host-culture-is

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host culture is being shoved out of front for an entire year because a persecutor decided to dedicate their own entire self to ruining my life and my relationships. They impersonated me and it took them shoving our partner systems host to his breaking point for ANYONE to realize I was gone. What the fuck.

Everything's gonna be resolved eventually but I'm still pissed as hell. I know that they've probably been through a lot but god I don't like what they've done to my boyfriend

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host culture is constantly dissociating. like wdym other alters can front are remember what they did while I am constantly forgetting everything. (I don't remember what happens when I'm fronting, I also don't remember what happens when I'm not fronting. Like a memory wipe every hour and I'm left with just enough information to survive the day and come across as a functioning human being)

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host culture is being split from the old host and wondering if she's still here somewhere

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frontstuck host culture is OH MY GOD GET ME OUT OF HERE

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host culture is having no identity of your own despite being the host. feeling like a stand-in until someone else fronts. envying your headmates because why do they get to know who they are and you don't

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perennial host culture is forgetting that everyone else in our system has amnesia and blackouts, except me, and getting confused when they don't know whats happening in our classes.

I feel really guilty for always putting them in stressful situations because they don't remember like I do...😭

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[host-culture-is]

host culture is being in front as a host for like a year now get me outta here chat

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(P-DID) Host culture is not knowing how long you've existed as an alter and as a host because you inherited the old host's memories.

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host culture is being a bad host. thats it thats the vent! im a symptom holder and im less mature than a lot of my alters to the point where ive pushed them away and impacted communication.

host culture is being a bad host.

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frontstuck/front bound (?) host culture is "wdym I'm the first host we've ever had to front for this long without going dormant"

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Host culture is wondering who the previous, now dormant hosts were. I'm the host that's been around the longest, but what does that say about me?

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Host culture is being forced to stay out of front by the gatekeepers for a few days, and being so disoriented and confused and wondering how the hell the alters who only front every few months handle the time shift

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(probably) hyperfixation host culture is "I literally don't know why the people in charge of the system is just the main cast of Lego Ninjago but fucking hell this is going to be fun while it lasts"

-Kai, Forest Cottage

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Host culture is "wait, what? I'm the host? I thought that was Jessi?!"

-Jay, Forest Cottage

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[host-culture-is]

Host culture is I formed last night and now I think I might be the new co-host while one of the old ones has a breakdown in-sys and I don't really know what I'm doing.

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[host-culture-is]

(co) host culture is referring to yourself as a host because the actual host is deadbeat -_-

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host culture is... i forgot the ask who took the memory istg

- 💚 [haze coll.]

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