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Love

I didn’t think it was possible. But I fell in love with her all over again.

I took a risk. A big one. I got on a metal bird and sailed across the sky, thousands of miles away. To a place where my kind isn’t as accepted, where my safety was at risk.

I did it for love. Just a tiny whisper of hope after I had given up on it so many times before.

I landed. Shaking. Scared. Nervous. I didn’t know what to do. What if she’ll hate me. I hate myself. I hate everything about myself. I should just turn around and never come back. She deserves better. We’ve tried this before and it didn’t work, what could possibly be so different this time??

I held my breath and walked out of the terminal. The crisp air hitting my face. I could make out her face in the shadows of her windshield.

She got out and hugged me. No, held me. She held me and in an instant, all my fears melted away. She was there for me as I was there for her. She was always the one. 6 fucking years of her running around my head and she was finally there, in front of me, holding me, loving me unconditionally. I never thought it would happen, boy was I wrong.

I felt something. Something warm, but sharp. I opened my eyes to see what it was. She had already let go and was getting back into the car. I looked down to see what I was feeling. There was nothing there... It was internal. It was my heart.

I felt empty without her there. My heart was aching for more. Every inch of my body felt cold and lifeless without her touch. I followed after her and decided at that moment that I would never let myself go another day without her. Without my one true love.

Love is wild

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You niggas don’t wanna battle dick to dick

#nsfw

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Every day I live here my life gets darker. These people, these walls, all stained with filth and denial.

I can’t ruin my future because of these idiots. I have to keep looking forward

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I lost my job again. Well, I didn’t lose it, I got fired.

A week before probation is up... for the first time in my life I had this really detailed and aspirational 5 and 10 year goal planned out, revolving around this company. And I’ve been jerked around for 9 months trying to get the dream position I applied for.

Finally, four days before the start date of the dream job, they cut me.

I spent the last 3 months doing nothing but working. 16 days straight, 16 hours on 8 hours off, overtime galore. Barely any sleep or sanity.

The entire time my personal life was a mess. My mental health deteriorating, my boyfriend and his family making me want to just fucking ***.

I’m just so fucking done with this life. I didn’t want it. I didn’t ask to be born. I don’t want to be here anymore. I just want it to all be over. But I’m not strong enough to end it. Never have been, never will be.

I’ve just lost all hope all over again.

I just wanna go so far away and never turn around. I want to leave everything behind and never come back.

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1. Doctor finds anecdotal evidence that people are passing kidney stones after riding on Big Thunder Mountain Railroad at Disney World

2. Doctor makes 3-D model of kidney, complete with stones and urine (his own), takes it on Big Thunder Mountain Railroad 60 times

3. “The stones passed 63.89 percent of the time while the kidneys were in the back of the car. When they were in the front, the passage rate was only 16.67 percent. That’s based on only 60 rides on a single coaster, and Wartinger guards his excitement in the journal article: ‘Preliminary study findings support the anecdotal evidence that a ride on a moderate-intensity roller coaster could benefit some patients with small kidney stones.’”

4. “Some rides are going to be more advantageous for some patients than other rides. So I wouldn’t say that the only ride that helps you pass stones is Big Thunder Mountain. That’s grossly inaccurate.”

5. “His advice for now: If you know you have a stone that’s smaller than five millimeters, riding a series of roller coasters could help you pass that stone before it gets to an obstructive size and either causes debilitating colic or requires a $10,000 procedure to try and break it up. And even once a stone is broken up using shock waves, tiny fragments and “dust” remain that need to be passed. The coaster could help with that, too.”

SCIENCE: IT WORKS

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I still cry weekly about the fact that I lost Kristin. She was the greatest thing to ever happen to me. I hate that I fucked it up. I hate myself for ever letting her get away

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Thanks?

logged onto tumblah for the first time in years and was surprised to see so many notes and messages. Apparently I scared people with some super depressed posts regarding suicide and whatnot the last two or three posts i’ve left.  Still alive sorry!  No need to worry about me, the void im in is still existent, still haven’t crawled out of this hell hole of a house and relationship.  Thank you for the kind words, but theres nothing wrong with wanting to die. I just think I wasn’t meant to be born into this world at this time in history.  Yeah so anyways, I don’t think i’ll post much more on here ever. Just the yearly birthday post to myself. I kinda like that tradition. 

Anyways, I’m gonna start streaming again when Black Ops 4 comes out, heres the link. 

#personal

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Theres so much that has happened in such a short time. You lost your best friend, the love of your life, your home, your money, any respect people once had for you. You cheated and lied your way through life to stay afloat.  Life is dark right now. you have big things planned for the future but its not gonna be easy. You have a boyfriend you dont deserve. You also have a boyfriend you dont want.  You have friends who arent actually your friends. You had a job where you thought you were wanted but nobody actually cared for you.  You left your family, hoping that they would understand just how bad it was, hoping it would be some form of punishment, only to find that they couldnt care less.  Do us all a favour and end it. You’re not worth the air, you never have been.  Happy? Birthday -21 year old Jazmine

I have been waiting all year to post this.

#personal

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The past 6 months of your life have been a world of hurt and changes. the next six months of your life will have even more. You’ll move out on your own, get a full time job that you have to keep, see beyoncé out of province, possibly see K later in the year... It’s a lot.  You’ve done so much in your 19th year, and you have a lot more to 20th.  Good luck on your 21st year of life.  Heppy birthday future Jazmine,  -20 year old Jazelonious Prime.  p.s. when you read this a year from now your fat ass better be in las vegas getting drunk and losing all your money.

I have been waiting all year to post this.

#happy birthday

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Life

I honestly never thought I would get myself so deep into this hole of depression and regret.  I have made mistake after mistake this past year and am doing nothing but paying for it.  Why do I even bother anymore?? My boyfriend despises me, I barely have friends, I have no home, Not enough hours at work, No privacy, No Money... No Sanity. I’m drowning, but once again nobody sees it.  At least this time a razor isn’t involved... yet.

#personal #tw self harm #youre a pussy if you need a trigger warning in my opinion

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Bless you, MusicalHoe.

#fave #favourite #ref #reference #hoe #list #important

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A Simplified Guide To The Sexualities

Homosexual: sexual attraction to houses and other building like structures.

Heterosexual: an undying lust for Macklemore.

Asexual: attraction to any and all things beginning with the letter A.

Pansexual: a desire for pots, pans, and other kitchen utensils.

Polysexual: sexual attraction to polygons.

Bisexual: Attraction to the 9th century Chinese army officer Bi Shiduo.

Demisexual: Never ending love of demi lovato

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