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“Let piety be your provision, patience be your garment, and buy hardship in the path of Allah. Be true in your speech, trustworthy in performing your deeds, prolong your sajdah (prostration), deal with others with best behaviour, and treat your neighbour amicably. Perform your prayers even with those whom you think to be your opposition; attend their funeral ceremonies, visit their sick, and give them their rights. Verily I tell you that whosoever is honest and has good behaviour in the eyes of others, he is the pious Shia whom I will be proud of. Therefore, fear Allah, be as adornment on behalf of us and be not as shame that defames our name. This is the only way by which others shall be attracted toward us (the Ahlul Bayt of the Holy Prophet saws)”

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Imam Hassan Al Askari (as)

للَّهُمَّ صَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّدٍ وَ آلِ مُحَمَّدٍ

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Audiences love both the feeling part (reliving the life) and the thinking part (figuring out the puzzle) of a story. Every good story has both.

― John Truby, The Anatomy of Story: 22 Steps to Becoming a Master Storyteller

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#no words needed #actually i'm just in a hurry #i need to do my namaz and idk #feel like a good person again or smth #i have a break before my next cies so that's smth #also i should clean my room #i'm getting too invested in twice's cb this monday and i JUST saw what happens when i get like that #anyways yah #lol the tags that show up in my autofill now #k baie

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In the Name of Allah, the Entirely Merciful, the Especially Merciful

I'm... a bit of a mess right now. Tomorrow is my first CIE exam though, my English Language one, so person from the future do pray for me and maybe that will change my fate.

I find everything happening around me pretty interesting, both the good and the bad. It's strange. I seem to have evolved.

My mind is the most frustrating thing right now. It's like no matter what I do or what happens, it's such a fragile thing that it collapses every fortnight and then takes just as much time to sort itself out. It seems to struggle with things that I see most people having no trouble with. And that's a bit bothersome, but that's also becoming part of a routine by now and that bothers me further.

I'm lucky I have support, though. No matter how much of a mess I am. And that gives me the strength to force myself to hurry up, to get better quicker. Just knowing that certain people love you and are with you every moment, it gives you a surprising amount of strength. I once again seem to be experiencing something I thought I would only ever read about in books. The power of knowing people love you.

Cute.

Good luck, future me! There is now something strange in my heart that's not going anymore and I don't need to do something intense to realize it's existence anymore. It's always there. And that's what gives me the strength to face exams that I am doomed to fail, because with that inside me, my every failure turns to blossoming flowers along a path that relieves you with every step.

Thank you, Allah.

#yay #tw #bts #aesthetic #friendfics #jaljayo goodnight #ha sike #amigo has started sleeping in a box and doesn't mind sleeping in a blanket with me #and that's how you know when seasons are changing #also bob's burgers whoop whoop #momidachaeng and new rules do be masterpieces #sorry i'm deprived #in general #yikes now this is the sort of stuff i cringe at in two years #haha better look forward to it #don't you dare edit this you weak-livered slime #○^○

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Today is the date of the death anniversary of the youngest daughter of Imam Hussain (a.s), Ruqqaiya (s.a), who died in the dark dungeons of Damascus burnt, bruised, bleeding, tired, and all alone. At the age of four.

And yet I don't know what to do for her. In her honour. She deserved the world, but the world could never deserve her. but there's still so much I could do. Even anything small would be something. But I can't think of anything. Charity? I don't have any money to my name. Some special vow correlating to me becoming a better person? I never follow up on those because I'm horrible. Listening to a good lecture and/or educating myself? Sure, but that's not really anything. It's less than the bare minimum.

I love them so much. Sometimes it's hard for me to comprehend, and sometimes I get my feelings mixed up with feelings I have for other people, which are usually not particularly pleasant. But then in these moments that happen more and more frequently, it is the most precious epiphany I could ever have. I remember how I realized during the last night of my walk during Arbae'en 12 months ago just how much I really loved my Imam, and it was just such a sudden supernova in me that I was filled with pure euphoria and serendipity the whole night. It was amazing. I'm not very good with words, or expression. So I'm very lucky that the only people that I adore beyond comprehension and whose opinion I genuinely value, are people who know the true words of my heart without me having to clumsily say anything. How blessed am I to have ended up in this position?

Most people wouldn't understand, but I am genuinely beyond caring because I've made a list of all the people I want in my life and as it turns out the only people I would believe for everything and anything are, surprise surprise, the Ahlulbayt (a.s). My Family, maybe. I definitely don't deserve to call them that. But I don't deserve any of what I've been given in my blessed and short 17 years of life. So... maybe it's ok? Everybody needs a Family, right?

It's depressing seeing all these people go on the walk this year, knowing I'm stuck listening to useless school chatter and learning all about the difference between PED and XED. I realise now how snobbish I must sound in this post, but does it matter if nobody besides my Family is going to read it? It's just frustrating when ny worst fear is arrogance, and I know how easy it is to fall into a habit of self-praise and assurance in feeling as if you know what you're doing. It's a bit painful constantly battling intense doubt and feeling bad about everything I do, but I find it to be much more preferable to arrogance. I know the Ahlulbayt (a.s) don't like that, but I'm stuck because I'd much rather be anguished and full of self-doubt rather than comfortable and prideful. Being satisfied with what I do and being proud of my "accomplishments" means I'm satisfied with where I am and that makes it a hundred times harder to forward as a person. But don't take my word for it, random stranger on the internet. I'm the last person you should take advice from, unless it has something to do with religion, then maybe I could shove a few books in your hands or something.

Anyways. I should go get the Azakhana ready in time for the majlis, take a sjower, do my namaz, maybe actually do something worthwhile. Loving somebody is useless if you can't act on it positively, right? Goodnight, Siri, for now. This has become less about the small things that bring me happiness and more about the biggest things, because that's really the only thing I want happiness from now.

#should i change my blog title or #omg this year's nohas were great i'm o v e r j o y e d #i got some new toys for muh cat and he's also o v e r j o y e d #btw i say Family and not family not out of a need to look cringy but bc i have the creativity of a yg songwriter ? #also courage the cowardly dog was incredibly disturbing why was i allowed to watch that as a baby #at least now i know i wasn't a psychopath kid with horrifying daydreamd but i was just... influenced (?) #so yay #anyways bye gotta dash #bts #bc i have jk's picture as pfp ok i don't need reason to tag them leave me alone >:(

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I just woke up and it's already the eve of Moharram. I can't believe time has flown so quickly. It feels horrible to know I probably won't be able to go to Iraq this Arbaeen, even though I jump to go to risk my health for it at the drop of a hat, but it's a part of life. I've just yearned for this for ages, and it's finally here.

I also finally finished my letter to Tae, though I feel like I didn't do half as well as I should have, it's ok too. I have a feeling this Moharram is going to be great with the groups, and I'm hoping for the best. I need to go help Mama with the Aza Khanah now, but please let it be known how much I really love you, Imam. It's incomparable and beyond words, and it's a pity I'm unable to think of anything to do except for meer chores and stuff when you deserve so much more. But I'll work hard everyday to try to fulfill that level of respect and love that you deserve, and I hope that someday when I reach it, I'll be there knowing that my loved ones lives are really changed. Thank you~

#karbala #moharram #iraq #love #taetae #bts #rv #tw #bp #txt #family #shab

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Red Velvet :: Milky Way Teaser @  SMSTATION ‘Our Beloved BoA' 

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So I love Wendy.

I have been obsessed Wendy, and Red Velvet as a whole, ever since I saw a 59-minute movie made for their 6th anniversary. I really love them so much. I'm not quite sure how to word my feelings for them, but my feelings go beyond simple admiration or affection. It's funny, but I never thought they would become such a huge part of my life when I made that first playlist of ten of their songs last year, or when I decided to keep them with me back in September in Karbala. They've been such a great support to me, it's hard to encapsulate in words. And Wendy is amazing, lol. I can't truky believe I disliked her when I first became a fan. She's so sweet, kind, funny, loving, I could go on and on, but it wouldn't be enough to show how I love all these little and big thing about her. Maybe this beautiful cover will help.

#wendy #red velvet #jessie j #wendy is the cutest uff #i love her moral compass too #somehow #love u #SoundCloud

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We been knew that Bts has been raising awareness for all sorts of issues, regarding those we deal with within our beings and those that include the wellbeing of different types of people all around the world.

So here’s a few things they did for Muslims, because no one talks about it and I think Muslim fans should get a chance to feel special too:)

Firstly, here’s an older interview of them where they discussed how they believe that Hijabi women are beautiful and it is exactly that beauty which they protect through their modesty.

Namjoon has shown many little tours of his room, where he talked about a few figurines he keeps in his collections.

The first one, is a representation of the wall that separates Palestine

The second one- the flower thrower is a symbol of peace for the Middle East, following the attack on the gay pride event. Here’s a little bit more about it:

Further more, on the last few concerts around the world that took place during Ramadan:

Bts served Halal food to all the audience

They even had a separate prayer room set up for those who wanted to pray.

They postponed Soundcheck for Ahdan (call for prayer)

In 2017, during the time where an audience member was picked to come on stage to take a selfie with Bts, a girl with a hijab had been selected through the draw, the members alerted each other that it’s not always common for unrelated men to touch a woman in Muslim culture, therefore they all kept a respectful distance from her while taking the photo. Like??? wow?? Respecting someone else’s culture like that while treating them equally??

And last but not least, the boys have raised ❗️2 million dollars❗️ for the sake of ❗️Yemen ❗️through their UNICEF program.

Say “Bts Muslim” to trigger all islamphobes!!!

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" We have those who will love us even if we cut them into pieces, and those who will hate us even if we feed them honey. "

- The Leader of the Faithful

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Today I finally finished decorating my rack! That sounds horrible ugh. I put this rack up over my study table because p i n t e r e s t and I printed 39 pictures divided into four themes and this is the first one! I tried not to make it too kpop-y and I think this turned out really well! I'm really happy. Problem? My mother walked in, saw Irene and Taehyung, and she got this expression as if I had literally started an OnlyFans and walked away.

I will never understand the extent of how much she is completely unwilling to ever listen to me, but yeeh. I'm done with this. The only reason that I'm adding something negative to this blog is because this is an affirmation of me not backing down anymore. I will not be a people pleaser, will not do things just to get some sort of useless stamp of approval from my family or friends, will not be bothered by people insulting me, and as much as it hurts, I'm done. I know I'm doing the right thing, I know. And that's enough.

I'm done trying to mingle in seperate parts of my life. But I will not stand for poeple insulting my personal space, where I have the freedom to do what I want so long as it's not wrong. And this isn't. So good luck, future me. Let me know how this works out.

#wishing on a star? #love that song ugh #also isn't the aesthetic kind of nice #I'll take pictures of the other three too #This has been my childhood dream so I'll enjoy it #Anyways periods suck gtg byeee

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Me busy looking for pretty pictures to print out to put on my wall grid

#this is my literal childhood dream #i could do this forever #i hope my family doesn't throw a fit when they see i have a few kpop pics #i'm so over caring for their opinions but it's still annoying to have to put up with #i'm getting it all printed in photo paper so wish me luck that it isn't too expensive #i had to cut down from 90 pics to 40 lol #i need to sleep brr

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It's been a long time since I updated this, and honestly I kind of missed this. I was looking through my old posts and I sound kind of cringy lol, and I'd like to believe I sound more mature now but we all know the truth.

Long story short, my phone broke, we moved houses, I got my own room, I'm slowly starting to feel a bit happier. Not to jinx it, because whenever I write it down I suddenly go back 50 steps. There's a lot of stuff wrong as well that shouldn't be (hence the word wrong), and I could definitely make a longer list of this than the good stuff that's happened, but I won't. At least not now. I want to make this place a bit happier now. I love the aesthetic I have going on here, I love the idea that I came up for writing down bygone thoughts I have, and I want to make sure it stays as positive as it can.

Moharram is about to start! Amigo is loving the new house! I'm able to decorate my room the way I want! My two good friends are going strong! I still have my music! Ew I hate these exclamation marks. I made a list of the music genres I enjoy. I'm down to two members for the letters. I'm improving my social media feed to make it more light and digestible. I'm starting to sort through my identity. I'm enjoying having a connection with Imam again after so long. I'm starting to save up for the next BTS album I plan to secretly buy in November. I'm studying subjects much better than Math and Chemistry. I'm finding studying enjoyable. I'm taking care of myself and my things more. I got a grid to place on the wall with my desk, and I'm going out tomorrow to print out some a e s t h e t i c a l pictures for it tomorrow! Life isn't half bad when you have a really pretty blog to turn to!

Congrats Tae! I think you're next on the letters list, so I'm happy. I'm still keeping them in my prayers. Thank you. I'm grateful. I'm at peace.

#ok but srsly this aesthetic is so good #i cant stop fangirling help #i did good ugh #also yay im officially a confirmed intp (for now) #it feels nice #a e s t h e t i c #bts #rv #txt #bp #tw #F #f

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This! I was starting to get down again as I was searching for new wallpapers and coincidently found this. It's so powerful. I haven't heard such great advice from other people in quite some time.

This is so important, I really feel like doing this as soon as I wake up. I've always enjoyed making lists and classifying the small things in my life, and I think this would help me feel better so much whenever I start "relapsing" again. And I think it would be especially helpful seeing as I've been recently dealing with drama from my school friends; the usual suspects too.

I feel way better. Is it a coincidence that this is the second day of Ramazan? Haha. I'm slowly starting to feel so much more motivated and hopeful about small things in my life. I hope someday, my life can be a poem for small things like this. The small things that bring me, all of us, happiness are so important, and often go overlooked or confused for something else. I feel much better now.

#Yay ramazan #Haha Satan is locked up now I feel happy again #Btw kinda off topic BUT I'm loving the new aesthetic for my phone #So pretty and these pictures I found are so pretty even though most people would find them weird or whatever #I'm light #I like that #I think I can struggle to stay like that #Wouldn't be half bad #Thanks

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This week's run episode was so much fun! I definitely do not regret starting to watch it again. They're adorable.

I'm glad I'm finally starting to leave behind all the doubts I had about my relationship with bts. Now no matter what the others say, I know the truth, and that is a great comfort. I love them, and I am secure in that. Sometimes it feels like that is the only thing I am secure in.

I was planning on switching schools for my A Levels, but then since online classes started I was having some fun with my "school friends" and decided against it. Now I'm questioning yet another impulsive decision. Sometimes I feel like they just talk over me and don't care because I'm the clown of the group. That's a habit that has been in me since birth so it's kind of a natural instinct when I'm feeling uncomfortable, especially in front of a camera. They keep on teasing me about my hair that they're seeing for the first time, and it's really hard to bear. Sometimes I feel left out, sometimes I feel like I'm always being made fun of, and this is the exact reason I wanted to switch schools and stay alone. I'm not sure anymore. I've stopped telling my mother about this stuff because I feel I am not very good with self expression and I often make her misunderstand things. It's fine. These are only online classes, and it's great because I can leave the situation whenver I feel comfortable, which is a great luxury. I am thankful for that.

#This ramazan is going to bring a lot of truth to my life #I'm really grateful #I still have these small comforts that are so huge and it is the only thing keeping me going on from day to day #I gotta get ready for my classes now hehe #I do not regret keeping a brand new day as my alarm #Here's to hoping we all have a good day!

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