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The Video: What and Why?

I've had to stay off social media after reading some of the scariest and cruelest comments directed at me the day that video went viral. After many years of preaching to people and telling them to learn to be in a place where you don't care what ppl think about you, now I have to live out the words I spoke. It's a tough place to be in because the bible says Jesus was a man of no reputation. Now that I am here, I'd be lying if I said I don't want to explain and validate myself. Many will say I don't need to explain myself. But, I think there is a particular amount of responsibility one has to take when something happens. 

I'm a singer and creative who has mostly kept details about my son private. I've wanted to write about how I've felt, but every time God stopped me. As far as the comments using my son for fame and money...I've had a decent following, and a song reach #15 on the Christian Billboard charts way before I had Seth. After getting pregnant and having him early, I chose to give up everything, including my music career at its height. I canceled prominent performances and tours set up with some of the most popular Gospel Artists to be a mom.  I've been on and off of planes to perform, oversees, and worked for world-class organizations, including the Chicago Bulls, Chicago Blackhawks, NASCAR, and Wheaton Bible college. This is not to brag, but I've tasted the spotlight, and quite frankly, it freighters me because I value my privacy and comfort. But, I don't value it over what I believe. I have no clue how and why I went live. I don't know why at that moment what came out is my years of pain, fear, and so much more. 

My heart hurts because people were hurt by that. My heart also hurts because there are thousands of women who have reached out since then, feeling they have NO VOICE. Can I be honest? I don't watch the news, I'm not into politics, and I'm the politically correct, love everybody type of character. Now major tv networks and shows want interviews with me. Truthfully, don't want to be anyone's advocate. I honestly, at this point, want to hide under a blanket and make this all go away. At the time, I wasn't trying to be an advocate. I was a desperate mom who was incredibly afraid who thought that if I went public, I would get the help needed for my son. But, now, because of who I am, I can't just stop at myself. This has opened my eyes to people who need help. To those who think I am after a check, please note that I could have banked off of my situation years ago if that was what I wanted. I didn't even get disability money for him. For years I worked a full-time job singing and being a creative director during the day while caring for my son all night. When he's inpatient, I sleep at the hospital and sing/work after sleeping here.  What I want is for my son to be okay. Those feelings lead to my actions. Even now, I yearn only to work in creating programs for mentoring, advocacy, coaching, and support. People need help and I feel their pain.

I was told once I finally got the influence that I would not want it. Now, I understand that more than ever. I'm sorting out what is going on with my son, but I promise when I get through this, I will use every resource, bit of knowledge, and dollar I have to try and help people. More than anything else, I NEED JESUS to help me stay the course because this is indeed too much. 

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So Will I (100 Billion X) & Agnus Dei Worship w/ Jessica Love, George J...

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I've been quiet. Honestly I had nothing to say and was by no means going to force words, poems, songs, lyrics, blogs, ect. I wanted to make sure when I spoke it was because God was giving me something to say, not just to be a Christian Millennial. Well, I feel Him speaking and nudging again and he dropped this on my heart just now. Take a read of today's post entitled "Baby Food". Oh yeah and there's some cool updates about miracle boy too! . <3 Be encouraged. • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • I've been quiet. Honestly I had nothing to say and was by no means going to force words, poems, songs, lyrics, blogs, ect. I wanted to make sure when I spoke it was because God was giving me something to say, not just to be a Christian Millennial. Well, I feel Him speaking and nudging again and he dropped this on my heart just now. Take a read of today's post entitled "Baby Food". Oh yeah and there's some cool updates about miracle boy too! . <3 Be encouraged. (at Chicago metropolitan area) https://www.instagram.com/p/BsOqCxHAr9i/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=eyv4c19esbs8

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Baby Food

in their delays and even assume that I am put off, upset or moved by their delays. Just as you stand over Seth pleased that he is moving forward. I stand over you, giving you just what you need patiently delighting in your strides” 

Suddenly, I realized how much we beat ourselves up. Friends, for some of you, there is trauma there. Things…bad things…tough things have happened to you. God isn’t angry at you. He just wants you to get up and try again. 

You see, Seth wasn’t given any change to live. Now he’s eating. But eating VERY slowly. As his mom I’m not upset at him for eating slow! I’m simply overjoyed and pleased that he fought so  hard to live! Some of you had hits put out on your life that could have literally killed you spiritually. But, you STILL believe. Those things didn’t destroy you, but they delayed you. Please do not get caught up in the delay. 

Maybe every time you try to read the word you drift off or fall asleep. Maybe when you tried and swore you would control your anger this time, you went off again. Maybe you gave up premarital sex for good this time and messed up after a year of holding out. I don’t know what it is, but today I want you to understand God is pleased with your hunger to accept and follow His plan for your life. 

1 Timothy 1:15-16 

Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display His immense patience as an example for those who would believe in Him and receive eternal life. 

Be encouraged.  XO, XO,  J- Love 

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Issa me Birthday. ❤️🎉🎊 Camera 📸: @jasonmccoyphotography 💄: @sonyasimonemua 💇: @yazmeen_sierra https://www.instagram.com/p/BpXGwMYgF0-/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1lnhz8z7syb6v

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It’s my birthday! And I just uploaded a new Video to #IG TV. A snippet of #tremble by @mosaic at @golivingwater. The full is on YouTube. Link in bio! ❤️ Shoutout to this amazing band and amazing pastors who let me run with vision! Guitar: @anders_eric Keys and MD: @tlstingley Guitar and vocals: @kinggeorgethemagnificent Guitar and vocals: @dilipkurian Drums and tracks: @timkdrumz Vocals: @tiffanyhinesmusic @biancastingl #worship #liveworship #worshiplive #mosaic #spontaneous #spontaneoussong #songofthelord #jesus #worshipclips #wordofgod https://www.instagram.com/p/BpXEbuDgiEz/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=12bq3s575yf2v

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If you've ever wondered "does she think before she speaks?" The answer is an astounding NO!!!! 😫 "He's cupping you this morning." Tell yo neighbor God is cupping me. #sermonillustration #arianagrande #mikecolter #sermonnotes #recklesslove #godisnear 👀 https://www.instagram.com/p/BnVDWUMn2Y7/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1f519ewyx0346

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#nofilter @filausa #teamnatural #bighair #afro (at Chicago, Illinois) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnSBmsVnurW/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=96ktlw0l13uw

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❤️ Repost from @laynigood One of my favorite shots from the Leon Timbo event this past weekend. @jessicaloveis did amazing on #recklesslove . Powerful service! #leontimbo #northernlightsunited #citcdallas #worshipnight #praise #worship #instaworship #instagood #instadaily #instadfw #dfw #rowletttx #worshipcommunity #vsco #vscocam (at Church in the City) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bmy3j7sHA0b/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=5eakm9d29bi

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Morning you guys. Ladies this new #snapchatfilter if you don’t bless your life with it on today!

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❤️ #surrounded #fightmybattles #thisishowifightmybattles . Love this sone by @upperroomworship Repost from @citypointcc Check out the latest Music Ministry from the June 17th Sunday worship service. #GodsPlan 📺: bit.ly/CPMusicMinistryChannel Thank you Jessica Love (@jessicaloveis) for leading an incredible music worship! 🙏

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❤️ #surrounded #fightmybattles #thisishowifightmybattles . Love this sone by @upperroomworship Repost from @citypointcc Check out the latest Music Ministry from the June 17th Sunday worship service. #GodsPlan 📺: bit.ly/CPMusicMinistryChannel Thank you Jessica Love (@jessicaloveis) for leading an incredible music worship! 🙏

#surrounded #fightmybattles #godsplan #thisishowifightmybattles

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Someone needed to feel this see this and say this! #honor Repost from @omegageorge using @RepostRegramApp - Apostle @dr.matthewstevenson is setting another DIMENSION of HONOR...PERIOD...this clip, this moment, this healing, this wholeness, this commitment, this REPENTANCE, this grace, this LOVE has literally changed my ENTIRE life in 59 seconds. This is what I call embodying the Gospel we preach‼️Repentance is NOT always about what you HAVE done, often times it is necessary for those things you HAVE NOT. I love #anwa #honor #notaseriesastandard Repost from @triv1234 thanks for posting this for us ALL‼️

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Repost @northernlightsunited Pre-order #invitationtoworship today! Link in bio!

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💕 #iamfearless #fearlessgirl #fearlessconference (at Wheaton Christian Center Church)

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Pre-order the joint framily! And, follow @northernlightsunited! @leontimbo #invitationtoworship #newmusicnow #lionandthelamb #kingofmyheart

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Our album is live on #tunes for the preorder!!! ‼️ Follow @northernlightsunited. Link to purchase in my bio! #newmusicalert

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