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DONT STOP TALKING ABOUT PALESTINE! DONT STOP TAKING ABOUT GAZA!

DONT LET THEM MAKE YOU FORGET!!

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Let's gooooo

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Me

By God. Is that history major wearing earth tones

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TRIGGER WARNING!!! S/A, Alchohol, S/A of a minor. This is a dark subject, if you can't read this subject matter, don't. Please take care of yourselves.

This recent shit with Georgenotfound and Dream covering his sexual assault is fucking horrendus. And as a victim of sexual assault myself, it's honestly horrifying. I want to tell some of my own story.

I was sexually assaulted from the age of 6 to the age of 18 by a very close family member. I won't say what relation. Even when I start streaming, if I ever say this story, no one will know their relation to me. This person was also a child when the assault started. I remember growing up with this person, thinking it was normal and it was ok because NO ONE SAID ANYTHING. No adults did anything to stop it, not even when I told them. Even when this person also became an adult, the abuse continued. I grew up in a very religious household with a heavy emphasis on purity culture. I blamed myself. I WAS A CHILD. I remember being afraid to fall asleep because a pastor of mine told me I could die in my sleep, and if I had sinned and not repented, I would wake up in hell. I have anxiety about sleeping to this day.

Even when this family member comes to my house, they make jokes about what happened, and have tried several times to grope me and other things I am not comfortable posting here. I no longer speak to them, and when they come for holidays, I stay in my room the entire time.

My point with this story is not to ask for pity or sympathy. I am saying that IT IS IMPORTANT FOR THESE WOMEN TO SPEAK UP ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED TO THEM!!!! Stories like mine and others are why it is SO SO important to speak up about sexual assault, abuse, rape, and anything else that terrible men have done to you. ALL THESE WOMEN SPOKE UP BECAUSE OF ONE WOMAN TELLING HER STORY. ONE. We cannot allow men like this to continue on with their horrible behavior. As I've said in another post, mental health is NOT an excuse. My abuser was also being abused. I feel sorry for them. I am sad for them. But I am also angry for myself. Even when this person was old enough to KNOW what they were doing was wrong, they continued. We cannot allow men who have huge platforms to abuse the women in their lives. We fight for a better space on the internet and our communities. We fight for the justice all these women deserve. All these people who have been hurt by these creators deserve so much more than what has happened to them.

If you have been abused or sexually assaulted in ANY way, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I am angry for you. I hurt for you. I cry for you. I do all that for US, because I hate how many women can relate to these stories. You are stronger than you know. I believe in you. Make the world yours. You deserve everything and more.

National Sexual Assault Hotline: [phone]

#twitch #twitter #tw s/a #tw abuse #youtube #wilbur soot #shubble #caitibugzz #georgenotfound #minecraft

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Daily reminder that you aren’t alone. I’m suffering too, you’ll always have me :)

#mental health #love #self love #lol I’m going crazy

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hey

hey friend

dont kill yourself tonight ok

you have a really pretty smile and i know its not always easy to manage one but itd be a bummer if we never had the chance to see it ever again

youre really important and you matter a lot so stay safe and try and have a nice sleep

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Hey, can we please stop putting pressure on the people who knew Wilbur to put out a statement? They are real people. With real complex emotions. Especially Tommy, who was possibly manipulated by Wilbur from a very young age. There was always a huge power imbalance between the two of them, both due to age and influence.

As someone who had an actual older brother who turned out to be a piece of shit, not just to me but others as well, it’s HARD to admit they can’t be trusted. It’s emotionally exhausting to realize someone you are supposed to be able to trust and look up to is an asshole. It took me years to finally come to terms with my own abuse, much less realize that he was doing it to other people.

I can relate to tommy, I think. My older brother was horrible to me. But I let him continue because he was family, and he was my brother, so he had to be right. He had to be correct that I deserved everything he was doing. There was no way I could stop loving him when all he did for me was out of “love”. I’m fine now. I no longer speak to him and I warn all my friends about him.

When you love someone, you make excuses for them. As mentioned in my post about this a few days ago, abuse is not always black and white. People aren’t always obviously monsters. You are blind to it, or you just ignore it, because they’ve been SO KIND to you. They’ve told you they love you. That they would never hurt you on purpose. And part of that is them refusing to believe they themselves are abusing.

Give all the creators that knew Wilbur time. They are probably feeling angry at themselves and at Wilbur, hurt, sad, disappointed. They are REAL HUMAN BEINGS. Stop making this situation all about the people who aren’t Shelby. Boost her name on twitter.

Anywho, have a good day, drink water, and remember that you are loved, and if you were abused. IT IS NOT. YOUR. FAULT. <3

Update

Give him time.

#twitch #youtube #twitter #wilbur soot #shubble

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“victim”

i’ve been writing a lot lately

i liked this one, so i wanted to share it

be kind to yourselves

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Ok guys, I’m going to start streaming in the summer because I’m currently earning my undergraduate degree in history with a minor in music so I am very busy right now! But when I start, I’m going to have two channels, both on twitch and YouTube. One will be geared towards history. Maybe fun facts, or whatever I’m studying at that moment. The other will be me just absolutely goofing around. A goober if you will. I’ll be under the name red_rat_live, so it will be different from my name here.

#streaming #gaming #first time streamer #twitch #youtube

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I feel like this is probably an unpopular opinion (that’s why I’m posting here and not on twitter) but I just wanna know if anyone else feels this way.

Obviously, I think Wilbur is the one Shelby is talking about, and as someone who was also abused, I feel stronger hearing her story. I hope she’s able to find peace soon.

Maybe I’m just an overly optimistic person, but I think Wilbur needs help. A lot of it. And I think, probably not a popular idea, that even though he’s a piece of shit in this situation, that he deserves it.

I’m an overly trusting person by nature. Obviously I wasn’t there when any of this happened. I am just a stranger on the internet. I don’t know what went on, I didn’t see anything happen. However, I think I want Wilbur to get better and I think he can.

He needs to be deplatformed. At least until he has PUBLICLY apologized to Shelby, and is showing to his friends (not us, the audience, not only Shelby, EVERYONE HE KNOWS PERSONALLY) that he is making an effort to never treat another person like that again. But I think, and please don’t come with your pitchforks for me, the person Wilbur abuses the most is himself.

He clearly has other problems that are not making him a good person. Mental health is not a excuse for poor behavior. However, it is an explanation. Your mental health issues and trauma are not your fault, however, managing both those things are unfortunately YOUR responsibility. They are HIS Responsibility to fix and manage, not Shelby’s, not Phil’s, not James, NO ONE BUT HIM.

Call me stupid, or crazy, or whatever, but I firmly believe in the idea of (almost) every human being capable of change. I have siblings who used to treat me terribly, who are much older than me, and I was hurt by them. But as I grew, I saw them realize just how terrible they treated me. They changed their behavior, and apologized to me many many times. They showed me people can wake up and change their lives around. And, whether or not Wilbur comes back to content creation, I hope he gets the help he so clearly needs.

Shelby owes him nothing. His fan base owes him nothing. His friends owe him nothing. Wilbur owes them everything. Shelby deserves to hold back her forgiveness when it so clearly isn’t deserved. She should never forgive him if she doesn’t want to. That’s her right.

Maybe I believe in people too much. But I truly hope he changes. Not only for his friends, family, and loved ones, but for his own sake. He’s going to end up dead if he continues this way, and I believe no one deserves to die. (I’m not even for the death penalty. Let them sit and suffer forever).

Anyway, get some rest all, drink some water, and remember that the world becoming a better place starts with you. Treat people the way you wanna be treated. 💕

Update: Wilbur’s response was absolutely awful, no surprise there. As someone else who responded said, abusers often don’t think of themselves as such. I still hope he gets help. Props to ranboo and all the others standing up to him. I hope this wakes him the fuck up. Until further notice, please stop supporting him. Unfollow him, un add his music, whatever you can to get him to deeply regret this shit he’s done. Those were his actions. These are the consequences.

#wilbur soot #twitter

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This is just a completely random reminder that content creators aren’t your friends. They aren’t your bestie, some loved one who can do no wrong. These are real, complex people who put out what they are comfortable with putting out. The higher you hold them in esteem, the harder the fall when you realize they aren’t a perfectly amazingly good person. Be careful with your parasocial relationships. <3

#content creator #youtube #twitch #celebrities #twitter

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Fun fact: my little brother told me he wishes he had them :)

REBLOG IF YOU HAVE STRETCHMARKS

This way people can see they’re not alone. I have them and this would help me see that.

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love women btw. absolutely fantastic stuff. keep it up women

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It’s finals week…. What if I just toodled myself into oblivion?

#I have six exams this week #i’m so tired #im gonna die #why do my professors hate me #ahhhhhh

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HAPPY NEW YEARS BITCHES!!!!! LETS GRAB IT BY THE BALLS AND MAKE IT WORK FOR US!!!

#ignore everything that goes wrong this year it’ll be fine #this will be a good year damnit #forget glow ups I’m gonna become a bitch