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“I’m having his baby! No I’m not, but you should see your faces!”

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IM SO DEPRESSED I ACT LIKE ITS MY BIRTHDAY

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Why do people see self harm as something so degrading??

#self harm #self h@rm

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i’m not switching between my hyperfixations because i’m autistic, i’m just a whore

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Heels and sneakers

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Pairing: changbin x reader

Warning: nothing much just some fluff.

It was a wonderful date night. You were dressed in a pretty maroon dress with matching high heels. Heels look fun to be worn but they aren't. You can feel the blisters form in the back of your ankle from the pressure of the heels.

“Binnie, can we take a break from walking? My leg hurts.” you said stopping in your path.

“Are you alright, sweetheart? Do you want me to carry you?”

“No, I'm fine. My feets are just hurting a bit from wearing the heels.”

“Are you sure you don't want me to carry you?”

“Yes bonnie. I'll be fine. Just five minutes.”

“Okay.”

You found a bench nearby which you could sit on. You sat down and removed your heels. Changbin got to his knees and inspected your feet. There were bruises here and there. They were bright red.

“Darling, look at this. It would be better if I just carry you.” Changbin said worried.

“But I wanna walk.”

“Okay I have an idea.”

Changbin took away your heels. He removed his own sneakers and put them on your feet.

“Binnie it's so big tho.” you said. “What will you wear now?”

“It's fine. I can tie it down tightly with the shoelace. you don't have to worry about me.”

“How can I not worry about you?”

“Shhh.” He said as he tied the shoelace tightly so they won't come off when you walk.

Changbin got up and offered his hands for you to get up. He picked the heels in one hand and your hands in the other hand.

“Binnie I can't just walk you home barefoot.”

“Of Course you can. Shut up and walk.”

“But binnie…”

“Shhh darling.”

You felt a little guilty he was walking barefoot but you were over the moon by the fact how good he takes care of you.

#skz x you #skz headcanons #skz x reader #skz #stray kids imagines #changbin x reader #changbin #changbin x you #changbin x y/n

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First thing you see after you zoom in is how you die

How you dying 👀

#sex talk #understandable considering how scared i am of intimacy

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If Ferrari ain't gonna have Carlos Sainz in 2025 then at least lemme have him 😭✨

#f1 #carlos sainz #ferrari #scuderia ferrari #formula 1

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You're losing me

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Pairing: Seungmin x reader

Warning: cheating (suggestive), arguments, wounds, crying, my shitty ass writing

It's very common to have arguments in a relationship. But what if the relationship is nothing but arguments. Sometimes some funny shit would turn into a serious argument between you and Seungmin.

You loved him so much you never thought of leaving him even though you two argue way too much for a regular couple.

“I don't understand, y/n” he said furiously.

“I know you don't.”

“I thought everything was fine.”

“Leave me alone for a few minutes.”

He left the room. The room was bright with light. You once used to adore this room. It used to be yours and his favourite room. Now looking at it you feel tortured. You reach for the string of LED lights hanging on the wall. You rip it out and throw it and slide down the wall crying.

Last week you and Seungmin had another argument over a girl. He liked her post and claimed it was an accident. But he also texted her. How can that be an accident too? He said, “you are reading too much into things, y/n.” You apologised. “Will we be alright?” you asked him. “Yes, my love.” he kissed your forehead and held you in his arms.

Next you woke up with a blaring headache. Seungmin wasn't next to you where he usually was to be when you usually wake up. You heard someone laugh from outside your room. You went outside to see who it was. It was Seungmin on the call with someone. He wasn't talking much but he was being loud in a sense.

“Can you keep it quiet? I have a headache.” You told him. He just nodded.

“We can add that song in the next album because it doesn't suit this album's aesthetics.” He spoke into the phone. You assumed he was talking to Chan.

You sat on the sofa next to him massaging your temples. You felt like you wanted to cry. Seungmin was fiddling with an empty glass vase in his hands. It was usually filled with flowers that he would buy for you. But he had stopped buying you anything at all. He would come home late and leave early to the studio. His hands accidentally slipped and the vase shattered on the floor. A small piece pierced your leg. You hissed in pain and started to cry. Seungmin didn't notice you crying yet. Still on the phone. He said, “ one second, hyung. I'll be back.”

He picked up the bigger pieces of glasses with his hand and disappeared into the kitchen. He came back with a broom and a plastic cover. It was now he noticed you crying.

“Darling, what happened?” you glared at him with storms in your eyes. Your eyes were filled with anger and pain.

You said nothing. You stood and walked away from there into the bathroom. You picked the glass piece from your leg and washed it till the blood stopped. You took some ointment and applied it and put a bandaid on it. You took a painkiller tablet and went to sleep.

When you woke up he wasn't there. There was no note, nothing just emptiness.

That was a week but still you can't help but relive through that memory.

You were dying internally but he couldn't take a hint of that when you bite down your nail and be silent in his existence. The love between you two was dying. You were sick of it. But he wasn't ready to admit it.

At the table near you was a photo of you and him. You picked in your hands and smashed it against the wall. You picked it again and traced his face. You didn't know what to do.

“I'm sorry.” He said standing at the room's doorway.

“Sorry won't cut it out, Seungmin.”

“Give us one last chance. Please.”

“You're losing me, Seungmin. Can't you feel it” the air was thick with loss and indisposition.

“We dated for 10 years. We have known each other since birth. I can't lose you, y/n.”

“All you are saying is you don't wanna lose but I never hear from you how much you love. All my friends are engaged after months of dating. I dated you for 10 years and I got nothing out of it. You ignore me all the time. I'm right in front of you and I still feel invisible. we are far gone to bring back to life. It's like I'm fighting in your army in the frontline but you won't address me.”

“So you are saying all of this because I didn't put a ring on your finger.”

“God it's not that. It's about taking our relationship to the next level.”

“Exactly getting married.”

“Okay fine it is one of the causes. Did you think I won't be a good wife?”

He kept silent.

“I understand. I won't marry me either.” you conceded.

“It's not that I won't marry you. It's just that…. I..umm…”

“Seungmin do something. Say something. Risk something. I have nothing to lose unless you are choosing me.” You pleaded.

“I don't love you anymore y/n. That's the truth. But I want you in my life like the friend you once you used to be.”

“ I can't do that, I'm sorry. I'm leaving.” You said.

You picked a suitcase and packed all your clothes. He didn't try to stop you or anything. He just let you go.

#seungmin #seungmin x reader #seungmin x you #seungmin x y/n #stray kids x reader #skz x reader #skz #skz x you #Spotify

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all my "i can fix him" energy comes from being the quiet girl all the teachers would sit bad boys next to in class.

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I admit I am quite the fan of saying “okiedokie”

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Do you take any LDW or his characters requests??

I only write for ldw. Currently I don't write for any of his character

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Call it what you want

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Chapter 6: it's nice to have a friend...

Your mind replayed the convo you had last night with Chan. you couldnt think about anything else. Chan Chan Chan was what your mind kept thinking of. Absent mindly opened your fridge to pick up the cartoon box of milk. You stared at the fridge for a few seconds as you forgot why you opened it. Then you remembered. You picked out the cartoon box and shook it but it was empty. You sighed and decided to go to the nearby supermarket. You put on your jacket and left the house.

You walked down the road listening to music. You entered the supermarket and went directly to the dairy aisle. There was only one bottle of milk. You rushed to take it but someone took it before you.

“Fuck.” you said under your breath.

“y/n?” you heard someone call you. You turned around to see who it was. It was Chan.

“Chan, hey. Didnt expect to see you here.”

“We ran out of eggs so I came here to buy them.”

“Oh I see. I came here to buy milk but there is no milk. So I'm gonna just head back home. See you later, chan.”

“y/n, did you have your breakfast yet?”

“Not yet.”

“Umm.. do you wanna join us for breakfast. It's just me and the boys you know.”

“You want me to join you? What if they dont want me there?”

“They won't mind you joining us.”

“Fine, I'll join you.” you said.

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You and Chan went to the dorm in his car. You knew jyp building was near your house but you didnt knwo it was this close. It was only 3 buildings away.

“Guys, look who we have here.” Chan said removing his jacket and hanging it in the jacket hanger.

Minho didnt look up from his phone.

“Did you bring home a stray cat? If not, I'm not interested in whatever you brought home.”

“Minho, be nice.” Chan said in a motherly voice.

“Hello everyone.” you said slightly laughing thinking about what Minho said.

“You are y/n, right?” Felix said and hugged you.

Then Changbin greeted you.

“Oh my god! is that a gojo on your hoodie? You watch jjk?” Han screamed.

“Yes, you watch it too?”

“Of course I do. I'd be a loser not to watch it. We are gonna be besties.”

“Guys be ready I'm serving breakfast in five minutes” Chan said.

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You ate breakfast heartily. Chan had made pancakes and eggs. You all sit on the dining table which could fit 10 people in it. You sat in the middle of Chan and Hyunjin.

“The pancakes are so good, Chris.” You said.

“Thank you, milady.” Changbin and Seungmin coughed from their places hearing Chan call you milady. Others just exchanged looks. You just blushed slightly.

“Do you want coffee, y/nnie?” Felix asked you.

“Yes, please.” You said. He poured you a cup of coffee.

“So like are you guys dating or something?” Jeongin asked out of the blue.

“No.” You and Chan said at the same time.

“We are just friends.” You said. But deep down you wanted to be more.

“Ohh I see.” Jeongin said.

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After you had your breakfast you helped Chan clean the kitchen even though he refused to take your help.

“So I'm leaving. See you guys later.” You said.

“Wait lemme walk you home.” He said.

“Okay.”

You both picked your jackets and stepped out of the dorm. You guys took the elevator and went out of the JYP building.

“Umm… so I had fun having you over today.” He said.

“It was really fun to be there too.”

You two made small conversation on the way to your house. You reached the house so soon since it was only 3 blocks away.

You stood in front of your apartment.

You hugged Chan goodbye.

“By any chance would you like to come up?” you asked.

“Me?”

“Who else?”

“Yeah sure.”

#bang chan #bang chan x reader #bangchan x reader #stray kids imagines #bang chan stray kids #bang chan x y/n #bang chan x you #bang chan x female reader #skz x reader #skz series

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Pity party

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Pairing: Yang Jeongin x reader

Warning: a little bit of angst, fluff and cheesy stuff, shitty friends

You smiled at your boyfriend's text. You immediately called him knowing he was online.

“Happy birthday jagiya. I love you so much."Jeongin said as soon as he picked up the call.

“Thank you so much, jeongin. I love you to the moon and back.”

“Can I come over later?”

“I would love that. But I made plans with my friends. We are going to a restaurant together.”

“Fine. I'll see you tomorrow then. I'm going to give a post-bday surprise.”

“What surprise?”

“It won't be a surprise if I reveal it, jagiya.” he giggled.

You both talked a few more hours and then hung up saying good night to each other. You fell asleep with him in your mind.

The next day you woke up and confirmed the plan with your friends they all said they were in. You hopped in the shower and took a nice and long shower. You changed into the dress you bought for your birthday. You looked in the mirror and felt good about yourself. You checked the time it was 12:30 pm. You left the house as the reservation was made at 1:00 pm. You rushed to the place and made it in time.

You sat down on the reserved table. Turns out you were first to show up. The waiter there asked you if you would like to order something but you said later. You scrolled through your insta waiting for your friends to show up. Half an hour went by quickly and still no one showed up. You called your friend one by one. But none of them picked up.

“Would you like to have something, mam?”

“I'll just have soju and a ramyeon please.”

Your hands started to shake as you were hit with the realisation your friends ditched you. You felt tears pricking your eyes.

What if it was a birthday prank? What if they planned to surprise me when I go back to my apartment? You thought to yourself.

The waiter served you the soju and ramyeon. You finished it up quickly and paid the bill. You left there as soon as possible. You didn't wanna be lonelier any longer. You walked all the way back home.

You felt betrayed by your friends. How could they do this to you? How can they just ditch you?

You felt numb…

You opened your door and let yourself in. You slumped your body onto the door and started to cry. You slide down the door.

Your house landline started to ring. You wiped your tears and went to attend the call.

“Hello, y/n speaking.” You said, your voice was wobbly.

“Jagiya, you are still here?”

“I just came back home. “

“Are you alright? You don't sound alright.”

“I'm alright. I gotta go, Jeongin. I have some work to do. Talk to you later. I love you” you said hanging up.

It didn't take another second for you to start crying again.

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You fell asleep on the floor sobbing. You heard someone knock on your door. You lazy got up and opened the door.

It was your boyfriend Jeongin.

“Baby.” You squealed and jumped into his hands. “I missed you so much.”

“I missed you too, y/n. one minute I have a surprise for you. Stand still and close your eyes.”

You obeyed his commands.

Few seconds later he asked you to open your eyes back. He held a big bouquet of flowers in his eyes. Your eyes immediately started to tear up. Cause that was the sweetest thing someone had ever done to you.

He handed the flowers to you. You hugged him tightly. You never wanted to let him go.

You loved him so much and would cherish him forever and ever. There is no bigger heaven than being on the same earth as him.

“I love you so much.” You said.

“I love you too.” He said. “ I have one more surprise. But first let's head inside.”

You entered your house together. You placed the flower on the table.

Jeongin pulled out a jewel box from his pocket. He opened it and pulled a necklace with a heart pendant attached to it.

*Y/n, this necklace is a promise that I'll never leave you. I'll even be here to haunt your ass on your 100th birthday if possible. I'll always come back to you even if I leave. I love you to the moon and Saturn.”

You kiss him, shutting him down from talking. Your mouth moved against his. You could feel him smiling against the kiss. He was all giggly. When you pulled away you rested your forehead against his. He took the necklace and clasped it around your neck.

“You just made my day so much brighter, Jeongin.” you said.

“You make my life brighter, y/n”

“You are so cheesy. Shut up.”

“only for you. And don't act like you don't like it. How did your meeting go with your friends?”

“They ditched me.”

“Those idiots. I'm going to kill them.”

“You are so soft to do it.”

“You are underestimating me, y/n.”

“Shut up.”

“Respectfully.”

He leaned in to kiss you.

#jeongin x reader #jeongin #skz headcanons #skz x reader #skz #stray kids imagines #stray kids x reader #stray kids i.n #i.n x reader

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Post pregnancy headcanons

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Pairing: changbin x reader

Warning: fluff, a little bit of angst and talks about being fat and self doubt.

He is so good at taking care of you and your daughter

The way he treats his daughter you already she is going to be spoilt asf

At night you'd be so tired sleeping and your daughter would randomly start crying

If you try to wake up he won't let you he himself will go and see what the problem is

You kinda started to feel like you had gained a lot of wait post pregnancy

"do you think I'm fat?" "Do you still love me when I'm like this?" You'd ask him questions like these.

"obviously I still love you!" "I love you just the way you are" he'd say. A

"if you feel too bad we can hit the gym together."

#skz x reader #skz #skz headcanons #changbin #changbin x reader #changbin x y/n #changbin x you #changbin headcanons #stray kids x reader #stray kids #stray kids headcanons