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queerness and space

i always felt like this planet's gravity is too much for me

partly in the literal sense - it's not nearly bouncy enough for me - but also in the sense that i feel a vast inescapable pull tethering me to a place where i don't belong

when i was a kid, i looked up at the daytime sky and felt like i was at the bottom of the ocean, crushed by the pressure and wanting so desperately to swim up to somewhere i could breathe

i've also always been interested in space - it wasn't long after i'd begun talking that i could recite the names of the planets in order. but lately i've been realizing that it goes beyond an interest, or even a passion. space is part of my identity, a part that's always been there. when nobody else was there for me, not my family, not friends, not teachers, when i didn't know who i was and felt like an empty shell repeating a daily routine, the stars and planets were there. space was the one thread that's stayed with me all my life and that has never ceased to bring me joy

consider also that space is a place where norms that we take for granted get twisted and turned upside down. there is no up or down in the weightlessness of orbit, the basics of motion need to be re-learned. one world might have no clouds, no sky, while another is all clouds and sky with no ground. planets can be hot enough to melt lead, or just a smidge above absolute zero, or be made of ice, or have lava seas or clouds of glass or lakes of natural gas. suns can be red or blue or angry and active or giant and boiling. there's no sound - unless you count inaudible electric plasma waves. gravity can be hardly anything, or it can crush you into a pancake

and that's just the "normal" stuff! there's also dying suns and neutron stars and black holes and quasars and the big bang and inflation and all these things so far removed from everything we know

space defies labels, or understanding, or any conception of normalcy. the universe is queer. that's perhaps why i've felt more kinship with it than with anything on this planet, where people are so concerned with things being "normal", and changing or destroying whatever they think isn't

that's not to say i don't care about earth. i love lakes and rivers and plants and birds and beaches and, yes, even clouds sometimes! i'm an environmental scientist, and tending to my own little parcels of earth in my work has been really rewarding. and, of course, earth is in space too. but sadly colonial and extractive forces have forced true freedom for beings both human and more than-human to a marginal existence

but none of that exists in space! i can imagine that i'm the small, fluffy, cute, whimsical, bouncy foxgirl i am in my heart, playing on distant moons and basking in the light of other suns. you might say "that's not real, that's impossible," but i am most myself when i yearn for the joys of the wider universe. that yearning helps me get through these days i spend stranded on earth, it brings me life. and i love earth, but space is where i belong, heart and soul

#love #space

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Drew the slimiest unit I know

#ME #memme mme me #me #that's me #hemmo #robot #robotgirls

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Fox

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🚨 WARNING!! 🚨

Today is 🦊 FOXGIRL FRIDAY

SEEK SHELTER IMMEDIATELY

#seeking shelter in my foxgirl gf's pocket

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reblog to give ur mutuals a soft lil kissy on the head

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remember that time that spock said “this is about sex” but he couldn’t say sex so instead he said “biology” and kirk clearly knew what he meant but was awkwardly like “what kind of biology” and spock got this look on his face like ‘oh lordy i’m not dealing with this today’ and said “vulcan biology” and kirk can’t say the word sex either so he goes “u mean the biology of vulcans” and then they stood there in silence for ten seconds like a pair of fucking idiots

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心靈製造 | Li Flag

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it was unfortunately a nearly-full moon tonight, but it was beautifully clear and i did just get my coma corrector, so i decided to go out and get a picture of M44 (the beehive cluster) :3

unfortunately i found out after processing it that i used the coma corrector wrong (apparently you're supposed to remove the extension tube when using it with a DSLR... whoopsies ^^'). so that's why the star shapes are Like That

this was also the first time i took flats and it definitely makes a difference, the vignetting is greatly reduced (tho still kinda there? i guess it'll take some experimentation to figure out the best process for taking flats + processing)

anyway this night has definitely been a helpful learning experience and oh god i have work at 7:30 am tomorrow and it's almost 1 am why did i do this

taken with an apertura 6 inch F/4 imaging newtonian with a (wrongly used >w<) coma corrector, an HEQ5 mount, and a canon EOS rebel T5

123 x 30 sec lights at ISO 1600 (1 hour 1 minute 30 seconds integration time), 20 dark frames, 50 bias frames, 40 flat frames

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leitmotifs never get old to me like holy shit dude there’s this melody that corresponds to this one guy and if you hear the melody it means the guy is there. holy shit. and sometimes it refers to ideas too not just guys. has anyone heard about this

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"I don't wanna be a rock salt Bissy 🥺"- @zombielesbean

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Admire my fox and her cute boyfriend! She’s too pretty for words and I’m getting nothing done when she’s around aaaahhh

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making a collection

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