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if u think they can’t come back from this ur weak /jk ( i love them bad they are all i have thought about this week )

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plz folllow my newish blog @eidolonsart 🫢

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The train was moving through

As we know the world has to do

Everyone will say it was her fault

was it a lie? art for @killrockstar 's sleater-kinney zine!! | my other piece

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sorry i haven’t drawn any fanart in a while. i have no will to live + nothing makes me happy anymore. i have been drawing vent art instead bc if i don’t keep my hands + mind busy, idk what i might do.

#don’t know how much longer i can do this but whatever #my twitter is modvrnlove if you want to follow me elsewhere

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was front row at six last night and chelsea dawson made me cry the australian cast honestly blew me away, go see them if you can ! 

#this is my art blog ! feel free to follow !! luv u !! #six #k howard #katherine howard #my art

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no blinding light or tunnels to gates of white just our hands clasped so tight, waiting for the hint of a spark

#what i deserve / what i will inevitably get #villaneve #killing eve #villanelle #fucking terribly sad tw #killing eve spoilers

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Killing Eve - S04E08 

#all i ever wanted #killing eve #villaneve #villanelle #eve polastri

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uh, lil rant incoming just ignore it bc meh

do u ever just break down because you feel like you’ll never find someone who can love you the way you need ? idk i think about it a lot. i don’t think i’ll ever have that kind of connection with anyone. i feel so lonely lmao. and i don’t know where to turn. the only time i ever thought that things could be different, i was proven so terribly wrong. so i’m still here, stuck, static. and it makes me wonder if i ever really can come back from this. 

ik i’m not alone in being lonely but somehow that doesn’t help at all. 

sometimes i seem to be okay with the loneliness like i’ve come to terms with it. but then things happen and i just break down because i don’t have someone to support me in these really specific ways that i need. and i think i would be able to get through it if i hadn’t actually had the false promise of this care before. if i’d never known what it felt like, i wouldn’t be craving it so badly now. 

idk. just mindless rambling bc ik no-one really cares. i guess i just need to say it. 

#i think the worst part is that i would probably prefer being in pain with the people who hurt me vs being hurt alone #like at this point i am begging to be treated like shit so that i'm not alone #bleh #depression tw

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good for them 👍🏽

#the only thing on my mind this past week honestly :( #villaneve #killing eve

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[the lakes - taylor swift]

#i think i might die

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have i annoyed you? i'm sorry. i overshared too much because you showed me the slightest amount of attention about this topic i like and i'm prepared for you to leave me.

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every year is exactly the same. when will things get better ? seemingly never. everyone tells me i will be okay. but no matter how hard i try nothing changes. i feel like i have nothing and no-one. 

#vent. #starting the year off with a complete mental break

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all too well (10 minute version) // t.s.

#lmao this is how i was treated :-)

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Steph says “I love you” 🥺❤️

#ith #in the heights #in the heights movie #carla x daniela #carla in the heights #stephanie beatriz

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sorry i’ve been really absent. i’m going through a huge depressive episode atm.

thank you all so much for the support i’ve received for my art, i really appreciate it 🥺

hope you’re all doing well

#no me diga ∘₊✧ ─ ✧₊∘ ➵ personal

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Last Fling

September ~ 2021