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Content warning – this post discusses depression/self harm feelings.

I feel like I’m breaking and everything is falling apart.

I have people making little comments and today I can’t just keep laughing them off.

I’m a bad dog mum, bad supervisor, bad adult, bad daughter, bad sister, bad co worker, bad friend, bad everything.

I actually cut myself for the first time in years and it helped a bit after but now I’m in between feeling the need to do it again and also the guilty of doing it after stoping for so long.

I just needed to get this off my chest cause no one around me gets it or cares. And it helps to just get it off my chest even if no one reading it.

#vent post #depression #it helps just to get it off my chest

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"No one will care if I suddenly disappear or die."

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““Mental illness is like fighting a war where the enemy’s strategy is to convince you that the war isn’t actually happening.” - Unknown”

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“She didn’t need to be saved. She needed to be found and appreciated for exactly who she was.”

— j. iron word

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im only in my 20s and im about 100% done with my life

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If I ever loose my battle to depression, know that I fought, know that I tried, know that I did my best to overcome

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I am the disappointment child. The one that probably wouldn’t be missed if I wasn’t born.

#depression #family #alone #siblings #disappoinment #i want to disappear #my feelings #no one would miss me

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This is true I do agree with this

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I’m almost 30 and I haven’t accomplish anything in my life. All my friends and family seem to be buying houses, starting their family by getting married and/or have kids or even setting up a long time career. I on the other hand have nothing. Like I don’t have enough money to buy a house in this market, I’m no where near getting married or starting a family (not that I want kids) and my job is just a job, I hope to god it not what I’m doing for the rest of my life, plus I’m still living at home. Like I feel like I’m a failure and getting left behind. I feel like giving up.

#depression #alone #trying #failure #feelings #left behind

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Dear person reading this, 

      You deserve a life full of happiness and positivity. So don’t let others get to you and believe in yourself.