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opening tumblr whenever i get hungry like a soldier in war gazing lovingly at a photo of his wife

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How soon can you see it? How long until you notice a change?

7 days. That's it, one (1) week, and you will start to notice little changes. Your jaw will be slimmer, your clothes will fit a little looser, you hands will slim, your cankles will be smaller, your shoes will be bigger, getting into the car will be easier.

While all of these changes will be very subtle at 7 days, they will be noticeable to you.

It gets easier. You just have to be consistent.

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the fact that i could've been at my ugw by now should be enough motivation

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If I see one more post about how girlhood is makeup and virginity and being delicate and pink I’m gonna show everyone how delicate and pink your guts are

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How I break my binge-restrict cycle

(Note: I'm not advising any of you to follow this, it's just what works for me. If you want to then that's fine. I'm just posting it here because.. well.. this is my ed diary lol)

1) DO NOT restrict or starve yourself after a binge. This will just lead you to binge again.

2) DO NOT binge again. No matter what, don't binge again. Overeating once after is fine (if you still cannot control it). Just eat a normal meal after a few hours. After a good night's rest, continue on fasting or having a calorie deficit. Continue on as if nothing bad happened.

3) DO NOT just cut off bad habits/choices. Instead, REPLACE them with a good habit/choice. For example, you find yourself overeating after working out, then don't eat after working out. Eat before. If you're tired, shower and sleep instead.

I notice a lot of people who are finding it hard to change their habits and the main reason is because they don't replace it with something else. If you don't have a fixed idea of what you'll do once you cut off what you usually do, then you'll end up doing your "default" choice aka the bad habit.

[I hope this makes sense 😭 English isn't my first language and I'm tired sorry.]

4) Study yourself. Know the root cause of your binges. Back then, I thought I only binged because of peanut butter. I realized I also binge if it's a certain type of food that goes well with peanut butter. It's like finding an excuse to consume peanut butter. So I stopped eating oatmeal, bread, and bananas (these three is what I usually pair it with), and I stopped thinking so much about peanut butter too.

Another root cause of my binges is being exhausted. I avoid getting exhausted before a meal time (breakfast, lunch, 3pm snack, or dinner) because I end up eating more. It's natural, your body will crave energy. So as much as possible, I workout and take walks AFTER my meals instead(is 100 cal a meal? lol).

That's all for now, I may update this and repost some other time.

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What even is this 😭😭

I look up om nom in gifs...

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I am not a coffee girl 😢 I tried to be but it makes me bloat so bad 👎😭. I guess I'll just stick with me YUMMY NOM NOM NOM TEAAAA. I love tea

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Mmmm~

I love when she creams all over it ❤️

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Watching super size vs. Super skinny is soo comforting.

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This is actually a scientific thing. People are so dehydrated their brain just assumes they're hungry

tip!

always assume you’re thirsty before 3ating, chances are you can fill yourself up on water instead of b1nging

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The prettiest girls shit the hardest 🥹

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My mannnnnn 🩷🩷🩷

I love making my girl cum ❤️

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❀ My new rules ❀

◌ Eating window 11 am - 7 pm

◌ Work out before bed

◌ Walk the long way home from school if not too cold

◌ Coffee or Green tea untill lunch

◌ Tea after school and if hungry eat 1 apple

◌ Lots of water !!

◌ Log everything you eat and burn

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Breakfast: coffee

Lunch: coffee

Dinner: coffee

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PLEASEEE

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I have a pot luck today at churchso I'm gonna liquid fast till then and then fast after it.

I'm most likely not going to eat A LOT though because the food is so fucking bland...

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Re blogging so I can read these later

any book recommendations?

tysm for the question!

my fav books that i can think of rn are:

the virgin suicides (all time fav)- i love everything about it, it's perfect in my eyes. i love the entire plot and i've re-read it since i first read it in october.

elvis and me (close second favorite)- this book is sad when u think about what priscilla went through. i really enjoyed reading it and finished it in a week. i enjoyed hearing things from her perspective as well as hearing about life at graceland.

picnic at hanging rock. sort of similar to the virgin suicides but sent in 1900. girls go missing on a picnic, 2 are never found and the story follows the demise of their school.

once upon a time in hollywood. hollywood in the late 60s. pretty entertaining and the dialogue felt very real.

the bell jar. not much happens but it was an easy read.

the catcher in the rye. one of my favorites- i used to relate ig to the concept of holden trying to hold onto his childhood innocence and the sadness that comes with getting older.

little women. a classic! i love the sisters dynamic sm.

the great gatsby. very sad and a lot of symbolism if you like analyzing books. themes of old money/new money, corruption, how the american dream isn't real, etc.

the entire neaopolitan novels series by elena ferrante (it starts with my brilliant friend) THIS SERIES BROKE ME. it was SO good. the books are incredibly long but i never got tired of reading them. reading anything was hard when i finished because nothing could compare.

the picture of dorian gray. this book was pretty good and i liked the themes of beauty & morality. there's a really boring chapter tho where it kinda just lists everything he owns and that part is kinda tedious.

girl, interrupted. so sad but very good. i like the insights on psychology by the author and enjoyed the plot a lot.

also like content warning but the older books on the list do feature racism and anti-semiticism (the great gatsby, the picture of dorian gray, the bell jar) and in once upon a time in hollywood some characters do say things that are both racist and anti-semitic