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This month, I have lost two beloved pets, Ed and Breezy. On top of this, my car crapped out twice, and between vet bills and car repairs, I've had almost $1000 in unexpected expenses that I just don't have the money for.

I'm honestly exhausted in more ways than I know how to explain, but bills won't wait.

If anyone wants to donate toward helping me pay the bills, you can through my p@ypal me.

Or please consider supporting me via my Etsy shop: FortunesMarket.

(Use the link above so I can take advantage of the Etsy Share & Save deal. I.E - Etsy charges me 4% less in fees.)

I have stickers and vinyl decals for the most part. All are water and UV proof. They can even be put on a bottle or mug and washed in your dishwasher (top rack only.) I also have a couple iron-ons.

Fandoms include: Sonic, Persona, Genshin Impact, Tales of, Twisted Wonderland, D&D/Crit Role, and more.

(Just a few samples of what I can do.)

#Reblog for day crew #I am so tired... #I'm gonna do my best to work for it. #I don't expect free help. #But... if anyone can it is much appreciated. #Signal boosts appreciated.

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All of my most recent posts here are just... bad news on top of bad news.

I'd love to post about good news for once. Maybe some will eventually come.

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This month, I have lost two beloved pets, Ed and Breezy. On top of this, my car crapped out twice, and between vet bills and car repairs, I've had almost $1000 in unexpected expenses that I just don't have the money for.

I'm honestly exhausted in more ways than I know how to explain, but bills won't wait.

If anyone wants to donate toward helping me pay the bills, you can through my p@ypal me.

Or please consider supporting me via my Etsy shop: FortunesMarket.

(Use the link above so I can take advantage of the Etsy Share & Save deal. I.E - Etsy charges me 4% less in fees.)

I have stickers and vinyl decals for the most part. All are water and UV proof. They can even be put on a bottle or mug and washed in your dishwasher (top rack only.) I also have a couple iron-ons.

Fandoms include: Sonic, Persona, Genshin Impact, Tales of, Twisted Wonderland, D&D/Crit Role, and more.

(Just a few samples of what I can do.)

#Vet Bills #Etsy Shop #Help Request #Pay Bills #Etsy Links #reblogs appreciated

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I genuinely wish I could turn my feelings off sometimes. Just for a little break, you know? Just an hour of nothing so I can take a break.

The empty spot at the end of my bed still feels so damn heavy, and every time I feel Spike's tail brush against my legs or his collar jingle, I feel so guilty. I keep glancing down in the hope that this has all been a terrible dream and Ed is okay.

I know Spike is hurting too and he's both seeking comfort from me and trying to comfort me because he can tell I'm distressed...

I just wish it would stop hurting. Just for a little bit.

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We lost Ed this morning around 4am... HCM just. Sucks so much.

He came into my room crying out, seized up, and then he was just... gone.

I can still barely process it now later today and I just. It's been kind of a craptastic day.

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I just found out today one of my kitties is suffering from late stage congestive heart failure... We don't know how much time he has left.

He's barely 2. He's still just a baby...

#The vet assured us it was something he would have been born with. #We haven't done anything wrong. #We can only try to treat the symptoms to see if he can live his life fully. #But if that doesn't work... #He's just a baby...

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Having Covid on top of life's shitstorms right now kinda sucks. Also I may have gotten my dad sick so that's like. Wheeeeee.

#nao rants #I need a life vacation #for me and my family. #Just like a week of no worries at all.

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you know what really grinds my gears?

okay, bear with me: so as you may know, harry houdini and arthur conan doyle were friends, at least for a while.

by the early 1920s, both arthur conan doyle and acd's wife jean, aka lady doyle, believed whole-heartedly in spiritualism, talking to ghosts and all of that. (sidenote: this was of course right on the heels of a devastating world war and a devastating pandemic, both of which had created a huge population of grieving people, so spiritualism was having a moment.)

lady doyle sincerely thought she had the ability to go into a trance state and pass along messages in writing from the dead. she offered to do this for houdini. houdini agreed.

lady doyle attempted to channel houdini's late mother. she basically drew a cross at the top of the paper and filled it with generic platitudes addressed to "harry." houdini's mom was jewish and didn't talk like that, so houdini knew the jig was up, even if lady doyle didn't. but not wanting to make the situation awkward, he kind of went along with it to their faces.

then acd decided to publish a glowing account of the seance, and since both he and houdini were super famous, it got a lot of attention, and letters started pouring in for houdini, asking if this was true. ultimately, houdini couldn't life about it. so he essentially said, like, "yeah, i think lady doyle THINKS she can talk to ghosts but she absolutely can't." and it ruined his friendship with acd forever.

and then of course a lot of the people running seances weren't even well-intentioned like lady doyle, they were just simple charlatans taking advantage of traumatized people mourning loved ones. in houdini's youth, he and his wife had traveled the carnival circuit where he did an act pretending to commune with spirits, so he knew all the tricks of the trade AND he had lingering guilt over having done this, AND he was infuriated by this increasingly popular wave of con artists so he decided to assemble a team of anti-grifting grifters and together they went on the road exposing whichever spiritualists were preying on the locals.

houdini's best agent was a young woman named rose mackenberg, who donned disguises to visit the fraud de jour and then importantly sussed out what non-supernatural thing was actually happening, and then houdini would demonstrate the techniques onstage to packed audiences.

(if you want to know more, check out episode 175, "ghost racket crusade" of the podcast Criminal or read Tony Wolf's book The Real-Life Ghostbusting Adventures of Rose Mackenberg.)

but yeah, what really gets my goat is that all this happened and as far as i know, we still don't have like four seasons of a Leverage-style historical procedural about rose mackenberg and the rest of the crew having adventures in the 1920s as they unmask craven hucksters all over the united states. (what we do have, apparently, is one season of a show called "houdini and doyle" which is about the oddball friendship of two contrasting men solving sometimes-actually-supernatural mysteries, and whose premise does i think at the very least a real disservice to houdini's whole quest and also totally erases rose, who is arguably the most interesting part of this story to me.)

i am just steamed about this. steamed.

#The absolutely convoluted amount of information I know about exactly this feud is ridiculous. #Thank you podcasts. #But tbh this sounds like it'd be a hilarious show. #I wish I knew more about script writing to make it happen. #exequete!

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So... life sucks right now.

Not only is my disability application still pending (November will be month 10 since I applied. Isn't waiting for the government to process things FUN?) But life is just... hard. And complicated.

My dad is currently going through ECT treatment because he's very resistant to medication for his depression. If you don't know what that is... honestly, I just snatched this summary from Google because I don't have the mental spoons to break it down right now:

Electroconvulsive therapy (ECT for short) is a treatment that involves sending an electric current through your brain. This causes a brief surge of electrical activity within your brain (also known as a seizure). The aim is to relieve severe symptoms of some mental health problems.

It's honestly not an uncommon treatment, and apparently a very successful and common one for patients who, like my dad, are resistant to medication.

The issue is, one of the side effects for this are memory loss. So right now, dad can't work. And his memory is just... awful right now. He's forgetting a lot of things from the past few months (let alone past few days or weeks) and it's just... a mess. Mom and I are doing the best we can to keep it together and keep things going... Taking him to his appointments (that are god-awful early in the morning) making sure someone is always home with him...

But it's hard. It's hard when he took on so many responsibilities like submitting payments for bills and such on his own and always assured us he had it when we offered to help.

To be clear, my dad is not at all a bad or controlling person. He just took pride in being able to take care of his family. It was one of the things he felt like he could control against his depression. Taking care of us was sort of his... anti-depression isn't the right word. But it's what kept him going. That's how he'd always explain it. We'd always just do whatever we could to support him and try to everything else easier for him. (Though in retrospect, I guess that's just how families are supposed to work. Taking care of each other as best you can.)

But right now it's so hard... He's not himself at all... and all of these symptoms can take up to 6 months to fully heal, and that's after treatment finishes (which has about... 2 weeks left, I think? It depends, really. There's a range and everyone is different.)

He's my dad and I love him a lot... but it's hard. It's hard to see him get confused or forget very basic things like the voice command for the lights he was so pleased with when he set up. Or watching a TV show one day and then immediately watching it again the day after because he doesn't remember watching it. Or that a bill set up for automatic payments will got through and he'll see it show up on the bank accounts he unconsciously remembers to check, but doesn't know what it's for, and then we scramble to not only make sure something wild didn't happen, but assure him everything is okay.

And, reading back over this post, it seems like such a small problem from an outside perspective. I'm barely touching the tip of the iceberg, but I know there's people out here that are dealing with similar circumstances ten-fold and probably handling it with way more grace than I am.

I just don't know what to do anymore. I try to help as best I can, but my dad has always been a bit of a stubborn man. Not cruelly stubborn, but stubborn about being the strong, independent one. And he can't do that right now... but he's still trying to.

I can only try to pick up whatever pieces I can with my mom and make things work as best we can.

But it's still a mess and complicated and I feel like I'm just a horrible daughter for venting like this.

#nao rants #life problems #ect treatment #ect #I just have to be stronger. #Even if it's only for a little while. #I'll be stronger and better. #For mom and dad.

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Every single time I see lucid dreaming mentioned, I am violently shot back to the times of that Zelda fanfic.

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Shhh, Freminet doesn't exist yet. I've not even drawn that one. Don't @ me he'll be there soon enough.

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HEAD OF THE GAME THIS TIME, HERE WE ARE WITH OUR NEWEST HYDRO LADS... WHO ARE NOT YET IN THE GAME. So here's hoping their constellations don't change last minute or I may personally have to fight all of Hoyo.

ANYWHO~

Link to the listings!

✦ Safe for use indoors & outdoors. ✦ Weatherproof, UV protected, and waterproof.

#genshin impact #genshin fontaine #genshin neuvillette #genshin wriothesley #vinyl decals #nao makes things

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Please enjoy the dumbest thing I've ever contributed to a fandom.

I'll show myself the door...

#genshin impact #genshin #genshin fontaine #genshin impact fontaine #SOYLENT GREEN IS PEOPLE #spoilers #dumb jokes #Nao makes things #drugs r bad kids; don't do drugs

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compilation

#him... small... #so small... #a bean.

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we are in a media literacy crisis

#people REALLY need to understand this. #fiction is not some sort of moral compass. #Otherwise literally everyone who likes Loki would be in jail for it. #Just to pick a big one. #Fiction =/= morals.

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Fortune's Market on Etsy!

Let the magic begin! The twins have arrived in my shop for your decaling pleasure and just in time for the sale! Yaaaaay!

I did it. This might be the fastest I've managed to get these things up...

I still have to fix/finish Lyney's line-only version, but... yay...!

#Genshin Impact #genshin lyney #genshin lynette #Vinyl Decals #Genshin Constellations #Small Business #Nao Makes Things

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why does tumblr's layout look like twitter. What is happening. Does it just look strange to me because my laptop screen is smaller??? what is happening