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💚 @djarinmuse Oh my goodness, thank you so so much! I am so happy that you loved this, I grew really fond of these two writing them.
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Summary: Orpheus and Eurydice. A Blacksmith and a Warrior. A Lawyer and the Lady He Meets at a Bar. Two souls fated to find each other across lifetimes. Here are just a few of those stories.
Pairing: Ezra x f!Reader. Reader is able-bodied and takes many forms. Described as having hair that can be pinned back in one instance, generally open description in others.
This is my submission for @wannab-urs Hozier Drabble Challenge! My character was Ezra, and my prompt was "Talk" off of Wasteland, Baby!. This was such a fun challenge, thank you so much for organizing it, Gin!
Word Count: ~5.8K (I blew past drabble, I'm so sorry)
Rating: Explicit 18+ / brief fingering / brief handjob / unprotected piv / language / main character death / Minors DNI
A/N: This was so incredibly fun to write and I actually had a huge smile on my face when I finished it that I'm pretty sure is still there. I'm incredibly happy with how this turned out. I've never written for Ezra before, so this was a really interesting exercise in finding the voice of a character that I found quite challenging to get to the heart of. Ezra folks, I really hope I did your boy justice.
Notes on literary references and the source of Orpheus' speech (not written by me) included at the end.
I'm also kind of just launching this super hot off the press, so please forgive any typos you may find and definitely message me about them once you're done reading.
Massive thank you to @beskarandblasters for the beautiful cover art for this story! 💚 Go hit Kel up if you're looking for a lovely header for your work!
Dividers by @cafekitsune!
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Part I: The Darkness of the Night
He’s called Orpheus in this lifetime. Blessed with his mother’s tongue. 
No way of knowing he forever will be.  
A twist of phrase. A glint in the eye. 
A white patch at his hairline is the only mark of his father. As if licked there by the rays of Apollo’s creation.
And he is his mother’s boy, plucking at lyre strings and humming low, branches bending to his ambit as he harmonizes with the rush of Zephyrus’ wings through tall grasses.
But you are a rich distraction indeed.
A distraction perhaps of the West Wind’s own making, for the god has always been a soft touch. 
The breeze toys with your chiton as you drift in and out of dreams. 
Molding gossamer to your form.
A promise of something just for him.
Orpheus reaches to run his knuckles down your arm, awaiting your stirring before he takes fingers over your shoulder, up to cup your cheek.
You turn to press against the warmth of his hand. The pad of his thumb softly skimming your bottom lip.
It sends sparks racing across your skin.
He hums a laugh and fits closer to you, warmer now than the midday sun. You slant your eyes up at him, greeted with a smile before he bends to press a long kiss to your mouth.
His lyre is discarded in the grass now, wildflowers poking up through its strings.
The hand on your cheek moves to pull at his red linen handkerchief around your neck. Tied there in the morn to guard the late-hour transgressions of his lips from judgmental stares. 
Again revealed to him now.
He tucks the cloth into his zoster before his fingers dip under the gauze of your robes, cupping one breast before his lips replace fabric.
“The dryads, my darling,” you whisper a warning into the heated hollow of his mouth.
“Fret not, my love,” he chides with a whisper.
And you whimper a wanton, insincere protest as his hand adjusts to move lower still, nimble fingers inching your hemline up until your thighs are bared to him.
“Surely such creatures would sympathize. Look favorably on newlywed dalliance.”
“For they understand pleasures such as these,” he murmurs as his fingers slip over your core.
"The nymphs haven’t our flesh," you gasp against his curls as he bends to nip at the lush of your breast.
"They have our desires."
"The nymphs know fertile things in ways we never shall, my darling Eurydice," ghosts hot against your skin. 
"And surely they know what comes of something flush with want."
The press of his length against you causes your hips to tilt into his hand as your languid knees fall open.
"To deny that nature is to deny the nymphs themselves, little dove."
He tips his face to brush petal-soft lips against your frantic pulse as he shifts over you.
"For you see, they don’t care."
And the breach of him causes your back to arch, nails digging into the corded muscle of his arms.
You bend enough for your eyes to land on the grove of oak trees.
Unsure if begging forgiveness. 
Or reveling in their jealousy.
But there are other eyes on you this day. Watching the deft way your husband wrings pleasure from your form. 
The way he rolls you over on a bed of meadowsweet to press deeper still.
Holding your body to his as he pulls music from your throat.
Other eyes, indiscreet in their desire and relentless in their pursuit.
Other eyes that lead to your journey across the Styx.
Lead to Orpheus’ torment.
They say there are ways to speak with the dead.
But words will not pacify the poet when the possibility exists to feel you beneath him again.
A body that writhes under his own. Skin soft against the way his burns.
The way you welcome the thick weight of him.
All of him.
Into the warm clutch of your wet cunt.
And Orpheus, driven by his desire and blessed with his mother’s gift, marches boldly into the depths of grief.
“You powers divine of the subterranean kingdom, where all of mortal creation must one day sink to our doom, if you will give me permission to tell you the truth unvarnished by shifty pretenses…”
“I’d hoped to be able to bear my loss and confess that I tried.”
And the dance of his fingers over gut string pricks the ears of the damned as he gives verse to his flesh’s torment.
“In the name of these confines of fear, in the name of this vast abyss and your realm of infinite silence, I, Orpheus, implore you, unravel the web of my dear Eurydice’s early passing.”
A prayer for relief.
“This is the place that we all are bound for, our final dwelling, and yours is the longest reign that the human race must endure.”
Through vulpine teeth.
“Eurydice too, when her due of years has been ripely completed, shall own your sway. Till then, I beg you to let me enjoy her.”
And it moves the hound to cease its lashing. 
Moves the one eternally punished to rest upon his stone. 
Moves the dead of Winter to cave to the tender brush of Spring’s hand.
And you are called forth by a voice between what should be your ears. 
And Orpheus begins to move.
Daring to hope for your sweet clutch again as your footsteps grow louder against stone.
As you take the form he knows, more corporeal with every footfall.
The tenderness in your ankle made manifest with flesh.
And his cock throbs with the thought of you.
His wife.
His muse.
But there’s a pause in the lilting cadence of your step.
Where you’ve stopped to grab for the fallen handkerchief that slipped from his belt.
And the panic flooding his breast moves him against all hope.
And he turns.
And you reach for him.
Before disappearing for the final time.
With forgiveness swimming in your eyes.
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Part II: Pilgrim, Stranger, Wanderer
He’s called Doran in this lifetime.
A name you learn upon ducking into the blacksmith’s workshop with another man’s name on your lips. 
“Callum!” You call, greeted instead by a shock of white hair where blonde should be.
Round brown eyes where you expected green.
“Apologies,” you offer, “I am looking for the smith.”
“Callum was called away to his family in the north country.”
His answering voice like honey just starting to crystalize. 
“I’m called Doran,” he bends his head in customary greeting.
And you note the broad spread of his hand against his chest.
“I apprenticed under Callum, in what feels like a lifetime ago now, I admit.” He offers a small smirk. “He asked that I mind the forge in his absence.”
And you give him your name but not your full belief in this story.
“May I help you with something, dove?”  
You straighten against the rake of his eyes. “My horse requires particular shoes. She is of a larger breed and nothing standard will suit.”
And you turn your back to him leading the way outside.
Doran whistles low at the sight of your mare, a sturdy Friesian glossed blue in the morning sun.
“She is a stunning creature,” he purrs, gently taking his fingers over her strong neck.
Pausing to thumb the iris stamped into the leather of her bridle.
“She’s no delicate thing,” you watch as he circles the horse. “Her grandsire was a draft who pulled the High King’s carriage.”
He fits one massive hoof between his knees, gently brushing away the feathers at her ankle before she starts fighting his touch. 
He adjusts her gently, inspecting her irons before she protests in earnest.
“It’s apparent,” he says, quickly dropping the horse’s foot and jumping aside before she stamps and shakes her head, “that her blood runs hot.”
“She does not favor the touch of men,” you answer, soothing a hand over her hindquarters. “I should have forewarned you.”
“A fair lady is entitled to her opinions when she is that beautiful,” Doran gives her a wide berth.
And takes his eyes over you instead. 
“You are the nobleman’s daughter.” He squints against the sun. “The warrior?” 
“I am.”
“Now,” he pulls a rag from his pocket and rubs at his hands, “I know well the dangers of feminine beauty but a warrioress is altogether new to me. You are not riding into battle soon, I pray?”
“One in my position exists in a constant state of preparation. But there is no rumble of battle on the horizon.” 
His smirk dimples one cheek now.
“I shall have the shoes for your láir within the week. And I shall pray you need not fly away before then, little dove.”
“May I make half the payment now for your services? This was the custom with the old smith.”
“The only payment for my services I can insist upon is merely the chance to sit in your presence a moment longer. Would a fair lady allow a humble blacksmith that much?”
And you see straight through him. Through to the tools on the wall. 
But the broad set of his shoulders under ash-smudged linen. The way he moves, lithe and light on his feet as he dances between his stock of iron bars and his cache of hammers. The bright wideness of his eyes that betray sincerity or something of its kin.
A humble one no. But this one, perhaps.
You drop a pouch of coins onto his anvil. “Where?”
“Meet me here. In the morrow?”
And you tell him “maybe” in the moment as you climb into your saddle.
But you arrive on foot the next morning. 
_____
You meet him three mornings in the week it takes him to forge your mare’s irons. 
On the first day he tells you of his travels through Spain and France. Of scrambling up the masts of the ship that brought him to your shore. 
On the third, he recites The Bard’s work with such nuance that you’re not entirely sure he isn’t the man himself.  
On the fifth day he leads you out to the ruins of an old monastery, up a winding staircase until you’re forced to stand so close on the crumbling parapet that you can feel the heat of him at your back.
Your head spins from something other than the height.
On the seventh day he places four horseshoes, lovingly wrapped in burlap and bound with hemp cord, into the hand he has cradled in his own. 
Warm and worn.
“Can I see you again?” He murmurs, barely a foot between you.
“Is that wise?”
“I have been mistaken for many things, little dove.” He brushes two knuckles over your cheekbone. “Nary a man has included wise among them.”
And you scoff but press into his touch all the same. 
“Forgive me my boldness,” he takes his fingers under your chin, “but I must pose the question.”
“Your mare does not favor the touch of men.”
“But,” he purrs, “do you?”
And your lips form the word “goodnight” but you don’t dare move.
Your eyes flash with a want that does not go neglected. 
“Must you take your leave?” He thumbs your bottom lip.
“I must.”
“But what of my payment,” he hums.
“As I recall you beseeched me pay with my time,” you tilt your head, reveling in the brush of warm breath against your skin, “I dare say I’ve tendered more than my share.”
“And yet I am in debt every time you take your presence from me,” he smirks. “There is something of you, little dove, that I fear has a hold on—”
You steal the words from his lips with your own.
And the unabashed delight dancing over his features when you part makes you kiss him again.
You fling your arm to rest the irons on the first surface you can find, desperate to wind your hands in his hair as his fit to your waist.
He urges your mouth open with the soft slip of his tongue. Humming when you let him inside.
“Little bird,” he pants when he tears his lips from you, forehead thumping hard against yours. “I confess if you stay past this moment I shall not be able to exercise any measure of restraint.”
“Is restraint what you desire?” You angle heavy-lidded eyes up at him. 
“Not in the slightest,” he swallows hard, fist still gripping at your hair. “But you are a gentle lady with a good name, and I—”
“I want you, Doran,” you murmur. “This.”
And his head falls back on his shoulders with a tight, pained hiss.
“I confess I have given in to the fantasy of hearing that fall from this lush mouth many nights since first we met.”
And he expects heat to rise to your cheeks at his admission. But the hand that cradles your neck finds no such warmth.
“Do you know how it works?” He hums low, running his palm down your sleeve to lace thick fingers with yours. “Pleasure?” He brings your knuckles to his lips, eyes glinting in hearthlight. 
And there is sincerity evident in his gaze.
For you are a gentle lady with a good name. 
“Mmm, have you felt this?” He takes your hand, gliding it over the rough wool of his trousers.
To the hard line of his length underneath them. 
Your breath skips.
You are no stranger to amusement of the flesh. But never before have you felt so—much. 
“Feel me, birdie,” he hums, rolling his forehead against yours, “what you do to me. I fear there isn’t any blood left for the rest of me.” He kisses you again. “Only for you. This. Just for you.”
“Your bed, Doran,” you murmur against his mouth.
The hand over yours encircles your wrist and he leads you through to his chambers.
He pulls you tight to his body again, mouths locked as his hands roam your form, unable to settle upon what features his fingers must traverse first. 
You push the braces from his shoulders and he helps you with the buttons of his shirt, your hands skating up the smooth expanse of tanned skin before tugging at your own shirttails.
Your lips find his neck as he unbuttons his trousers. You’ve already stepped out of yours.
“So eager, birdie,” he wraps you in his arms, and your skin burns with his touch. “Surely you’ve seen it with beasts, yes?” He salts your neck with kisses. “It’s quick with them, you see. It doesn’t have to be. Doesn’t have to—”
A moan cuts off his babbling from where you’ve taken him in hand. 
“Although I may yet need to beg your forgiveness,” his hips buck into your hand, “my stamina may yet waiver, upon this first time.”
His tongue slips into your mouth again and finally he finds himself enough to back you up until your thighs meet his bed. 
“It’s been so long. So long, birdie, since I have held a woman.” He leans you back with his body as your hands fly to his hair. “Longer still since I have held one as soft. Supple and pliant as you.” His lips map your collarbone, nose skimming the valley of your breasts as he takes one in hand.
“Never before is a long time indeed.”
He sucks at tender, pebbled skin, drawing an arch in your spine as he shifts to settle between your legs.
“I give you my word that I will indeed take my time with you but I offer a preemptive apology in the instance that I fail upon this first time.” His fingers slip down to toy with your folds, groaning against your ribs at the wetness that he finds there. “Perhaps we are no different than animals indeed.” 
You hear only half of his babbling. 
The static of anticipation under your skin crackles in your ears as your hips tip into his hand. His thumb slides over your clit and you cry out. 
“You see, sometimes a man just needs to bury himself deep.”
He slings your legs over his hips and sits up on his knees, stroking his length with your borrowed wetness as your hands find his thighs.
There’s a dark edge to his voice now. Heavy-lidded eyes locked on the core of you.
“This need. It’s far stronger than I ever will be.”
“Now, Doran, I need—”
He doesn’t make you wait.
And he keeps his word in the moments it matters. Slowly rocking his hips to stretch you open on his cock before your body begs him deeper.
Large palms settle around your waist as he builds in pace, alternating slow with fast. Tenderness with force that drives the bedframe to knock against the wall. When his thumb winds circles against your clit you cry into the night as pleasure rips through you. Greedy lips crash against yours as his weight blankets your reeling form. Fevered moans in his chest thrum through you as he savors the way your walls pulse around him. 
He buries his face against your neck and you feel the bite of his teeth as he snarls, drawing closer and closer to the edge.
He cants his hips just so at the last minute, pulling himself from your heat a moment before his seed streams hot over your thigh.
You soothe a hand over the nape of his neck as his hips spasm with the last of it, wide hand cradling your jaw and tipping your face to his.
Kisses softer now. 
Grateful.
“You are a rare bird indeed,” he murmurs against your ear, lips ghosting over your neck. 
He finds himself enough to rise from bed and kneel on the floor, searching for his handkerchief amongst the tangle of his clothes. 
Yours peeks from the pocket of your trousers, red against brown wool, and you lazily twirl a corner of it around your finger and draw it out.
Doran catches it from your hand, gently cleaning your thigh of his spend before pressing a kiss there. 
“I shall return this to you clean,” he holds it up briefly before craning to press a kiss to your lips. “Don’t trouble a hair on your head with moving, birdie,” he bids you before disappearing to the kitchen.
You trouble the hair on your head all the same as you pull the jostled pins from it, tousling it out of the style your nurse had so meticulously placed it in this morning. 
Doran returns with two glasses and a bottle of whiskey. He fills them as you prop yourself up on your side and he settles on the floor. One arm slung up on the mattress.
Adoration in his eyes as he tips his glass against yours.
“You didn’t tell me this was not your first time. Although I do find it rather a pleasant surprise,” he rubs a hand over the curve of your waist with lust-hazed eyes.
“I could scarcely utter a word amidst your chatter,” you tease with a grin as you take another sip of your whiskey.
His smile dimples his cheek. 
“Are you—”
For once he hesitates to speak.
“Are you promised to anyone?”
You catch his hand and bring it to your lips, pressing a kiss to his palm before he thumbs your cheekbone.
“None but myself. And my duty.”
He hums in acknowledgment. 
You finger the white patch at his hairline, twirling a clinging curl. 
“Angered a horse as a child and she made it known with her hooves,” he offers. “Frightened the color from that spot, I’m afraid.”
“There’s character in it. I’m quite fond.”
He turns in and rests his chin on the bed, hand back to trailing over your curves. 
“Dove?”
And you frown at the nickname.
“I am nothing so delicate, Doran.”
“A shrike then, perhaps,” he smirks, knuckles ghosting over your stomach. 
And something about it makes your heart preen.
“Has a man ever,” his fingers dip lower over your abdomen, “put his mouth on you?” 
It sends a fresh jolt of pleasure racing up your spine. You turn onto your back without thought, basking in his touch as fingers trail over your mound.
“Right here?” The pads of his middle and ring fingers wind softly against your clit.
“No,” you gasp.
“Then may I have the pleasure of being the first?”
And he is the first in a way that has you wishing for him to be the last. 
The only.
_____
Your handmaid was sympathetic to your cause, having been driven from her own house for true love. They share a small cottage on your father’s land now.
Your mother, though she did not know the intricacies of your continued dalliances with the blacksmith, knew the shift in your demeanor was a man’s doing. And she always was a soft touch for love.
Your father.
Was your mother’s concern. 
And so your nurse covers your footsteps with a tickle in her throat that needs clearing.
Ushers you back into your chambers before morning light with a knowing smile.
“I always thought you would make a pass for the stable hand,” she confesses one day as she pours heated water over your hair. “The blacksmith is a surprise.”
“An unpleasant one?”
“Not in the slightest. He’s handsome.”
You can tell there is more to the sentiment. 
“Yes, and?” You ask with a raised brow.
“Rakish.”
“Perhaps rakish is what I need,” as you rub water from your eyes. 
“No lady with sense needs rakish, my darling girl,” she chides as she rubs soap at your scalp. “But a lady with sense should indulge in it from time to time.” 
This draws a smile across your lips.
“He treats you well?”
“He treats me to pleasure the likes of which I have never known. If I offer this kingdom the breath in my breast every time I leave its gates, the least I may be permitted is the choice of a lover.” 
And so she fixes you bitter tea every morning that you return from your rakish man.
_____
The pair of you take to late night meetings at the old groundskeeper’s shack on your parents’ land. 
Where the splashing of the brook over rocks and the churn of the water wheel stifle the way he makes you cry out in pleasure.
And for one so verbose, he does excel at discretion. Raking ashes from the forge through the patch of white in his hair. Bending shadows around himself as he slips from town and into the forest at the edge of the estate. 
The pair of you carry on for months. Until summer sun yields to the darkening blanket of fall. 
A welcome change that lengthens your stolen hours.
“I’d wager that we were lovers in lives past,” he muses one night, lips pressing kisses against a scar on your shoulder. “You know me, little bird. The very depths of me.”
“Perhaps,” you roll over in a luxuriant stretch, “you are easy to know.”
“The Townsfolk would perhaps beg to differ, my darling.” He rests his hand on your cheek as you curl into him.
“Must you go in the morrow?” He asks softly.
“I’m afraid I must. For it is my duty. To ensure the safety—”
“—of the kingdom,” you both finish.
“In that case, I have made you a gift.” He reaches over your form down to the pocket of his cloak, and produces a small canvas pouch.
He sits up with you, pulling your back to his chest, arms around your middle as he watches you. 
A small silver disk threaded on a chain falls into your palm. An iris stamped into the pendant.
“Doran, it’s beautiful. You made this?”
“It is perhaps more crude than a silversmith’s work,” he helps you fasten it around your neck, “but I wanted you to have something to remember my touch in the absence of it.”
You turn towards him such that he can see you in the firelight. Ash on your jaw from where you held him to your neck, perched atop his hips while he ground deep. 
Silver pendant hanging just above the valley of your breasts. 
“Beautiful,” he smiles, pressing a kiss against your lips, thumbing at the smudge on your chin. “I have always thought there to be something undeniably sensual in the furl of iris petals,” he rumbles, “how fitting for them to be your favorite.”
“Your imagination is swift, Doran.”
“You have not beheld what I have, dearheart,” he pulls you down against the bed linens once more.
Holding you against his heart. 
And he is quiet for a long while, fingers running softly over your stomach, nose buried in your hair.
“What of my safety?” He asks. 
A plea to keep you here. 
“What shall I do?”
“I have no doubt you will find another iris that unfurls for you in the meanwhile,” you hum. Eyes slipping closed. 
“There is only one, my love. I shall wait for your return.”
_____
A grand crowd lines the streets as you and the men of your battalion ride towards the village gates the next morning. Full of cheers and blessings.
And you offer the customary wave and nod.
But your heart hammers against chainmail. 
Eyes darting through the crowd.
Willing a shock a white to appear. 
And as you near the gates he greets you.
Warm brown eyes and a grin of pride. He rushes to push through the crowd as you approach on your mare, eyes never leaving each other. 
You slip one foot from your stirrup and he jams one of his into it and stands, briefly.
Long enough to cup the base of your skull and lay a parting kiss against your lips.
You hurriedly pull your red handkerchief from behind your breastplate, pressing it into his palm as he drops away.
Crushing the cloth to his heart as you slip through the gates. 
And it will yield the ire of your father and the warm, joyous tears of your mother.
But they matter not.
For you do not return home under your own power. 
You return home under a shroud. 
Your nurse slips into the night, treading your path with your necklace in hand.
“She was found with her hand over her heart. And this underneath it.”
And the blacksmith. 
Wrought with grief.
Is never seen again.
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Part III: The Helper. The Protector.
He’s called Ezra in this lifetime. 
Brought to this bar by a group of associates keen on celebrating his win in federal court this afternoon. 
And he knows it’s an excuse to drink on the firm’s dime.
He was an associate once too. 
But they helped draft the brief that saved their client $44 million. A few drinks is a small thanks. 
Ezra sticks to the corners, entertaining chatter only when approached. Kindly redirecting the advances of a first year who’s too young to realize flirting with a partner is career suicide.
He’s content tonight to sip his bourbon and observe.
“Okay, but I told you that Bismark case was horseshit and the judge was going to see that!” One associate who is two drinks too deep roars.
“That was so fucking risky, I still can’t believe you put so much weight on that,” another chides.
“Fucking WORKED though!” And the first man spreads his arms wide.
Knocking you into the sip of red wine you were about to take from your seat at the bar. 
“Jesus, fuckin’—” you start before taking a deep breath and glancing down at the patch of deep burgundy beginning to spread on your white blouse. 
Fuck.
“Boys, boys, this lovely lady didn’t consent to hearing your opinions on bullshit 4th Circuit rulings, okay?” Ezra appears, stretching an arm between you and the men. “Let’s be a little more careful, take it to a booth, yeah?”
“Miss, I apologize on their behalf,” he starts and you take another centering breath because you really are not here for some hotshot lawyer’s apologies. This is your spot, and they’re fucking with your Thursday night nightcap.
But the brown eyes you’re met with are wide and sincere.
And something at the very core of you thrums momentarily with something you can’t name. 
“Please, allow me to replace your wine and cover your tab for the night.” He’s already calling the barman over before you can assure him that’s really not necessary because they’ve fucked up your night already and you just want to go home. 
“Could you please arrange a fresh glass of wine for this lovely lady, place her tab on the card I gave you, and may I have a shot glass of white wine. I need the white wine as quickly as you can, please. Thanks very much.”
And you’re still staring at those brown eyes.
Bristling and dumbstruck at the same time. 
“Ezra,” he holds out a hand in belated introduction, and you offer a firm shake and your name in exchange.
“Sorry, a shot glass of white wine?” You quip as the bartender places it in front of Ezra.
He slips a red pocket square from his jacket and dips a corner into the shot glass.
“Apologies, may I?”
And inexplicably you turn in towards him on your bar stool as he dabs at the stain on your shirt. 
Just over your heart. 
“White wine will keep the stain from setting,” he proffers.
You crane your neck to the side, trying to settle your focus on cut glass bottles and not the stranger tending to the fine layer of cotton just above your left breast. 
He’s gentle though. Respectful in a way you perhaps didn’t anticipate. 
He smells of hinoki wood and worn leather.
“Right as rain,” he announces and takes half a step back before offering you the handkerchief. “If you want to hold that there to blot some of the excess.”
“Um, yeah, thank you. Thanks,” you hold the cloth over your heart as the bartender returns with your fresh glass of wine. 
Ezra settles on the barstool next to you.
“How…did you know that?” 
“About the wine?” He swallows a sip of bourbon. “Must’ve read it at some point and it just stuck.”
“Seems you’re a good man to have around in a crisis then,” you smile and tip your glass in his direction. He gently touches the side of his against it, before tapping the heavy base against the bar and taking another sip. 
Everything he does is briefly fascinating. 
“I apologize again for these kids,” he reaches into the inside pocket of his jacket, producing a business card which he slides over to you face-down. “You should be all good with that,” he gestures at the handkerchief, “but I insist on you sending me the dry cleaning bill. If I’ve recalled incorrectly and it does stain, I will procure a replacement for you, you have my word.”
“That’s really not necessary,” you start and yet find yourself unable to stop, “and I’m not even sure it’s possible this is vintage—”
“Alexander McQueen, I know.”
You turn all the way towards him on your barstool now. 
And his eyes glitter with your fascination as he runs his hand through the patch of white at his hairline.
“What are you reading,” he tips his head to the side as if to glimpse the cover of your book but he doesn’t break your gaze. Cheek dimpled with a half smile. 
“Ovid. Metamorphoses.”
“For fun?” There’s a hint of surprise in his voice but it’s far from belittling. 
“It’s…” you start before a smile splits your face, “yeah. For fun.”
And he echoes your grin.
“I re-read it for fun last year. I think the passage about Orpheus’ death is my favorite.”
“Fascinating,” you swallow a sip of your tempranillo. “Why that one?” 
“Well, I believe it’s a commentary on both the unbridled rage of passion and a testament to the obstinate nature of true love.”
“Obstinate?” You incline your head incredulously. “That’s quite a choice.”
“And yet it holds true, does it not? Orpheus, arguably one of the most talented figures in Greek mythology,” and he’s gesturing broadly now, “able to enchant the very souls of feral beasts and move trees to bend their limbs just to be nearer his music.”
He jabs his finger into the bartop between you, “he moved Hades, both the realm and the deity himself, let’s not forget, correct?”
And you nod, amusement playing across your features. 
“The earth and the underworld fell at his feet. And he shunned it all out of love for Eurydice.”
“And so what moral value do you place on obstinacy?” You ask.
“Obstinacy in love is the only way to experience it. To feel it so completely that you forsake everything else. Defy the world. For love. Fidelity to the wife that you betrayed by turning back.” Brown eyes are wide with his conviction.
He adds, “even Shakespeare said let it be virtuous to be obstinate.”
“Okay, in a COMPLETELY DIFFERENT context!” Your turn to erupt now, with arms thrown in the air where you’re met by his wide smile. “You cannot cherry pick that out of Coriolanus choosing to abandon his family out of sheer stubbornness, and frankly, contempt for his own people, to extol the virtues of love! Let it be virtuous to FORSAKE that love, is the whole point of that line.”
And this is the moment.
That Ezra falls in love.
And you’re not far behind.
Time slips from this point on. Patrons file in and out. More wine and whiskey is poured. Associates drunkenly clap him on the back as they make their way home, but none of it registers.
The world spins around the pair of you.
Until finally the bartender insists that he close his tab. 
And you both step out onto a city street wet with the aftermath of a brief summer downpour. 
“Thank you,” Ezra starts, “for the absolute pleasure of your company.”
He holds a tentative hand out, which you shake with a heartfelt “likewise.”
“Oh, your handkerchief,” you pull it from your pocket and hold it out to him. 
“Keep it.” He smiles. 
And you both spin on your heels. Proceeding in opposite directions.
But the warp and weft of the red cotton square that you keep rubbing between your fingers forces you to stop in your tracks. 
You turn around.
And look back. 
Meeting Ezra’s gaze from where he hasn’t moved a step.
He thumbs the corner of his lips, brown eyes locked on yours.
And you both move. 
Urgent steps pulled by Fates’ string.
Colliding as you throw your arms around his neck and he locks you against him with biceps around your ribs.
Lips crashing together with the relief of a thousand lifetimes. 
Lifetimes that you’ve known each other.
Lifetimes that you’ve lost each other. 
And this lifetime. Having found each other again.
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Subpart headings are the meaning of Ezra's name in that section.
Orpheus' monologue included herein in italics is quoted from David Raeburn's 2004 translation of Ovid's Metamorphoses, published by Penguin Classics. The text of this translation just felt so Ezra that I had to include it in that form. If you'd like to hear it read by Hozier himself, head on over to his instagram circa summer 2020's Poetry Fridays for this and some other wonderful work.
This story references the version of Eurydice's death as precipitated by Aristaeus.
Láir means mare in Irish Gaelic.
"Let it be virtuous to be obstinate" is quoted from Coriolanus by William Shakespeare.
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That absolutely does make sense, thank you so much for reading! And thank YOU for making the graphic for this! 💚
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Summary: Orpheus and Eurydice. A Blacksmith and a Warrior. A Lawyer and the Lady He Meets at a Bar. Two souls fated to find each other across lifetimes. Here are just a few of those stories.
Pairing: Ezra x f!Reader. Reader is able-bodied and takes many forms. Described as having hair that can be pinned back in one instance, generally open description in others.
This is my submission for @wannab-urs Hozier Drabble Challenge! My character was Ezra, and my prompt was "Talk" off of Wasteland, Baby!. This was such a fun challenge, thank you so much for organizing it, Gin!
Word Count: ~5.8K (I blew past drabble, I'm so sorry)
Rating: Explicit 18+ / brief fingering / brief handjob / unprotected piv / language / main character death / Minors DNI
A/N: This was so incredibly fun to write and I actually had a huge smile on my face when I finished it that I'm pretty sure is still there. I'm incredibly happy with how this turned out. I've never written for Ezra before, so this was a really interesting exercise in finding the voice of a character that I found quite challenging to get to the heart of. Ezra folks, I really hope I did your boy justice.
Notes on literary references and the source of Orpheus' speech (not written by me) included at the end.
I'm also kind of just launching this super hot off the press, so please forgive any typos you may find and definitely message me about them once you're done reading.
Massive thank you to @beskarandblasters for the beautiful cover art for this story! 💚 Go hit Kel up if you're looking for a lovely header for your work!
Dividers by @cafekitsune!
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Part I: The Darkness of the Night
He’s called Orpheus in this lifetime. Blessed with his mother’s tongue. 
No way of knowing he forever will be.  
A twist of phrase. A glint in the eye. 
A white patch at his hairline is the only mark of his father. As if licked there by the rays of Apollo’s creation.
And he is his mother’s boy, plucking at lyre strings and humming low, branches bending to his ambit as he harmonizes with the rush of Zephyrus’ wings through tall grasses.
But you are a rich distraction indeed.
A distraction perhaps of the West Wind’s own making, for the god has always been a soft touch. 
The breeze toys with your chiton as you drift in and out of dreams. 
Molding gossamer to your form.
A promise of something just for him.
Orpheus reaches to run his knuckles down your arm, awaiting your stirring before he takes fingers over your shoulder, up to cup your cheek.
You turn to press against the warmth of his hand. The pad of his thumb softly skimming your bottom lip.
It sends sparks racing across your skin.
He hums a laugh and fits closer to you, warmer now than the midday sun. You slant your eyes up at him, greeted with a smile before he bends to press a long kiss to your mouth.
His lyre is discarded in the grass now, wildflowers poking up through its strings.
The hand on your cheek moves to pull at his red linen handkerchief around your neck. Tied there in the morn to guard the late-hour transgressions of his lips from judgmental stares. 
Again revealed to him now.
He tucks the cloth into his zoster before his fingers dip under the gauze of your robes, cupping one breast before his lips replace fabric.
“The dryads, my darling,” you whisper a warning into the heated hollow of his mouth.
“Fret not, my love,” he chides with a whisper.
And you whimper a wanton, insincere protest as his hand adjusts to move lower still, nimble fingers inching your hemline up until your thighs are bared to him.
“Surely such creatures would sympathize. Look favorably on newlywed dalliance.”
“For they understand pleasures such as these,” he murmurs as his fingers slip over your core.
"The nymphs haven’t our flesh," you gasp against his curls as he bends to nip at the lush of your breast.
"They have our desires."
"The nymphs know fertile things in ways we never shall, my darling Eurydice," ghosts hot against your skin. 
"And surely they know what comes of something flush with want."
The press of his length against you causes your hips to tilt into his hand as your languid knees fall open.
"To deny that nature is to deny the nymphs themselves, little dove."
He tips his face to brush petal-soft lips against your frantic pulse as he shifts over you.
"For you see, they don’t care."
And the breach of him causes your back to arch, nails digging into the corded muscle of his arms.
You bend enough for your eyes to land on the grove of oak trees.
Unsure if begging forgiveness. 
Or reveling in their jealousy.
But there are other eyes on you this day. Watching the deft way your husband wrings pleasure from your form. 
The way he rolls you over on a bed of meadowsweet to press deeper still.
Holding your body to his as he pulls music from your throat.
Other eyes, indiscreet in their desire and relentless in their pursuit.
Other eyes that lead to your journey across the Styx.
Lead to Orpheus’ torment.
They say there are ways to speak with the dead.
But words will not pacify the poet when the possibility exists to feel you beneath him again.
A body that writhes under his own. Skin soft against the way his burns.
The way you welcome the thick weight of him.
All of him.
Into the warm clutch of your wet cunt.
And Orpheus, driven by his desire and blessed with his mother’s gift, marches boldly into the depths of grief.
“You powers divine of the subterranean kingdom, where all of mortal creation must one day sink to our doom, if you will give me permission to tell you the truth unvarnished by shifty pretenses…”
“I’d hoped to be able to bear my loss and confess that I tried.”
And the dance of his fingers over gut string pricks the ears of the damned as he gives verse to his flesh’s torment.
“In the name of these confines of fear, in the name of this vast abyss and your realm of infinite silence, I, Orpheus, implore you, unravel the web of my dear Eurydice’s early passing.”
A prayer for relief.
“This is the place that we all are bound for, our final dwelling, and yours is the longest reign that the human race must endure.”
Through vulpine teeth.
“Eurydice too, when her due of years has been ripely completed, shall own your sway. Till then, I beg you to let me enjoy her.”
And it moves the hound to cease its lashing. 
Moves the one eternally punished to rest upon his stone. 
Moves the dead of Winter to cave to the tender brush of Spring’s hand.
And you are called forth by a voice between what should be your ears. 
And Orpheus begins to move.
Daring to hope for your sweet clutch again as your footsteps grow louder against stone.
As you take the form he knows, more corporeal with every footfall.
The tenderness in your ankle made manifest with flesh.
And his cock throbs with the thought of you.
His wife.
His muse.
But there’s a pause in the lilting cadence of your step.
Where you’ve stopped to grab for the fallen handkerchief that slipped from his belt.
And the panic flooding his breast moves him against all hope.
And he turns.
And you reach for him.
Before disappearing for the final time.
With forgiveness swimming in your eyes.
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Part II: Pilgrim, Stranger, Wanderer
He’s called Doran in this lifetime.
A name you learn upon ducking into the blacksmith’s workshop with another man’s name on your lips. 
“Callum!” You call, greeted instead by a shock of white hair where blonde should be.
Round brown eyes where you expected green.
“Apologies,” you offer, “I am looking for the smith.”
“Callum was called away to his family in the north country.”
His answering voice like honey just starting to crystalize. 
“I’m called Doran,” he bends his head in customary greeting.
And you note the broad spread of his hand against his chest.
“I apprenticed under Callum, in what feels like a lifetime ago now, I admit.” He offers a small smirk. “He asked that I mind the forge in his absence.”
And you give him your name but not your full belief in this story.
“May I help you with something, dove?”  
You straighten against the rake of his eyes. “My horse requires particular shoes. She is of a larger breed and nothing standard will suit.”
And you turn your back to him leading the way outside.
Doran whistles low at the sight of your mare, a sturdy Friesian glossed blue in the morning sun.
“She is a stunning creature,” he purrs, gently taking his fingers over her strong neck.
Pausing to thumb the iris stamped into the leather of her bridle.
“She’s no delicate thing,” you watch as he circles the horse. “Her grandsire was a draft who pulled the High King’s carriage.”
He fits one massive hoof between his knees, gently brushing away the feathers at her ankle before she starts fighting his touch. 
He adjusts her gently, inspecting her irons before she protests in earnest.
“It’s apparent,” he says, quickly dropping the horse’s foot and jumping aside before she stamps and shakes her head, “that her blood runs hot.”
“She does not favor the touch of men,” you answer, soothing a hand over her hindquarters. “I should have forewarned you.”
“A fair lady is entitled to her opinions when she is that beautiful,” Doran gives her a wide berth.
And takes his eyes over you instead. 
“You are the nobleman’s daughter.” He squints against the sun. “The warrior?” 
“I am.”
“Now,” he pulls a rag from his pocket and rubs at his hands, “I know well the dangers of feminine beauty but a warrioress is altogether new to me. You are not riding into battle soon, I pray?”
“One in my position exists in a constant state of preparation. But there is no rumble of battle on the horizon.” 
His smirk dimples one cheek now.
“I shall have the shoes for your láir within the week. And I shall pray you need not fly away before then, little dove.”
“May I make half the payment now for your services? This was the custom with the old smith.”
“The only payment for my services I can insist upon is merely the chance to sit in your presence a moment longer. Would a fair lady allow a humble blacksmith that much?”
And you see straight through him. Through to the tools on the wall. 
But the broad set of his shoulders under ash-smudged linen. The way he moves, lithe and light on his feet as he dances between his stock of iron bars and his cache of hammers. The bright wideness of his eyes that betray sincerity or something of its kin.
A humble one no. But this one, perhaps.
You drop a pouch of coins onto his anvil. “Where?”
“Meet me here. In the morrow?”
And you tell him “maybe” in the moment as you climb into your saddle.
But you arrive on foot the next morning. 
_____
You meet him three mornings in the week it takes him to forge your mare’s irons. 
On the first day he tells you of his travels through Spain and France. Of scrambling up the masts of the ship that brought him to your shore. 
On the third, he recites The Bard’s work with such nuance that you’re not entirely sure he isn’t the man himself.  
On the fifth day he leads you out to the ruins of an old monastery, up a winding staircase until you’re forced to stand so close on the crumbling parapet that you can feel the heat of him at your back.
Your head spins from something other than the height.
On the seventh day he places four horseshoes, lovingly wrapped in burlap and bound with hemp cord, into the hand he has cradled in his own. 
Warm and worn.
“Can I see you again?” He murmurs, barely a foot between you.
“Is that wise?”
“I have been mistaken for many things, little dove.” He brushes two knuckles over your cheekbone. “Nary a man has included wise among them.”
And you scoff but press into his touch all the same. 
“Forgive me my boldness,” he takes his fingers under your chin, “but I must pose the question.”
“Your mare does not favor the touch of men.”
“But,” he purrs, “do you?”
And your lips form the word “goodnight” but you don’t dare move.
Your eyes flash with a want that does not go neglected. 
“Must you take your leave?” He thumbs your bottom lip.
“I must.”
“But what of my payment,” he hums.
“As I recall you beseeched me pay with my time,” you tilt your head, reveling in the brush of warm breath against your skin, “I dare say I’ve tendered more than my share.”
“And yet I am in debt every time you take your presence from me,” he smirks. “There is something of you, little dove, that I fear has a hold on—”
You steal the words from his lips with your own.
And the unabashed delight dancing over his features when you part makes you kiss him again.
You fling your arm to rest the irons on the first surface you can find, desperate to wind your hands in his hair as his fit to your waist.
He urges your mouth open with the soft slip of his tongue. Humming when you let him inside.
“Little bird,” he pants when he tears his lips from you, forehead thumping hard against yours. “I confess if you stay past this moment I shall not be able to exercise any measure of restraint.”
“Is restraint what you desire?” You angle heavy-lidded eyes up at him. 
“Not in the slightest,” he swallows hard, fist still gripping at your hair. “But you are a gentle lady with a good name, and I—”
“I want you, Doran,” you murmur. “This.”
And his head falls back on his shoulders with a tight, pained hiss.
“I confess I have given in to the fantasy of hearing that fall from this lush mouth many nights since first we met.”
And he expects heat to rise to your cheeks at his admission. But the hand that cradles your neck finds no such warmth.
“Do you know how it works?” He hums low, running his palm down your sleeve to lace thick fingers with yours. “Pleasure?” He brings your knuckles to his lips, eyes glinting in hearthlight. 
And there is sincerity evident in his gaze.
For you are a gentle lady with a good name. 
“Mmm, have you felt this?” He takes your hand, gliding it over the rough wool of his trousers.
To the hard line of his length underneath them. 
Your breath skips.
You are no stranger to amusement of the flesh. But never before have you felt so—much. 
“Feel me, birdie,” he hums, rolling his forehead against yours, “what you do to me. I fear there isn’t any blood left for the rest of me.” He kisses you again. “Only for you. This. Just for you.”
“Your bed, Doran,” you murmur against his mouth.
The hand over yours encircles your wrist and he leads you through to his chambers.
He pulls you tight to his body again, mouths locked as his hands roam your form, unable to settle upon what features his fingers must traverse first. 
You push the braces from his shoulders and he helps you with the buttons of his shirt, your hands skating up the smooth expanse of tanned skin before tugging at your own shirttails.
Your lips find his neck as he unbuttons his trousers. You’ve already stepped out of yours.
“So eager, birdie,” he wraps you in his arms, and your skin burns with his touch. “Surely you’ve seen it with beasts, yes?” He salts your neck with kisses. “It’s quick with them, you see. It doesn’t have to be. Doesn’t have to—”
A moan cuts off his babbling from where you’ve taken him in hand. 
“Although I may yet need to beg your forgiveness,” his hips buck into your hand, “my stamina may yet waiver, upon this first time.”
His tongue slips into your mouth again and finally he finds himself enough to back you up until your thighs meet his bed. 
“It’s been so long. So long, birdie, since I have held a woman.” He leans you back with his body as your hands fly to his hair. “Longer still since I have held one as soft. Supple and pliant as you.” His lips map your collarbone, nose skimming the valley of your breasts as he takes one in hand.
“Never before is a long time indeed.”
He sucks at tender, pebbled skin, drawing an arch in your spine as he shifts to settle between your legs.
“I give you my word that I will indeed take my time with you but I offer a preemptive apology in the instance that I fail upon this first time.” His fingers slip down to toy with your folds, groaning against your ribs at the wetness that he finds there. “Perhaps we are no different than animals indeed.” 
You hear only half of his babbling. 
The static of anticipation under your skin crackles in your ears as your hips tip into his hand. His thumb slides over your clit and you cry out. 
“You see, sometimes a man just needs to bury himself deep.”
He slings your legs over his hips and sits up on his knees, stroking his length with your borrowed wetness as your hands find his thighs.
There’s a dark edge to his voice now. Heavy-lidded eyes locked on the core of you.
“This need. It’s far stronger than I ever will be.”
“Now, Doran, I need—”
He doesn’t make you wait.
And he keeps his word in the moments it matters. Slowly rocking his hips to stretch you open on his cock before your body begs him deeper.
Large palms settle around your waist as he builds in pace, alternating slow with fast. Tenderness with force that drives the bedframe to knock against the wall. When his thumb winds circles against your clit you cry into the night as pleasure rips through you. Greedy lips crash against yours as his weight blankets your reeling form. Fevered moans in his chest thrum through you as he savors the way your walls pulse around him. 
He buries his face against your neck and you feel the bite of his teeth as he snarls, drawing closer and closer to the edge.
He cants his hips just so at the last minute, pulling himself from your heat a moment before his seed streams hot over your thigh.
You soothe a hand over the nape of his neck as his hips spasm with the last of it, wide hand cradling your jaw and tipping your face to his.
Kisses softer now. 
Grateful.
“You are a rare bird indeed,” he murmurs against your ear, lips ghosting over your neck. 
He finds himself enough to rise from bed and kneel on the floor, searching for his handkerchief amongst the tangle of his clothes. 
Yours peeks from the pocket of your trousers, red against brown wool, and you lazily twirl a corner of it around your finger and draw it out.
Doran catches it from your hand, gently cleaning your thigh of his spend before pressing a kiss there. 
“I shall return this to you clean,” he holds it up briefly before craning to press a kiss to your lips. “Don’t trouble a hair on your head with moving, birdie,” he bids you before disappearing to the kitchen.
You trouble the hair on your head all the same as you pull the jostled pins from it, tousling it out of the style your nurse had so meticulously placed it in this morning. 
Doran returns with two glasses and a bottle of whiskey. He fills them as you prop yourself up on your side and he settles on the floor. One arm slung up on the mattress.
Adoration in his eyes as he tips his glass against yours.
“You didn’t tell me this was not your first time. Although I do find it rather a pleasant surprise,” he rubs a hand over the curve of your waist with lust-hazed eyes.
“I could scarcely utter a word amidst your chatter,” you tease with a grin as you take another sip of your whiskey.
His smile dimples his cheek. 
“Are you—”
For once he hesitates to speak.
“Are you promised to anyone?”
You catch his hand and bring it to your lips, pressing a kiss to his palm before he thumbs your cheekbone.
“None but myself. And my duty.”
He hums in acknowledgment. 
You finger the white patch at his hairline, twirling a clinging curl. 
“Angered a horse as a child and she made it known with her hooves,” he offers. “Frightened the color from that spot, I’m afraid.”
“There’s character in it. I’m quite fond.”
He turns in and rests his chin on the bed, hand back to trailing over your curves. 
“Dove?”
And you frown at the nickname.
“I am nothing so delicate, Doran.”
“A shrike then, perhaps,” he smirks, knuckles ghosting over your stomach. 
And something about it makes your heart preen.
“Has a man ever,” his fingers dip lower over your abdomen, “put his mouth on you?” 
It sends a fresh jolt of pleasure racing up your spine. You turn onto your back without thought, basking in his touch as fingers trail over your mound.
“Right here?” The pads of his middle and ring fingers wind softly against your clit.
“No,” you gasp.
“Then may I have the pleasure of being the first?”
And he is the first in a way that has you wishing for him to be the last. 
The only.
_____
Your handmaid was sympathetic to your cause, having been driven from her own house for true love. They share a small cottage on your father’s land now.
Your mother, though she did not know the intricacies of your continued dalliances with the blacksmith, knew the shift in your demeanor was a man’s doing. And she always was a soft touch for love.
Your father.
Was your mother’s concern. 
And so your nurse covers your footsteps with a tickle in her throat that needs clearing.
Ushers you back into your chambers before morning light with a knowing smile.
“I always thought you would make a pass for the stable hand,” she confesses one day as she pours heated water over your hair. “The blacksmith is a surprise.”
“An unpleasant one?”
“Not in the slightest. He’s handsome.”
You can tell there is more to the sentiment. 
“Yes, and?” You ask with a raised brow.
“Rakish.”
“Perhaps rakish is what I need,” as you rub water from your eyes. 
“No lady with sense needs rakish, my darling girl,” she chides as she rubs soap at your scalp. “But a lady with sense should indulge in it from time to time.” 
This draws a smile across your lips.
“He treats you well?”
“He treats me to pleasure the likes of which I have never known. If I offer this kingdom the breath in my breast every time I leave its gates, the least I may be permitted is the choice of a lover.” 
And so she fixes you bitter tea every morning that you return from your rakish man.
_____
The pair of you take to late night meetings at the old groundskeeper’s shack on your parents’ land. 
Where the splashing of the brook over rocks and the churn of the water wheel stifle the way he makes you cry out in pleasure.
And for one so verbose, he does excel at discretion. Raking ashes from the forge through the patch of white in his hair. Bending shadows around himself as he slips from town and into the forest at the edge of the estate. 
The pair of you carry on for months. Until summer sun yields to the darkening blanket of fall. 
A welcome change that lengthens your stolen hours.
“I’d wager that we were lovers in lives past,” he muses one night, lips pressing kisses against a scar on your shoulder. “You know me, little bird. The very depths of me.”
“Perhaps,” you roll over in a luxuriant stretch, “you are easy to know.”
“The Townsfolk would perhaps beg to differ, my darling.” He rests his hand on your cheek as you curl into him.
“Must you go in the morrow?” He asks softly.
“I’m afraid I must. For it is my duty. To ensure the safety—”
“—of the kingdom,” you both finish.
“In that case, I have made you a gift.” He reaches over your form down to the pocket of his cloak, and produces a small canvas pouch.
He sits up with you, pulling your back to his chest, arms around your middle as he watches you. 
A small silver disk threaded on a chain falls into your palm. An iris stamped into the pendant.
“Doran, it’s beautiful. You made this?”
“It is perhaps more crude than a silversmith’s work,” he helps you fasten it around your neck, “but I wanted you to have something to remember my touch in the absence of it.”
You turn towards him such that he can see you in the firelight. Ash on your jaw from where you held him to your neck, perched atop his hips while he ground deep. 
Silver pendant hanging just above the valley of your breasts. 
“Beautiful,” he smiles, pressing a kiss against your lips, thumbing at the smudge on your chin. “I have always thought there to be something undeniably sensual in the furl of iris petals,” he rumbles, “how fitting for them to be your favorite.”
“Your imagination is swift, Doran.”
“You have not beheld what I have, dearheart,” he pulls you down against the bed linens once more.
Holding you against his heart. 
And he is quiet for a long while, fingers running softly over your stomach, nose buried in your hair.
“What of my safety?” He asks. 
A plea to keep you here. 
“What shall I do?”
“I have no doubt you will find another iris that unfurls for you in the meanwhile,” you hum. Eyes slipping closed. 
“There is only one, my love. I shall wait for your return.”
_____
A grand crowd lines the streets as you and the men of your battalion ride towards the village gates the next morning. Full of cheers and blessings.
And you offer the customary wave and nod.
But your heart hammers against chainmail. 
Eyes darting through the crowd.
Willing a shock a white to appear. 
And as you near the gates he greets you.
Warm brown eyes and a grin of pride. He rushes to push through the crowd as you approach on your mare, eyes never leaving each other. 
You slip one foot from your stirrup and he jams one of his into it and stands, briefly.
Long enough to cup the base of your skull and lay a parting kiss against your lips.
You hurriedly pull your red handkerchief from behind your breastplate, pressing it into his palm as he drops away.
Crushing the cloth to his heart as you slip through the gates. 
And it will yield the ire of your father and the warm, joyous tears of your mother.
But they matter not.
For you do not return home under your own power. 
You return home under a shroud. 
Your nurse slips into the night, treading your path with your necklace in hand.
“She was found with her hand over her heart. And this underneath it.”
And the blacksmith. 
Wrought with grief.
Is never seen again.
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Part III: The Helper. The Protector.
He’s called Ezra in this lifetime. 
Brought to this bar by a group of associates keen on celebrating his win in federal court this afternoon. 
And he knows it’s an excuse to drink on the firm’s dime.
He was an associate once too. 
But they helped draft the brief that saved their client $44 million. A few drinks is a small thanks. 
Ezra sticks to the corners, entertaining chatter only when approached. Kindly redirecting the advances of a first year who’s too young to realize flirting with a partner is career suicide.
He’s content tonight to sip his bourbon and observe.
“Okay, but I told you that Bismark case was horseshit and the judge was going to see that!” One associate who is two drinks too deep roars.
“That was so fucking risky, I still can’t believe you put so much weight on that,” another chides.
“Fucking WORKED though!” And the first man spreads his arms wide.
Knocking you into the sip of red wine you were about to take from your seat at the bar. 
“Jesus, fuckin’—” you start before taking a deep breath and glancing down at the patch of deep burgundy beginning to spread on your white blouse. 
Fuck.
“Boys, boys, this lovely lady didn’t consent to hearing your opinions on bullshit 4th Circuit rulings, okay?” Ezra appears, stretching an arm between you and the men. “Let’s be a little more careful, take it to a booth, yeah?”
“Miss, I apologize on their behalf,” he starts and you take another centering breath because you really are not here for some hotshot lawyer’s apologies. This is your spot, and they’re fucking with your Thursday night nightcap.
But the brown eyes you’re met with are wide and sincere.
And something at the very core of you thrums momentarily with something you can’t name. 
“Please, allow me to replace your wine and cover your tab for the night.” He’s already calling the barman over before you can assure him that’s really not necessary because they’ve fucked up your night already and you just want to go home. 
“Could you please arrange a fresh glass of wine for this lovely lady, place her tab on the card I gave you, and may I have a shot glass of white wine. I need the white wine as quickly as you can, please. Thanks very much.”
And you’re still staring at those brown eyes.
Bristling and dumbstruck at the same time. 
“Ezra,” he holds out a hand in belated introduction, and you offer a firm shake and your name in exchange.
“Sorry, a shot glass of white wine?” You quip as the bartender places it in front of Ezra.
He slips a red pocket square from his jacket and dips a corner into the shot glass.
“Apologies, may I?”
And inexplicably you turn in towards him on your bar stool as he dabs at the stain on your shirt. 
Just over your heart. 
“White wine will keep the stain from setting,” he proffers.
You crane your neck to the side, trying to settle your focus on cut glass bottles and not the stranger tending to the fine layer of cotton just above your left breast. 
He’s gentle though. Respectful in a way you perhaps didn’t anticipate. 
He smells of hinoki wood and worn leather.
“Right as rain,” he announces and takes half a step back before offering you the handkerchief. “If you want to hold that there to blot some of the excess.”
“Um, yeah, thank you. Thanks,” you hold the cloth over your heart as the bartender returns with your fresh glass of wine. 
Ezra settles on the barstool next to you.
“How…did you know that?” 
“About the wine?” He swallows a sip of bourbon. “Must’ve read it at some point and it just stuck.”
“Seems you’re a good man to have around in a crisis then,” you smile and tip your glass in his direction. He gently touches the side of his against it, before tapping the heavy base against the bar and taking another sip. 
Everything he does is briefly fascinating. 
“I apologize again for these kids,” he reaches into the inside pocket of his jacket, producing a business card which he slides over to you face-down. “You should be all good with that,” he gestures at the handkerchief, “but I insist on you sending me the dry cleaning bill. If I’ve recalled incorrectly and it does stain, I will procure a replacement for you, you have my word.”
“That’s really not necessary,” you start and yet find yourself unable to stop, “and I’m not even sure it’s possible this is vintage—”
“Alexander McQueen, I know.”
You turn all the way towards him on your barstool now. 
And his eyes glitter with your fascination as he runs his hand through the patch of white at his hairline.
“What are you reading,” he tips his head to the side as if to glimpse the cover of your book but he doesn’t break your gaze. Cheek dimpled with a half smile. 
“Ovid. Metamorphoses.”
“For fun?” There’s a hint of surprise in his voice but it’s far from belittling. 
“It’s…” you start before a smile splits your face, “yeah. For fun.”
And he echoes your grin.
“I re-read it for fun last year. I think the passage about Orpheus’ death is my favorite.”
“Fascinating,” you swallow a sip of your tempranillo. “Why that one?” 
“Well, I believe it’s a commentary on both the unbridled rage of passion and a testament to the obstinate nature of true love.”
“Obstinate?” You incline your head incredulously. “That’s quite a choice.”
“And yet it holds true, does it not? Orpheus, arguably one of the most talented figures in Greek mythology,” and he’s gesturing broadly now, “able to enchant the very souls of feral beasts and move trees to bend their limbs just to be nearer his music.”
He jabs his finger into the bartop between you, “he moved Hades, both the realm and the deity himself, let’s not forget, correct?”
And you nod, amusement playing across your features. 
“The earth and the underworld fell at his feet. And he shunned it all out of love for Eurydice.”
“And so what moral value do you place on obstinacy?” You ask.
“Obstinacy in love is the only way to experience it. To feel it so completely that you forsake everything else. Defy the world. For love. Fidelity to the wife that you betrayed by turning back.” Brown eyes are wide with his conviction.
He adds, “even Shakespeare said let it be virtuous to be obstinate.”
“Okay, in a COMPLETELY DIFFERENT context!” Your turn to erupt now, with arms thrown in the air where you’re met by his wide smile. “You cannot cherry pick that out of Coriolanus choosing to abandon his family out of sheer stubbornness, and frankly, contempt for his own people, to extol the virtues of love! Let it be virtuous to FORSAKE that love, is the whole point of that line.”
And this is the moment.
That Ezra falls in love.
And you’re not far behind.
Time slips from this point on. Patrons file in and out. More wine and whiskey is poured. Associates drunkenly clap him on the back as they make their way home, but none of it registers.
The world spins around the pair of you.
Until finally the bartender insists that he close his tab. 
And you both step out onto a city street wet with the aftermath of a brief summer downpour. 
“Thank you,” Ezra starts, “for the absolute pleasure of your company.”
He holds a tentative hand out, which you shake with a heartfelt “likewise.”
“Oh, your handkerchief,” you pull it from your pocket and hold it out to him. 
“Keep it.” He smiles. 
And you both spin on your heels. Proceeding in opposite directions.
But the warp and weft of the red cotton square that you keep rubbing between your fingers forces you to stop in your tracks. 
You turn around.
And look back. 
Meeting Ezra’s gaze from where he hasn’t moved a step.
He thumbs the corner of his lips, brown eyes locked on yours.
And you both move. 
Urgent steps pulled by Fates’ string.
Colliding as you throw your arms around his neck and he locks you against him with biceps around your ribs.
Lips crashing together with the relief of a thousand lifetimes. 
Lifetimes that you’ve known each other.
Lifetimes that you’ve lost each other. 
And this lifetime. Having found each other again.
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Subpart headings are the meaning of Ezra's name in that section.
Orpheus' monologue included herein in italics is quoted from David Raeburn's 2004 translation of Ovid's Metamorphoses, published by Penguin Classics. The text of this translation just felt so Ezra that I had to include it in that form. If you'd like to hear it read by Hozier himself, head on over to his instagram circa summer 2020's Poetry Fridays for this and some other wonderful work.
This story references the version of Eurydice's death as precipitated by Aristaeus.
Láir means mare in Irish Gaelic.
"Let it be virtuous to be obstinate" is quoted from Coriolanus by William Shakespeare.
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🤣 This is such a fun idea. If I may offer mine...
To be spat on by James Bond himself—what an honor indeed.
Anybody feeling silly? I'm feeling silly. So do this for me. Make a post is just a sentence based on something that really happened to you but use poetic license, then tag it 'based on a true story.' Let me live vicariously through y'all.
I'll go first.
Famous people's butts feel just like normal people's.
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@jeewrites Thank you so so much for reading and sharing. 💚 Also, write that fic! There's plenty of room for more than one here and I'd love to read it!
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Series Summary: Santiago recruits Frankie to contract for a covert government agency that pairs them with danger in more ways than one. Two frayed things toe the line between the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. And maybe, just maybe, they make it out alive. A series of one-shot snippets taking place during and around missions. * - Denotes smut. WIP - Undetermined amount of chapters.
Pairing: Frankie Morales x Sniper!OFC Audrey 'Moose' Goddard. POC OFC. No age gap.
Rating: Explicit 18+ / Minors DNI
Chapter 1 : There was Bogotá That One Time * Chapter 2 : Not So Much 'Squeezing' as 'Crushing' Chapter 3 : The Laughter of Damned Things * Chapter 4: His Other Nickname * Chapter 5: 'That Your Husband?' * Chapter 6: If You're Both Lying to Me, I Swear * Chapter 7: Apologize to Housekeeping * Chapter 8: Benadryl * Chapter 9: Memorize it. Destroy it.*NEW* 3/15 Chapter 10: Read the Last Page - Forthcoming Chapter 11: Untitled - Forthcoming
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Frankie and Audrey Art Commission from the lovely @kenobiwanx Chapter 8 Moodboard Chapter 9 Moodboard
Margay Universe One-Shots
Down, Boy * - Frankie Morales x OFC Audrey Goddard The boys end up at a dive bar on Frankie’s birthday. Snipers are good at pool. Frankie’s not gonna be able to wait until they make it home. Can be read as a standalone.
Margay-Adjacent One Shots - Written about Frankie x Audrey but flipped to reader perspective. Can be read as stand-alones.
Dominica *He’s like this sometimes. When his demons curl their talon-tipped fingers into the back of his skull. That’s when he replaces them with yours. Barbados * You've been carrying on with whatever this is for months, pushing and pulling, until one night Frankie wants control.
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@julesonrecord Admittance granted, I am so thrilled that you enjoyed this!!! That last section was probably my favorite to write and I'm so glad it works. Thank you so so much for reading!
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Talk Refined
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Summary: Orpheus and Eurydice. A Blacksmith and a Warrior. A Lawyer and the Lady He Meets at a Bar. Two souls fated to find each other across lifetimes. Here are just a few of those stories.
Pairing: Ezra x f!Reader. Reader is able-bodied and takes many forms. Described as having hair that can be pinned back in one instance, generally open description in others.
This is my submission for @wannab-urs Hozier Drabble Challenge! My character was Ezra, and my prompt was "Talk" off of Wasteland, Baby!. This was such a fun challenge, thank you so much for organizing it, Gin!
Word Count: ~5.8K (I blew past drabble, I'm so sorry)
Rating: Explicit 18+ / brief fingering / brief handjob / unprotected piv / language / main character death / Minors DNI
A/N: This was so incredibly fun to write and I actually had a huge smile on my face when I finished it that I'm pretty sure is still there. I'm incredibly happy with how this turned out. I've never written for Ezra before, so this was a really interesting exercise in finding the voice of a character that I found quite challenging to get to the heart of. Ezra folks, I really hope I did your boy justice.
Notes on literary references and the source of Orpheus' speech (not written by me) included at the end.
I'm also kind of just launching this super hot off the press, so please forgive any typos you may find and definitely message me about them once you're done reading.
Massive thank you to @beskarandblasters for the beautiful cover art for this story! 💚 Go hit Kel up if you're looking for a lovely header for your work!
Dividers by @cafekitsune!
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Part I: The Darkness of the Night
He’s called Orpheus in this lifetime. Blessed with his mother’s tongue. 
No way of knowing he forever will be.  
A twist of phrase. A glint in the eye. 
A white patch at his hairline is the only mark of his father. As if licked there by the rays of Apollo’s creation.
And he is his mother’s boy, plucking at lyre strings and humming low, branches bending to his ambit as he harmonizes with the rush of Zephyrus’ wings through tall grasses.
But you are a rich distraction indeed.
A distraction perhaps of the West Wind’s own making, for the god has always been a soft touch. 
The breeze toys with your chiton as you drift in and out of dreams. 
Molding gossamer to your form.
A promise of something just for him.
Orpheus reaches to run his knuckles down your arm, awaiting your stirring before he takes fingers over your shoulder, up to cup your cheek.
You turn to press against the warmth of his hand. The pad of his thumb softly skimming your bottom lip.
It sends sparks racing across your skin.
He hums a laugh and fits closer to you, warmer now than the midday sun. You slant your eyes up at him, greeted with a smile before he bends to press a long kiss to your mouth.
His lyre is discarded in the grass now, wildflowers poking up through its strings.
The hand on your cheek moves to pull at his red linen handkerchief around your neck. Tied there in the morn to guard the late-hour transgressions of his lips from judgmental stares. 
Again revealed to him now.
He tucks the cloth into his zoster before his fingers dip under the gauze of your robes, cupping one breast before his lips replace fabric.
“The dryads, my darling,” you whisper a warning into the heated hollow of his mouth.
“Fret not, my love,” he chides with a whisper.
And you whimper a wanton, insincere protest as his hand adjusts to move lower still, nimble fingers inching your hemline up until your thighs are bared to him.
“Surely such creatures would sympathize. Look favorably on newlywed dalliance.”
“For they understand pleasures such as these,” he murmurs as his fingers slip over your core.
"The nymphs haven’t our flesh," you gasp against his curls as he bends to nip at the lush of your breast.
"They have our desires."
"The nymphs know fertile things in ways we never shall, my darling Eurydice," ghosts hot against your skin. 
"And surely they know what comes of something flush with want."
The press of his length against you causes your hips to tilt into his hand as your languid knees fall open.
"To deny that nature is to deny the nymphs themselves, little dove."
He tips his face to brush petal-soft lips against your frantic pulse as he shifts over you.
"For you see, they don’t care."
And the breach of him causes your back to arch, nails digging into the corded muscle of his arms.
You bend enough for your eyes to land on the grove of oak trees.
Unsure if begging forgiveness. 
Or reveling in their jealousy.
But there are other eyes on you this day. Watching the deft way your husband wrings pleasure from your form. 
The way he rolls you over on a bed of meadowsweet to press deeper still.
Holding your body to his as he pulls music from your throat.
Other eyes, indiscreet in their desire and relentless in their pursuit.
Other eyes that lead to your journey across the Styx.
Lead to Orpheus’ torment.
They say there are ways to speak with the dead.
But words will not pacify the poet when the possibility exists to feel you beneath him again.
A body that writhes under his own. Skin soft against the way his burns.
The way you welcome the thick weight of him.
All of him.
Into the warm clutch of your wet cunt.
And Orpheus, driven by his desire and blessed with his mother’s gift, marches boldly into the depths of grief.
“You powers divine of the subterranean kingdom, where all of mortal creation must one day sink to our doom, if you will give me permission to tell you the truth unvarnished by shifty pretenses…”
“I’d hoped to be able to bear my loss and confess that I tried.”
And the dance of his fingers over gut string pricks the ears of the damned as he gives verse to his flesh’s torment.
“In the name of these confines of fear, in the name of this vast abyss and your realm of infinite silence, I, Orpheus, implore you, unravel the web of my dear Eurydice’s early passing.”
A prayer for relief.
“This is the place that we all are bound for, our final dwelling, and yours is the longest reign that the human race must endure.”
Through vulpine teeth.
“Eurydice too, when her due of years has been ripely completed, shall own your sway. Till then, I beg you to let me enjoy her.”
And it moves the hound to cease its lashing. 
Moves the one eternally punished to rest upon his stone. 
Moves the dead of Winter to cave to the tender brush of Spring’s hand.
And you are called forth by a voice between what should be your ears. 
And Orpheus begins to move.
Daring to hope for your sweet clutch again as your footsteps grow louder against stone.
As you take the form he knows, more corporeal with every footfall.
The tenderness in your ankle made manifest with flesh.
And his cock throbs with the thought of you.
His wife.
His muse.
But there’s a pause in the lilting cadence of your step.
Where you’ve stopped to grab for the fallen handkerchief that slipped from his belt.
And the panic flooding his breast moves him against all hope.
And he turns.
And you reach for him.
Before disappearing for the final time.
With forgiveness swimming in your eyes.
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Part II: Pilgrim, Stranger, Wanderer
He’s called Doran in this lifetime.
A name you learn upon ducking into the blacksmith’s workshop with another man’s name on your lips. 
“Callum!” You call, greeted instead by a shock of white hair where blonde should be.
Round brown eyes where you expected green.
“Apologies,” you offer, “I am looking for the smith.”
“Callum was called away to his family in the north country.”
His answering voice like honey just starting to crystalize. 
“I’m called Doran,” he bends his head in customary greeting.
And you note the broad spread of his hand against his chest.
“I apprenticed under Callum, in what feels like a lifetime ago now, I admit.” He offers a small smirk. “He asked that I mind the forge in his absence.”
And you give him your name but not your full belief in this story.
“May I help you with something, dove?”  
You straighten against the rake of his eyes. “My horse requires particular shoes. She is of a larger breed and nothing standard will suit.”
And you turn your back to him leading the way outside.
Doran whistles low at the sight of your mare, a sturdy Friesian glossed blue in the morning sun.
“She is a stunning creature,” he purrs, gently taking his fingers over her strong neck.
Pausing to thumb the iris stamped into the leather of her bridle.
“She’s no delicate thing,” you watch as he circles the horse. “Her grandsire was a draft who pulled the High King’s carriage.”
He fits one massive hoof between his knees, gently brushing away the feathers at her ankle before she starts fighting his touch. 
He adjusts her gently, inspecting her irons before she protests in earnest.
“It’s apparent,” he says, quickly dropping the horse’s foot and jumping aside before she stamps and shakes her head, “that her blood runs hot.”
“She does not favor the touch of men,” you answer, soothing a hand over her hindquarters. “I should have forewarned you.”
“A fair lady is entitled to her opinions when she is that beautiful,” Doran gives her a wide berth.
And takes his eyes over you instead. 
“You are the nobleman’s daughter.” He squints against the sun. “The warrior?” 
“I am.”
“Now,” he pulls a rag from his pocket and rubs at his hands, “I know well the dangers of feminine beauty but a warrioress is altogether new to me. You are not riding into battle soon, I pray?”
“One in my position exists in a constant state of preparation. But there is no rumble of battle on the horizon.” 
His smirk dimples one cheek now.
“I shall have the shoes for your láir within the week. And I shall pray you need not fly away before then, little dove.”
“May I make half the payment now for your services? This was the custom with the old smith.”
“The only payment for my services I can insist upon is merely the chance to sit in your presence a moment longer. Would a fair lady allow a humble blacksmith that much?”
And you see straight through him. Through to the tools on the wall. 
But the broad set of his shoulders under ash-smudged linen. The way he moves, lithe and light on his feet as he dances between his stock of iron bars and his cache of hammers. The bright wideness of his eyes that betray sincerity or something of its kin.
A humble one no. But this one, perhaps.
You drop a pouch of coins onto his anvil. “Where?”
“Meet me here. In the morrow?”
And you tell him “maybe” in the moment as you climb into your saddle.
But you arrive on foot the next morning. 
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You meet him three mornings in the week it takes him to forge your mare’s irons. 
On the first day he tells you of his travels through Spain and France. Of scrambling up the masts of the ship that brought him to your shore. 
On the third, he recites The Bard’s work with such nuance that you’re not entirely sure he isn’t the man himself.  
On the fifth day he leads you out to the ruins of an old monastery, up a winding staircase until you’re forced to stand so close on the crumbling parapet that you can feel the heat of him at your back.
Your head spins from something other than the height.
On the seventh day he places four horseshoes, lovingly wrapped in burlap and bound with hemp cord, into the hand he has cradled in his own. 
Warm and worn.
“Can I see you again?” He murmurs, barely a foot between you.
“Is that wise?”
“I have been mistaken for many things, little dove.” He brushes two knuckles over your cheekbone. “Nary a man has included wise among them.”
And you scoff but press into his touch all the same. 
“Forgive me my boldness,” he takes his fingers under your chin, “but I must pose the question.”
“Your mare does not favor the touch of men.”
“But,” he purrs, “do you?”
And your lips form the word “goodnight” but you don’t dare move.
Your eyes flash with a want that does not go neglected. 
“Must you take your leave?” He thumbs your bottom lip.
“I must.”
“But what of my payment,” he hums.
“As I recall you beseeched me pay with my time,” you tilt your head, reveling in the brush of warm breath against your skin, “I dare say I’ve tendered more than my share.”
“And yet I am in debt every time you take your presence from me,” he smirks. “There is something of you, little dove, that I fear has a hold on—”
You steal the words from his lips with your own.
And the unabashed delight dancing over his features when you part makes you kiss him again.
You fling your arm to rest the irons on the first surface you can find, desperate to wind your hands in his hair as his fit to your waist.
He urges your mouth open with the soft slip of his tongue. Humming when you let him inside.
“Little bird,” he pants when he tears his lips from you, forehead thumping hard against yours. “I confess if you stay past this moment I shall not be able to exercise any measure of restraint.”
“Is restraint what you desire?” You angle heavy-lidded eyes up at him. 
“Not in the slightest,” he swallows hard, fist still gripping at your hair. “But you are a gentle lady with a good name, and I—”
“I want you, Doran,” you murmur. “This.”
And his head falls back on his shoulders with a tight, pained hiss.
“I confess I have given in to the fantasy of hearing that fall from this lush mouth many nights since first we met.”
And he expects heat to rise to your cheeks at his admission. But the hand that cradles your neck finds no such warmth.
“Do you know how it works?” He hums low, running his palm down your sleeve to lace thick fingers with yours. “Pleasure?” He brings your knuckles to his lips, eyes glinting in hearthlight. 
And there is sincerity evident in his gaze.
For you are a gentle lady with a good name. 
“Mmm, have you felt this?” He takes your hand, gliding it over the rough wool of his trousers.
To the hard line of his length underneath them. 
Your breath skips.
You are no stranger to amusement of the flesh. But never before have you felt so—much. 
“Feel me, birdie,” he hums, rolling his forehead against yours, “what you do to me. I fear there isn’t any blood left for the rest of me.” He kisses you again. “Only for you. This. Just for you.”
“Your bed, Doran,” you murmur against his mouth.
The hand over yours encircles your wrist and he leads you through to his chambers.
He pulls you tight to his body again, mouths locked as his hands roam your form, unable to settle upon what features his fingers must traverse first. 
You push the braces from his shoulders and he helps you with the buttons of his shirt, your hands skating up the smooth expanse of tanned skin before tugging at your own shirttails.
Your lips find his neck as he unbuttons his trousers. You’ve already stepped out of yours.
“So eager, birdie,” he wraps you in his arms, and your skin burns with his touch. “Surely you’ve seen it with beasts, yes?” He salts your neck with kisses. “It’s quick with them, you see. It doesn’t have to be. Doesn’t have to—”
A moan cuts off his babbling from where you’ve taken him in hand. 
“Although I may yet need to beg your forgiveness,” his hips buck into your hand, “my stamina may yet waiver, upon this first time.”
His tongue slips into your mouth again and finally he finds himself enough to back you up until your thighs meet his bed. 
“It’s been so long. So long, birdie, since I have held a woman.” He leans you back with his body as your hands fly to his hair. “Longer still since I have held one as soft. Supple and pliant as you.” His lips map your collarbone, nose skimming the valley of your breasts as he takes one in hand.
“Never before is a long time indeed.”
He sucks at tender, pebbled skin, drawing an arch in your spine as he shifts to settle between your legs.
“I give you my word that I will indeed take my time with you but I offer a preemptive apology in the instance that I fail upon this first time.” His fingers slip down to toy with your folds, groaning against your ribs at the wetness that he finds there. “Perhaps we are no different than animals indeed.” 
You hear only half of his babbling. 
The static of anticipation under your skin crackles in your ears as your hips tip into his hand. His thumb slides over your clit and you cry out. 
“You see, sometimes a man just needs to bury himself deep.”
He slings your legs over his hips and sits up on his knees, stroking his length with your borrowed wetness as your hands find his thighs.
There’s a dark edge to his voice now. Heavy-lidded eyes locked on the core of you.
“This need. It’s far stronger than I ever will be.”
“Now, Doran, I need—”
He doesn’t make you wait.
And he keeps his word in the moments it matters. Slowly rocking his hips to stretch you open on his cock before your body begs him deeper.
Large palms settle around your waist as he builds in pace, alternating slow with fast. Tenderness with force that drives the bedframe to knock against the wall. When his thumb winds circles against your clit you cry into the night as pleasure rips through you. Greedy lips crash against yours as his weight blankets your reeling form. Fevered moans in his chest thrum through you as he savors the way your walls pulse around him. 
He buries his face against your neck and you feel the bite of his teeth as he snarls, drawing closer and closer to the edge.
He cants his hips just so at the last minute, pulling himself from your heat a moment before his seed streams hot over your thigh.
You soothe a hand over the nape of his neck as his hips spasm with the last of it, wide hand cradling your jaw and tipping your face to his.
Kisses softer now. 
Grateful.
“You are a rare bird indeed,” he murmurs against your ear, lips ghosting over your neck. 
He finds himself enough to rise from bed and kneel on the floor, searching for his handkerchief amongst the tangle of his clothes. 
Yours peeks from the pocket of your trousers, red against brown wool, and you lazily twirl a corner of it around your finger and draw it out.
Doran catches it from your hand, gently cleaning your thigh of his spend before pressing a kiss there. 
“I shall return this to you clean,” he holds it up briefly before craning to press a kiss to your lips. “Don’t trouble a hair on your head with moving, birdie,” he bids you before disappearing to the kitchen.
You trouble the hair on your head all the same as you pull the jostled pins from it, tousling it out of the style your nurse had so meticulously placed it in this morning. 
Doran returns with two glasses and a bottle of whiskey. He fills them as you prop yourself up on your side and he settles on the floor. One arm slung up on the mattress.
Adoration in his eyes as he tips his glass against yours.
“You didn’t tell me this was not your first time. Although I do find it rather a pleasant surprise,” he rubs a hand over the curve of your waist with lust-hazed eyes.
“I could scarcely utter a word amidst your chatter,” you tease with a grin as you take another sip of your whiskey.
His smile dimples his cheek. 
“Are you—”
For once he hesitates to speak.
“Are you promised to anyone?”
You catch his hand and bring it to your lips, pressing a kiss to his palm before he thumbs your cheekbone.
“None but myself. And my duty.”
He hums in acknowledgment. 
You finger the white patch at his hairline, twirling a clinging curl. 
“Angered a horse as a child and she made it known with her hooves,” he offers. “Frightened the color from that spot, I’m afraid.”
“There’s character in it. I’m quite fond.”
He turns in and rests his chin on the bed, hand back to trailing over your curves. 
“Dove?”
And you frown at the nickname.
“I am nothing so delicate, Doran.”
“A shrike then, perhaps,” he smirks, knuckles ghosting over your stomach. 
And something about it makes your heart preen.
“Has a man ever,” his fingers dip lower over your abdomen, “put his mouth on you?” 
It sends a fresh jolt of pleasure racing up your spine. You turn onto your back without thought, basking in his touch as fingers trail over your mound.
“Right here?” The pads of his middle and ring fingers wind softly against your clit.
“No,” you gasp.
“Then may I have the pleasure of being the first?”
And he is the first in a way that has you wishing for him to be the last. 
The only.
_____
Your handmaid was sympathetic to your cause, having been driven from her own house for true love. They share a small cottage on your father’s land now.
Your mother, though she did not know the intricacies of your continued dalliances with the blacksmith, knew the shift in your demeanor was a man’s doing. And she always was a soft touch for love.
Your father.
Was your mother’s concern. 
And so your nurse covers your footsteps with a tickle in her throat that needs clearing.
Ushers you back into your chambers before morning light with a knowing smile.
“I always thought you would make a pass for the stable hand,” she confesses one day as she pours heated water over your hair. “The blacksmith is a surprise.”
“An unpleasant one?”
“Not in the slightest. He’s handsome.”
You can tell there is more to the sentiment. 
“Yes, and?” You ask with a raised brow.
“Rakish.”
“Perhaps rakish is what I need,” as you rub water from your eyes. 
“No lady with sense needs rakish, my darling girl,” she chides as she rubs soap at your scalp. “But a lady with sense should indulge in it from time to time.” 
This draws a smile across your lips.
“He treats you well?”
“He treats me to pleasure the likes of which I have never known. If I offer this kingdom the breath in my breast every time I leave its gates, the least I may be permitted is the choice of a lover.” 
And so she fixes you bitter tea every morning that you return from your rakish man.
_____
The pair of you take to late night meetings at the old groundskeeper’s shack on your parents’ land. 
Where the splashing of the brook over rocks and the churn of the water wheel stifle the way he makes you cry out in pleasure.
And for one so verbose, he does excel at discretion. Raking ashes from the forge through the patch of white in his hair. Bending shadows around himself as he slips from town and into the forest at the edge of the estate. 
The pair of you carry on for months. Until summer sun yields to the darkening blanket of fall. 
A welcome change that lengthens your stolen hours.
“I’d wager that we were lovers in lives past,” he muses one night, lips pressing kisses against a scar on your shoulder. “You know me, little bird. The very depths of me.”
“Perhaps,” you roll over in a luxuriant stretch, “you are easy to know.”
“The Townsfolk would perhaps beg to differ, my darling.” He rests his hand on your cheek as you curl into him.
“Must you go in the morrow?” He asks softly.
“I’m afraid I must. For it is my duty. To ensure the safety—”
“—of the kingdom,” you both finish.
“In that case, I have made you a gift.” He reaches over your form down to the pocket of his cloak, and produces a small canvas pouch.
He sits up with you, pulling your back to his chest, arms around your middle as he watches you. 
A small silver disk threaded on a chain falls into your palm. An iris stamped into the pendant.
“Doran, it’s beautiful. You made this?”
“It is perhaps more crude than a silversmith’s work,” he helps you fasten it around your neck, “but I wanted you to have something to remember my touch in the absence of it.”
You turn towards him such that he can see you in the firelight. Ash on your jaw from where you held him to your neck, perched atop his hips while he ground deep. 
Silver pendant hanging just above the valley of your breasts. 
“Beautiful,” he smiles, pressing a kiss against your lips, thumbing at the smudge on your chin. “I have always thought there to be something undeniably sensual in the furl of iris petals,” he rumbles, “how fitting for them to be your favorite.”
“Your imagination is swift, Doran.”
“You have not beheld what I have, dearheart,” he pulls you down against the bed linens once more.
Holding you against his heart. 
And he is quiet for a long while, fingers running softly over your stomach, nose buried in your hair.
“What of my safety?” He asks. 
A plea to keep you here. 
“What shall I do?”
“I have no doubt you will find another iris that unfurls for you in the meanwhile,” you hum. Eyes slipping closed. 
“There is only one, my love. I shall wait for your return.”
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A grand crowd lines the streets as you and the men of your battalion ride towards the village gates the next morning. Full of cheers and blessings.
And you offer the customary wave and nod.
But your heart hammers against chainmail. 
Eyes darting through the crowd.
Willing a shock a white to appear. 
And as you near the gates he greets you.
Warm brown eyes and a grin of pride. He rushes to push through the crowd as you approach on your mare, eyes never leaving each other. 
You slip one foot from your stirrup and he jams one of his into it and stands, briefly.
Long enough to cup the base of your skull and lay a parting kiss against your lips.
You hurriedly pull your red handkerchief from behind your breastplate, pressing it into his palm as he drops away.
Crushing the cloth to his heart as you slip through the gates. 
And it will yield the ire of your father and the warm, joyous tears of your mother.
But they matter not.
For you do not return home under your own power. 
You return home under a shroud. 
Your nurse slips into the night, treading your path with your necklace in hand.
“She was found with her hand over her heart. And this underneath it.”
And the blacksmith. 
Wrought with grief.
Is never seen again.
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Part III: The Helper. The Protector.
He’s called Ezra in this lifetime. 
Brought to this bar by a group of associates keen on celebrating his win in federal court this afternoon. 
And he knows it’s an excuse to drink on the firm’s dime.
He was an associate once too. 
But they helped draft the brief that saved their client $44 million. A few drinks is a small thanks. 
Ezra sticks to the corners, entertaining chatter only when approached. Kindly redirecting the advances of a first year who’s too young to realize flirting with a partner is career suicide.
He’s content tonight to sip his bourbon and observe.
“Okay, but I told you that Bismark case was horseshit and the judge was going to see that!” One associate who is two drinks too deep roars.
“That was so fucking risky, I still can’t believe you put so much weight on that,” another chides.
“Fucking WORKED though!” And the first man spreads his arms wide.
Knocking you into the sip of red wine you were about to take from your seat at the bar. 
“Jesus, fuckin’—” you start before taking a deep breath and glancing down at the patch of deep burgundy beginning to spread on your white blouse. 
Fuck.
“Boys, boys, this lovely lady didn’t consent to hearing your opinions on bullshit 4th Circuit rulings, okay?” Ezra appears, stretching an arm between you and the men. “Let’s be a little more careful, take it to a booth, yeah?”
“Miss, I apologize on their behalf,” he starts and you take another centering breath because you really are not here for some hotshot lawyer’s apologies. This is your spot, and they’re fucking with your Thursday night nightcap.
But the brown eyes you’re met with are wide and sincere.
And something at the very core of you thrums momentarily with something you can’t name. 
“Please, allow me to replace your wine and cover your tab for the night.” He’s already calling the barman over before you can assure him that’s really not necessary because they’ve fucked up your night already and you just want to go home. 
“Could you please arrange a fresh glass of wine for this lovely lady, place her tab on the card I gave you, and may I have a shot glass of white wine. I need the white wine as quickly as you can, please. Thanks very much.”
And you’re still staring at those brown eyes.
Bristling and dumbstruck at the same time. 
“Ezra,” he holds out a hand in belated introduction, and you offer a firm shake and your name in exchange.
“Sorry, a shot glass of white wine?” You quip as the bartender places it in front of Ezra.
He slips a red pocket square from his jacket and dips a corner into the shot glass.
“Apologies, may I?”
And inexplicably you turn in towards him on your bar stool as he dabs at the stain on your shirt. 
Just over your heart. 
“White wine will keep the stain from setting,” he proffers.
You crane your neck to the side, trying to settle your focus on cut glass bottles and not the stranger tending to the fine layer of cotton just above your left breast. 
He’s gentle though. Respectful in a way you perhaps didn’t anticipate. 
He smells of hinoki wood and worn leather.
“Right as rain,” he announces and takes half a step back before offering you the handkerchief. “If you want to hold that there to blot some of the excess.”
“Um, yeah, thank you. Thanks,” you hold the cloth over your heart as the bartender returns with your fresh glass of wine. 
Ezra settles on the barstool next to you.
“How…did you know that?” 
“About the wine?” He swallows a sip of bourbon. “Must’ve read it at some point and it just stuck.”
“Seems you’re a good man to have around in a crisis then,” you smile and tip your glass in his direction. He gently touches the side of his against it, before tapping the heavy base against the bar and taking another sip. 
Everything he does is briefly fascinating. 
“I apologize again for these kids,” he reaches into the inside pocket of his jacket, producing a business card which he slides over to you face-down. “You should be all good with that,” he gestures at the handkerchief, “but I insist on you sending me the dry cleaning bill. If I’ve recalled incorrectly and it does stain, I will procure a replacement for you, you have my word.”
“That’s really not necessary,” you start and yet find yourself unable to stop, “and I’m not even sure it’s possible this is vintage—”
“Alexander McQueen, I know.”
You turn all the way towards him on your barstool now. 
And his eyes glitter with your fascination as he runs his hand through the patch of white at his hairline.
“What are you reading,” he tips his head to the side as if to glimpse the cover of your book but he doesn’t break your gaze. Cheek dimpled with a half smile. 
“Ovid. Metamorphoses.”
“For fun?” There’s a hint of surprise in his voice but it’s far from belittling. 
“It’s…” you start before a smile splits your face, “yeah. For fun.”
And he echoes your grin.
“I re-read it for fun last year. I think the passage about Orpheus’ death is my favorite.”
“Fascinating,” you swallow a sip of your tempranillo. “Why that one?” 
“Well, I believe it’s a commentary on both the unbridled rage of passion and a testament to the obstinate nature of true love.”
“Obstinate?” You incline your head incredulously. “That’s quite a choice.”
“And yet it holds true, does it not? Orpheus, arguably one of the most talented figures in Greek mythology,” and he’s gesturing broadly now, “able to enchant the very souls of feral beasts and move trees to bend their limbs just to be nearer his music.”
He jabs his finger into the bartop between you, “he moved Hades, both the realm and the deity himself, let’s not forget, correct?”
And you nod, amusement playing across your features. 
“The earth and the underworld fell at his feet. And he shunned it all out of love for Eurydice.”
“And so what moral value do you place on obstinacy?” You ask.
“Obstinacy in love is the only way to experience it. To feel it so completely that you forsake everything else. Defy the world. For love. Fidelity to the wife that you betrayed by turning back.” Brown eyes are wide with his conviction.
He adds, “even Shakespeare said let it be virtuous to be obstinate.”
“Okay, in a COMPLETELY DIFFERENT context!” Your turn to erupt now, with arms thrown in the air where you’re met by his wide smile. “You cannot cherry pick that out of Coriolanus choosing to abandon his family out of sheer stubbornness, and frankly, contempt for his own people, to extol the virtues of love! Let it be virtuous to FORSAKE that love, is the whole point of that line.”
And this is the moment.
That Ezra falls in love.
And you’re not far behind.
Time slips from this point on. Patrons file in and out. More wine and whiskey is poured. Associates drunkenly clap him on the back as they make their way home, but none of it registers.
The world spins around the pair of you.
Until finally the bartender insists that he close his tab. 
And you both step out onto a city street wet with the aftermath of a brief summer downpour. 
“Thank you,” Ezra starts, “for the absolute pleasure of your company.”
He holds a tentative hand out, which you shake with a heartfelt “likewise.”
“Oh, your handkerchief,” you pull it from your pocket and hold it out to him. 
“Keep it.” He smiles. 
And you both spin on your heels. Proceeding in opposite directions.
But the warp and weft of the red cotton square that you keep rubbing between your fingers forces you to stop in your tracks. 
You turn around.
And look back. 
Meeting Ezra’s gaze from where he hasn’t moved a step.
He thumbs the corner of his lips, brown eyes locked on yours.
And you both move. 
Urgent steps pulled by Fates’ string.
Colliding as you throw your arms around his neck and he locks you against him with biceps around your ribs.
Lips crashing together with the relief of a thousand lifetimes. 
Lifetimes that you’ve known each other.
Lifetimes that you’ve lost each other. 
And this lifetime. Having found each other again.
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Subpart headings are the meaning of Ezra's name in that section.
Orpheus' monologue included herein in italics is quoted from David Raeburn's 2004 translation of Ovid's Metamorphoses, published by Penguin Classics. The text of this translation just felt so Ezra that I had to include it in that form. If you'd like to hear it read by Hozier himself, head on over to his instagram circa summer 2020's Poetry Fridays for this and some other wonderful work.
This story references the version of Eurydice's death as precipitated by Aristaeus.
Láir means mare in Irish Gaelic.
"Let it be virtuous to be obstinate" is quoted from Coriolanus by William Shakespeare.
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I do not have adequate words to convey how absolutely EXQUISITE this is!!! Your Ezra is spot on, the world-building is perfection, and the smut? ���� Gorgeous. Amazing. Thank you so much for sharing this with us.
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rating: explicit 18+ pairing: ezra x f!reader word count: 8K summary: you request a vacation for your birthday. With the rain and a few drinks, you get a lot more than you asked for.  warnings: alcohol drinking, minor age gap (less than 10 years), oral (f!receiving), fingering, smut, possessive!Ezra, dom!Ezra, one booty smack, dirty talk for real, smut, pining, a bit of angst, referenced/implied orphanhood, made a religious sex pun and i'm so proud of myself a/n: so @morallyinept requested this and it turns out when I write for a boy for the first time, it can’t be less than 7K – whoops. i've gotten ezra requests from some moots before, so i hope this lives up to your expectations! **massive thanks to @toomanytookas for editing and providing the initial validation so i don't post in a mouth-frothy haze. I've never had a beta like you before and I genuinely feel like I've turned over a new chapter in my fic writing. thank you!
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Your feet in the clear blue water, the humidity like a wet tongue on your skin, you scratch a nail under the tab of a mustard yellow can, crack it open, and drink. The bite of alcohol dulled by the carbonation, you take several pulls, drawing out the mid-afternoon buzz from two other cans and whetting your mouth in the heat of the jungle day. You lean back on your elbows into the sponge-soft grass, and let out a massive sigh. 
A few feet ahead of you, on a repurposed inflatable reentry tube, your long-time privateer partner chuckles, the sound deep in the back of his throat as he floats by. Thick fingers and exposed heels dragging along in the crystal water, he greets the yellow sun like an old friend – arms wide, chest out, a lazy smile on his face. A damp rag – supposedly clean – sits over what you know to be dark-earth eyes, every other inch of him relishing in the inevitable sun tan. 
“I see your aaahhh, pet, and I raise you a mhmm.” The rubber squeaks as he adjusts, tips his scarred chin up to the cloudless sky and rests his head back. “Kevva said there’d be days like this, but I think the old hag mighta left out a thing or two.” 
You grin, the wet heat of Banu 8’s lowlands drawing sweat droplets onto your hairline at the back of your neck, settling thick behind your ears where it co-mingles with the drunk haze loping around in your brain. You watch Ezra with his bare arms, hairy legs, and prominent nose turned towards the divinity he’s so fond of invoking and the thought crosses your mind – again:
Shit, he’s so fucking hot. 
Oh, bad thought.
You drop your gaze, pressing the cold aluminum lip of the can to your mouth, drinking quicker than you probably should, anything to distract you from your partner as he obliviously floats by. 
For our sake, you silently beg the hungry little creature that whines and snaps at the image of a shirtless Ezra, please fuck off. 
While Ezra whistles a vaguely familiar tune, terribly off-key, you scoop up the cool lagoon water and dribble it over your hot knees, then your thighs, dampening the rims of your make-shift shorts just enough to cool them without leaving them vulnerable to a permanent state of moisture due to the high humidity. You flick the last drops of the water onto your chest, your white cotton bra choked to your skin. A final effect, you press the cool can to the thrumming pulse on your neck, closing your eyes with a relieved grunt, taking the time to enjoy the sensation of the cold metal against the rapid beat in your throat. 
From the water, you hear an unsettled grunt and you open your eyes to find that same shirtless Ezra staring at you, the rag now curled in one hand against the rubber float. He swallows, looks at something past your ear, and again tries to adjust in the sticky rubber float without flipping himself over, his hands falling into his lap. 
“Neptune, dear, would you do us the favor of tossing over one of those cans? I’m parched. I think my lovely skin is drying out.”
Neptune. His favorite nickname for you. You never got any real explanation from him as to why you got that name, other than after you’d officially joined his crew, you told him you came from a blue planet in a far off system. But that was often the way of things: Ezra did something and you didn’t question why. From that simple truth, you learned about how to repair and rebuild the entire electrical system from a drop pod. You learned, in excruciating detail, the parts and mechanics of a thrower, so much so that you could almost identify the model number at a glance. You learned about which corporate dig sites to avoid, which made for easy marks, and which would draw the eye and ire of entities hardly worth the trouble. 
Being out on your own since you aged up out of the orphanage had not gone the way you hoped and life had not been so kind as to teach you any other way to survive. Ezra had found you in the back of a red spice market, cornered and slurping down the last few of your credits from a muck bowl that you had vastly overpaid for.
For whatever reason, he offered you a job on the spot, despite you having nothing to offer him. and no experience in anything except cleaning prophylaxiams and staying out of the way.
And yet, he has been far kinder than life, or anyone else, had ever been to you. 
As a result, loyalty was only a fraction of what you felt for him. What had begun as overwhelming adoration had grown hot to the touch, slippery between your fingers at night, and perhaps – what you feared most of all – obvious. 
Yet when Ezra looked at you with a smile on his face, it was only comradery he wished to share with you, certainly not his bed. He shared it with practically every other bi-pedal humanoid you came across, but not you. And this you had to accept. And you did. 
But being a little drunk made it that much harder to remember where to keep your hands to avoid being burned.
“Sure, Ez.” You tuck your legs out from the cool water and dig around in the canvas bag at the base of the white nut tree. Most of the ice had melted into the bright green grass around the lagoon, but a few of the cans were still cold. You’d probably tease Ezra later for skimping on the insulation bucket the provisions store the port offered, but he had been so eager to get to the camp ground after spending an “exceedingly exorbitant amount of time stacked up against human drivel on public transportation”. One lopsided grin, and you’d give him the world. 
“Ez–,”
He lifts the rag, glancing at you over his shoulder, hands cupped as the can flies through the air. The cold metal presses against the overheated skin on his chest and he hisses. Eyeing the can ruefully, he cracks it open and drinks deep. You busy yourself with sliding to the edge of the pool again to keep from watching his throat move. 
Ezra finally pulls back, smacking his lips, with a pleased groan. He wets the rag again and dramatically flops it over his eyes. Hidden from his view, you watch the roll of water down his temples, his neck, his chest. 
“Name anything better than this, Neptune, I beg you. Free from obligation or assignment on commission. Where my only moral imperative is to drink as many of these as I can and remind you how beautiful you are. Which . . .” he tilts the bottom of the can towards you, head still tilted back on the raft and dripping rag covering his vision, “fantastic, by the way.” 
Having stifled your blush while under his watchful gaze about three or four other times today, without him looking, you flush so hard and fast you go lightheaded. Beautiful, he said. You drink more carbonated alcohol to choke back your rising heart, your eyes skim over the curve of his nose, a drop of sweat as it peaks on his forehead. You can’t linger over him too long; he has a six-sense about you – unable to know what you’re thinking but that you’re overthinking all the same. 
“Was this worth the trip on public transportation, Ez?” Your ankles stir the water again. 
“I could do this all day,” he sighs contently, bringing a warm smile to your face. “And definitely all night.”
Maybe you’ll both be so sun-drunk later tonight, you’ll fall asleep together on the pallet on the floor. Of course, by nightfall, someone will have to come to their senses and you’ll be tucked back into your separate sleeping bags, but maybe, as a present you couldn’t possibly ask for, you can just nap together.
With the bottom plush of your lip stuck between your teeth, you rim the metallic edge of your can with your nail, ankles spinning slow circles in the water. 
“Thank you, Ezra,” you say quietly, “for the best birthday I’ve ever had.” 
It began as a sort of joke one night on the volcanic hotspring moon of Wulkan after a twelve hour shift hunting through the black ash in search of fire pearls. The job was rather rushed, and Ezra had his reservations going into it, but fire pearls were a near certainty and you both needed a boost after a jump exchange had gone a little cockeyed. Sweat dripping from his temples, the provided water packs in the harvest suits doing just enough to keep him from passing out from heat exhaustion, he extended the skein of hydro-electric towards you across the narrow lane between your cots and asked you if you could be anywhere right now, any system, where would you be.
“Somewhere so cold I freeze my tits clean off,” you said with a sigh and wiped your own sweat-drenched forehead. You could smell yourself after two days of sweating profusely, but your stench in comparison to the rest of the crew, including Ezra, barely registered any more. You took a sip as Ezra laughed.
“A grievous crime against humanity and all its luscious gifts, but I get your meaning. Anywhere else?”
“Water.” This was said with more conviction, so much so it turned Ezra’s head towards you. “The few memories I have of my home planet and my parents, we were always near or in water. An ocean, maybe. I’m not sure. But I remember being really, really happy and I think being near water . . . it would make me happy again.”
You handed the skein back to Ezra, something unreadable in his gaze. He took it back from you, his fingers dark from the ash that clings to everything. On the other side of the tent, the rest of your crew and other teams mill about, yelling, with cutlery clattering as the camp gets ready to slow for the night, a graveyard shift picking up in just a few hours. 
Ezra’s eyes are as dark as the ash you’ve been shifting through the past two days.
“Then you shall have it, Neptune.” He said, quietly. “I’d give you the fucking galaxy if I could.” 
Those words often came to you in the crevice between sleep and wakefulness, when your mind was idle and the reins that tightly bound your affection for him loosened without a conscious grip. When you thought you weren’t being watched. 
The flat of his foot hooking behind your ankle breaks you from your reverie. Cast into shadow by the wide, rubbery palm leaves above your head, he looks at you curiously. 
“That look of deep consternation is giving me a headache. Spill.” 
With a faint smile, you gently bump his knee with your own. “Nothing, Ez. I’m just glad we get to take a break from it all. I can’t remember the last time I . . . the last time we’ve just had nothing to do.” 
He cocks his head as his gaze crawls up your ankle, your shin, to your knee. You think it might linger on your thigh before it bounces to your face. You tighten your grip on the hot, expansive feeling behind your ribs and stare back at him.
“Then that’s a black mark against me, as the leader of this clan.” His mouth curls, eyebrow arching as he talks, knowing that statement has been a point of playful contention between you two for years. “A good overseer knows when to crack the bullwhip and when to let it rest.”
“Well, a better overseer knows when to demand that her team rests, because sometimes they have no idea what’s good for them.” 
His foot rotates behind your ankle, his toes brushing against your calf, bringing your attention to your own body part in the water. Your legs are hairy, nearly as much as Ezra’s, and you haven’t shaved your pits in possibly a decade. Ezra once brought home a professional nightwalker, one from the Upper City, to the derelict flat you’d been sharing for two weeks as you offloaded your haul to the under markets. You never forgot how smooth her skin had been, shaved clean and smelling of moon lilies. That scent permeated the small space for weeks afterward. Even now, just the sight of moon lilies makes you nauseous. 
His aversion to you runs much deeper than physical aesthetics, even if you can’t help but wonder sometimes if becoming as smooth and hairless as the nightwalker might change his mind.
“Observational to a fault as always, Neptune.” The ball of his foot rests briefly between your legs before he pushes off from the spongy lip of the lagoon’s edge. He floats back into the sun, his head shaking slightly, a smile drained of amusement on his lips. He inhales as the sun crests over his forehead and he glances up at the blue sky. “I have no idea what’s good for me.”
Something about his tone, the way he turns away from you, scratches a very raw place inside of you – a place that fears and obsesses over abandonment. You wouldn’t survive it if he abandoned you, if he left you to fend for yourself one day. Logically, you know he would never do that – he has sworn up and down to your face that that notion is fundamentally ludicrous to him – but the anguish of him silently rejecting you from his bed again and again and again makes that fragile place inside you bleed red. 
You stand up, swipe another can from the bag, and move towards the waterfall. 
“I’m taking a hike.”
You feel his eyes on the backs of your thighs as you march towards the gentle incline.
“Be safe, Neptune,” he calls softly.
For a fleeting second, you wish he had made you stay.
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The first fat raindrop splashes against your cheek and wakes you from a humid, irritated nap. You’re scowling by the time you open your eyes to several more wet droplets as they splatter against your neck, your forehead and you sit up, even more frustrated than when you fell asleep. The last sticky tendrils of dreams snap and pop as you pull yourself onto your feet, back hunched and arm held high against the steamy sprinkle. A crack of lightning, then a growl of thunder, and the sky splits open, drenching you in seconds. With a snarl of your own, you snatch up the empty can from the grass next to you and make for your camp down the hill. As you crest the top, you see a figure standing outside the tent, back tense and hand raised as if searching through the twilight gray downpour. 
Normally, the thought of warming up beside Ezra in your yellow tent fills you with something inexplicable, the grime and load of the day melting from your shoulders, but your buzz from earlier has thickened, made worse by the heat, the emotions in your heart all gummed up and smashed together. The sight of him cranks up your irritation high in your ears. With a huff, you concentrate on a smooth slide down the hill without breaking your ankles and not the fire rising in your gut. 
But the rain and the distance apart has only stoked his own outrage.
“Where the hell were you?” He snaps as you yank back the velcroed tent flap. He is dripping from head to toe in jungle rain as he follows closely behind you into your small space. You ring the water from your hair into a corner and scowl up at him. 
“I fell asleep. The rain woke me up. I came back as soon as I could.” 
His eyes narrow, water rolling off his bare shoulders as if he still stood out in the downpour. The droplets pat pat pat against the tarp floor as he snatches up a fiber towel and dries himself off, scowling all the while. 
“I searched for you, calling your name up and down this fuckin’ jungle and I didn’t hear a peep. What if something had gone wrong? What if you’d been hurt?”
“Then I would have fucking dealt with it, Ezra.” You stomp to your feet, neck hot from his patronizing gaze. Hands on his hips, you feel like you’re being scolded. “I can take care of myself.” 
One dark eyebrow arches mockingly, the scar on his cheek twisting in his scowl.
“And you expect me to lay about, twiddling my thumbs, while I wait for you to return or until you deem it appropriate for me to fret over your corpse?” 
That patch of blonde hair is a shade darker, drenched and pressed flat against his forehead. His bare chest is littered with scars and divots where chunks of flesh had been torn away. His skin is a reflection of the hard life he lives. You doubt you’d look any different if you’d seen yourself in a mirror. 
“We are partners, Ez,” you grind out between locked teeth. “Equals, alright? I am not your little sister for you to fuss over and you are not my keeper.” 
At that, the indignant swell of his chest deflates and the anger in his eyes flickers before fading out. 
“You are beyond capture,” he mutters, eyebrows down but gaze distant. “I’d never dream of keeping you, Neptune.” 
Again, it’s his phrasing that hurts most of all. You glance away, the backs of your eyes growing hot and tight, drying out despite the sticky moisture warming the inside of the tent. But then his hand around your elbow startles away the tears forming in the corners of your eyes. 
“You are the most important thing to me in the entirety of this world and the next,” he says softly, earth eyes searching your face. “I came on too strong, I know that, but the idea that you’d ever be gone from my side for any amount of permanence . . . well, it’s been a lifetime since I’ve felt fear like that.” 
His frown goes belly-up, a hopeless smile on his face. “I wasn’t aware I even still could.” His calloused thumb brushes your skin, skin that nearly catches fire from the rough drag of scar tissue, before he lets his hand drop. Your own curls into a fist at your side, a tremor rattling the bones of your wrist in an effort to keep from reaching up and touching that moon-shaped scar you dream about at night.
“I’m not going anywhere, Ez. You taught me enough to survive in a world like this. But you’re going to have to trust me.”
That smile goes wan, sickly. “That’s the problem, dear heart, I trust you with my life.” 
He swallows, as if suddenly bashful to make direct eye contact with you. He clears his throat before rummaging around in his canvas bag for dry clothes. He yanks a black, sleeveless shirt on over his head before setting up the materials for a flameless pocket fire. 
“Since my dreams of showing you something called a barbeque have been quite literally rained out, we’ll finish off the rest of the dredge pack tonight. But come first light, I’ll fix you breakfast so succulent, the smell alone’ll make your mouth water. How does that sound, Neptune?”
He barely slows to breathe as he seamlessly switches topics from breakfast to another meal made at camp without looking up or stalling in his prep for dinner, hands almost disconnected from the humming of his mouth – one so methodical, the other like a channel rat on fire. 
“– and the thing was no one was really sure enough what a squatter egg looked like when it goes bad. But being out in a cramped hold-out for two weeks where it was so dark, your own ass and someone else’s had no demarcation, well, there wasn’t a single peep of dissimilitude . . .”
Words strung together so quick and so melodic, it was always incredibly easy to fall into a sort of easy trance around Ezra. Sounds and syllables just sounded right coming out of his mouth and after a while, that trance became a state of repose, Ezra’s own sense of calm filtered to whoever was also in the room. But not to you, not right now.
After spending immeasurable time with less than half a space between you in cramped tents and in claustrophobic dig sites, you could read the tension on the lines of his body as well as the lines on the palm of your hand. 
“Neptune? You with me?”
Ezra glances up at you, always aware of you and your movements like the twinge on a spider’s web, a signature smile that has always seemed to shine a bit brighter for you plastered over his face. The anger was the only thing holding you up and with it gone, you can feel your bruised heart twinge as it folds over itself. 
“Yeah, that sounds good. I’m gonna switch out of these wet clothes before we eat, okay?”
He hums, nodding, eyes fixating on the steadily boiling water in front of him as you turn away to the other side of the tent, by your pallet and traveler’s pack. As further evidence that he feels nothing but companionship for you, you feel his eyes remain nowhere near you as you strip off your shorts and bra for a sun-warm suit. Then again, you’d like to think it’s kind of scandalous to be changing in front of him, but you’d both seen each other naked more times than you could count – there is no modesty in foxholes. The space between your hips and your thighs feel sticky from sweat and the slick rain, the curve of your spine warm and flushed. The zipper is loud in the silence. 
You’re braiding your damp hair away from your face when he sighs and the noise makes you look back at him.
“Answer me honestly, if you’ve ever cared for me a tick. Do you regret it?”
His eyes are sorrowful, worried, brow fixed down. Ezra is not, and never has been, a man prone to melancholy. His wrists rest loosely over his knees, gaze deep in the bubbling bone broth. The rain outside taps insistently at the tarp. 
“Regret what?” 
“Coming with me and taking on this life. It’s not an easy one,” he says quietly. “I should have offered you another choice, that day in the market. But one look at you and I . . . I was willing to trust you with my life, Neptune – far, far too soon. Even at my best, you make me irrational.”
You watch him, his broad shoulders moving, as he scoops up the hot, dark liquid into two bowls, and joins you by the entrance to the tent. You pin back the flap as he settles, the scent of humid rain immediately flooding your mouth, the pattering sound now twice as loud. Wordlessly, he hands you a spoon before digging into his own bowl. 
The heat of the soup burns away all the silly, impossible things sitting on your tongue. You sit in silence, his presence never rushing you to answer before you are ready. As you eat, you stare out at the dark lagoon, where you had both been only hours ago, the clear water murky beneath the downpour. 
“No, Ezra, I don’t regret it.” He stills, as if surprised you’re answering him now, mid-meal. He lowers the bowl to his lap, eyes trained on you. “You saved my life, more times than I can count.” 
Your words loosen the rigid lock of his shoulders. He grins. “As you’ve said, you would have been just fine without me.”
Your vision goes blurry. You pin him with such a stare, you watch the blood rush from his face.
“But it would have been only half a life.”
“Don’t kid about that, Neptune, it’s not –,”
“I’m serious.” You put your bowl down and rub your eyes with your sleeves. Of all the ways he hasd seen you bare and naked, he’s never seen you this vulnerable. “I don’t wanna do any of this without you. I want you, Ezra.”
“You have me, dear heart, you have me.”
“Not like that and you know it.” You watch as understanding rolls across his face. His lips part, eyes wider. He swallows and you stare at the ceiling, cheeks suddenly wet and hot. He said he’d never leave you, but what if this is the thing that finally does it? Could he work with you, knowing just how deeply you love him, and not feel an ounce of disgust? “You told me once sex is just a way to pass the time, but never, not once, have you ever even tried to pass the time with me.” 
He swallows, deeper this time, jaw locked, his eyes fluttering with the force of it. He brings his knees to his chest.
“Because it wouldn’t just be passing time with you.” 
In that moment, you’re grateful for the rain, for the sound of something to fill the silence. 
You stare at him, cross-legged in front of the open corner of this yellow tent, abandoned bowls growing colder, but he sits with his leg up, knee to his chest, as if to ward you off. Ward off whatever is growing in your gaze, under the flat bone over your heart in your chest. But whatever is stifling the air in your lungs, is warming his eyes past the point of comfort, barrelling towards expletives and the crass, the lewd and depraved. You cannot go back to having him look at you any other way. 
That look loosens every line in his face when you crawl into his lap, your knees around his hips. The backs of your thighs go damp, even through the suit, pressing down onto his still-damp shorts, and you think his breathing has quickened.
His massive palm hovers near your cheek, unwilling or unable to pull you forward or push you back, his oak eyes searching your face for signs of discomfort as if he had somehow dragged you across the tarp floor. 
“Neptune,” he mumbles as he focuses on the curve of your bottom lip, “this is unwise. You don’t know what you’re asking for.” 
You can feel the hard curve of his shoulders as you follow the lines of his arms and settle them on his collarbone. Nothing has happened that can’t be undone – not yet. Your perfect, vicious Ezra hasn’t pressed you flat on your back like you thought he would at the hint of sex. You could return with your dignity tomorrow morning, this moment never spoken of again, and he’d let you have that. The shake of his elbow with his palm against the tarp is the only indication that something might be unsettling to him. 
But it is your birthday after all. Maybe he’d let you have this one thing. He doesn’t know you’ll die without it.
“If you don’t want this . . . if you don’t want m-me, then say something. Push me away and I’ll never bring it up again.” You cup the sides of his neck as your hips shift forward, closer to him. The air in your lungs tightens, breath coming in shallow pants. Only then does he drop your gaze and fixate on your encroaching heat. “At least then I’ll know.” 
There. Out loud. It’s been said, heard above the deluge of rain against the tent and the jungle outside. 
His palm finally settles on your cheek. It brings a sense of wholeness to you like you’ve never known. Your eyes flutter shut at the sensation, a breathy exhale pours out of your mouth. His thumb catches the plush curve of your bottom lip and he draws it towards your chin, his own mouth open, enraptured. 
“Sweet thing, how have you not always known?” 
His mouth is humid against yours, as if he swallowed the jungle while looking for you, his thumb releasing your lip to capture with his own. The tip of his pointer finger massages the hinge of your jaw, just below your ear, and he manipulates your head until your mouth parts like he wants.
His tongue skims your upper lip, a tentative exploration into the unknown rewarded with a low groan that is warmed by the heat coiling low in your hips. You taste his tongue, a hot glide inside your mouth, and you feel his arms slip around your lower back, his inhale of breath sharp across your face as he brings you closer. He bites your lips roughly, the spark of pain and pleasure crackling across your face as if you’d brushed a live wire. 
His fingers wrap around your wrist, prying you from the back of his neck, just for a moment, his eyes heat-soaked. You suck your teeth, mouth open and seeking, and the hand around your jaw drops to your collarbone, the breadth of his palm nearly suffocating your throat.
The briefest pressure – the slightest touch – at the pulse at the bottom of your neck and your hips rock forward into him as he flattens his other palm to your ass, clutching you to him and pinning you to the pallet.
His teeth scrape against the curve of your ear, pinching the cartilage between his incisors, while his hands frantically search up and down your waist. His weight smothers you, his stomach breathing into yours, the flat plane of his chest rubbing your nipples raw against your suit, an unfocused lurch to his hips every time you tug on his hair. With every breath, every time you try to savor his touch, the taste of his mouth is like a wave, dragging you forward, wrapping a dizzy chain around your throat and squeezing.
Ezra’s greatest weapon has always been his mouth, that silver string spinning faster the longer he captivates you, spell-bound. Now he uses to decimate you in entirely new ways. 
The suck of his lips against the moist flesh below your ear distantly distracts from the afterburn of his unkempt beard against your jaw, your cheek. His lips alternate patterns of reward with a plush kiss and punishment with a stern nip when you try and stifle a moan. The edge of his shirt is damp from resting against his shorts when you slip your fingers underneath to palm the small of his back. He stills when you run your fingers around to the front of his trunks. 
His hand curls around a clump of hair at the base of your skull, his eyes darker than volcanic ash. The steady heat of his groin against your thigh is a sensation you’ll chase for the rest of your life.
“You know what happens when you touch a man there, Neptune?” He’s breathing hard, you both are, and the way he snags your hair in his fist has your head twisted at an odd angle, but you’d be damned to a Kevva-forgotten corner of the cosmos before you drop his gaze. You nod and that moon-shaped scar on his cheek twitches. “I know I didn’t teach you that.”
“L-learned it – somewhere else – Ezra.” Your mouth isn’t working properly, your lips swollen from his kisses, the slight pain in your scalp making it difficult to focus, while your cunt tightens hungrily. “Had to.”
“Yeah? Why’s that?”
“Because you wouldn’t give it to me.” 
He leans back, his forearm tense and corded where he has you by the hair, a seemingly disinterested scowl on his face. But by the throbbing length pressed up against you, so far from where you need him the most, he is anything but. 
“So you’re saying this is my fault?” Without breaking eye contact, his chest raised inches above yours, his fingers snag on the blue zipper by your collar and your breathing nearly stops. He hums to himself, eyes following the path of the zipper as the material separates, click by click by click. When it reaches your belly button, he stops. 
“Ezra –,” it’s a whine and you can’t even chastise yourself for it. And neither, it seems, can he. 
Head tilted as if curious about the label of a box beneath colorful wrapping, he dips his wide hand beneath the edge of your suit. The heat that radiates from his palm against the curve of your stomach has you writhing underneath him, your knees drawing up to his hips, trying to catch any relief. 
But he takes his self-satisfied time. Callouses of a hard-won life snag and drag over the soft paper-thin skin that covers your ribs as he maps you in one hand. When he cups your right breast in his palm, the noise you make is a sob of gratitude. 
“You let another man besides me do this to you?” 
The snarling pit of your own thoughts slows as some awareness realizes he’s speaking to you. 
You swallow, clutching his bicep, begging for forgiveness before even opening your mouth to answer. 
“It didn’t mean anything, Ez, it wasn’t you – it meant nothing to me–,”
“But you let someone else touch what’s mine, hm?” That lazy, slightly irritated look on his face, he rotates his hand, squeezing the cup of your tit again, before sharply pinching your nipple. 
“Ezra–,” you choke out and his thigh shifts between your legs, just close enough to feel the heat but nowhere near close enough to grind against. His thumb rotates the raised flesh slow enough to capture and catalog every sigh it draws from you, his eyes catching between his hand and your relaxed face. 
He wears the same expression he does when sitting in the backs of blackmarket tea shops and smoky alebins. When the prospect of striking gold becomes all he can think about.
“Strip.” He suddenly commands. He lifts off you just enough for you to wrench your arm through the armhole, all the while keeping a rough palm on one breast, and then the other. You watch him massage your flesh and your ribs tremble with an unsteady breath. Only when a slightly cool breeze meanders over your bare shoulders and chest do you realize that the tent flap is still open, your head inches from the edge. A perfect and unimpeded view to anyone who wants to watch him hungrily grope your tits. Embarrassment peaks sharply, despite his hand pressing you into the tarp, you wrench your neck back and look over your shoulder through the window of the open tent as if you need to confirm that you are giving the jungle a floor show.
“Ez– shit, the flap–,” 
He finds that the skin beneath your breast had grown sticky and slick from sweat, the humidity still oppressive even with a breeze. He bends his head and licks that same sweaty path and your attention snaps back to him, nails curling against his scalp, his warm breath a high-intensity balm to your roughly-played-with nipples. 
“Not a soul in sight, Neptune,” he murmurs lazily into your ribcage, his nose running up and down the valley between your tits. “And if there were, let them learn a thing or two.” 
His teeth nip the swell of your stomach as he crawls down your half-naked body. Without his heat and hands, the tenderness from his attention on your breasts ratchets up to an ache, a minor preoccupation before he hooks his fingers around the rest of the jumpsuit and tugs. 
You are naked beneath him, swollen chest rising and falling, your knuckles scraping against the pallet as you search for something to grip with all your might. You smell of lagoon water and hot jungle air, of muggy photosynthesis and algae. The smoky scent of the black ash of that distant planet never really left Ezra and the dampness of the rain seems to stir it up. He towers over you, dark and breathing heavy. Smoke and brimstone.
He gropes your ankles, then your calves, hands gliding over the thick hair there – now grown soft in length – as he slowly spreads your legs, with a light you’d never seen before in his eyes. 
“Neptune, I revolve around you.” 
A wave of anxiety lurches up your throat when he brings his mouth to your cunt, the cloying, imagined scent of moon lilies threatening to tear you out of the moment – he won’t want you wild like this – but it’s forcefully yanked back down with a single stripe of his tongue. His previously casual, authoritative persona cracks when he buries his face into your unkempt curls and lets out a deep, overly pleased moan.
Your back bends and he’s gathering up your limbs in his arms to pin them down, nearly resting his forehead on your pubic bone. A few more licks, some deeper than others into where you drip for him, and your thighs start to shake. His fingers around your thighs squeeze roughly against your flesh and pull you further apart. 
Between the flush of slick seeping from you at an embarrassing rate and the wiry hair kept natural out of a certainty no one would see it, he must be drowning or choking, his tongue flicking and sliding, nose prodding your clit just enough to spread the sparks of arousal up through your spine. Feeling as though you’re losing your grip on reality, you sink your hands into his hair, thumb rubbing back that blonde patch, and tug. The moan he shoots into your cunt as he rocks forward into your touch has you whining helplessly. The tarp squeaks where he rubs his hips into it. 
His arms curled around your thighs, your hips shake with restraint against every lap of his tongue until he flicks your clit and your hips grind up against his obliging mouth, a sunspot of pleasure flaring brightly. But all too soon, Ezra lifts up onto his elbows, his hands smoothing across your stomach and he pops his mouth up from your wet folds. With an irate gasp, the swell of bliss fading, your gaze snaps down to plead with him, but he shakes his head.
Wordlessly, he takes one hand from your thigh and wipes his mouth clean with a swipe of his fingers. Then, with his eyes wide, the skin around his mouth loose, he crooks two fingers at the top of your mound before sliding them down where his mouth was seconds ago and presses them inside of you. That simmering in your low belly roars back to life and you toss your head against the unforgiving pallet, eyes slamming shut. He growls at the obscene sucking noise your cunt makes as he plucks at you, in and out. 
“Oleaginous,” he hums, so quietly, it might have been for him. He tongues your clit lightly, pushing his fingers as deep as they can go, watching you thrash. “Mine. Understand?” You remember that tone of voice from when he had you dissecting throwers on a workbench in front of him. You nod, eyes fluttering open, balancing on the precarious edge of release. 
You want to obey his every word. 
His thumb twists up, opening your clit to him and within a whispered breath of “good girl” he sucks your bundle of nerves and launches you into orbit. 
Your entire body goes stiff from the force of it, only to crash back down into his waiting hands, your voice wavering on a high-pitched, girlish wail that shrieks above the sound of rain. Waves of bliss lap at every nerve ending and your vision goes fuzzy for a minute, the only sound you can register is the pounding of your blood in your ears.
And then you register the steady, wet plunge of his fingers still dragging in and out of your pussy.
“Was that mine?” 
Your clit tingles from overstimulation, but you’d rather die than have him stop – you want to answer, if only you could pick up the pieces of your voice. You can only nod, whining. He presses a wet kiss to your inner thigh, the skin there smeared with your release.
“You did a bad thing, letting someone else touch what’s mine.” He scolds, rubs that spot inside you that makes your eyes roll back in your head, holds his finger to it until it burns. You cry, his punishment evident. “Now you have to apologize, Neptune.” 
You nod again, mouth wrenched open as he drags you back and forth across pleasure and pain. 
“Y-y-yes, Ezra,” the words are bone dry, cracked between your teeth. “I’m sorry.” 
Pure wickedness strikes those earth eyes and scorches them a singed black. 
“Unfortunately, atonement is a fickle thing,” Ezra tuts, dragging his lips across your thigh in a mockery of a kiss, “and I’m not quite ready to offer absolution. Despite your offerings,” he wipes his mouth with a stroke of his palm, “this godhead remains rigid.” 
You whimper. He grins with a mouthful of teeth.
Ezra pulls back onto his knees and shuts your thighs, his hand palming your ass as he indicates that you should turn. Your entire lower half still feels like jelly – no one has ever made you come that hard with just their mouth before – but you obey. You stagger onto your hands and knees in front of him. 
His wide palm appears beneath your chin.
“Spit.”
You do.
That spit-wet hand cups your still wet cunt, middle finger rubbing briefly against your clit, before it disappears. You feel him move closer, hear his slick hand pump himself a few times with a grunt. Hot lips drag up your spine, interspersed with the nip of teeth, and when he lays across your back, his hands overtaking yours and threading your fingers together, his bare chest presses up against the skin of your back and you shudder. 
He noses your temple, his throbbing cock coated between your folds. He bites at your jaw and follows your line of sight through the open tent flap. 
“Breathtaking, isn’t it? All that moisture, dripping and running over smooth rock and fern. All that heat coagulating in spaces it shouldn’t fit. All that . . . open field, for anyone to just wander into. Take a look around and smell the air. Could they smell you like I can, Neptune? The way you leak for this cock?”
As he hums filth in your ear, his hand settles again at the base of your throat, thick fingers squeezing just enough to threaten, before sliding down to your swinging breasts, rough palms catching your swollen nipples, then arching down your stomach and between your legs. 
He plays slowly with your clit; barely enough stimulation and he knows it.
“Ask for forgiveness.” He croons in your ear. The breeze returns for a moment, and between the heat of him mounting you like a feral animal and the hesitant touch of outside air against your sweaty chest, you shudder with a groan. 
“I’m sorry, Ezra. I’m so–,” his middle finger increases its pressure slightly and the words shatter in your mouth, “sor-ry.” 
“And for what?”
He continues to rub between your folds and the minute hitch in his breath is more intoxicating than anything he’s done so far. This is affecting him just as much as it does you. He kisses your jaw then tugs on the skin with his teeth. 
“For letting a-anyone but you t-touch me.”
Ezra presses his damp forehead into your shoulder, panting, your correct answers soaking the neurons in his brain. Your reward is the faster stroke of his finger. 
“And why was that a reprehensible thing to do?” His hips rut into yours, the scrape and rub of his cock between your slick lips and thighs almost enough to set you off. 
“Because it’s yours – I’m yours – f-fuck, Ezra, I’m yours, I only wanna be yours,” you sob. 
He’s suddenly gone from above you and the loud crack of his hand against your ass cheek deafens you for a minute, the sting skittering up your back and down your thigh. 
“Good fuckin’ girl.”
Your elbows shudder, the weight of his tone, his hand nearly forcing you onto your chest with your ass still in the air. You wanna be so good for him. 
He’s breathing hard and his skin is warm and damp where you feel his thigh press against the back of yours. There’s a measure of restraint he’s showing and it makes your heart pound in anticipation. You swing your hips back at him, as if you could catch yourself on his cock. 
“I wanna show you I’m yours,” you cry, nails curling into the pallet. “Please, Ezra, please!”
His broad hand settling on your spine draws a hiccup out of you, a sob. 
“Breathe . . . Good girls get what they need.” 
On an exhale, his blunt tip spreads you apart and he shuffles closer as he thickens inside you. His loud, unabashed moan overwhelms yours, when you think you might just be devoured by him. His hand, the one at your hip, squeezes you, silent reassurance. You can feel the knuckles on his other hand against your slick lips as he feeds himself into you.
“Neptune, talk to me. How,” your cunt tightens around his girth at the sound of his voice coaching you along and he grunts, as if suddenly dizzy, “h-how do you feel?”
“Amazing, Ez. Please keep going don’t stop I can take it–,” 
He obliges; something’s reconnected the wires in his brain enough to tell him to move. He huffs before sinking deeper and your eyes roll back in your head. He bottoms out and waits again, letting you both catch your breath. 
“Spent a hundred moons thinking about this.” The puff of breath against your shoulder is the only warning you have before he presses his mouth to your skin. His hand free of your clutch, his thumb softly rubs the muscle of your neck. He kisses you and kisses you and kisses you, wherever he finds bare flesh. “Would wake up in the night, with you a few feet from me, looking like divinity made sin, made real, but I wasn’t worthy to touch you. You got me all tongue-tied, Neptune, all mucked up in the head. A silly boy,” he purrs.
You glance over your shoulder, unsure which Ezra is going to meet your eyes, but wanting all of them. The man you feel most safe with in this world and the next greets you and you reach back and squeeze his hand. He chuckles softly, and with it, comes a gentle roll of his hips. You gasp, airily, your gaze slipping from his face to his chest, to the steady breathing in his stomach, and then to the growth of hair that fades as it reaches up his low belly. How many times did you sit across the room from him with your fists in tight balls, watching as he regaled exploits of riches and wonder, all the while thinking about how thick his cock is outlined in his suit – you’re so blinded by breathy dreams of what the musky scent of his cock must taste like that you miss that he’s pulled out farther, halfway now, and you are completely knocked senseless when he thrusts back in, a beat faster. 
“Later, Neptune. I’ll let you suck my cock later, but right now I’ve gotta ride this pussy to oblivion.” 
Your thighs quake at his promise, cunt squeezing him, and he huffs, picking up speed.
“I felt that. You really like sucking cock that much?” 
All you can answer him with is a whine. Your knees are starting to ache from the barest cushion the tarp provides, the palms of your hands sore, but you can’t find it in you to remotely care. With every stroke, he fills you up to a breaking point before riding you back out. Moaning gratefully, you finally drop onto your elbows, your cheek scraping against the pallet with every forceful thrust behind you. He tilts your hips up higher, on one knee to fuck down into you; he’s searching with his cock for that spot that made your brain numb. 
Like a flood, you feel bliss roll down your spine, his hands on your lower back pulling you up another peak, and you gasp, at the edge of a very, very long drop, the sounds in the tent as sticky and wet as the rain outside.
But Ezra’s sounds are loudest of them all. Grunting. Hissing. Moaning like he’s fucking the best pussy of his life. You open one eye, glancing over your shoulder and the sight drops open your mouth. Hips pumping forward, skin dewy with sweat, he breathes like a freshly broken-in stallion, relieved that something finally bested him. Chest full and tight with muscle, flushed pink with roaring blood. Stomach torqued with tension. His rhythm is caught between his hands pulling you onto him and his cock thrusting into you. A frantic beat that bounces wet and hot, mouth agape and eyes rolling shut, his head drops back between his shoulders. You push back slightly and he stutters, the hand on your hip tightening. 
“Not gonna last, Neptune–” he grits, his jaw locked tight. The image of him actively staving off an orgasm for you to finish first has been imprinted on your brain for the rest of your life. 
“J-just a little harder, Ez.” 
He obeys, submitting as you had for him, sweat curling around his neck and down his chest. 
As release barrels down on you, those mahogany eyes catch and hold yours in a second that lasts through infinity. They promise you things that you didn’t know you asked for, those eyes, made vows only your soul could hear. You see, in that instant before you are swallowed whole, that he’d die at your feet, if you asked him to. He’d give up every worldly treasure he won through grit and his teeth if you needed it or wanted it. If it made you happy.
His Neptune – in the crushing grip of your gravity. Willingly caught in the trail of your comet as you fill up his night sky.    
“Yeah, that’s it, right there – Ez-ra!” 
His face blown out in near ecclesial bliss is the last thing you see before your vision goes white. Your heart pounds in your ears so loudly, it's the only thing that exists for an instant. And then you shatter with a perfectly soft cry, bliss breaking across you like a heavy wave, and you succumb to exhaustion. 
Behind you, he groans, fucking you faster through it, snarling something entirely incomprehensible. 
You think you might say his name, you don’t know what your mouth is doing, but whatever you say, it breaks him and you are dragged through another low shock, the flood of cum deep into your achy cunt enough to contract your walls again, his harsh groan stuffing your ears just as full. 
The rain is barely louder than your desperate attempts to breathe. 
The tarp crackles as you slump forward onto your stomach, Ezra dropping to his side with half his body over yours. Panting raggedly, his hand curls up to the base of your neck, a reassurance of his presence and commitment when words have failed him. 
You lay like that for a long time.
And then, when feeling starts to return to your limbs, you turn your head, your nose rubbing against his. When you breathe hotly across his face, he grins a satisfied grin that splits into a chuckle. You laugh with him too, curling up into his chest, his forearm is sticky across your spine, and he kisses your forehead.
Staring up at the tarp, together you listen to the rain. 
In the long drawn out, buzzy silence, his nails scratch the base of your skull. And then, like he remembered something vital, he picks his head up and looks at you.
“Do you want this to change things for us?” 
“Yes.” You cup the muscles of his thick neck. “Yes, Ezra. I want this to change everything between us. Please.” 
He smiles, unguarded and open. 
“Wild horses never stood a chance . . . especially against these tits.” He nips at the swell of your breast and you laugh. “I had no plans of letting you go in any case . . . but we are bound from this day forward. You know that, don’t you?”
You nod. A stroke of heat passes over his eyes and  Ezra leans forward to kiss you, his hand on your cheek pulling you in close, as close as you can be, two sticky bodies, cum-dried and tingling.
“And if we’re going to spend every year of our lives together, I have a question for you.” he pushes away a stray strand of hair stuck to your face, nose tip to nose tip, “did you have a good birthday, Neptune? Are you satisfied?”
With a giggle that has his eyebrow arching playfully, you kiss his cheek.
“I already told you. This was the best birthday I’ve ever had.” 
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ohforficsake · 3 days
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@magpiepills Oh my gosh, thank you!!! 🙏🏽
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Pedro Pascal as Billy in the short film “Iris”, 2009.
*I made those gifs myself, so if reposting, please credit! 💜
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ohforficsake · 3 days
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Ooh I have not seen this! But damn, the baby!Frankie vibes are strong.
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Pedro Pascal as Billy in the short film “Iris”, 2009.
*I made those gifs myself, so if reposting, please credit! 💜
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ohforficsake · 3 days
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Pedro Pascal in Triple Frontier
You know…. wind
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ohforficsake · 4 days
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PEDRO PASCAL as FRANKIE “CATFISH” MORALES Triple Frontier | 2019
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ohforficsake · 5 days
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That’s My Man…
Taking @morallyinept up on her invitation to anyone who wants play this…
Rules: Post 4 pics of characters who make you yell MY MAN! MY MAN! MY MAN!
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That reserved space is for Pedro's yet unnamed character in Gladiator II. That's how much faith I have that this character is going to absolutely wreck me.
And I am also tagging anyone who wants to play!
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ohforficsake · 5 days
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“May I please draw your OC?”
Reblog this message if you encourage anyone that wants to draw your OC to do so.  No need to ask for permission in advance.
Go for it.  Draw my OC.  If you want, I’ll even give you reference posts.  Go to town on it.
You are welcome to draw my OC and surprise me with the result.  Seriously.  In fact, I encourage it.  I will proudly display whatever it is you submit to me regarding my OC.  There is a chance that I will squeal about it for several days.
Even if you feel you aren’t good at whatever artistic adventure it is you do, please feel free to submit it to me.  I want to see what you have done.
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ohforficsake · 6 days
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reminder that if you have writers block you can just like,,, skip it. skip that sentence. skip that paragraph. skip that whole damn chapter if you want to. go back to it later. there's no rules bitch
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ohforficsake · 6 days
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Okay but this gave me goosebumps. This is so so soft and intimate, I love it. Thank you so much for pointing me toward this!
WIP It Good Wednesday
I was tagged by some lovely folks for WIP Wednesday and the Last Line game. So I'm combining it all in one. Thank you's to @rebel-held @gemmahale @secretelephanttattoo @nerdieforpedro 💚 (If I missed a tag, I sincerely apologize)
So Javi G has been mercilessly teasing me lately (in a very good way). I'm hoping to have this story finished soon. "Worst" case scenario, I hope to drop it during my birthday week. As a treat to me. 🤭
Soooo....here's a snippet from the last writing sprint I did:
A gentle creak as the mattress dips lower, close behind you. The heat radiates from him, kissing the backs of your thighs. A prickling underneath your skin, snaking its way through you with each touch of his hand.
Javi takes his time. You let out a shuddering breath as he caresses, fingers trailing upward along your inner thigh. He hums in approval seeing your legs part even wider, eager for more of him.
Special shoutout to @morallyinept - she's the reason I was inspired to write this in the first place, and she's been my cheerleader as it's progressed. Thank you, Jett!
Leaving the tag open to anyone else who'd like to share!
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ohforficsake · 6 days
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Rules: Post the last sentence you wrote (fanfic / original / anything) and tag as many people as there are words in the sentence.
Thank you so much for the tag @jeewrites! 💚
I quite like the idea of just a single line, because that is where I am right now. Writing on the one-line-at-a-time level, as the universe has tossed a bit of chaos my way this week.
To everyone who has been lovely enough to leave comments on my stories, tag me in fun things, and to the brilliant folks who have messaged me, I see you and I thank you so, so much. I hope to be able to get back to all of you very soon.
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This is what I have on Chapter 10 of The Margay.
And it’s the simplest plea, delivered to him as though she were tendering her still-beating heart.
In reference to Audrey speaking with Santiago.
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NPT:
@morallyinept @iamskyereads @tinytinymenace @for-a-longlongtime @oliveksmoked
@nerdieforpedro @julesonrecord @magpiepills @maggiemayhemnj @legendary-pink-dot
@pimosworld @avastrasposts @beskarandblasters @tightjeansjavi @grogusmum
@missredherring @wannab-urs
And also tagging anyone else would like to share! Tag me back so I can read it!
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ohforficsake · 6 days
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@for-a-longlongtime you and me both 🥲
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PEDRO PASCAL out and about in New York City | April 23, 2024
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ohforficsake · 7 days
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Heavy Talk Refined vibes.
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