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(tw: vent, bullying/isolation trauma, mental health discussions)

growing up as an undiagnosed neurodivergent person, constantly being punished for being different or doing something wrong, but never being able to understand what exactly you did and why you’re even being punished for it. instead just left to wonder your entire life if there's something wrong with you, can be a whole trauma of itself.

its the feeling that you deep down know you are different and you're doing something wrong but you don't understand why or how.

i grew up confused why so many of my teachers just straight up hated me, even though i wanted nothing more than to get their approval and praise, why almost all my classmates did everything to avoid me even though i tried so hard to be nice to them, and why it was so hard for me specifically to make friends when everyone else could do it so easily.

a feeling that all to often just gets blamed on me, whether that'd be because of some unspoken social rule i broke, despite never knowing it to begin with. my presence being off putting somehow, or simply just some things not coming naturally to me. like i'm constantly being belittled for not knowing the instructions despite never being given any.

it's my fault no likes me, because there will always be something i'm doing wrong. is it the way i speak? is it my facial expression? is it the way i walk? is it the way i smile? the way i laugh? is the way i dress? is it something i said? something i didn't? what is it, what exactly am i doing so wrong that makes me deserving of being treated like this, i was just a kid.

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You are allowed to have needs. You are allowed to take care of those needs. You are allowed to have your needs acknowledged and taken care of by others. You are allowed to be seen and heard and take up space. You are allowed to set boundaries. You are allowed to ask for help. You are allowed to (graciously) accept help. You are allowed to put your needs above other people's wants. You are allowed to leave situations in which your needs are ignored or dismissed.

#you matter #you are worthy #you are worth it

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💜☀️ rapunzel-themed cake by sheri_wilson_

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I love OG Charmed

#charmed ones #charmed #bookworm #booklover #magic #witches #booksbooksbooks

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#dara #sandara park #2ne1 #cool outfits #fashion inspo

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#cool outfits #2ne1 #dara #sandara park #kpop

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This pic makes my heart happy

Glimmer on a giant swan lives rent free in my brain

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She!

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#saturday #comfort food #chocolate #milk chocolate

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Doc recommended a soft diet while I'm nursing a fever, so I bought my favorite ube cake lol. Just want to reward myself.

We deserve to reward ourselves once in a while.

#purple #cake #ube #ube cake #comfort food #foodie #mentalhealthisimportant