hollered to me as I approached her. I was confused about what she said.

“What’s the Kujirai Guild?” I questioned.

“It's an association for the children of the sea!” She replied. She seemed to be in the Kujirai Guild, maybe even its leader.

“Cool! My name’s Y/n and I was wondering if you could help me out.” I announced.

“Greetings, Y/n! It’s a pleasure to meet you. I am the successor to the Kujirai Fishing Method and the founder of the Kujirai Guild — Kujirai Momiji, daughter of the ocean! As a fisherwoman, I was born near the ocean, grew up near the ocean… and someday, I will return to it as well.” She promised. Her love for the ocean made me smile, for she reminded me a lot of my father.

“That’s very sweet, Momiji. I hope that you can return to the ocean soon!”

“Your words mean a lot to me, Y/n. So, what brings you here today?” She asked.

“I was wondering if you sold any fishing supplies.”

“Of course! We need excellent tools to do the work that we must, after all. You indeed have the qualities of a child of the sea, so go ahead and take your pick!” She squealed. I decided to buy a rare Inazuman fishing rod from her. It has great quality and a long fishing line to fish far away from you.

After buying the fishing rod, I started to walk towards the boat dock in Ritou. My dad loves to fish at a beach called Nazuchi Beach on Yashiori Island. I have no choice but to get there by boat. While walking to Ritou, I looked up at the beautiful blue sky, watching the birds fly by, but also watching my steps carefully, trying not to step on any flowers standing tall in the grass.

When I finally arrived at the boat dock, that is when the anxiety hit me. I nervously paced back and forth on the wharf, my heart pounding in my chest. I stared out at the still water, hoping and praying that the boat would arrive soon. I felt like her heart was in my throat and I was both nervous and excited. I was anxious to see my father again and eager to give him the gift that I just bought.

After what seemed like an eternity, I finally spotted a boat in the distance. With a burst of excitement, I watched as it slowly approached the dock. This was a journey I had been longing to undertake for the past year. I was finally heading to visit my father after so long. I quickly climbed aboard the boat and it quickly made its way to Yashiori Island.

After a few minutes, the boat stopped at a port and I got off, eager to see my father for the first time in a year. He was standing on the sand, and when he saw me, his face lit up with a huge smile. He opened his arms wide and embraced me close to him. The two of us embraced tightly, our tears blending with the salty ocean air.

“Thank you for coming to see me, Y/n. I’m so happy to finally see you again.” He cried.

“I’m sorry for taking so long. I shut myself out, and I had to build up the courage to come see you again. Here! I bought you a gift!” I handed him the fishing rod that I had bought with the Mora I saved up. “It’s a rare Inazuman fishing rod with high quality. I figured you would enjoy it.”

“Thank you so much, dear. I appreciate it.” He grabbed the fishing rod and the handle seemed to fit perfectly into his slim hands. He handed me the other fishing rod he was holding and invited me to fish with him, and there was no way I was going to turn him down.

“Mom wanted me to say hello to you, by the way.”

“Tell her I said hello as well. How is she doing?”

“She said that researchers still haven’t found a cure for Eleazar. She won’t be coming back for a while, but she does want us to come to visit her sometime.” I slightly look down at my feet. I was still slightly angry that the researchers haven’t found anything yet.

“That sucks.”

“Yeah.”

We stood there in silence for a few minutes. I wasn’t expecting this to be so awkward, but I guess that’s what happens after you cut off contact with everybody for a year. Neither of us had successfully caught anything, so I decided to go and try something else.

“I’m going to go look for some Sea Ganoderma. Is that okay?” I turned to look at him. He gave me a slight nod of approval, so I walked into the shallow water and began searching for blue flowers. I was a strong swimmer, but the ocean waves were constantly pushing me back as I searched the seafloor for a hint of the vibrant colors I was looking for.

As I finally spotted a hint of blue in the water, I walked up to the flower to pick it up. While I’m fighting the waves in an attempt to get close to the flower, I suddenly hear the sound of somebody crying. I looked around desperately, trying to locate the sound, when I finally saw a boy in the distance, about twenty yards away.

I noticed he was sitting down with his knees pulled to his chest. He had his head down in his arms while he was crying out loud. Instinctively, I ran forward, the wet sand slowing me down but I kept driving forward, determined to reach him.

I finally reached him and gently laid my hand on his back, attempting to comfort him. He slowly lifted his head and began to look at me.

“Hey, I could hear you crying from all the way back there… Are you doing okay?” I observed the boy a little bit as I waited for an answer. He seemed to be somewhere between twelve and fourteen years old. The boy slightly parted his lips like he wanted to say something, but then his lips began to quiver. He looked into my eyes for a split second before suddenly leaping towards me with open arms and eyes full of tears. He knocked me off of my balance and hugged me tightly while crying out loud.

“There there… It’s okay to cry. Don’t hold back, okay? Just let them all flow…And get whatever you need to get off of your chest if you would like.” I suggested. I wasn’t the greatest at comforting people, but I could tell that this boy was in so much pain and all he wanted was for someone to be there for him.

“Why?… Why was I abandoned?… Why was I betrayed?! Why am I so worthless?!” He sobbed while hugging me even tighter.

This poor boy… I must help him.

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