iwannabeatreeeee

[iwannabeatreeeee]

can people stop commenting 'cut deeper then' or 'stop cuting if ur not good at it' on someones vent posts.

like tf?? trying to trigger someone with your absolute lack of empathy is not okay.

i know that people comment worse things, but i dont need those kind of comments when already in a bad headspace.

im going to assume these people r children so ill be nice~ comments like these can rlly affect someone so yall need to grow n have empathy for others that may be struggling in the same way u are (with what tags my posts r underr)

comments like these r not welcome on my page,

this is where i vent~i didnt ask for anyones opinion or imput.

#self h@rm #sh #depressing shit #self destruction #tw depressing thoughts #sh cvt #cvtaddict #s3lf mutilation

[iwannabeatreeeee]

im so sick of being me,

why is being me so exhausting.

#self destruction #self h@rm #depressing shit #sh #tw depressing thoughts #tw sui ideation #sh cvt #cvtaddict #s3lf mutilation

[iwannabeatreeeee]

i hate that instead of feeling sympathy when seeing someone elses scars

im just jealous, like i dont cut good enoughh

n theirs look perfect but mine dont

#self destruction #self h@rm #sh #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #sh cvt #cvtaddict #s3lf mutilation

[iwannabeatreeeee]

also why tf is so many people following me????

[iwannabeatreeeee]

i hate spring n summer,

i hate that im supposed to feel better n enjoy the sun n the clear sky,

but i always feel depressed n empty

it makes me feel so guilty

#depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #self destruction #self h@rm #sh #tw sui ideation #sh cvt #cvtaddict #s3lf mutilation

[iwannabeatreeeee]

ive been putting off my attempt for so long, i dont think i can anymore

#self destruction #self h@rm #sh #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #sh cvt #cvtaddict #s3lf mutilation #sui attempt

[iwannabeatreeeee]

im scared that my attempt wont work n ill end up in hospital,

but im also scared that it will work.

i just dont want to exist

#self destruction #self h@rm #sh #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #sh cvt #cvtaddict #s3lf mutilation #sui attempt

[iwannabeatreeeee]

i hate myself sm,

i hate that i sh just to try n cope,

i hate that i dont wanna be alive,

i hate myself for the pain that i cause n will cause my family.

#self destruction #self h@rm #sh #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #sh cvt #cvtaddict #s3lf mutilation #shblrr

[iwannabeatreeeee]

the urge to sh over tattoos is way to strong like tf

#self destruction #self h@rm #sh #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #tw sui ideation #sh cvt #cvtaddict #s3lf mutilation #sui attempt

[iwannabeatreeeee]

i want someone to tell me why i do these things,

why i still cut myself~burn myself,

why i feel so numb n empty yet feel so much

why i still dont want to be alive

#self destruction #self h@rm #sh #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #tw sui ideation #sh cvt #cvtaddict #s3lf mutilation #sui attempt #i want to cvt #cvtt!ng #sewer slide

[iwannabeatreeeee]

as much as i like being autistic i hate it.

i hate how overwelming negative feeling r, how it feels like im going to die or that i need to sh,

i hate how my brain keeps things that has upset me n replys them over n over again~i cant move on from it.

i hate how the mental health system wont/cant help me

i hate how im 20 stuck as a teen bc i cant move on from the abuse or how everyone failed me bc i was an undiagnosed autistic abused child.

i hate it all

#self destruction #self h@rm #sh #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #tw sui ideation #sh cvt #cvtaddict #s3lf mutilation #sui attempt #i want to cvt

[iwannabeatreeeee]

i just simply dont want to be alive anymore,

its too exhausting

#self destruction #self h@rm #sh #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #tw sui ideation #cvtaddict #sh cvt #s3lf mutilation

[iwannabeatreeeee]

after over a decade of sh i still dont properly know why i do

i just know its something i do,

cutting just feels so natural.

like its the only thing i was made todo yk??

#self destruction #self h@rm #sh #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #tw sui ideation #cvtaddict #sh cvt #s3lf mutilation #sui attempt

[iwannabeatreeeee]

i feel like my scars are so unvalidating for me rn

bc most of the are white n barely visible~ i hate them, i hate that they r on my body n that they're not even good enough.

the only place thats not is my arms~ n i still feel like they should be worsee

#self destruction #self h@rm #sh #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #tw sui ideation #sh cvt #cvtaddict #s3lf mutilation #sui attempt

[iwannabeatreeeee]

does anyone think there would be a time where ill feel better??

where negative emotions wouldnt feel like i need to kill myself

or where id stop hurting myself when i can't breathe bc i dont know any way else to cope.

is it possible to stop living in sm pain??

#self destruction #self h@rm #sh #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #tw sui ideation #sh cvt #cvtaddict #s3lf mutilation #sui attempt

[iwannabeatreeeee]

sometimes i miss when i was in the hospital for trying to kill myself

i miss when my whole body was covered in cuts

or when i would starve myself for days

i think i miss when my mental health was so visable, i miss when other people noticably cared. ykk??

#self destruction #self h@rm #sh #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #tw sui ideation #sh cvt #cvtaddict #s3lf mutilation #sui attempt

[iwannabeatreeeee]

i rlly don't wanna live, its so painfull to be alive. its overwelming still being alive but killing myself is still overwelming ahh

#self destruction #self h@rm #sh #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #tw sui ideation #sh cvt #cvtaddict #s3lf mutilation #sui attempt #i want to cvt #cutt1ng