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today i popped on a comfy crop top and sighed.

"I'll have to keep my arms down unless i put a bra on...but i dont want to wear a bra!! If i didnt have these stupid bo-"

huh

hmmmm

the signs are there and i continue to choose to be oblivious.

I mean i DO like the aesthetic of boobies. I like how some of my clothes fit with bazongas and i worry maybe my dresses wouldnt look good if i sayonara'd them.

but if i DID throw em away then i could raise my arms in a crop top, I could feel the sun on my chest....I could not be self conscious wearing shirts that open a little too far, I could feel more...like...cooool.

Currently ripping and pulling my hair out because there are so many things stopping me.

What will I tell my kids, will my employers be weird about it, what will my parents do, they really really really love jesus, what if i decide one day i want my melons back, or what if my partner isnt as enthusiastic about it (He is btw its just anxiety talk), it cost so much money, id have to take time off work, what would my sister do?

You know....I have heard and read so many times that pressure from family and friends is a big factor in gender related decisions. How is it that i can agree and be like "Yeah! stick it to them! The people who really love you will support you! You're doing great!" and then look myself in the eye and say "uh, no you're a crazy lil guy who needs to make sure your parents never find out anything that upsets them even at the price of your own happiness and fulfillment<3"

*SLAMS HEAD ON KEYBOARD*

#it seems easier when it isnt you #i am on that same boat #good luck #im still nowhere near knowing the answer for myself

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One of my besties has gotten obsessed with furbies recently, and as a loyal friend I must create her muse. So- Funyun Furby lol

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Art by @dayrisfelix

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My friends: I don't deserve you, I'm so unlovable

Me:

-ALTERNATIVE-

Someone: This character has done so much bad shit, they're unlovable

#little nightmares #six

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He/him pronoun bracelet broke, call that fragile masculinity

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I LOVE THIS WET CAT OF A MAN 😭

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i was trying to flirt with halsin and my joke didn't land. i hurt his feelings and now he won't fuck me. i'm bummed i don't get to ride a druid, but i genuinely feel bad that i hurt his feelings.

i am not a weirdo.

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include physically disabled people in your body positivity.

prosthetics, mobility aids, hearing aids, etc. are often extensions of our body to us. not accessories.

these things are highly stigmatized and cause people to think it's okay for them to invade our privacy, boundaries, and bodies.

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twilight princess sillies

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Every day I get a bit more pansexual.

From being primarily interested in women, I have now grown to adore the beauty of all the different types of men, too.

This is what I call character development.

#people really just being so pretty all the time #character development #pansexual #random thoughts #would you believe im demi #demisexual #i have zero interest #i just think they're neat

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Legolas would support trans kids. Just saying

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havent posted art on this blog in a while

have this shit ass doodle i made a few weeks ago

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Forever dauntless ... :]

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#part of the 8.2% #tabletop games #nothing better