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I've been seeing people arguing about if you need dysphoria to be trans. I, however, don't think you need it. Some people transition for the gender euphoria. I don't want the idea that being trans is marked by suffering. I think I have a good way to explain it.

Let's say all you have for transportation is a bike. You like your bike. It helps you get to where you need to go in a timely manner. However, it can be a little annoying at times. You might need to leave your house two hours early to get to a place far away. Going up hill is a bitch but you don't mind those things. You still like your bike and grateful for it.

Now let's say you got a car. You loved it. Hills were a breeze, and you didn't need to leave insanely early to get to places. You loving the car now doesn't change the fact you were fine with the bike. It doesn't suddenly make your time with the bike bad. It just means that you're happier with a car now.

For some trans people, that car is transitioning by changing their name and pronouns. For others, the car is transitioning with surgeries and hormones. The time before transition, the bike, was still a time when they were fine. But now, they're much happier.

I hope this makes sense.

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Honestly so far the best thing I've done is use trans tape. Sometimes I'll do a light taping and then put my gc2b binder over it to flatten everything out, and that achieves a pretty good result with no like...boobage slippage XD cuz yeah my gc2b pushes the chesticles together to create one big uniboob and sometimes that's worse than a bra? Tape those babies down!

Dysphoria has really been kicking me in the tits lately, so if anyone knows a good place to get binders made for fat people, please let me know

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This is seriously so beautiful

gender euphoria

i've been feeling happy about myself lately & catch myself thinking this really often. i wanna share that with the world.

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Ok peeps, gentlethems, I... I'm so scared to call a surgeon that I've been told would be a great option.

He's in-network for my insurance, the office is lgbtqia-friendly, everything is all good, I'm just...uuuugh I really hate phone calls. Like...I have a fear of it. Heart-pounding stupid irrational fear. I tried to find every way around it, but there's no email option, nothing but just to call.

Can anybody help me with what I can expect when I call? Has anybody had to call their surgeon to set up the first steps? I just...yeah it would help if I knew even one thing about what he's gonna ask :3

#transmasc #trans #pride #man #nonbinary #gender affirming #surgery #top surgery

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I'm two full weeks into comic book school now (spoilers: it is E V E R Y T H I N G) but here's a lil journal comic about the move from west coast to east coast I drew a coupla weeks ago 🌕

if you wanna see art from life at Comic Book School (omg) plus early access to comics like this, you can sign up (it is free!) for my substack, which will send emails full of my drawings right to your very own inbox!! (there's also a $5/mo option to get Extra Secret Content but like 80% of my posts are free and publicly available because ily)

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Trans colors doodle

#trans pride #trans #transmasc #trans man #transfem #trans woman #pride #you are valid #you belong #we belong #you're beautiful #you're handsome #you're wonderful #we can do this

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I full-on sobbed several times during this movie.

have you cried about Nimona yet today

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I’m home! Time to get back on the grind and grow that beautiful mustache back.

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Ok all my big-chested boys out there: when you bind do you get some...like...fluffing sticking out the sides of the binder?? Like this???

Cuz I do and I hate it.

Also as an asd person, I HATE the feel of my bare chesticle (yes i mean my pecs) skin touching the skin of the other chesticle or the skin of my ribs beneath them, so I have to like...spread the the chesticles apart in the binder otherwise I'll have a meltdown in an hour -_- And when I'm lounging at home not binding, I have to tuck my shirt up underneath the pecs so I don't have to feel the skin-to-skin contact of them just laying on my ribs 😖 Anybody else?

When I see these "how to bind safely" vids people are making, they look so perfectly tucked into their binders and flat and I'm like 🥺😢 I WISH I had that. Like...it hurts cuz I want it so badly.

#transmasculine #transmasc #trans #trans pride #pride #trans man #nonbinary

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Another couple of pages from my Top Surgery Recovery Sketchbook!

There is more on my substack (free!) right here !

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another page from my top surgery recovery sketchbook, scanned & hastily colored digitally 4u. this is an incomplete list because I ran out of space 😅

more top surgery recovery sketchbook pages here

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Had my 3-month checkup on the 25th! Just got my results back yesterday, T level is at 289! That's on the low side according to a cursory google search which says the low end of T for cis men in their 40s is 250. I'm 28 and trans, by comparison.

Anyone know what mid- to late-20 cis-male T is on average? I can't seem to find good data on it :S

Edit: apparently adults should have anywhere between 240 and 950 ng/dl?! That's a way bigger gap in the "average" range than I realized there would be.

#trans #trans problems #trans issues #lack of data #confused boi #wants info #please help #insert pic of goth boi with big puppy eyes

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I hide in the restroom during 15-minute breaks cuz the breakroom is WAY too overwhelming and noisy. But fun fact the restroom is differently-overwhelming cuz I'm trans. The lady's can get...smelly, but also...I walk out looking like the man I am and get weird looks. But I can't go in the men's yet 😖 And the family room is also a no-go cuz I walked in on a cis man pooping once. Not doing THAT again. Idiot didnt lock the door though so not my fault?? But still. No thanks. Too much anxiety. BUT ALSO why is a cis man pooping in the family room?! EXCUSE ME YOU HAVE A DESIGNATED RESTROOM, YOU WORK HERE, YOU DON'T HAVE KIDS WTF MAN. Like sure I don't have kids either BUT do you see a trans-safe restroom NOOOOOO, so GET THE F**K OUT D**KWAD!

*ahem*

Also lunch is taken out in my car, regardless of time of year. Can't do the breakroom. Just nope.

#asd #autist #overwhelm #noise #sensory issues #burnout #trans #transmasc #pride #trans man

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GUYS I’M ON T NOW

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I’m cranky and turned on for no reason, it’s definetly puberty again.

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(slides new comic in like I haven’t been gone for five months)