dontcallmeidontexist

[dontcallmeidontexist]

I have doubted your love for a while now

Nothing big, but whispers here and there

The sighs and the stares

That tell me your patience is wearing thin

I am not too keen

Don't want to know how long it has been

Since you stopped meaning your "I love you"s

I don't want to know who you stay up with

And if she's giving you everything you think you need

Asking will give me an answer, I know

But I'm not ready to hear the truth

That your love is not what it used to

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[dontcallmeidontexist]

Would i envy the couples

Walking down the street

If you ever did anything

At all for me

If you didn’t only call me after midnight

If you held my hand under the daylight

If you cared enough to tell

Im suffering in this hell

Called almost

But not quite

The bare minimum

Provided high

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[dontcallmeidontexist]

And if not now

Then maybe I can join you

In our next lives

Or will it be a re-run

Of past time's

Never minds

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[dontcallmeidontexist]

I want chivalry

A gentleman

I want open doors

And pulled out chairs

I want flowers just because

And hand-holding everywhere

I want my purse held if needed

And my shoes carried if they hurt

I want to know I have an arm to hold

When I'm walking on uneasy ground

I want the heaviness of the world

Taken off my shoulders

And coats protecting me from the rain

I want protective glances

And glares responding to lustful stares

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[dontcallmeidontexist]

Love is selfless

A purposeful act of giving yourself to someone

Regardless of whether they will offer the same back

Love doesn't ask for reciprocity

Or any act of gratitude in return

But sometimes

Love is

My lover pulling up a chair

To help me trim my nails

After I rub lotion on his back

It's in those little moments that you realize

In the least expected ways

Love always finds its way back

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[dontcallmeidontexist]

The you I know

Does not exist

The you I know

Is nothing but a distant memory

I know that I’ve

Created you

In my head

You’re not flesh

Just my lonely imagination

Wanting more than pain

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[dontcallmeidontexist]

Maybe one day, I will show all of this to you

And laugh at how ridiculous it was

To think that we were through

Or maybe this will be

The last and only thing

Connecting me to you

I hope that one day you get to read this

My diary of you

And I hope that when that day comes

I am long gone

I do not want the pity it would bring

Of all the suffering i lived with

I just want you to live

With the knowledge that someone loved you so much

So that you will never settle for less

I hope it takes you to my grave

Or to that special place back in town

Please don't let it bring you down

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[dontcallmeidontexist]

Phantom Feelings

There are strange creatures that follow me around

Every time I go swimming, I can see him floating just out of reach

I try to always keep an eye on him

If I submerge myself too deeply, I fear he might push me further in

Late at night, I sense him, staring from the other side of the window

It's too dark to know for sure but I feel him standing there

I feel as if he was trying to turn the knob of my bedroom door

The whole house is asleep, there is no one there

There are bugs crawling around my hands as I type this

I try my hardest not to squish them, I would not want that on my conscience, right?

I gently try to shake off the feeling of them on my skin, I don't want to hurt them

Why are you being so gentle, there is nothing there

I have terrible hearing

Still, there are sounds that I can feel

The vibrations of a far away car that isn't there

The ringing in my ears from my sister's nonexistent screaming

The scraping of my mother scribbling with the pen that lies unused on the table

My father's sharpening of knives long after he's gone

They are all sitting across from you, there is no sound to be heard

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[dontcallmeidontexist]

I want to be the cool water

That runs endless in your glass

The always-sharpened coal

Ready to fulfill your words

I want to be the warmth

That calls you to bed, time and time again

I want to be the fresh food

Awaiting every morning in your fridge

All this to say

If I had

More to give

I would gladly give it all for you

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[dontcallmeidontexist]

How much is too much

How long until you have taken all from me

I can change and mold myself for you

But how much more can my heart take

If all I do is wrong

All my efforts are never enough

If all that I am is just simply not right for you

It is always too little or too much

Or just enough but not quite right

When will it ever be enough

For either one of us

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[dontcallmeidontexist]

Despite the endless nights

I have devoted to worshipping you

And the sacrifices I have made

In the name of our love

Nevermind the dulling of my shine

And letting you break my spirit and my spine

Nothing will ever be enough

In your heart, I will never deserve

The love that you are not willing to give me

I will never be enough for you

Will never meet your expectations

My love will never reach your heart

You are tearing me apart

Trying to forcefully search for and take

What has been willingly given from the start

All I wanted was your heart

All you wanted was my fall

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[dontcallmeidontexist]

Repressing the need to say I love you

The reverberating, insistent call to let you know how much you are desired

Has led me to suppress the feelings themselves

You have stripped me of my innate need and want

The goddamn right

To say I love you a thousand times

I still do

But love has never felt so blue

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[dontcallmeidontexist]

"I love you," you reply

That is not what I said

I'm in love with you

You do not respond

But the unspoken question

Has been answered

You will never be in love with me

No matter how long it has been

Since we first said I love you

No matter the sacrifices

Or the bruises and scars

I will always be the one

To break your fall

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[dontcallmeidontexist]

In a way, I got what I wanted

You are with me everywhere I go

You will haunt me forevermore

And see, I told you

I loved you more

See, I wasn't wrong

You are still everything I need

And that with tears escaping my eyes

You would be breaking my heart

In a million tiny pieces

And they all cut like glass

Looking back at my own reflection

It hurts that it's all my fault

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[dontcallmeidontexist]

My every waking moment

Is filled with your presence

To the point where missing you is no longer possible

I cannot miss you

When i have become

A mere extension of your being

I am but a distant piece

Of your soul

Seeking your presence

But never having left it

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[dontcallmeidontexist]

You expect so much

And you take

And take

And take

From a love

You have never

Been able to

Reciprocate

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[dontcallmeidontexist]

I'll take the blame

For every crack in the walls

Of the house we built

I'll say it was my negligence

That rot our garden

Careless mistake, our windows tinted brown

Our roof collapsed

Our floors all mold now

We are in shambles now

And if it means you will survive

If it means you might go and build

Better walls on the next town over

If it makes you take better care of your house next time

Reminds you to water the garden after you plant

If it might be of any help at all

I'll take the blame for it all

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