ohmycuckoo

[ohmycuckoo]

your jean is so pretty in all your sketches i love it sm

hiiii!

you can't imagine how happy it makes me to know that you like my sketches of Jean! I love drawing my him so much but I have to confess that sometimes I feel a little reluctant to show my sketches because I feel that they are not good or interesting enough. so thank you very much for taking the time to tell me that ❤️

#thank you lovely anon

[ohmycuckoo]

I thought exactly the same thing when I read that part. It's so sweet when our delulus turn into trululus.

Every day I think "I can't believe my hc dream dynamic for them is real"

#tsc #tsc spoilers #jerejean #I would die for Nora

[ohmycuckoo]

Claim your own body, Jean-Yves Moreau

#TSC #the sunshine court #tsc2 predictions #thanks Lalila for the wonderful gift #jean moreau #jean moreau fanart #are you enjoying the vrrrr babe? #jerejean #jerejean fanart #jerejean fandom #aftg #all for the game #aftg fanart #aftg fandom #cuckoobo's drawings #cuckooboo

[ohmycuckoo]

falling asleep to the sound of his heartbeat

[ohmycuckoo]

I just... he had a little sister that he loved more than anything. he followed thea around like a lost little duckling. he was in love with his best friend and it almost destroyed him. he uses pain to both punish himself and stave off panic attacks. he survived five years of brutal torture and abuse by the skin of his teeth. his parents sold him. his little sister is dead. he wants to burn the house down. he cannot cook or shop for himself. he hates his old teammates. he loves his old teammates. he quite possibly loves his new teammates even more. he frets for the safety of people he barely knows. he's terrified of water, of being bitten, of being hurt again. he laughed when his worst abuser was dethroned and beaten and then tried to kill himself in solidarity.

he's finding reasons to live, day by day, one step at a time. a cool evening breeze, rainbows, open roads, friends.

he is jean moreau. he knows his place. he will endure.

[ohmycuckoo]

"Who wore it better??"

#tsc spoilers #TSC #the sunshine court #renee walker #tsc fanart #nora sakavic #aftg #aftg fandom #aftg fanart #fanart #jean moreau #jean moreau fanart #Jean Moreau pov #cuckoobo's drawings #cuckooboo

[ohmycuckoo]

[ohmycuckoo]

Tehee he's so cute!

#this is my new favorite TSC art #LOOK AT THEM!! #gorgeous #tsc

[ohmycuckoo]

I think the most endearing thing about Jean is that he just cares. So fucking much. Not to say that Neil doesn't but Neil had to learn to care and I think it's widely accepted that he cares about a select few people and cares about them fiercely; to the point of kill or be killed.

Jean though? He cares for almost everyone regardless of what they have done to him. He cared for Zane, the man who betrayed him in the most horrifying way for a number, for something Jean had no control over. He cared enough to save his life. He cared for Lucas who brought Jean's abuser right to his gate where he had believed himself to be safe. Not once did he lash out at him because he understood that his actions came from a desperation to know his brother again, the ache of having him near again but not having him at all. He cared for Cody, someone he doesn't even really know; cared enough to ensure they were safe and not being forced into something.

After being beaten down every day, holding on to life out of sheer desperation and perhaps a promise made to a once? friend, Jean still hasn't had his ability to care beaten out of him and it's such a beautiful miracle. He's a little like Andrew in this I think, in that he pretends so desperately to not care under the guise of barbed words and cold shoulders because that's a weakness, a chink in his already dented armour that the monsters can and will exploit with glee. He knows that yet he can't choke that tenderness out of himself.

#tsc spoilers

[ohmycuckoo]

Are you ready for tomorrow? (I’m not)

#TSC #the sunshine court #Jean Moreau #jean moreau fanart #aftg #aftg fandom #aftg fanart #jerejean #happy? tsc week #bright cover means happy joyful story right #but i'm already fucking crying nora #fanart #cuckoobo's drawings #cuckooboo

[ohmycuckoo]

jean moreau came back to himself in pieces

[ohmycuckoo]

locker room interactions

(or when Jeremy waits for Jean to finish his extra training and unceremoniously asks him a tough question)

Jeremy "Was it always three times?"

Jean "… usually"

Jeremy "…"

Jeremy "We have to get rid of that tattoo"

Jean "We?"

#jerejean #tsc #the sunshine court #happy? tsc week #jerejean fanart #jean moreau #jeremy knox #jean moreau fanart #jeremy knox fanart #aftg #aftg fandom #aftg fanart #all for the game #cuckoobo's drawings #cuckooboo

[ohmycuckoo]

Hockey Neil because I’m procrastinating studying and have a tendency to mix hyperfixations

#neil josten #aftg #I’m obsessed this he’s so gorgeous #kairospy: art

[ohmycuckoo]

last minute complications alternatively titled: the maddening joys(???) of self-publishing

I hope to god any of this makes sense, brain is feeling a bit fractured & the vodka isn't patching it together fast enough.

(Also this is significantly longer than I meant it to be, jfc.)

It's been a hectic week. Lot of bright points! Lot of chaos. Mom's final post-op checkup to see if she can return to work is next week, so there are quite a few appts she's trying to squeeze in at the last minute now that she has enough energy to be out of the apartment. This afternoon I finally had time to sit down with D2D and KDP to look things over, and I have some mixed news to report.

So the prev English ebooks were published via Smashwords and Amazon, yeah? Smashwords handles like… kobo, apple, overdrive, etc. Smashwords recently merged with Draft2Digital for some reason, so the interface and process are completely new. Before there was a long style guide that helped you reformat a file to be nice & shiny, now it's fully automated. Very very quick. Absolutely no workarounds for minor tweaks. So the formatting for TSC is going to be slightly different from the first book (example: the chapter headers are big, because you literally cannot opt to keep them small).

Anyway!! Here is where it gets a little funky. The earliest D2D will accept as a preorder publication date is the 14th. The earliest Amazon's KDP will allow is the 15th. Obviously neither of these dates are ideal, which means we're doing it manually (see: I have to go in and push the "hell yeah, my book is ready NOW" button). That's where the potential complication arises.

Once you smack the PUBLISH button, the sites do an automated review to check for massive issues. KDP claims it takes 3-10 days for print and up to 72 hours for ebook. I've seen some ppl say it took 48hrs for the book to go live and numerous others say it only took a few minutes or hours. All of this to say: I have no idea what time the books will actually show up online once I poke the "Let's do this" option.

So the current plan is to try and account for this delay. I'm going to try and start the "please go live Now" process early afternoon here on Friday the 12th (central time USA, about 5hrs behind GMT and 7hrs behind CET). If evening comes around here and KDP still hates our guts, I've researched some alternative options to make sure it's actually available somewhere on the 13th (e.g. payhip).

I honestly don't think it'll come down to that--I'm 99% sure even TKM only took a couple hours to get approved, and I'm hoping it helps that I have existing projects on both sites. But!! Because it's a funky situation, wanted to make sure we're all on the same page. And I want to apologize for making it a complicated mess. Maybe we'll take a proper peek at the cover later to cheer us up.

[ohmycuckoo]

#this feels so real I can't breathe #omg omg omg #tsc #bright cover means happy joyful story right #but I'M ALREADY FUCKING CRYING NORA #I LOVE IT PLS SEND HELP

[ohmycuckoo]

you achieved that last goal quicker than i thought you would! after this one, the numbers will be going up! 👀

[ohmycuckoo]

scattered & unhelpful updates to distract me from the fact I am Not At All Ready

1 bc I've been asked more than once: it's not a sun on the cover bc the sun & moon motif is yalls thing. it'd feel weird to me if I stole it when I don't have any attachment to it

2 I would've rather overturned years-old lore than write something I couldn't believe in. I have zero regrets about sticking to the original plans of the EC, & I hope we are all happy with where this goes

3 there'll probably be at least two posts on Saturday: one with the pics from LA and one that's a cry for help. if yall notice any glaring typos in TSC that we missed during edits and don't mind sharing 'em, pls leave 'em on that second post. I'll leave it up for about a week, and then I'll edit the digital version one last time (I think all ebook sites allow a free download of an updated file?) and will reformat the book for print.

4 once those posts are up, both tumblr & twitter will slide into updates-only mode until TSC2 is out at the very least. sorry not sorry to throw a book at you & run, but I want to avoid too much outside influence & make sure the story I'm telling stays mine <3 <3