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Lonely girl’s diary

It’s one A.M and every song sounds like someone I wish I knew

Maybe this would be easier if I had friends,

But for now I’m sitting in bed imagining people who will love me

My hands are cold and I wish there was someone here with me to keep warm with

It’s one A.M and I’m writing for the first time in months, I haven’t been writing because I couldn’t feel anything

I couldn’t feel anything because I was feeling too much at once

Today I wanted to die, but I didn’t want the imaginary people who love me to be sad

#teen poet #queer poets on tumblr #self written #lonely poetry #young writer

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I am unfixable

Because my body is being torn apart

But instead of my hands it is yours

Which makes it love

Which makes it okay

#my poetry #poetry

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Tonight I will dream of hands around my sides and mouths pulled into smiles

That my family is far from me for miles and miles

Dreams of tears wiped away by loving hands

And no more growing pains suffocating me like bags of sand

#my poetry #poetry #queer poetry

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I write god in almost every poem but I do not believe in him

maybe it’s me really reaching out just to check

To get a sign

That’s messed up isn’t it?

Thinking I deserve a sign

But maybe I just have too much hope

Too much belief that everyone will be good

But I know that’s not true

What I’m trying to get to is that I know how I feel is wrong

But maybe I just want one thing for myself

God why do I spill my guts when I know it will be used against me

But fuck them for doing this to me

I just want one thing

Yes I am aware that if there is a god he is frowning at me but who gives a shit

I keep holding everything so close because I am so scared but it never matters

I get left with nothing and nothing to say for it

When I spilled my guts they sold my spleen and when I said they were pretty they said I had a round face

#poetry #high school #my poetry

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i am once again fighting the urge to fake my own death, move to a small city, and open a little bakery/bookshop where people can escape from the harsh reality.

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Reblog if Bullets makes you want to commit arson.

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#one direction #harry styles #louis tomilson #niall horan #im totally fine #haha ouch #i never signed up for this #i wanna go home

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this blog hates donald trump

Look how many people hate him. I’m pretty damn happy about that 😁😁😁😁😁😁

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I hope the Loch Ness Monster is taking care of herself in these trying times.

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Me aged 8 seeing the Hex Girls in Scooby Doo

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Do you ever just *screams in agony*?

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fuck small talk how old were you when it all went wrong