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How it feels whenever i realize the feelings i had about my ex qpp, by the nature of being in a queer platonic relationship, were not strictly or inherently platonic and thats why i feel so much more strongly about it than i would about a "platonic friendship"

#and then i gaslight myself again bc “we were just friends why does it hurt so bad :^((” #a vicious cycle #i keep forgetting she was my qpp bc instead of breaking it off i was gaslit into thinking i made it all up in my head btw. if you even care #vent post

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Genuinely shocked by the revelation that maybe being told that im developmentally challenged by a close friend for the first time in 24 years, despite it being technically true, might have fucked me up a little bit. Maybe it was the first time i ever saw it as a negative and i shouldve been reassured that it wasnt a flaw instead of being reassured that it wasnt my fault that i was disabled. Maybe my close friend gave me brand new insecurities that would affect me long after she left on purpose to put me beneath her so she could feel superior to me. I think it maybe hurt my feelings a little bit.

#vent post #i promise thie won't be a regular thing but god damn this hit me like a bus???? like what the fuck #many such cases

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if your thing has ABNORMAL EXTENSIONS OF AN EXISTING HOUSE and a HOUSE MOTIF IN GENERAL and references TEXTS WITHIN THE TEXT and TEXTS OUTSIDE THE TEXT INTERCHANGEABLY, and FUCKS WITH THE PAGE LAYOUT and has IMPORTANT WORDS that are NORMAL ONES BUT IN COLORED TEXT and a little bit of FONT ACTION 1. and FORMATTING QUIRKS UNIQUE TO A CHARACTER and MYTHOLOGY REFERENCES and it’s REALLY FUCKING DENSE AND COMPLICATED IN GENERAL 2.

in particular, courier new

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#click the arrow for a fun surprise! #house of leaves

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[covered in blood, with tears in my eyes] I AM VERY YOUNG AND I AM LEARNING HOW TO LIVE

#its my first time living i should be nicer to myself

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collection of posts for a very specific dynamic

#have i mentioned im fucking crazy

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he's very excited about his first night as a jack o lantern

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It's always morally correct to creatureify your blorbos. Give them teeth n tails n wings n stuff. Make them purr. It's good for the environment.

#dogboy beam on every character i think im gonna kin #its mandatory

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You ever have that person that enters your life and they straight up tell you they are a walking red flag and you just. Ignore it. And now you have insurmountable emotional trauma

#been recovering #not easy

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guy who has mistaken adrenaline for love and isn’t interested in correcting the mistake

#samponk

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#im at the combination pizza hut and taco bell

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Thinking about this one weird c!ponk neg post i clowned on a long time ago with my friends and now that the dsmp is over i think i was too harsh on it for their characterization of c!ponk. Truly they were ahead of their time on that one

#the only real gripe i had was their assumptions abt the cc which were. yikes im not gonna lie #but that being said yeah there is something to be said about c!ponk's capacity for cruelty towards ppl who have wronged her #and her treatment of sam is warranted up to a point tbh #but then we get to the finale where she is just. needlessly cruel #its so fascinating and some would call it derailment but i genuinely believe this was a perfect portrayal of negative character development #her resentment and anger consumed her until she was not only fully willing to commit violence against sam but actively enjoying it #which is something sam NEVER did #you always get the sense that he is disgusted with himself and his justifications always felt like a defense mechanism #against the crushing guilt his actions cause him to feel #ponk is laughing and saying hes going to savor this hes DELIGHTING in sam's fear and suffering and i want to study them like a weird bug #c!ponk crit #c!ponk neg

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Personally I think morale amongst the real Firefox staff could only be improved by being allowed to discuss how they all want the dad from Wimpy Kid biblically

there is nothing biblical about what i’m going to do to frank heffley

#feels like a 2014 post 10/10

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*twirling hair normally* im sooooo normal about this piece of media,,,, so soso normal,,,,, *begins whirring* sooooooooooooooooooooooo noooooooormaaaaaaaal 

#never talk to me about the dsmp unless you want to be Deeply Unnerved #currently writing the most unhinged samponk final confrontation fic ever that may need to be edited down bc of the sheer amount of violence #they make me SO normal trust me

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i'm literally the priest's favorite sacrificial lamb because i am so docile and sweet and i hold very still when they put the rope around my neck and i trot along so happily while they lead me to the altar and they do not even have to tie me down because i lie so very still and only bleat once or twice in my lovely lamb voice and when the knife comes down it cuts through me like butter and i offer no resistance and i bleed so prettily all over my new white wool and my guts all unspool like the most beautiful shining yarn and my eyes are animal and dumb and hold no accusation and every time i die i come right back as another little lamb because the priest loves me so so much and he always chooses me for the sacrifice every time and he always places one hand on my small and twitching nose to calm me while he lifts the knife and he doesn't do it for the other lambs only me because i'm his favorite

#thanks im gonna think about this for weeks #wtf #dare i say genloss sneeg in the au where charlie and ranboo escape and he ends up getting rescripted #bc everything he does is for them and when theyre gone all he has is hetch telling him they abandoned him and and and #oh my god this is so full of worms

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thank you doctor for doubling my testosterone. however i turn into a hound of some sorts late into the evenings. i am not complaining but i was not informed of this effect either way

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You show me a character. He is the most emotionally constipated nerd emoji mf the world has ever seen and you ask me to fix him. Idk about fixing him but give me a violence music playlist and a blank google doc and i will humble him real quick

#this is about mind from chonny jash btw #im gonna put him in the blender and shake

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Heart: Wasn't icarly that guy that girlbossed his way too close to the sun?

Mind: ICARUS???

#he knew it was icarus he just loves playing dumb bc mind takes the bait every time #and it makes mind SO mad #jashposting