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too many dreams cut short 🍉

bashar is just one of many palestinians you can help continue their lives, dreams, futures, but time is running out and every second counts.

please support him here

life is tiring and hard, so please lets do what we can to take care of each other. RT, share, talk, draw, boycott - do whatever is accessible to you!

#saw some folks having trouble with the link so i checked this one and it works

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IT'S ON SIGHT CHRONOS

#I AM LOSING MY ENTIRE FUCKING MIND. #LITTOL ONION MEL....

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did some digging through files and i found more art i posted on twitter back in like '22 but not on tumblr.....enjoy some old paper trails sketches if you're into that kinda thing + the only doodle i could manage today

#my art #infinity train #infinity train fanfic #paper trails #ryan akagi #min-gi park #rymin #tulip olsen #kez

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happy b4 day to all who celebrate

#this is very old i made this like.....carry the one.....one?? two years ago??? #still cant draw but i still love them and you should too #my art #infinity train #infinity train fanart #rymin #ryan akagi #min-gi park #dont let your mental illness stop you from posting terrible content online

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if anyone has money to spare for donations, im forwarding more links for palestinian aid

CareforGaza is a nonprofit that provides direct aid to Palestine, and you can donate directly here

Operation Olive Branch is a document that lists evacuating families that need assistance, which gives information on the families, the urgency, and tracks the progress of their fundraisers

eSims for Gaza lists very clear instructions on how to purchase e-sims to keep them connected, they are urgently in demand

Here is a project that distributes feminine hygiene kits directly to Gaza

Mutual Aid Diabetes has channels set up for you to donate insulin and medication to diabetics in Gaza, as well as lists fundraisers for diabetics seeking to evacuate

please keep sharing and adding links on this site, please add more if i'd missed any, and please don't stop talking about Palestine.

#personal ref #pious surpassed its goal which is excellent to see

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too many dreams cut short 🍉

bashar is just one of many palestinians you can help continue their lives, dreams, futures, but time is running out and every second counts.

please support him here

life is tiring and hard, so please lets do what we can to take care of each other. RT, share, talk, draw, boycott - do whatever is accessible to you!

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I wasn't expecting so many sweet and understanding messages… It's so much more than what I deserve, and to that I say thank you, genuinely, from the bottom of my heart. I definitely cried when I read them. I'm so used to expecting the worst out of the internet and out of people in general, it's easy to forget that people are capable of being kind just for the sake of.

My psychotic symptoms manifest in very ridiculous ways, one of which being that I'll visualize extremely cruel insults, threats, mockery, and more when I dare to open up socials. When that wasn't the case here, after being this vulnerable…it was nice to see. And probably needed.

So, again, I cant say much else rn but thank you <3

#just wanted the people who sent messages to know that i got them and im very very grateful

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An Update

It's been a minute. I'll keep this as brief as I possibly can because this is really hard to talk about, but I'll still put this under 'read more' so you're not bombarded with personal shit on the dash.

The truth is, I lost my passion for art a while ago, and I've been struggling to get it back. It's hard when I'm so viciously repulsed by my own art that I get physically ill.

I have not been doing well, for multiple reasons I won't discuss in depth, I just never wanted to be open about it because the internet isn't exactly a great place to cast your woes. But after all this radio silence and worrying about people waiting on me, I'm stuck between wanting to be private and wanting to talk about what's been going on. When the thing is I can't talk about what's going on, really. It's all just too much.

My sense of reality, for one, has been VERY wobbly and I've been struggling with hallucinations, nightmares, and a severe paranoia that makes it very hard to interact with people. I have already made multiple attempts to take my life, one of which was nearly successful and debilitating. I'll spare the grittier details, but even this feels like a grossly-underwhelming overview of everything...I wish I could put this into some pretty-looking comic, or just present this in a more aesthetically-pleasing manner that isn't an ugly wall of text. But I can't, and this is all I have.

Truthfully, I'm scared to death to be this honest. This is already excruciating to type out. This isn't to summon a pity party, it's why I've held off talking about anything for so long - it's more just an explanation on the severity of the situation, and why things have been so stagnant.

I want to create art again, I think, but I'm trapped. I have ideas, but every time I so much as look at my art or I lift up a pencil, I end up getting sick. Being online at all results in panic attacks. I wish it wasn't this way, more than anything, but I've started to accept that this is probably just what I deserve. It's hard to explain.

I don't know...I don't have solutions or promises other than I'm still alive, somehow, and I'm probably working through it. I'm just sorry about the lack of development in anything, I wanted to do so much and it kills me that I haven't.

Blegh, this ended up being long. I'll wrap it up here, no point in saying much more since this is so gloomy. But, to my mutuals that I've seemed distant with because of all this: it is absolutely not your fault and I assure you that I've missed you, I've just been awful at maintaining contact during this time. You're all so amazing and talented and deserve all the support in the world. I hope you know that.

#i personally dont see any point rb'ing this since its just a stranger venting on the internet #ty to those who have been patient thus far...seeing your tags and reblogs sometimes....it really does make my day #i never want to gloss over the love and support ive received during this time

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did you take down paper trails?

i did not, you can find it right here

#asks

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hiii there!!

so, Fandom Trumps Hate is coming up, and i wanted to ask what your permissions are when it comes to transformative works. for example, a podfic or even a fanbind. if i win an auction, id love to get something based off of paper trails. it's not at all guaranteed, but i still wanted to get your permissions just in case!

helloooo

i've gotten this type of question before re: printing out my works for personal use, or podfics, or fanart, etc. and i appreciate those who've given me a heads-up beforehand. it's an honor to be asked!

so yes, all that is perfectly fine. as long as i receive credit, you may do what thou wilt. it sounds like it's for a good cause too, so i don't mind at all. it's very kind of you to even consider me <33 it's very nice to see stuff about pt again too....that work means a lot to me <3

#sorry for all those left in my inbox btw i promise i will answer all questions when i can #asks #i also enjoy being kept in the loop psst....so if something is ever based off my work i would love to see....

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i was planning on making this a print if people are interested! The Gang's All Here

#ty for the id!

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DORITOS AND FRITOS 💥💥💥

fanart for that one video i cannot stop thinking about for like a solid month.......oh no Baby's First Homestuck Art after several years.......

#ty for the id!

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DORITOS AND FRITOS 💥💥💥

fanart for that one video i cannot stop thinking about for like a solid month.......oh no Baby's First Homestuck Art after several years.......

#my art #homestuck #meenah peixes #jade harley #dave strider #jadedave #im a basic bitch ive been team davejade since middle school

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When they’re still long enough, Min can decipher that their features are accentuated with some sort of orange makeup, corresponding with their clothing. It’s some sort of stripe from the forehead to the chin, and even without prior knowledge of skating culture, Min considers it a bold style to one’s aesthetic. They skate like they invented the stuff. Like the world owes them this dance. They’re choreographed, every action hand-picked; when they jump, arms knitted at their torso, spinning, spinning…. It’s an artist comfortable in their craft.

mandatory 'i wrote an ice skating au fic and its long but fun' post whenever i upload something!

#infinity train #rymin #infinity train fanfiction #infinity train fanfic #meant to be a small birthday gift but then it festered and evolved like an overgrown terrarium

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most people don't seem to know this is fanart for my own fic which is very amusing to me but i'm glad you like it!

YOU'VE GOT MAIL 💥💌💌💌💥

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if a girl wants to rip open your ribcage and live there you have to let her

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'CAUSE YOU KNOW IN ROCK N' ROLL I GOT A PHD BITCH

#sorry for the mushed quality #alexa crank up 'rich kids' by new medicine #my art #infinity train #ryan akagi