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heard a song yesterday that reminded me of a johnlock edit i saw on youtube years ago what is happening in the year of our lord 2024

#it's like i'm 15 (?) and watching sherlock for the first time again #i blame the podcast #which is amazing btw i'm more than halfway through and i love it #sherlock & co #johnlock

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have a weird feeling in my stomach and weird thoughts in my head

#i don't want this #can you not #personal

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sending you hugs - ❤️🧡💛

thank you, i needed this 🥺 hugging you too 🫂🤍🤍🤍

#ask #anon

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why does having coffee with a friend make me feel even more alone than usually

#and also bitter and jealous #when will this stop why am i like this #why doesn't my brain want to be happier for her #why does it have to have thoughts #personal

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made a bold impulsive decision yesterday and i'm not sure it'll actually happen and probably not the way i want it to anyway but i'm already starting to regret it but also i would regret if it stays the same

#it's so conflicting #yesterday it seemed fine but also after that i slept really poorly 🥴 #i'm pretty sure i'll be disappointed in any case #this is fun life is fun #personal

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finished reading the book, started tearing up towards the end of it (that's what the book depicting ukrainian history does to you)

#who is this person who read the book in two days i haven't seen her in a while #today is a very weird day #personal

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drinking cider is probably the most interesting thing that happened today

#probably even this week #i'm kinda woozy lol #but i still know that my life is so boring and i'm so fucking boring and nothing i can possibly do will change this #so i'm not really sure it's fun but oh well #personal

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i need to stop being so fucking bitter and envious

#i hate this feeling so much #but also it's my fault so #i should probably stop complaining and whining #i also need to shut the fuck up #personal

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hearing loud noises outside when there are air raid alarms every twenty minutes today is definitely not the best but i absolutely love the rumble or thunder especially the first one of the year

#i just love being indoors and looking out of the window and watching the clouds form and feel that something is coming #one of the few nice parts of the day today #personal

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it's only 12 am and i've read about 70 pages of a book in one sitting and listened to 2 episodes of a podcast and my brain still won't shut up

#what do i have to do for the thoughts and the feeling of discontent not to overcome me the minute i put a distraction of any sort away #why does my brain work like this i don't want it #personal

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why are evenings the worst for some reason

#a deep pit opens in my chest every time and no distraction seems big enough to fill it #trying and failing to hide from some vast unnamable fear or something #i love random obscure lyrics references #personal

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i hope you have a good day- ❤️🧡💛

thank you, anon, it was pretty okay so far! (and just got a bit better)

hope yours is really nice too 🤍🤍🤍

#ask #anon

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started reading a book almost directly after finishing reading the previous one who is this person??

#the last time it took me probably over two months to start reading something #still mourning those times where i could read a 400-page book in a day #i miss being a smart kid #now i'm a dumb adult who doesn't feel like an adult #personal

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Y'all are amazing. Reblog to hug the person you’re reblogging from.

#🩷

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john watson who i only know jonk

#he's hilarious actually #and so awkward i love him #as does sherlock btw #“and i like you as you are watson” sure you do buddy #and mariana is a saint for putting up with them #sherlock and co #sherlock & co

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absolutely obsessed with the characters from sherlock and co

#seven episodes in and i'm loving it so far despite not really being into podcasts #it's just something else #also one of the few things that keeps my sanity more or less intact so #sherlock and co #personal

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sending you love - ❤️🧡💛

thank you, anon 🥺🤧

sending you love too 🤍🤍🤍

#ask #anon