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I’m so sick of people prying my walls open just to have ulterior motives and not really care

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can't believe we're all adults being forced into the club penguin level of censorship in 2024

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borderline culture is ‘i should date someone possessive and abusive, id know for sure they love me”

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bpd culture is needing to stop yourself from suicide baiting everytime something happens

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BPD culture + hypersexual is sexualising myself hoping people will like me more that way and feeling disgusted by myself for that but not being able to stop it.

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i know i can be obsessive and paranoid and manipulative and sometimes violent and self destructive but also self aggrandizing and impulsive and mean but i’m also really hot and i have cool tattoos and i’m great in bed so basically you should be in love with me

#actually mentally ill #mentally fucked #actually bpd #tw depressing thoughts #bpd vent #bpd #im going insane #bpd culture is #depressiv #drvgs

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I need to get better

*relapses*

*relapses*

*relapses*

*relapses*

*relapses*

*relapses*

*relapses*

*relapses*

*relapses*

*relapses*

*relapses*

*relapses*

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i’ve been ruminating not processing. i didn’t even know the difference.

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there is NO GOOD WAY to tell people the reason why i relapse + keep doing drvgs is BC i wake up sober and remember all the fucked up shit i’ve done in the last 24 hrs and get repetitive intrusive thoughts of someone beating me up // k1lling myse1f and my only options are slowly destroying myself or stopping living so like??? in that sense the way that i live is better than the alternative???

#actually mentally ill #mentally fucked #actually bpd #tw depressing thoughts #bpd #bpd vent #im going insane #depressiv #drvgs

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My bpd is coming back full swing bro I'm like shame spiralling and splitting so hard I cba ahahaha a I'm so tired I just want to fucking sleep forever.

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i keep apologizing for shit i’ve done and shit i’ve thought about and shit that hasn’t even happened yet and it’s still not enough

#actually mentally ill #mentally fucked #actually bpd #tw depressing thoughts #bpd #bpd vent #im going insane #depressiv

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i get moments where i see my life for what it is and honestly it’s fucking bleak

#actually mentally ill #actually bpd #tw depressing thoughts #bpd #mentally fucked #bpd vent #im going insane #depressiv

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Oh my god I’m an awful person 🙁

Oh my godddd 😏 I’m an awful person 🥳‼️😫

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girlhood is waxing my entire body crossed as fuck painting my toenails purple watching breaking bad with a lilac candle burning

#girlblogging #girlhood #romanticize

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back in the city, new pictures for my walls, fresh spontaneous tattoo, severely dwindling c0ca1ne stash, cried in therapy for first time ever, feeling like the main character in a kafkaesque fever nightmare, drank a bottle of wine and almost had sex w my roommate, and it’s GREAT to be back

#mentally fucked #bpd #im going insane

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