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Ohhh my God, the current VA for Foghorn Leghorn actually dubbed it.

#reblogged #video #memes

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not gonna say it again

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When I was a kid, maybe 14 or so (which is, you know, 20+ years ago), I belonged to a Yahoo! mailing list for an anime called Gundam Wing. It was mostly populated by other teens, of varying ages, as it was started by a teen and her friends. Eventually it migrated, when Yahoo! groups started as forums, and even branched off into non-GW related stuff in a second forum.

One of the things I remember the most clearly is the oldest person in the group. Her name was Steelsong. She was a 40-something Dom with a sub whose name we knew even though we knew nothing else. She ran her own fanfic archive because the web was still handmade HTML and navigated in webrings and I’m pretty sure Google didn’t exist or was only barely, barely launched and not well known. She was kind and patient and we loved her. She treated everyone on the group with the respect given any adult, even though most of the rest of the world was still treating us like we were children. Not teenagers even, but children. She never once condescended to any of us, never made our youth a barrier to her respect, never treated us like we were incapable of being full people or like we were less than her because we were young.

I remember that she hosted our fanfiction, as absolutely terrible as it was (and I still have some of it, I am WELL aware of how cringingly terrible it is, just absolute nonsense garbage), right there alongside of other fic that was soul-achingly beautiful. Not a separate section for her friends or for kids, just right there like we were good enough to feature alongside other authors. I never once received crit from her that I didn’t ask for, only support. Only love. I am still writing today partly because Steel was so kind about our fic, fanfic and original.

I remember that when I started doing clay sculpture, she commissioned a tiny pair of dragons from me, to support me doing artwork. She sent a check my mom cashed for me, and my mom helped me mail it when it was finished. It broke in transit, and Steel assured me that she mended it and that it was still beautiful. It was a small gold dragon curled up with a small silver dragon.

I remember that her patience knew no bounds. I remember that she was there for us, regardless of reason. When we wanted to know silly things like what to do with a single AA battery, she answered. When we had serious questions about sex, she answered.  When we had questions about writing, she taught us. When one of our group members, a young gay teen in Australia, ended up in the hospital and then stopped making posts, and we all knew what had happened, she let us talk to her about it because we couldn’t go to our own parents, even though we had just lost a friend.

She was not a replacement to my parents, but she was an extra parent, in some ways. A friend, certainly, but someone that had been through more life than we had and was willing to pass on knowledge if we asked for it. Someone older that we trusted with things that were too uncomfortable to go to our parents or teachers or whatever about, because we already knew she wasn’t going to judge us or something, and that we would get an honest answer.

I don’t know why I’m remembering this so hard tonight, and I’m not sure if there’s a point to sharing this, except that I know she’s gone now. She was ill the last time we spoke, and her site went down a long time ago, and I miss her. She was a huge influence on my life, then and now. She was hope, for me, that life as an adult didn’t have to be boring, it wouldn’t have to mean giving up the things I loved and Becoming Only Responsible With No Fun. Her presence meant I had hope I could still write and play with friends even when I wasn’t ‘a kid’ anymore. And she’s gone, and I miss her, and I wanted to share her from the perspective of youth, and the perspective over twenty years later has provided me.

And I think of her, when people go off about older folks being in fandom with younger folks. I’m an older folks now, or at least middle aged folks because there are certainly folks older than me still, but I wasn’t always. I’ve been here since i was a younger folks, and I know how much Steel’s presence and support meant to me, how much she helped not just me but everyone on that group. And I think of the people saying older folks don’t belong in fandom, and that they shouldn’t interact with younger folks at all, and I just think… I can’t agree. I needed that kind of solid presence in my life back then and even at the age I am now, I need the folks older than me to stay. I want them here.

So I guess, like, if you’re here and you’re 40 or 50 or 60 or 70 or 80 or whatever, I want you here in fandom with me, still. Your presence here is a comfort. It is hope. It is a reminder that life will continue to be fun, even as I get older, myself. And if you’re younger and you have this sort of elder in your groups, I hope that they are like Steel. I hope they are kind and patient and supportive, and that knowing them gives you hope for your own future. I hope in twenty years you look back and remember them fondly.

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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#why is this such a big fucking mood to me #reblogged #psa

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Hey there demons. It is I, ya boi

Prepare for more Killer In Purple 2 BTS from moi, this time about the next few early human characters after the very first kid NPC!

Part 2: THE FIRST FEW MODELS

Now, I've already talked about this little goober:

The very first model and my very first contribution to the game overall! But naturally, he was only the beginning.

Since the developer GFC wanted some diversity with characters, I agreed to make the lad from above into a pair by making a female version as well! And I sort of made that a pattern I'd follow: if I were to make more kid NPCs I'd make a pair at least, a boy and a girl.

The boy above, and the female version I was about to do, would be the first pair in the game!

Before jumping into designing a girl, some things I kept in mind: the boy above would be the base for the girl as well as for every future kid model; this way the developer would have to change little to nothing about rigging and animating the models, since the same methods could be applied to all with very minor changes if at all. This was to save time, as well as let GFC dedicate his time and focus on other aspects of the game.

Okay, yeah. But now, what is the girl supposed to look like?

This was surprising not hard to decide! See, in the lore of GFC's games, Cassidy (who possesses Golden Freddy,) is actually a boy-- like the name "Bonnie," "Cassidy" also is a name that works for both girls and boys.

That means the well known female Cassidy isn't part of this world. Which means I could "borrow" her looks.

So while the first boy is an improved version of the previous Blender model but also a reference to the FNAF 4 Crying Child, the girl would be a reference to female Cassidy.

So, an adorable little girl with black hair in pigtails was built!

Now things get a little tougher, however:

What outfit do I give her when building her body?

Now, she was a reference to female Cassidy, but she is just an NPC, with nothing to do with character, so I knew I didn't want to use yellow, purple or too much black in her clothes, lest it could confuse people.

At the end, I went for a mellow pink and blue aesthetic, designed in a way I think vaguely gave off 80's vibes:

(The solid green spots were to help GFC see where the different pieces connect, which he could easily color over once they served their purpose.)

And much like with the boy, later on GFC had figured out how to give the models different facial expressions, so I was tasked with making different heads with different expressions for both kids in the pair. Aside from the default neutral smile, GFC also wanted a scared face for when kids see the player with the knife out or witness a kill, and a dead expression for when the player ultimately points out their skill issue.

Since it was around the same time with the boy, I also went with different dead expressions for the girl, and let GFC pick the winning one, which wound up being the one with X'd out eyes.

And with that we have the first pair of kid NPCs in Killer In Purple 2! But if you've played the game, you know it isn't about just going around collecting kids like pokémon left and right, but also avoiding the eyes of another figure important to the game mechanics:

That's right! The PARENTS!

Much like the first boy, there was only a mother model made in Blender in the earlier versions of the game. I don't have any screenshots of the Blender mother, but the improved design would still be heavily inspired by it (brunette woman with a ponytail in a blue blouse.)

This is where I used the boy model not as a base, but as the starting point in building, as now I had to make an adult, therefore the model had to be taller and a bit larger.

The design was very 1:1 from the blender version, so there was not much sitting around thinking about it:

I altered the face from the child to make it seem older and more mature, namely slightly smaller eyes and a lighter smile, along a slightly different nose.

But as to keep every single spawning parent in the game from looking like an army of clones is coming to eat pizza at your business, I also used the newly made improved parent model as a base for another different designed parent.

I've seen many assume this to be a dad model. And they're not wrong! But my aim was to create an ambiguous-looking parent, with a design that could work for a dad as much as a mom. So if you think it's a dad, you're right! If you think it's a mom, you're also right! Heck, it could even pass as an older/adult sibling.

And with that we wrap up for today, tackling what made up the earlier version of Killer in Purple 2. Stay tuned as there's still a lot more fun little things to be tackled!

#fnaf #fnaf fangame #killer in purple 2 #kip2 #3d #3d art #voxel #voxel art #jellycream art #jellycream speaks

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So we all know that Tumblr is US-centric. But to what degree? (and can we skew the results of this poll by posting it at a time where they should be asleep?)

Reblog to increase sample size!

#reblogged #polls

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I stumbled upon a website that allows you to blend any colors evenly no matter how opposite on the spectrum they are.

sharing the knowledge

very helpful art resource

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i think the worst thing about the whole “anti-woke” culture is how it’s not only dumbing down people (folks are literally forgetting pronouns are an actual word class, an inseperable part of grammar and everyday speech) but also praising meanness and insensibility above all. it has managed to make malice and unkindness synonymous with factfulness and reason as if intelligence didn’t stem from emotions. as if feelings weren’t the very core of human beings. as if knowledge wasn’t achieved through passion, sympathy, and open-mindedness. as if the whole crux of this entire anti-wokeness movement wasn���t rooted in pure unadulterated emotion of hatred and hostility.

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(ʘ‿ʘ✿) “what you say ‘bout me”

(ʘ‿ʘ)ノ✿ “hold my flower”

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why yes I AM making boop gifs from screen recording

#reblogged #april fools #tumblr

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just because someone can articulate their point better doesn’t make them right, it makes them articulated. 

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Just say you think cp is ok as long as the minors are fictional you fuckin pedophile

Normally I ignore hostile or pre-judgmental asks on the off chances I get them, but I'll make exception for this one because it seems like a good opportunity for some much needed nuance-- also because I get this person's disgust, I really do.

But you, my fella, must understand that this isn't about the morality or even lack thereof behind dark fictional content, at all. You must realize that wanting dark and taboo fictional content (yes including that one you mentioned) not being allowed to exist actually does nothing to improve or protect irl lives, much on the contrary actually. No, I don't think there's any possible moral reason behind fictional cp content (nor do I find it 'ok',) but once again, this isn't about morality.

Please take a moment to read this thread (it words this topic better than me) then think it over. Trust me, it's a better use of your time than annoying ppl online with words you can't even bother standing up for with your name/face.

#reblogging with the op post's tags bc i realized theyre as important if not more so as the post itself #reblogged #psa

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Just say you think cp is ok as long as the minors are fictional you fuckin pedophile

Normally I ignore hostile or pre-judgmental asks on the off chances I get them, but I'll make exception for this one because it seems like a good opportunity for some much needed nuance-- also because I get this person's disgust, I really do.

But you, my fella, must understand that this isn't about the morality or even lack thereof behind dark fictional content, at all. You must realize that wanting dark and taboo fictional content (yes including that one you mentioned) not being allowed to exist actually does nothing to improve or protect irl lives, much on the contrary actually. No, I don't think there's any possible moral reason behind fictional cp content (nor do I find it 'ok',) but once again, this isn't about morality.

Please take a moment to read this thread (it words this topic better than me) then think it over. Trust me, it's a better use of your time than annoying ppl online with words you can't even bother standing up for with your name/face.

#like yeah i get your kneejerk reaction n outrage #but you must not let your disgust alone call for morality esp with fictional content #believe me i dont like pedophiliac fiction and wouldnt want to engage or come across it personally #and i def dont think it should just be posted wherever without abandon without the proper trigger/content warnings filters tags #or outside the proper spaces #if the contrary happens the problem isnt the dark theme itself existing but an INDIVIDUAL problem of the author being forgetful at best #or an asshole at worst #but i understand this kind of content has to be safe to exist when properly handled even if i dont like it nor would look at it #bc if you allow censorship even the tiniest margin there it will never ever just stop or stay there #it will 100% of the time always try to spread and take more #you dont need to engage or like or even agree with dark content at all! #but you must understand that either even the darkest and most grotesque and disgusting type of fic is safe to exist #or NO forms of fiction are truly safe to exist at all #yes even the fictional content you'd deem pure and kid-friendly could be at risk then #anon #anonymous #jellycream answers #psa #idk what other tags should be here im drawing a blank srry

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🔹 Saying that it's okay to write or read about dark and taboo topics but only when they're portrayed in a certain way is still censorship.

🔹 Wanting to ban or forbid media that you believe portrays a negative topic in a positive light, by glorifying, romanticizing, or fetishizing it is still censorship.

🔹 There is no objective metric to decide if a story is portraying a negative topic the 'right' way.

🔹 Just because a piece of fiction doesn't explicitly condemn or portray an evil action in a bad light in the text doesn't mean the author thinks its good or is trying to persuade the audience that it is good.

🔹 Survivors of trauma will not always write fiction about their trauma in a way that seems 'right' or 'normal' to you.

🔹 Banning fiction because it portrays dark, taboo topics in a way you consider gross or disgusting is still censorship.

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[jellycreamjammedart]

Fandom PSAs

Dont’ Like, Don’t Read

or DL; DR

You are responsible for curating your own online experience.

If something upsets you, makes you angry or queasy or triggers you, stop reading/looking at it. Avoid things that might make you feel that way.

Learn to use the Sort and Filter function on AO3, especially the Exclude tools.

On social media, block and mute accounts / tags / words when necessary.

If you hated something, you don’t need to tell that to the creator or start pointing fingers at them publicly.

The Back button is free. Use it.

Addendum:

Yes, for this to work, creators need to tag their works accordingly, so that people know what sort of content they are about to engage with and can nope out if necessary.

I will probably make another PSA about the importance of proper tagging later.

Ship And Let Ship

or SALS

You are allowed to ship whatever you want.

Everyone else is also allowed to ship whatever they want.

You are entitled to dislike or even hate a ship. If you want to do this online, in public, don’t use the ship tags for hate posts.

If you see someone posting about a ship they like and you don’t, there is no need for you to start arguing with them in their replies / comments / QRTs / reblogs. Don’t throw your hate in their face.

Do not harass fan creators or fans for shipping something you disapprove.

All of this also applies to liking / disliking an individual character.

Addendum:

”I agree with this, except when…”

No, then you are NOT agreeing with this.

Let me make this VERY clear. There are NO exceptions. None.

You don’t EVER harass real people over pixels.

If you disagree with this, kindly block and move on.

Your Kink Is Not My Kink

or YKINMK / YKINMKATO

The longer version is ”Your Kink Is Not My Kink And That’s Okay”.

People have different tastes. Not everything is for everybody.

Even if you don’t like a specific kink, other people are still allowed to use it in their creations.

You are entitled to dislike kinky content and think that it’s ”weird”.

Don’t kink shame or judge people based on their kinks.

This goes both ways: your kink is not someone else’s kink, so don’t push it onto those who are not into it.

Be Kind

or Don’t Be An Asshole

Focus on the things you like instead of the things you hate.

Create and unite instead of destroying and dividing.

Don’t harass real people over fictional things.

Stop stirring up petty drama just to get some attention on social media.

Stop trying to ”win”. Fandom is not a competition.

Remember that your own experiences aren’t universally shared. Your perception of things can differ from someone else’s, but that doesn’t mean either of you is necessarily wrong.

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reblog to give the pervious person a nice rock

#hehe shiny pwetty..... #reblogged

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i rlly hope it gets easier soon bc i am fucking losing my mind

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