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#more often than not #it resembled to a forget-me-not #growing on streets and style #taking off her blouse in secret #the blues could linger about it #but though them had gone less than it had been #losing a charm for them to say #where them girl was off to remain?

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I don't deserve to live. Jesus is my star, rose, blue sky, calm rain, more than that..God, demand me and fight this horrid and devastating false flesh love that is so unpure, so selfish and unwordly. My Love, do you remember me? I shall remind you, demolish everything that has been important to me, everything I thought and felt and did. I don't care to be of taste to boys, only to have your eyes on me pleasant. I stay

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Can you pray for me? I've been struggling with pornography for so long and it's brought me so low. I hate everything about it, and yet I still haven't been able to escape it after years of picking myself up every day. I think the biggest struggle for me now is the thought that even if I can finally get away from it, I can't be fully and completely loved by another person because of it. I can recognize that God will love me, but that's so abstract and often impossible to feel. I can't help but think I'd never be able to get married because of how deeply I've fallen into that sphere of sin - even going so far as to engage with content involving minors and rape - and it's just completely demoralizing. I don't know how i'm supposed to live with myself anymore.

Anon, I will of course pray for you. I will also leave you with some prayers to help you pray for yourself when you feel beaten down and discouraged. There’s a lot to unpack here, so I will try to address it all in order. Forgive me if I am too harsh or too direct. I say all of this to admonish and convict, not to accuse. Also I’m hiding it under a readmore because I can’t stand how long it is on my dash so I don’t want to subject anyone else to it unwillingly.

First, it sounds like you’re addicted to porn. That is not a knot you can undo yourself. While you can definitely pray against it, you need to surround yourself with supports. Find an SA group near you. Join one of those online programs. Get someone from your church to help you. How many things have you tried? How long did you keep up with them before deciding they don’t work? Did God come to redeem us as a fully-grown man or did He grow and preach and live for 33 years before dying for us on the cross? God took decades to complete His redeeming work as the Son Incarnate, and he was perfect; so why would you think you can overcome such an insidious addiction in a small timeframe? You’re fighting against it. That’s all you can do. I don’t know God’s will and can’t say if you’ll overcome it like Saint Augustine did or if you’ll be addicted until the day you die like Saint Mark Ji Tianxiang. Whatever the case may be, you must never give in to it completely. You must never let yourself despair. That’s easier said than done, I know.

God is very abstract but He’s also not meant to be taken in a vacuum. His love is seen in every person who loves you and is part of your life. You talk of nobody ever fully loving and understanding you? I have news for you; nobody, not one single person on this planet, fully loves and understands themselves, much less someone else. Set some more realistic expectations for yourself, or you’re going to be vastly disappointed for as long as you live because only God can fully love and understand you. Each and every person you meet will be able to love and understand you to varying degrees, but you won’t find any single person who meets that criteria. Surround yourself with people who love you instead of trying to find one who loves you perfectly. And make sure you’re talking to people properly! Don’t just text if you’re long-distance friends! Call! Write actual letters! Do a video call and movie nights and remind yourselves there’s another human on the other side of everything and not just words on a screen!

You think that how far you’ve fallen precludes you from some kind of happiness or God’s will? That’s pride. None of us have fallen so far that God cannot forgive us. None of us are so evil that we can undo God’s plans for us. He knows what our potential is but He also knows us. God doesn’t deal in “what if?”s. If He wills that you’ll be married, then you shall be married. But it will be in His timing, not yours. There is no question of whether or not you can get married, it’s a question of if you will. It’s a question of are you open to praying for it and the possibility that God’s response is and has always been “that’s not for you.” If the thought that you’ll never be married is the worst possible thing you can imagine in the world, then perhaps you need to reevaluate how you’re idolizing marriage. If you think you could handle anything life throws at you but not being married in your lifetime would be unbearable, then you need to ask yourself if you really desire marriage or the idea of marriage. Do you want a real spouse or do you want a fantasy?

As for how you’re supposed to live with yourself: get a hobby. Work on replacing your sinful habits with neutral ones, or even better with good ones. Make friends. Take every opportunity you can to grow in virtue. Practice the Spiritual and Corporal Works of Mercy. Go see a therapist. Get involved with your community. Focus on loving your neighbor and serving others. Stop trying to find a spouse and focus more on finding a friend. If you try to do this alone, you will fail. If you don’t surrender these struggles to God (even if you have to do it every day), you will fail. If you completely overcome your addiction but change nothing else in your life, you will fail.

You’ve been brought low? Do you know how high you rise when you do not despair when you fall? Do you know how far you’ve come from where you were? Or how you’ve grown because of your struggles? Can you see your soul as God sees it? Then don’t worry. You have stopped, or are trying to stop. This is a gift from God. What better could a creature like you or me ever hope to do without God’s grace? Why does it matter what kind of depravity captured you when we are all diving headfirst into the abyss? You took the gate of pornography. Some take the gate of drugs and alcohol. Many go through sloth or pride or hatred. There are many gates into hell; why does it matter which one you’re hurling yourself through?

But therein lies the good news: God can close those gates to you. You’re running through yours, thinking you’ve already dove over the she and are in free fall, but you fail to realize you’re being held by you ankle barely below the she of the pit. Sometimes you fall a bit deeper, sometimes you don’t even clear the edge because you took a running jump first. So long as you fight against this sin, you’re not in free fall. You’re not lost. And you’re not alone.

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Yuki: i think i go.

chapter 1

huri: i think you probably ask teacher.

Yuki: but what about Zero? He must know that i love him.

Shuri: still, you shouldn't go. I like Zero.

Yuki: okey, but then go yourself.

Shuri: i go, bye.

#yuki's best friend conversation

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#jesus

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Z tattoo

#pray for myself #not for the thing i should have the gut in me to do

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Lolita

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Bought one green dress

Real beautiful one

Bought it and took it and chose it to take it to wear it to boost with it to move my body in it to love it to take it to celebrate it to take care of it to cherish it to cuddle close to it to marry in it to rejoyce in it to fear in it to be stolen from it to closely embrace to me Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him. Him.

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God

#GOD

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Ma van a szülinapom, ma van a szülinapom, vagy holnap, vagy holnaputan.

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City of stars, I love you I don't know if you know

City of stars, there's only you I truely know

It's you, It's only you I want to love for evermore

A touch, A kiss, A leap, A star

That helps me leave all behind

Behind what I knew would help, but just destroyed my incliness for you

The rat-tat-tat of the world

You are my world that I love

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“If the only option I have is to lose you, then I would prefer death instead.”

[Kaname Kuran, Vampire Knight]

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Some think that God forgives when I ask for forgiveness.

But there is more to it.

There is much more to it.

You have to admit having lost the race.

Then you have to admit having made a mistake.

Sorry, still sorry is what you ought to say.

Then just stop, look around and stay wherever you are. Do not move. Wait on Him.

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