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The more I think about it, the more I feel sorry for all the demons of the Blue Exorcist universe. Being a demon sucks.
If you happen to be born powerful, you can't have a human body to enjoy the fruits of Assiah. No, you get to rot slowly and painfully from inside out for years until your body crumbles. People can keep you alive, but you'll be in agony every second you're conscious and you know they're only doing this for themselves. This isn't any life, and if you were human they'd have euthanized you ages ago, but you're a demon, and they don't care. You're just a ticking bomb and they would rather see you cough blood every day forever than have you end it all. Life in Assiah is hell, and Gehenna is likewise. The only way out is the only death you can imagine, but they don't care. They don't love you.
You crave human attachments and love but you also don't. You know, logically, that those feelings make you weak. They make you malliable, like clay, and you'll do things you know will bite you later, for creatures so much weaker than you. And you'll get hurt, betrayed, humiliated. Even that one person, that one person you thought you could trust and love purely, turned their back on you. But nobody is really stupid enough to love a demon. A demon should not love.
That's right. They'll dress you in the finest cloth they have, wrap you in gold; bracelets, necklaces, crowns, anything. They'll feed you like a king, obey your every command, throw themselves at your feet. But they don't love you. They want you, they need you, but that's not love. They want your prizes, your boons. That's not respect, or care. And the second you figure that out, and you see the damage they've done to you and yours, you'll pitch the biggest fit, but you'll still be the fool who thought humans were your friends. They don't love you.