missei

[missei]

hi sorry if you already know about the issue but alotta your links on the masterlist/requestist arent working?? maybe its just a mobile issue but i wanted you to know!! <3

oh that's just because i've deleted the posts LMAOOOOO if you wanna reread them you can find them @seita

[missei]

wait, is what anon said true? because youve still been posting haikyuu content on @seita

no it's not true babey!!! i'm still very much writing for haikyuu !!!!!!!

[missei]

i’m glad you stopped writing for hq. no one needs to see your disgusting ooc bullshit

u sound like fox news spreading false info i'm @seita now try sending me hate there i'll get back to u quicker babey 💞

[missei]

my schedule is set for this week but i'm going to say that's on hold until i decide what i'm doing with seita and missei! hope u don't mind!

#from.af

[missei]

Do you think that maybe you should go back to Seita? I know you probably blocked those people and as hard as it is to ignore hate would you try getting back?

hmm should i move back? i don't know i guess how you look at it.

i mean it seems people probably enjoy the energy over there more. but there's a probability that the hate will come back again. there's a lot of people who were happy i made a side blog for dark content. i personally enjoy the "all in one" thing over there because it just makes my life easier.

i seemed to have been able to write more over there. i mean i did an entire kinktober while here i feel my works just gone a little downhill....

also there's a factor that, even tho ppl say they don't mind, it's probably super annoying having me move blogs again 😅😅😅😅😅

would i like to move back? yeah

#afs.loves #from.ingridcolors

[missei]

this blog doesnt have the same vibe as seita :/

i know

#afs.loves #from.anon

[missei]

maybe its an association thing? like since u had to make this blog to avoid the negativity on the old one its a reminder of it? i imagine it'd take a while to get over that level of harassment it sounds scary. maybe you just need time to settle in? have things stop feeling weird? either way im sorry things are getting you down and i hope you know we support u

i've been here for over a month - almost 2 months and i feel settled. i just don't feel as comfortable or like i fit here. or that i can give as much energy and enthusiasm as i was able to with seita. it probably doesn't make much sense

#afs.loves #from.kyanmaaaa

[missei]

i hope this doesn’t sound intrusive, but if the reason of why you got so much hate on seita was why you had to move, just know that your writing helped so many of us cope sososo much, and thank you for that, and if you don’t want to write for haikyuu, please don’t force yourself to, because i know you’re someone i’ll be forever thankful to, and the hq writing that you did do helped me so much, and ahhh i don’t really know where i was going with this but just do what you think is best for you <3

if i stopped writing for hq my blogs would just close down tbh i wouldnt just switch who i write for. i'd just close them and move along with my life tbh

but i am happy that people feel helped and tbh i really do still love writing for hq i just....am not feeling ✨myself✨ around here

#afs.loves #from.anon

[missei]

Do you think it might help to return to seita for not dark content and keep ksakusa for dark content? I know it still won't feel the same but, maybe, it could help retain some of what you're used to?

maybe! but then i'd just have to log in and out of the accounts every time i wanna do dark lewding 😅😅😅😅😅 and thags just.....a massive headache

#afs.loves #from.anon

[missei]

idk how to describe it but seita felt more homey? this blog just feels kinda cold? i’m so bad at describing things i hope you know what i mean😭😭😭

i agree. i put most of myself into seita and i built it from the ground up. this one is just different because it feels like an extension of seita without it actually...being seita.

but i know what you mean and i agree. i'm rlly not as active on this one as i was on seita. because my brains been forced to split between missei and ksakusa so my lewding and things of that nature have changed i suppose

#afs.loves #from.anon

[missei]

If you don't mind me asking what happened with Seita because I'm was following. However I'm very confused on how they got separated and also the schedules for when you post on here and your dark

basically i created dark content there and i garnered myself a big platform - i have 20k over there. and i think a lot of people were angry about the fact i promoted dark content to such a wide audience and i was pretty heavily targeted and attacked for what i do/did.

so it dissolved into getting death threats and people telling me to kill myself, people reblogging my posts simply to fight with me instead of just blocking me and moving on, and it generally just started to make me feel eh.

i was also really worried that people wouldn't be enjoying themselves on my blog because i was always involved in some kind of discourse....

#afs.loves #from.anon #tw death threats #tw suicide

[missei]

MY heart dropped when you tagged that you’ll stop writing for HQ ugh the way I’d miss u so much

i know i rlly don't want to !!! but it's kind of hard to gain motivation - i had a different type of movitation and inspiration over on seita i can't rlly explain it 😔 ever since i moved its sort of felt like i can't fully invest myself into it like i can't fit a new mold !!

#afs.loves #from.anon

[missei]

dont ever apologize or think that youre annoying for feeling the way you do, do whatever makes you comfortable & happy!! i love you af.

thank you 🥺 i love u too

i just can't imagine how annoying it would be to be like "ugh she's moving again????? cant this bitch make up her mind?????"

i think most people think of me (including myself) as seita rather than missei so it feels kind of difficult to fully invest myself here - i can't pinpoint exactly what's going on but i just 🥺 miss who i was as seita

#afs.loves #from.anon

[missei]

i miss seita too :,(

)))): it got toxic over there which is why i left but...honestly i had more fun over there....and i wrote a lot more tbh.....

#afs.loves #from.anon

[missei]

i just.........every day i miss seita

#from.af #ik i'm the only one who rlly cares about this whole thing #but i can't find it in my self to rlly get into ksakusa #bc it's a side blog and it feels weird having to shift gears in a different space #and i worked so hard on seita #but ik i couldn't move back without #pissing god and everyone off #and just confusing everyone #but everyone knows me as seita #rather than missei #so it feels sort of strange #i can't explain it #like i'm happy !!!! #but it just still #feels kind of #different #like not completely right #and i feel like it's #heavily impacting my #motivation and inspiration to write #and i worry #if i keep on this path #i'll stop writing for hq #sooner rather than later #): #i'm so annoying i'm sorry

[missei]

no one:

me: writing

shirabu in my porn: tighten up so i don't have to fuck a loose, sloppy cunt

#why do i make him so mean #i can't help it #from.af

[missei]

Why not just ask their name and pronouns?

because that's AWKWARD when i talk to them and then realize i do not know who they are

it's like "haha yeah sorry ik we have talked about tendou cock for like 4 hours before BUT I JUST REALIZED I DONT KNOW UR NAME!!1!1!1"

ouch that's awkward i give myself secondhand embarrassment

#afs.loves #from.anon