nanaflies

[nanaflies]

I wish I loved food.

Maybe if I loved food more this journey would be durable.

Maybe if I loved food more, I wouldn’t hate it so much.

Maybe if I loved food more, I would not be thinking about the huge flesh with fat covering me 24/7.

Maybe if I loved food more.

Me and food. Like yin and yang.

For one to exist the other has to exist.

Just like that, I need food to survive.

But what I didn’t know, is that one day, I would rather choose death instead of life.

And that food would turn against me. The irony, because we need food to live.

How can I not eat food when it’s a necessity for me to live.

How can I break the food addiction cycle if I have to have food 3+ times a day.

How can I break the food addiction cycle when I don’t even like food.

I.. don’t even like food.

#bulimia #tw disordered eating #original poem #writers on tumblr #eating disorder

[nanaflies]

The more I continue to live, the more I realize that only poets see the world for how it's supposed to be seen.