I have to work out how to think about things so everything isn't so disappointing in the end
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“the hierarchy is:
rich men
poor men
mothers
beautiful women
poor female and neo-female slut-scum
Janey”
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whoops
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4 years later. Fuck you
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when i cut my eye on a computer case
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im almost 28
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i had the best sex of my life with a stranger i wanted to bash the shit out of on the street because i thought he was harassing my friends friend. i texted him tonight and he never replied. not used to rejection
i never thought my emotions were this bad, that they would affect my life this badly
i am dead inside and the people around me are the only sign I'm alive
fuck man
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Sunrise
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Hattie leg
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jimi hendrix room
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by : princess88alasse
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I think if you fucked up too you can effect the other birds around you, and usually you’re in a fucked up flock anyway. I want some strength and hope and not to be terrified of this fucked up crazy cool accident that is life
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* I am seeing the drug nurse on Monday at 10am *I’m scared of not doing something that I’ve done every day for the last 8 years of my life (my longest break 3 months, with maybe 5 week-long breaks). * I’m scared of getting sick in the future. * I don’t like not having control of my mind all the time. i don’t have to be accountable or sit with my emotions, which is starting to get really fucking hollow again * I feel like i’m unable to connect with most people and that’s upsetting * My emotions are a product of substances, not food or activities or music or anything (barely) any more. I think scientists have studied and named this the “chronic effect” ironically, it’s an ambivalence towards everything thats not smoking pot. I’ve lost my train of thought.
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Max shaving his head going into another dimension
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I really hope the rehab place call me first thing this week so I can start detoxing soon.
I took ketamine and smoked this weekend, got cancelled on by this guy I did major sexting with (in my book) and realised that I didn’t re enrol in school when I went into the university office, just changed my name only (thing that was preventing me from enrolling)
I feel sad and sick
But It’s not really the end of the world because I can probably use this time to get healthier and learn a new language
Today I dug around in back garden and had breakfast with my dad. I bought some vegetables and made dinner. Basic small steps.
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