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is this a fax or ong moment

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YALL IM 17 NOW YAAAAAAYYYY BIRTHDAY

#its bunny's birthday yaaay

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5'2 🧍‍♀️

@ mutuals rb this w how tall you are i wanna know

i’m 4’11

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do yall ever get anxious during school randomly like DAMN I HATE IT HERE 😕

this close to jumping in my car and leaving 🧍‍♀️

anyway who should i write about next

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sorry i fell off the face of the earth yall i started school and they're being so strict ab phones and shit ☠️

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YONA IM SOBBING ILY IDK WHO TO TAG EXCEPT FOR YOU BECAUSE I MOSTLY JUST SCROLL THROUGH THE GENSHIN COMFORT TAG SO REALLY ANYONE UNDER THAT

It's Fanfic Writer Appreciation Day! So go on, appreciate the fuck out of those who generously share their ideas and talents with us. Today and every day after.

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welcome to avidya forest, lovie! what can i help you with? do you need a guide, perhaps?

🌳:: forest ranger yona reporting! — minor, she/her, tighnari & kazuha kisser, bilingual (eng + spanish), here’s my carrd.

🍀;; credits - xr_arrow on twitter (for the picture on the right), sub_azu on twitter (for the picture on the left)

introducing.. my fellow forest rangers! :: 💚

@kazucafe @kazu-sun @lotus-flowerz @kazuslove @shimenawas @tearuu @withloveajaxx @biuun @awlumii @i23kazu @telemi @calyxcore @starfellforyou @seelestia @astrxealis @cxlrosii @diorprison @meimeimeirin @almond-adeptus @sonder-paradise @kazuesque @versadies

+ forest ranger trainee :: 🍂 anon!

where to find the:: masterlist | tags | before you request

requests are currently.. closed 🌷

© all works created by @yonaraee are not to be plagiarized, translated or reposted to other platforms (without permission)

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SORRY WE COULDN'T CHAT LONG BUT I TOOK THESE PICS AN HOUR BEFORE THE GAA END LOL

YOOO THOSE ARE SO SICK

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theyre almost all self indulgent so yeah maybe they are pretty concerning BUT HEY THATS OKAY BECAUSE SLAY

FRIENDO & R U LIKE OK MUTUAL HAHA 🫶🫶

HELPPP ARE MY POSTS THAT CONCERNING ☠️

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FRIENDO & R U LIKE OK MUTUAL HAHA 🫶🫶

HELPPP ARE MY POSTS THAT CONCERNING ☠️

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🏡 & 🌟 :D

my handwriting is so ew

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*cutely reblogs all of yona's posts bc i want to do them too*

PLS DO THIS IT LOOKS SO FUN

Handwritten asks

(send me an emoji, I'll write the answer for you!)

🤳 what does your url mean?

💻 what pushed you to make this blog in the first place?

🌧 go to song when you’re feeling depresso?

☀️ go to song when you’re feeling on top of the world?

🧁 favorite memory with a specific song/album?

🍃 favorite part of nature?

💖 something you love about yourself?

🌋 one thing you wish you could be doing right now?

🥤 go-to drink (doesn’t have to be alcoholic!)

🎄 favorite season of the year?

🍀 meaningful life-lesson or quote you vibe to?

🥘 what is the best meal you make? or bake?

💬 something you wish you knew 5 years ago?

🏡 where is your dream house?

🐻 do you have a comfort object? what is it?

🌟 what is something you’ve been proud of recently?

🌅 what does your evening routine look like?

🌺 describe your aesthetic (even if it’s just what you’re wearing now)

📝 do you have a WIP (work in progress)? share a piece of it!

🍄 what is your personality like?

🔥 what kind of kid were you in high school?

🍇 who are you closest to in your family?

(reblog this and let your followers get to know you!)

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OH NAH CUZ YALL BETTER DO THIS PLES

stolen from twit and edited into tumblr lingo cause it felt weird to not do it

anyway ask game feel free to rb

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hehehehe HI HRU :D

THE FUCKING ROBLOX MEME 😭 im currently sitting in the break room at my shitty grocery store job listening to my coworkers sing after a two hour non stop rush so im doing about as well as you think i am

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The Remains of a Life Once Lived

TW!! SEVERE MENTAL ILLNESS, SELF HARM, MENTAL BREAKDOWNS, ALCOHOLISM, HEAVY HEAVY HEAVY ANGST, ANXIETY ATTACKS, PTSD, NIGHTMARES

Kaeya and Diluc's unexpected reconciliation

next chapters

Chapter One

He let himself into his dull apartment. The walls were bare and he had the most simple furniture sets. Everything matched and it looked sophisticated, in case of guests. But any personal touches or evidence that the apartment was lived in at all? None. It looked more like a furniture showroom than a house. He preferred it that way though. He hadn’t even planned on being here this long, and he hoped he wouldn’t be for much longer. 

I guess I need to prepare for tomorrow morning before I’m too drunk to function

He grabbed the bag he usually brought on missions. First aid, change of clothes, toiletries. He brought everything he normally did. Still, he felt like he was forgetting something. Not that he cared, can’t be that important if he were to be so stupid as to forget it. Besides, he didn’t have time to dwell. He had a birthday to forget- celebrate- at the tavern.

Of course, Kaeya couldn’t even enjoy a few drinks in peace. Because of course, Diluc was bartending. 

“Ah, Master Diluc. Hoping to see me tonight? Maybe you picked up this shift to wish me a happy birthday?”

Diluc sighed heavily.

“I’m not in the mood for this tonight, Kaeya. What do you want to drink?”

“Death after noon, please. Extra strong.”

“The drink’s already strong.”

“Aw, is that concern in your voice?”

“No, I just don’t feel like cleaning up your vomit off my floors.”

“Whatever you say, Diluc.”

Diluc sighed and slid the freshly made drink over to Kaeya. He took a large sip of it and grimaced. Diluc definitely listened to his instructions. It burned going down his throat, and he felt a little more relaxed with every sip.

“Oh Diluc, another round, please!”

Kaeya was sloppy drunk. More drunk than he usually let himself get in public. 

“Master Di-”

“That’s enough Kaeya. You’re done for tonight. Leave my tavern immediately.”

“Oh, come now, Diluc. Be nice. It’s my birthday, after all.” 

His words had lost their usual teasing tone. He was slurring and the only recognizable emotion in his voice was unrequited anger.

“Kaeya Albereich, get the fuck out of my tavern. Now.” 

Diluc fired back with the same anger and hatred in his voice, but behind his words laid another emotion that couldn’t be found in Kaeya’s. Hurt.

“Fine. If you want me gone so bad. Reminds me of another time. Might I recall it?”

“Get. Out.”

Kaeya just laughed a humorless laugh and slammed the door of the tavern behind him. Thus began the long trek home. 

Home

Where even is that anymore?

He slammed the door behind him. After taking way longer than he should have to find the lock, he stumbled towards the wine cabinet, choosing a particularly large bottle of dandelion wine. He didn’t bother with a glass. Not that he really had any to begin with. Not that he needed any, when he would just drink the entire bottle anyway. Why deal with more dishes? The vessel the alcohol is in doesn’t matter, so long as it reaches his mouth and puts a stop to those horrid nightmares that plague sober sleep.

What a wonderful way to end my birthday.

He didn’t even make it to his bed before passing out on the floor. Truly, a wonderful way to end the night.

#kaeya angst #diluc angst #genshin angst #diluc ragnvindr #kaeya alberich #genshin comfort

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its scaramouche

is this bunny or is this Scaramouche I suddenly can’t tell @lotus-flowerz

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My shining star, you will get through this.

TW!! ANXIETY/PANIC ATTACK, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS

not proofread- it's 2:40 AM and i'm tired. maybe i'll edit it tomorrow

Albedo x gn!reader

a/n- self indulgent :)

next chapter of the remains of a life once lived should be coming out soon sorry for the hold up

Thoughts flitted through your head a mile a minute. It felt odd to be at rest after a week of constant work. A ring of treasure hoarders had been causing so much trouble that all units of the Knights Of Favonius had been deployed- including you and Albedo. Albedo had been in Dragonspine making potions and improving them in order to take the treasure hoarder ring out faster.

You, as a captain, had been even busier. Seeking them out and busting their tiny groups proved to be tiring work. You and your squad had been camped out in the Whispering Woods all week and this was your first night in your bed in a while- and the work was far from over, as well. Even with a vision and having several vision bearers in your squad, the treasure hoarders had thrown you for a loop. Hell, they were throwing everyone for a loop, which is why Jean had called everyone back to Mondstat to reevaluate a better plan- meaning you had no time to rest. You had work in the morning.

So why wasn't sleep making it's rounds? The night was still young- only 10 PM, but you really needed this sleep. But all you could think about was work. How badly you wanted a break. A long vacation. How for the foreseeable future things would only get harder. You hadn't even realized how you had curled in on yourself. You had stray tears falling from your eyes. You felt exhausted, every bone in your body sore and hurting. Wounds you had obtained over the past week making themselves known on your body.

Would it be easier if I just took myself out of the picture?

A wave of anxiety washed over you. There really was only one way out. It felt like ice filled your vanes as you realized just how trapped you were. The silence in the room was loud.

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Albedo knew something was wrong the second he walked in. Why are all the lights off? Surely you aren't sleeping this early?

He was right. You weren't sleeping, and that was abundantly clear from the sobs that wracked your body, your rapid breathing, the way you were completely curled in on yourself. He stood in the doorway for a moment, stunned, before rushing over.

"Y/n, it's me, Albedo."

"...Bedo?"

"Yes, it's me. May I touch you?"

You nodded, and instantly his hand found it's way to your forehead, then two fingers were softly pressed into your neck.

"Elevated temperature... rapid breathing... increased pulse.. shaking.. are you having an anxiety attack?"

Leave it to him to figure out what was wrong based on physical signs alone

You nodded once more, and he took one of your hands in his.

"I have a potion in progress that can calm the individual that takes it down from anxiety, but it's not lab tested just yet. So please, allow me to try my hand at helping you manually?"

"Please.." you mumbled.

"Give me one second, I will be back soon."

You heard noises in the bathroom, the soft hum of a toothbrush, water running, the laundry hamper opening and closing, the rustle of his work clothes being thrown inside. You heard the creak of the door as he left your room, and you heard noise coming from the kitchen. It was comforting just to have Albedo home, considering how often he was gone. The comfort of his presence alone put you at ease.

Albedo returned to your shared bedroom, holding two cups of tea and dressed in his pajamas. He turned on the lamp, which gave the dark room a comforting orange glow.

"Sit up for me, love."

You did as told and he placed the cup of tea in your hands. It's warmth brought you comfort.

He climbed in next to you, holding his own cup of tea to his lips and taking a sip.

"Be careful. It's hot." he said softly. You nodded and took a small sip.

The two of you sat in comfortable silence while you finished your tea. Albedo set his cup down on his nightstand and you followed suit.

"Alright. Now that you've calmed down slightly, may I ask you what's the matter?"

"I- I feel so overworked. We have to go right back tomorrow- we don't even get a day off. I feel like I'm barely hanging on, Albedo. The thoughts in my head aren't pretty at all, and I feel guilty for even thinking them, I-"

"Y/n, hey. You're getting worked up again. Come here."

He pulled you closer to him so you were sitting in his lap. He wrapped one arm around your waist and used the other to pull the blanket all the way around you. You wrapped your arms around him as well, laying your head on his shoulder.

"Focus on me, okay? Take a deep breath for me. It will calm your body down and return it to normal from it's current state of panic. Let's try together okay?"

You nodded, squeezing him tighter.

"Breathe in... hold it... and out.. good, just a couple more times."

Surprisingly, his breathing technique worked and you found yourself calmer, able to breathe easier. The silence that filled the room wasn't loud this time. It was warm and comforting, now that your lover's even breaths filled it and filled you with love and happiness.

Albedo broke the silence. His already soft voice was a whisper.

"Y/n.. I am not good with words. Nor am I good at maintaining relationships. Please forgive me if I say something wrong, but I cannot lose you. I think I know what kind of thoughts you are having. I will not claim to understand what you are going through and I will not claim to understand the feelings you have. But what I do understand is that I love you. I do not know if I would ever forgive myself if you removed yourself from this world by your own hand and I was not there to protect you."

He paused to brush your hair out of your face and place a small kiss on your forehead.

"A kind soul like yours doesn't deserve this kind of pain. If there was a potion that could fix it, I would have already made it. But because there is not a potion that can fully take away the pain you feel, I will try my hardest to ease it as much as possible."

His sweet words brought more tears to your eyes, as more soft cries shook your body.

"Shh, I've got you. It's alright. You're okay." he whispered, rubbing your back. He used his thumb to wipe your tears every so often, secretly loving how you melted into his touch.

"Y/n, may I try something that calms Klee down when she's upset?"

You nodded, curious at how he comforts Klee.

He began to sing softly, a beautiful melody in a language you didn't recognize. He gently rocked you back and forth, still rubbing your back. He had a surprisingly gorgeous singing voice, hauntingly beautiful with a hint of sadness and longing for something long gone in it. He reached over and turned off the lamp, still holding you tightly, but shifting your position to be laying down. He made you the little spoon and wrapped one arm around your torso protectively, the other resting on your head, stroking your hair softly.

As his gentle humming delivered you into a comfortable sleep, he couldn't help but feel a sense of accomplishment. He wasn't a man of many words, nor did he like being very emotional in front of others, but for you, he was willing to break out of that shell. Some part of him was even glad that that potion wasn't lab tested just yet. It gave him a chance to comfort you- to be vulnerable with you and connect with you more emotionally.

"Goodnight, my shining star. You will get through this. I promise."

#albedo comfort #albedo x reader #albedo #albedo kreideprinz #genshin comfort #genshin fluff #genshin x reader #genshin impact #genshin impact x reader