girlonmars7

[girlonmars7]

when u vented out to ur bestf's older sister about ur mental health or feeling of some sort of escapism and told her that u don't want this to get out and then she tells ur best friend and now she's treating me like a scared stray dog and u begin to distance urself to everybody and just want university to officially start so u can pack ur things and leave asap promising to keep in touch but never do bcoz u want to be somewhere nobody knows you and u start a new life and focus on building a career.

#vent post #connections

[girlonmars7]

jiang yanli and jiang cheng too.

and when yanli, wen ning (supposedly) and wen qing died, jiang cheng turned against him and he believed lan zhan to be against him as well for trying to stop him and take him to gusu, he thought there was nobody to live for anymore. nobody to protect. he had nothing. he always fought for others. even at the siege he fought for yanli and the wen siblings and not himself.

It's admirable yet frustrating that, while being physically and mentally tortured, Wei Ying still didn't care about himself. He worries about Wen Ning, Lan Zhan, and Wen Qing, but disregards his pain.

[girlonmars7]

if this is true id like to think lan zhan hummed wangxian the second time at the bottom of the burial mounds before he was taken away. and wwx half conscious half dying hummed it as he died.

imagine lan zhan hearing a flute play this song and he knows that he is wwx because he hummed this song only TWICE to wwx and no one else. like there's no way that's not wwx stop playing it's def him

im totally not thinking about wei wuxian humming wangxian to himself at the bottom of the burial mounds, half dead

because that would mean im crying and im DEFINITELY NOT

[girlonmars7]

my dream job is to be a bartender.

maybe in a reality where money didn't matter, I'd love to learn bartending and learn how to make different drinks. just the vibe and the idea is cool. I'm too young rn but if I get a chance to start anew somewhere where nobody knows me or has heard of me, I'd start bartending as a part time job. i think I should try it in this lifetime forshore. I've always had a thing with bartending.

bartending is actually so hot and sexy but one day if I actually go somewhere out of my country to Europe maybe, I'd do part time right there and this is the only job that makes sense w me.

#dark aesthetic #bartender #bar #dream job #jobs #desi teen #teenagers

[girlonmars7]

when is it my turn

Shoutout to everyone who has died and come back sluttier each time