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Im so excited to see him again, I don't know what I'll do, I might cry, I might laugh. Maybe I'll run or jump into his arms. Maybe all of that! I'm beyond excited.

#military spouse #ramblings of a military spouse #milspouse

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It's getting so close to the end of it, I can't really believe it. Feels so long ago that this all started.

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I have been ignoring this blog so hard, I shouldn't have been so much has been happening, so so so much.

My mind is spinning thinking about it all. Obviously I can't talk about my one and only love, just me and my feelings. We're still deeply in love and planning a family together. Sometimes I'll still cry myself to sleep thinking about the shit he'll probably go through. And how I feel about the things he'll go through. But I'm moving out to where's he's been posted soon. So excited!!! We won't be living together for a long time but I found a place close by. I bought a second hand cannon camera as a new hobby. It's a really good one too, maybe I should take some pictures for this blog?

#ramblings of a military spouse #military spouse #milspouse #armywife

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When the husband's away this girl hyperfixates on work and playing video games

#i miss you already #according to another military spouse the platoon is already telling him im cheating #im nothing if not loyal and he knows that #but it dosent feel good to know hes hearing it i wish i could just hold him again #i hope hes ok i hope hes having an ok time #its probably too much to wish hes having a good time

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My new obsession is customizing normal pencils into very cute over the top pencils. Tune in next week to see what my new obsession is.

#adhd #hyperfixation #hyperfocusing

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Things change fast

But this too shall pass

Better carve it on your forehead

Or tattoo it on your ass

Cause who can tell

When the clock strikes twelve

If today's become tomorrow

Or it's all just gone to hell

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HEY!!!

Listen

I

Love

You

And

I

Miss

You

#ramblings of a military spouse #military spouse #milspouse #also ive been drinking #i mean thinking #thats it thats the joke #im posting this like hes going to see this

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I wish I could tell him right now that I love him, I miss him and I'll be waiting here as long as it takes.

I want to shout into the void "HEY I LOVE YOU AND YOURE THE ONLY FISH IN THE SEA FOR ME" so loud that he hears it across the country. My neighbours might be weirded out by that though.

#ramblings of a military spouse #military spouse #milspouse

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Quick! Someone take away my credit card

I'm doing retail therapy and my bank account is Crying. It's absolutely sobbing. This is extra shameful because my dad's an accountant, I should handle my money better.

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The true beginning

Just heard his voice for the last time, I'm a little sad, but mostly I'm just ok. If he likes it then I'll support and wait for him, if he hates it and wants to leave I'll support him though that too, I just want him to be happy so if this is what makes him happy that's good, I can get behind that. I need to save up fast though because I'll be paying half of the damage deposit and all that jazz, I'm what you would call a starving artist, so I live modestly, but he needs to move to a big city. Now because hes making like three times more than me its not a 50/50 split on rent. That would leave me with 0 savings and 0 freedom, so ill pay what i can while also keeping my independence. I don't think it would work out if I couldn't be independent.

#ramblings of a military spouse #military spouse #milspouse

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I don't follow many blogs on this side blog, so reblog if you're a military spouse, I'm just beginning my adventure of being with someone in the military so I think I need more friends who are going through the same thing.

#ramblings of a military spouse #military spouse #milspouse

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feeling sleepy already

Ah fuck I'm already feeling sleepy, this doesn't bode well for my all nighter, but once I fall asleep I sleep like the dead so I know I'll miss his call. Can't have that. Nope nope nope, I need that last phone call or I'm going to go Nuts

#ramblings of a military spouse #military spouse #milspouse

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I'm staying up till morning so I just wanted to make a poll for the hell of it

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ACTUALLY I'm not done posting yet, since i slept all day I could stay up till i get my last phone call from the light of my life. That way I wont miss the call. I'm a fucking genius.

#ramblings of a military spouse #military spouse #milspouse

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Well, I shouldn't be surprised there are like no other military spouses on here, I was but shouldn't have been. The tags are saturated with AU's and fictional stories. Not super helpful to me since I wanted to be friends with other military spouses not regular people writing stories about people in the navy/military.

Anyway I decided not to work today, so I should work hard to catch up tomorrow. Now I really am rambling. Later gators, hope any military spouses out there have a decent day.

#ramblings of a military spouse #military spouse

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One positive for me about being a military spouse is that I can do things by myself, also this is a double edged sword but no one is trying to talk me out of buying cute office supplies off Amazon. It started off with a gratitude journal, and then I wanted peach themed pens. Which led to a desire for pastel pencils, and then I saw a cute automatic pencil sharpener, and at the end, I realized I need a pencil case so I got one of those, being 26$ over my monthly budget won't kill me but it's not great. It's not so bad that I don't get serotonin from it, however.

#ramblings of a military spouse #military spouse #i keep buying things #i need the serotonin though #it keeps me going during every moment im awake