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isolating myself is the only way to protect other people from me

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This comment was hearted

You wouldn't last a minute with an actual delusion get your ass out of here

OUFGGH

I just saw something ableist again I'm so tired

I have to experience enough in my household I'm tired of seeing it everywhere on the internet

I saw an animation where the joke was "voices keep me company so I'm not lonely!!" And the comments were like "LOL THEY KEEP ME IN DELUSION"

SHUT

THE

FUCK

UP

IM SO TIRED

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Hello, I’m starting the process of trying to unlearn the harmful messaging, misinformation, and stereotypes surrounding psychosis/schizophrenia. I’m coming from a place of humility and ignorance - fully trying to abandon all of my preconceptions about these experiences and the people that have them. I found your blog while looking for people’s personal experiences and understanding of these conditions. Thank you for sharing this information and your perspective with the world! It can’t possibly be easy, and the honesty you share is helping people like me finally learn the right way. Thank you for all the work you put into this blog and for sharing it with the world.

As I was reading through your backlog, one of your posts discussed how medication can often specifically remove the positive symptoms of these conditions. I was wondering if you could explain in a little more detail what the positive symptoms are? It was my first time encountering this idea and I want to make sure I don’t get misinformation. If this question is insensitive, please feel free to discard it - I’m asking in the best faith and don’t want to make anyone uncomfortable. Thank you for your time!

Aw thank you! Sometimes I forget that people reading my posts don't already have a certain baseline understanding of terms commonly used for schizophrenia. So this is a great chance for me to teach people about the way schizophrenia symptoms are commonly categorized.

Since schizophrenia can include many different symptoms that are treated using different methods (or are untreatable) the symptoms have been put into 3 categories.

Positive symptoms are symptoms that add something to a schizophrenic person's life that many people don't have. Positive in this context just means "adding to", not as in "good" or "happy". Positive symptoms include hallucinations, illusions, delusions, catatonia, disorganized speech and disorganized thoughts. These symptoms are typically treated with antipsychotic medication. These symptoms can also come and go throughout someone's life.

Negative symptoms are symptoms that take away something in a schizophrenic person's life that many people do have. Negative in this context just means "taking away from", not "bad". Negative symptoms include avolition (lack of motivation), anhedonia (lack of pleasure), alogia (limited or lack of speech), flat or blunted affect, and social withdrawal. These symptoms might be treatable with therapy and social support. These symptoms are consistently present throughout someone's life.

Cognitive symptoms are symptoms caused by a difference in brain structure that causes a difference how the brain works in schizophrenic people. Cognitive symptoms include slower processing speed, impaired working memory, reduced attention and vigilance, reduced verbal learning, trouble with reasoning and problem solving, impaired sensory perception, and impaired social cognition. These symptoms might be treated with therapy. These symptoms are consistently present throughout someone's life.

(Not everyone with schizophrenia will have every single symptom listed in each category)

Here are some simplified infographics:

#i love this blog #helpful for describing my experience #i didnt even know some of these things were caused by my illness lol

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OUFGGH

I just saw something ableist again I'm so tired

I have to experience enough in my household I'm tired of seeing it everywhere on the internet

I saw an animation where the joke was "voices keep me company so I'm not lonely!!" And the comments were like "LOL THEY KEEP ME IN DELUSION"

SHUT

THE

FUCK

UP

IM SO TIRED

#sanism #ableism #schizoaffective #actually schizospec #schizospec #psychosis #actually psychotic #actually hallucinating

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My sleep apnea doctor tried to prescribe me ozempic -_-

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if you get upset at disabled and mentally ill folks for not doing what you consider "basic hygeine" cmere a sec

*whacks you with my metal pipe*

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Lol it's the consequences of my actions I stopped taking my meds and this is what happens.

What should I do gang I'm not feeling safe but if I go to the hospital my dad said I wouldn't return home

I will take any answer except go back on my meds because I can't stand being in pain and I can't stand being tired all the time and I'm not having that amount of brain fog again.

Also I need to lose weight (medically necessary) and meds do not help with that

#schizoaffective #actually schizospec #schizospec #tw vent #actually psychotic #psychosis #actually schizoaffective

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I've locked the garage door and im hiding with a knife. My parents are gonna be pissed but I have to defend myself from the monster in the garage somehow.

It was standing there. Menacingly. With its horrible face and off putting posture. It's going to kill me if I don't have anything to defend myself with.

#im hoping i dont get kicked out for this #im not gonna be able to survive on my own #but i couldnt find my scissors #and i cant NOT have a weapon #knives make me feel secure

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I think i should stay off of tiktok for a while.....

I was watching a normal day in my life video of an art student or something when in the end of the video they showed a videoclip of their friend doing a tarot reading and they put a text on top saying something like: 'my delulu friend doing a tarot reading'.

And it really fucking felt like someone just punched me in the face. I had just two hours ago cried until i couldnt breathe and had to take all my clothing off so i could breathe all BECAUSE I WAS FUCKING SCARED SHITLESS that my friend was plotting to kill me.... My boyfriend tried to comfort me but i just started to think that he hated me too and wanted me dead.

I have had a horrible 2 weeks of delusions and hallucinations and paranoia and this just makes me so sad. Saying delulu is not funny. Dont say that your 'quirky' friend is delulu. Im done with tiktok...

#i got people being weird to me in a server because i didnt like them calling a character with a parasocial relationship delulu. #i left the server and i dont view those mutuals the same way

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One of my friends called me"a very disturbed individual" in our first DM conversation. They didn't know anything about me.

Like that's just rude

#tw vent

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My therapist straight up told me that she's not qualified to handle me on her own and that she needs outside help to handle my case. She also said I should be institutionalized but doesn't wanna do that to me because I don't want it and she respects my autonomy.

God I really am broken holy shit

#tw vent #schizoaffective #actually schizospec #schizospec #actually psychotic #actually schizoaffective #blargy talk

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seeing autistic people online comment “i’m in your walls” on a post they don’t like tells me everything i need to know. you’re only an ally to disabled people when it makes you look good. it’s apparently ok ableist when you think a joke is funny.

#tw unreality

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I saw ugly cat again. He keeps appearing. Bothering me. He makes it hard to sleep and do basically anything.

Why are the aliens so obsessed with me

#mutuals pls tag garfield posts #like if they have him in it at all #please tag it #tw vent #schizoaffective #actually schizospec #schizospec #actually psychotic #psychosis #actually schizoaffective #tw aliens

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i don't know what psychotic person needs to hear this, but it is in fact okay for you to be psychotic. it's not your fault. you're not asking for it. it's something that's occurring to you. trying to force it to stop happening ALL the time is going to drain you way too much. some days you just have symptoms and it's alright. sometimes you just have to go with the flow. you're not a fuck up if you have episodes, days, weeks, months of not being able to hold it together and mask your paranoia, intrusive thoughts, delusions, hallucinations, catatonia, confusion, etc. it's alright to just be mentally ill for a bit. i love you

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Y’all know you don’t have to censor most things on this website right? This isn’t TikTok or homestuck. Just write the damn words as they’re meant to be read.

#it will never not annoy me when people censor tags #tag your shit properly #dont censor tags