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2023................................. time for a toshio comeback...??

#ooc #i'm so sorry; my toshio muse is extremely fickle and i've been super low energy for the past like. half a year. #but i hope you've all been doing well & had a great 2022!! #he's not a main muse compared to my other muses but i do still want to try and be active on him from now because #i miss him and he has a lot of potential i think. so! #here i am...

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#art. #toshio. #oh i love this artstyle............

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limitlesspossibilities​

“Ah, hi there, Sensei!” 

Tohru rarely gets sick, but when he does he’s always thankful to live in such a small town. Toshio’s clinic typically doesn’t get too crowded, and this time when he walks in he’s lucky enough to find that nobody else is there. 

He does notice the way Toshio blinks, as if he doesn’t fully believe it’s Tohru standing there in front of him, but he doesn’t think much of it. After all, when was the last time he’d had to come in? Usually his visits to the clinic were only to speak with Ritsuko on her lunch break. Maybe he just had a really good immune system, or maybe it was the clean air of Sotoba keeping him healthy. Either way, he managed to keep a smile even when he didn’t feel well. 

“Yeah, I’ve been feeling kinda under the weather the past couple days. I think it’s just a cold, but my parents thought I should see you about it just in case.” 

For a moment, Toshio’s blood runs cold as a sudden, awful anxiety grips him.

Could he be too late? Could the Shiki have already made their move? ...Tohru may look fine, but all of the victims seemed fine at first. It always starts the same way - with lethargy and the appearance of anemia...

But he quickly realizes that he’s letting paranoia get the better of him. The Kirishiki’s haven’t moved in to Sotoba yet - of that, he’s absolutely sure. And if Tohru had been bitten, would he really have come to the Ozaki Clinic so willingly?

The tension in his body drains out as he manages to give Tohru a friendly smile. But even so, he can’t quite get rid of that last bit of doubt.

“Well, I may as well have a look, since you’re here. How are you feeling now? Any symptoms?” And as he talks, he opens a drawer filled with medical equipment, and pulls out a stethoscope. Hopefully, Tohru will allow him to use it...

He just needs to check. Just in case.

#ic #limitlesspossibilities #v. deal with the devil. #ahhhh thank you!! #and yeah; he's. having a rough time; to say the least... #( & i feel you; shiki is a great show! )

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“Mutou-san?”

It feels like Toshio’s living in a town full of ghosts. Even now, as his gaze meets the eyes of the young Tohru Mutou, Toshio has to blink to readjust his vision, as if he can’t believe what he’s seeing. ...In some ways, he still can’t.

Maybe none of it’s real - and he’s just gone mad. That thought almost gets a wry smile out of him, though he’s sure that Tohru wouldn’t understand the joke even if he explained it. He wonders, that if that’s really true, just when it is he fell into that madness? It’s impossible to say.

But nonetheless - Toshio conceals his morbid thoughts behind an inquisitive expression, acting as if nothing is wrong. He knows he won’t be around for much longer, but... there’s no need to worry this kid about something he won’t understand.

“Did you need something? Feeling sick?”

@limitlesspossibilities​ ( starter! )

#ic #limitlesspossibilities #v. deal with the devil. #HELLO.................... IT'S BEEN SIX MONTHS............. #but here's your starter!! >< #i'm so sorry i vanished off the face of the earth #no worries if you're not interested in continuing this! i just thought i'd post it in case you still were. #this one's set in toshio's time travel verse but i'd be happy to also write something set during the series itself if you're interested; too #anyway it's late but. thank you for liking my starter call haha ;w;

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Coming back to this blog after 6 months of inactivity more like IT’S TIME FOR A NEW VERSE FELLAS-

So this verse is essentially about a time travelling, Shiki!Toshio. Specifically, ten years after the events of Shiki, Toshio made a deal with some creature (haven’t decided who or what yet) that let him travel back in time to before the Kirishiki’s moved to Sotoba.

However... as the price, he has to become a Shiki himself. He was fine with this, since he planned on killing himself after killing the Kirishiki’s anyway. What he wasn’t told, though, is that he was made into a different type of Shiki - one that can’t die through any means apart from starvation. That means that even if he were to drive a stake through his own heart, he’d still regenerate.

Obviously, he’s horrified when he realizes that that’s what’s happened. But he decides that, fine, he’ll simply starve himself until he dies - he has no intention of inflicting the curse of the Shiki onto Sotoba again. But after finding himself unable to resist the urge to feed once the starvation reaches his peak, Toshio realizes that he needs to find a new solution to the Shiki problem... and fast.

#ooc #ANYWAY I'M ALIVE HELLO #it's been six months but i want to get this blog going!! #i expect i'll never be super active on it but nonetheless; i'm here. :P #the people toshio feeds on either stay dead or turn into the same type of shiki as he is; btw #so they can't be killed easily either. and the starvation is basically impossible to resist... #there may be a few loopholes atm that let him find a way to kill himself regardless but i'll work on closing those if i can. #no easy way out for you; doctor... #anyway i wanted to force toshio to see what it's like to be on the other side of the war for once #i'm pretty excited about this verse too so!! #tw suicide //

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𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒

feel  free  to  change  any  pronouns  or  subjects  (or  reverse).      tw  for  blood,  death  and  physical  violence  mention.

‘  is  it  complete?  ’

‘  who  are  you?  ’

‘  who  is  this?  ’

‘  why  are  you  bleeding?  ’

‘  what  would  i  do  without  you?  ’

‘  do  you  feel  alright?  ’

‘  what’s  your  name?  ’

‘  why  do  you  hate  me?  ’

‘  do  you  want  something  to  eat?  ’

‘  aren’t  you  supposed  to  be  someone  important?  ’

‘  did  you  read  it  yet?  ’

‘  can  you  help  me?  ’

‘  why  do  you  act  so  weirdly?  ’

‘  what  do  i  do  with  someone  like  you?  ’

‘  you  awake?  ’

‘  can’t  you  tell  left  from  right?  ’

‘  how  dare  you?  ’

‘  can  i  have  a  word?  ’

‘  why  didn’t  you  fight  back?  ’

‘  can  you  stop  interupting  me?  ’

‘  why  are  you  here?  ’

‘  what  happened?  ’

‘  haven’t  you  said  enough?  ’

‘  why  are  you  still  ___?  ’

‘  why  don’t  you  shut  up  and  be  quiet?  ’

‘  what  did  you  dream  of?  ’

‘  why  are  you  yelling?  ’

‘  how  could  you  say  that?  ’

‘  is  that  mine?  ’

‘  why  did  you  turn  out  this  way?  ’

‘  are  you  talking  to  me?  ’

‘  why  won’t  he  date  me?  ’

‘  why  did  you  hit  him?  ’

‘  why  are  you  crying  yourself  to  sleep?  ’ 

‘  are  you  serious?  ’

‘  who  did  this?  ’

‘  will  i  regret  this?  ’

‘  do  you  promise?  ’

‘  is  that  mine?  ’

‘  am  i  dead?  ’

‘  can  you  stop  moving?  ’

‘  is  he  looking  at  me?  ’

‘  does  it  hurt?  ’

‘  how  did  that  happen?  ’

‘  what’s  the  weather  for  tomorrow?  ’

‘  are  you  in  love  with  me  yet?  ’

‘  is  it  that  important?  ’

‘  want  some?  ’

‘  was  that  an  accident?  ’

‘  what’s  the  deal  with  you?  ’

‘  who  do  you  think  you  are?  ’

‘  can  i  ask  you  something?  ’

‘  why  don’t  you  leave  then?  ’

‘  how  could  you?  ’

‘  is  this  all  you  can  do?  ’

‘  why  is  this  here?  ’

‘  how  did  you  get  in  here?  ’

‘  is  it  freezing  to  you?  ’

‘  what  are  you  making  tdday?  ’

‘  are  you  lost?  ’

‘  has  it  been  that  long?  ’

‘  how  could  you?  ’

#( ask memes. )

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more prompts for your feels

“  what am i supposed to do when i can’t even trust my own mind?  ”  “  i have to believe death is the end. because all that waits for me in the afterlife is a debt of sin i don’t think could ever be paid off.  ” “  what do you see when you look into my eyes?  ”   “  it doesn’t always have to be you, you know?  your shoulders aren’t the only ones that can bear the weight of the world.  ”   “  i don’t think hearts break. shattered things can only be broken once. but torn things can be mended again and again until it’s all scars and stitching.  ” “  i can’t remember what it’s like to be truly wanted.  ” “  every time you look at me i feel invisible.  ” “  loneliness is a slow and cruel poison.  ” “  i’m afraid that if i let you see every side of me, you should shrink back in fear or disgust.  ” “  for once in your life, what is it that you want.  ” “  i’ve been wrapped in my sorrow for so long, i’m afraid i’ll feel too cold without it.  ” “  i just want to see you smile again.  ” “  can’t you stop running for one second?  ” “  i’ll be here. when you’re ready to talk.  ” “  being strong doesn’t mean never asking for help or admitting you’re in pain.  ” “  don’t shut me out. please.  ” “  don’t look at me like that.  ” “  the world isn’t made up of heroes and monsters. just broken people balancing between the two.  ” “  i just wanted to do something good for once.  ” “  why can’t you tell me what’s wrong?  ” “  just trust me. please.  ” “  why can’t you let me in? what are you so afraid of?  ” “   you’re so worried about losing me/them you’re missing everything in front of you.  ”   “  i’m not leaving you.  ” “  you’re not alone. i’m here.  ” “  you see everyone so clearly except yourself.  ” “  don’t you understand? i love you. and nothing you’ve done, no matter how much of a monster you think you are, is gonna change that.  ” “  i find broken things interesting. maybe that’s why i like you so much.  ” “  i want to be whatever it is you think i am.  ” “  you see the good in everything. that’s why i like it when you look at me.  ” “  i’ll still be here when you wake.  ” “  i promise i’ll never hurt you again.  ” “  as long as i have you, the rest doesn’t matter.  ” “  what did they do to you?  ” “  i’m not sure i should leave you alone.  ” “  i won’t hate you. i know you think that’s what you deserve but it’s not.  ” “  i want to love the parts of you that you hate.  ” “  i’m scared of what you’re becoming.  ” “  i’m sorry, i’m not what you think i am.  ” “  you’ll always have a home with me.  ” “  what happened to you?  ” “  i thought i’d never see you again.  ” “  you’re such a fucking coward.  ” “  i envy anyone who has the privilege of being loved by you.  ” “  you scared me.  ” “  please, don’t ever give up on me.  ” “  i’m not giving up on you. not ever.  ” “  i know you love me. but it’s not the way i want to be loved.  ”

#( ask memes. )

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starter call! like this post for a starter with toshio, you know the drill!

#ooc #will also be reblogging ask memes shortly in case you prefer those! #heading to bed now but i'm excited to start writing my terrible; terrible son :p

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#toshio (tag tbd.) #art.

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#sunako. (tag tbd.)

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i love one (1) mad scientist who is willing to risk it all for a small town

#art. #toshio (tag tbd.) #tw blood #afdshfkjDHKSH

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                                                              YOU’RE  A  FIGHTER                                                  ALL THE WAY DOWN TO YOUR CORE                                 AND   N O T H I N G    IN THE WORLD COULD   K I L L   YOU

            ( ( (   EXCEPT TO KNOW THAT EVERYTHING YOU’RE FIGHTING FOR IS WRONG   ) ) )

#musings.

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               a WOLF is a WOLF.

                                               even in a CAGE.

                                                                         even dressed in SILK.

#musings.

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since this blog is new, if you’re here looking for a sample of my writing style, try checking out my ryouga blog here or my ryoji blog here! this post will be deleted once i’ve got a few threads up and going.

#ooc

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test post.

#test tags!