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isa-bella222 · 9 months

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treat imagination like you used to.

before knowing law of assumption imagination was my peaceful retreat.

outside problems weren’t allowed to enter it, it was never a question if they could enter my retreat, there wasn’t the possibility. the idea to imagine something bad never crossed my mind.

i would use imagination to experience exactly what i wanted without expecting anything because i did not know anything about law of assumption and i would have fun doing it.

my imagination was made to be my heaven, my safe place, the place where i could have and be everything i wanted to. i would make it into the most beautiful place to be in and i would always want to go back to it and experience my deepest desires.

i was always used to treat my imagination exactly like a kid would, to be and have whatever i wanted to be and have. i don’t know if that’s your case but i know that was mine.

i never poisoned my imagination with the outside, why would i? it made absolutely no sense, it was my secret place where i could have everything i wanted. imagining the bad stuff or just bringing the outside in my imagination never occured to me. it never occured to me that it was even a possibility.

when i found law of assumption i felt more in bondage.

i became hyper aware of my thoughts and of my mental activity, i was in shambles and tired like a mad worker because i was policing of every single thought my mind would have.

i stopped allowing myself to have a heaven within me, i would bring inside all the rotten i had outside and i would reason with myself on why i couldn’t have what i wanted, listed all the reasons why having what i wanted within me was insane.

i was so mad at myself for finding this law because i felt it ruined my imagination, i felt it ruined my playground and now i could no longer have what i wanted without being aware of every little thing going on inside of me.

i felt absolutely awful.

there was no escape. i couldn’t go anywhere to feel better like i used to before. i couldn’t escape from that war. i was stuck there, i felt stuck in hell.

all i felt was fear, worry, anxiety. my imagination was scary, it was scarier than the outside to me. i hated going within, i dreaded it. it wasn’t something i wanted to do because my imagination was poisoned. i couldn’t imagine something good without my imagination ruining it with something bad or with worry and anxiety.

i am a visualizer and visualization was the best way to enjoy imagination for me but now that was ruined, my imagination was showing me scenes i didn’t wanna see, all the good scenes i tried to imagine were ruined, i wasn’t allowed to enjoy them because whenever i tried to conjure up a scene in line with the fulfillment of my desire some awful thought would ruin it. something awful was always in the back of my mind sabotaging my scenes.

i loved visualizing but i started hating it and fearing it, i dreaded going within, my own imagination was scarier than the outside. i actively avoided visualizing and daydreaming because i was scared something could ruin my scene. i was so scared that i would do the most just to avoid going within and seeing my desire in imagination.

i was scared of imagination because i believed it to be separate from me and when i realized imagination wasn’t the monster but i was in charge of it i was scared of myself because for some reason i couldn’t stop these thoughts, i feared them so much and i couldn’t stop them even if i was the one in charge of them.

this only lead to me being mad at myself because i knew exactly what was wrong with what i was doing but i couldn’t help myself out of there.

i knew it all in theory but there was still something i wasn’t actually grasping, there was still something that wasn’t clicking because even when i got into the state, started seeing movement, there was still something that felt off. and i was heavily dependent on movement and took everything the 3D told me as fact.

i was filled with anxiety even when imagining the good things. i hated feeling like that. i hated it so much that my focus shifted from manifesting my desires to restoring my peace in imagination because there was no way i had to feel like that to manifest what i wanted. i had manifested consciously before law of assumption but i still found myself in this awful state and i couldn’t help myself out of it.

i knew the law, i studied it, i understood it, i knew the theory but for some reason applying was awful.

“you don’t have to believe you have it physically, you have to believe you have it within.”

okay i got that, but it was still so hard to just believe i had it within for some reason?

the reason was i didn’t understand how simple the law was, i didn’t understand it and i made law of assumption this complicated, abstract thing when it is in fact very very simple and very practical.

“i need to believe i have it within.”

i was pounding that in my head but i hadn’t fully understood what the “within” was.

yeah it’s imagination? i think? is it? do i just have to imagine? is it enough? how do i believe i have it within? how can i believe it?

those were my thoughts.

and yes you do just believe, there is no way around it but blind faith with your reasoning mind always actively sabotaging you can only last so long.

my logical mind was overpowering and i needed to actually make things click in order to start applying properly because trusting what others said wasn’t enough clearly and i didn’t want to put so much effort in. i didn’t want to feel so tired when applying the law, i knew i wasn’t supposed to.

this is when my journey actually started. when i started to look for myself, to make things click for myself.

i dropped my desires and started focusing on restoring my peace of mind, i needed that more than ANYTHING else. more than my sp, more than money, more than anything i needed to feel peaceful in my mind. i couldn’t go on living like that. i just couldn’t.

as i said i made law of assumption to be this abstract shit when it is extremely practical and simple.

when i actually and properly understood what the “within” everyone talked about was it was a game changer for me.

this is a problem many encounter probably because they understand they don’t have to pretend or delude themselves but they don’t understand what the within is.

it actually is imagination.

how do you know you have it? you can imagine having it.

yes.

it is actually that simple.

you can imagine having your desire. that means that what you want is already a fact in imagination, you can imagine your end, you can imagine being in that relationship, having that money, that car, that house, that body.

this means it is a fact in imagination and you actually do have it IN IMAGINATION. you do have it within, you can’t even deny it because you can see it clearly with your mind’s eye.

this is how you believe you have it. it’s actually undeniable. the existence of your desire in imagination is undeniable.

i knew that was the thing that i was missing: truly believing.

that was what kept me in a trying state, that was what made me incredibly tired and annoyed and what made me react to everything. but the 3D cannot dictate what you can or cannot imagine. you can imagine anything and nobody can take your imagination from you.

you can always imagine having your desires, no one and i repeat NO ONE can take your desire away from you because it is always gonna be inside of yourself waiting for you to remember it is there. it’s never gonna be far from you, it’s always gonna be inside of you.

you can ALWAYS imagine having it, think about it. this is why there’s no failure, because you will always be able to imagine having it and nobody can take it from you.

when i realized the simplicity of this and realized that i wasn’t tied to a method to imagine it all became easier because i just had to remember that i experienced it within. i experienced having it and that is exactly why i have it in imagination, because i can imagine having it.

i want to stress this even more before i move on: you have your desire in imagination because you can imagine having it.

i know i have whatever i want in imagination because i can imagine having it, everything is already mine in imagination. that’s my heaven, where i can have everything that i want.

how i got out of that funk

the only way i got out of that awful state was by admitting defeat to myself and the 3D. i admitted i couldn’t do anything at all to change the 3D and i sat with that realization.

as awful as my 3D was there was nothing i could do to make it better, to change it or to improve it. i simply couldn’t do anything at all to the 3D.

admitting defeat was freeing, admitting i couldn’t change the outside was peaceful.

i really was trying it all to change the outside and i only did things to change the 3D which led to minor movement and even then i was feeling awful inside because it wasn’t exactly what i wanted.

i really cannot change the outer world, i can’t do it and i’m glad i can’t because that was the most tiring shit ever. i felt the worst i’ve ever felt while trying to change the outer world.

it was never my job to change the outside and making it my job led me to being disgustingly anxious and fearful. i stopped trying to manifest, i stopped being in the state of manifesting my desires and i dropped them. i stopped. i quit.

i decided all i could do was enjoy my desires in imagination, that’s it, that’s all i could ever do and i was driving myself crazy trying to do everything and anything when without realizing i was in a losing battle.

changing the outside is impossible, making things happen is impossible to me. that’s God’s job, not mine.

i am not manifesting, i’m enjoying having what i want in imagination knowing for a fact it’ll come to pass because that’s law, knowing for a fact i cannot experience anything else outside of my state.

i stopped being scared because i realized there was no reason to because imagination shows you what you accepted that you have. it is not against you because it is you, if you accept that you have your most ideal desired situation in your imagination you won’t choose to imagine something else. your scenes will not be sabotaged and you will get out of the funk.

because the point is to realize you’re never stuck, whatever your problem may be in your mind you can imagine the solution.

you’re never supposed to deny the existence of the awful thing you’re now experiencing on the outside, because it is there, you don’t have to delude yourself. you’re only supposed to accept that you have something better in imagination to return to and believe that whatever you have in imagination is what will be expressed.

that was my biggest problem: i was trying to deny the outside problem existed instead of actually accepting it and simply going within where i had what i wanted, instead of denying its existence i had to deny i was stuck in it and simply go within.

it doesn’t matter what’s outside, you can leave it there, you just have to accept you’re going towards a new state. believe what is true in imagination and leave the outside world alone.

imagination is always being expressed.

your harvest will come, it is inevitable. when you accept you have something in imagination that’s when you plant the seed and let it be. imagination will do the rest, God will do the rest and find a way to make your desire physical. imagination had ways and means you do not know.

everything is possible, if you can imagine it it must come to pass. everything. even that drastical physical change, that relationship that seems impossible to you now.

that is possible, but if you worry yourself with the how you’ll struggle accepting your desire even within. know that imagination has all the means to make it fact in the outer world and just worry about having it in imagination. not outside.

that’s not your job.

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