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The Wary Weretiger

"You know, I think therapy might be more effective than this." Said Atsushi. He didn't need to turn around to know Akutugawa was rolling his eyes.

"Shut up."

Atsushi raised his hand, catching the orange. "Huh, you even peeled it this time. Must be serious."

He wasn't exactly sure how they got here. Akutagawa had been hunting him down for his bounty.... And than one day just stopped. Somewhere along the lines this had become their routine.

Akutugawa ranted at him, Atsushi sat and ate whatever fruit he'd pick up on the way. Sometimes he'd voice his own opinion and Akutugawa would begrudgingly listen.

It was werid.

But not unwelcome.

It definitely beat having his leg cut off, that's for sure.

"Go on, out with it. I'm busy today." Akutugawa scoffed "and what could you be possibly busy with." Atsushi shrugged "well I still need to get a job."

It didn't matter how much he saved from what he stole from the Orphanage, it wouldn't last him much longer.

"I thought the Agency offered you a position." Said Akutugawa, carefully. As kind as Atsushi was he fought like a caged beast. He could and would ditch Akutugawa if the other offended him.

And Akutugawa didn't want to admit he liked his company.

Atsushi took a bite out of an orange slice "only because of my ability. They're nice people, but I'll find a job myself. Besides that would you my enemy and I am not dealing with that."

His leg would grow back but it was painful. And being on Akutugawa's not bad side was a nice place to be.

Not that Atsushi would admit it.

Akutagawa nodded, he could respect wanting to keep your pride even when you were at rock bottom. But even soo... "Is it so bad for them to want you for your ability?"

Atsushi paused.

"My whole life people have only wanted my ability. They've tried to rip it out of me because they felt entitled to it.... Do you really think I'd want to join an organisation that values it so highly?"

There was an edge to his tone, but also sadness. Akutugawa's eyes went wide in shock.

He unconsciously tugged his coat closer. He wouldn't know what to do if Rashomon was stolen from him.

Akutugawa felt vulnerable just taking a bath, he couldn't imagine how Atsushi felt feeling his ability get ripped out of his skin. It was fortunate that it clearly failed.

It certainly explained Atsushi's distrust of both light and dark.

"I suppose not." Said Akutugawa, going quiet in thought. He went back to his initial question.

"I was once in a situation like yours. I lived in the slums, it was there Dazai found me and I joined the Port Mafia. That became my purpose, and I'm lost without it. But you... You don't have that, and yet you seem satisfied."

Atsushi hummed, thoughtful. "I'm gonna say something, but right or wrong you're not allowed to stab me again."

Akutagawa scoffed.

"I stabbed you one time, stop acting like it was such a big deal.... But very well, I won't stab you."

Atsushi turned to face Akutugawa, putting his orange slices back into a tupperware box. "That isn't your purpose."

Akutagawa is taken aback. He wants to argue but something in him stops him. The way Atsushi spoke to him now was different to how he usually does.

He sounded like Dazai.

Dazai in the quiet moments, the rare moments when Akutugawa hadn't failed him. The all seeing look in his eye as he read Akutugawa like an open book.

"You had a purpose, one you cherished like a second soul. But you lost it. You tried to convince yourself whatever you consider your purpose now is it, but it isn't. And it never will be."

And yet when Atsushi spoke it was kind. It wasn't intended to tear Akutugawa down, quite the opposite. And Akutugawa found himself unable to look away.

"... How do you know this?"

Atsushi smiled, it was small and sad and it didn't fit him like his usual grin did. "You wouldn't be trying so hard to find your purpose if you truly believed you found it."

He looked away, giving Akutugawa some privacy in his own thoughts. "Ask yourself, who were you before the Port Mafia? Who were you back when you were like me? There's you're answer."

Akutagawa frowned, deep in thought. He'd been... He'd been weaker and pitiful. A small child who killed whoever went in his way, but killing hadn't changed in his life.

He was the Port Mafia's Rabid dog, he was still a killer so that wasn't it.

What had he been killing for? In the Port Mafia it was because those were his orders. Because the weak needed to be destroyed to make way for the strong.

Back in the slums it had been for survival. Akutugawa would've died many times over if he'd let those idiots survive. And Gin wouldn't have survived of he hadn't protected her from them.

Akutagawa froze.

... That's what it was. He had been a protector, his reason for killing down in the slums was to protect Gin and his friends.

His friends who were killed on the night Dazai found him... The night Akutugawa lost his purpose and tried to gain another.

But failed.

"I can't get it back." Whispered Akutugawa, suprised that he choked up at the thought. He hadn't thought of them in years.

"You can" Said Atsushi, looking at him again. "The circumstances may have changed, but the core premise is the same. You just have to open yourself up to that."

Open himself up? So Akutugawa had to find something else to protect? That... Didn't seem so hard, given the Port Mafia protected the city from the shadows. And Gin was still with him.

Had it really been infront of him, all this time?

"That's the difference between us" said Atsushi, quietly but Akutugawa caught it. "You had a purpose only to lose it. While I have never had one."

Atsushi chuckled and it was sad again and Akutugawa hated it. He preferred when Atsushi was genuinely happy. When his smile reached his eyes, his eyes that were kind and shined with light.

Now they looked so empty, so sad.

"You think I'm satisfied but I'm not. I have no dreams, no aspirations, my worth is tied entirely to my ability. I live to spite all those that want me dead, to stop them from taking the tiger if I pass on. I have no purpose, not really."

Akutugawa didn't know what to say, all he could do was nod in goodbye when Atsushi left.

He reached down, picking up the half of orange Atsushi saved for him. That he always saved for him, no matter how hard times got.

"You're wrong" he said to the wind as he walked away. "You're so much more than you're ability."

#The Wary Weretiger #bungou stray dogs #bsd #bsd atsushi #atsushi nakajima #bsd akutagawa #akutagawa ryuunosuke #Bsd sskk

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I love how in Bungou stray dogs, the kindest characters are the ones with the most destructive rage.

In the Port Mafia, Dazai gave a warning. "You'd be better off not angering Odasaku, ever.

If he were to become angry from the bottom of his heart, everyone in this room would he dead. Before any of us could even draw our guns."

And everyone in Yokohama knows you must never anger Kenji.

#oda sakunosuke #bsd odasaku #bsd kenji #kenji miyazawa #bungou stray dogs #bsd dark era #bsd

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hc that Dazai made a point of calling Chuuya small when they met because Dazai was used to being the small one.

like, finally there was someone shorter than him. because let’s be real, Dazai was barely taller than Chuuya in Fifteen.

i think people forget how small Dazai was too— not just in height, but also in weight. He was underweight in Dark Era, but in Fifteen & even at present he's barely within the healthy weight range for his height. he was constantly described as a twig in Fifteen, and almost every time he's introduced in the light novels he's called lanky, slender, etc.

#love it #that's kinda me and my bff... #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #bsd 15

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I am a Kunikida had an emo phase truther and so just image Katai getting bribed by Dazai to give him a picture of Kunikida as a teenager.

Dazai's expecting dorky nerdy Kunikida in a suit or sweater vest at some school event.

What he gets instead is Kunikida yelling at a cop at a protest. His hair is in a high ponytail, with streaks of purple in it.

He's wearing a jean jacket filled with pins and patches. Fishnet gloves and flipping off said cop with one hand. And holding his notebook in the other.

Dazai is just staring, jaw dropped while Katai snorts in amusement.

Dazai's just like... I was robbed! We were robbed!

#kunidazai #kunizai #kunikida doppo #dazai osamu #bsd katai #bsd dazai #bsd #bungou stray dogs

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Bsd except Atsushi recognises Sigma.

Because 3 years ago while he was at the the Orphanage, Atsushi wrote in an empty book about how much he wished he had a friend.

And wrote about them going on adventures together.

Sigma smiling at Atsushi as he falls like I'm glad I got to finally meet you, Atsushi.

#bsd sigma #bsd atsushi #atsushi nakajima #bungou stray dogs #bsd

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Seeing a lot of braces Dazai (which I love so much <33) reminded of this headcannon that I submitted to an anonymous chat box & then got super popular

Here’s a small (very unfinished) comic to go with

#digital art #art #bsd #bsd dazai #bsd ango #dazai osamu #sakaguchi ango #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #braces dazai #angst maybe

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Now I need Atsushi, Chuuya and Tachihara to all become friends and bond over being experimented on.

Having to deal with torture, and annoying pretentious scientists monologuing about improving and bringing out their full potential.

Mori's just secretly taking notes in the corner and everyone else is horrified.

#bsd stormbringer #bsd #bsd atsushi #atsushi nakajima #chuuya nakahara #bsd chuuya #bsd tachihara #tachihara michizou #bungou stray dogs

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dazai having an off day and being quieter than usual when suddenly one of kunikidas pens rolls across the desks and bumps into dazai’s hand and transforms into a piece of paper that’s been folded into a heart

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #dazai osamu #kunikida doppo #kndz #kunidazai

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Headcannon aproved 💯💯

dazai fidgets a bunch, and you can usually tell who he feels close to based on who it is he fidgets . . . with.

he would mess with odasaku and ango's glasses at the bar, grabs kunikida's shoulders and arms and messes with the fabric of his clothes, plays around with atsushi's hair, and messes with just about every bit of chuuya. his hands, his gloves (on more than one occasion he's managed to slip one off and marvel at the ridiculous softness of his skin), his hair, his sleeves, (his face)

the only people to have reciprocated this are oda and chuuya. oda would mess with dazai's hair in the same way the latter now does atsushi's. chuuya would mess with dazai's hands during meetings, sometimes fidgeting as well with the topmost layer of his bandages.

just. dazai not knowing jackshit about normal physical touch and getting his fill in whatever lame ways he can

#bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #dazai osamu #bsd dazai #odasaku sakunosuke #bsd odasaku #ango sakaguchi #bsd ango #atsushi nakajima #bsd atsushi #kunikida doppo #bsd kunikida #nakahara chuuya #bsd chuuya #dazai x chuuya #soukoku #skk

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O acquaintance, grantors of dark disgrace, do not wake me up again.

i'm too good, i can make something like this everyday- motivation required tho💀

#how is it so pretty omg #this tastes like orange in chocolate #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bsd art #bsd fanart #fanart #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs chuuya #bsd chuuya #bungou stray dogs chuuya #chuuya nakahara #nakaharachuuya

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yo wussup homeslice. I have THOUGHTS

Chuuya has a tongue piercing, Dazai know this and loves it. Kunikida does not know about it until they kiss for the first time and it feels weird and Chuuya laughs his ass off before sticking his tongue out to show him.

Kunikida found a new thing he finds hot that day.

Dazai totally has his ears pierced and gets the weirdest earrings he can find.

Kunikida doesn't have any, Dazai tries to get him to get a bellybutton piercing.

thoughts tee hee <3 consumes them and leaves you an empty husk <3

yes. chuuya with a tongue piercing, what will he do (give really good head and kisses, probably. also he 100% just licks people sometimes. sometimes when dazai is being annoying chuuya will just. lick. and boom <3 peace and quiet <3 that is the one thing that compels kunikida to consider piercings WHEEZE)

earrings. tiny baby dolls. hanging on nooses. but earrings. dazai is truly just a lesbian tbh, like spiritually

kunikida has a reputation he cares about so he can't get any piercings and he tells dazai this repeatedly but dazai never listens SO eventually kunikida is like 'every time you tell me to get a piercing i will tally it and once there are 100 tallies you will get two piercings of my choosing' and that is how dazai ends up with nipple piercings. he is a very big baby about the pain <3

#i love piercing hcs #kunichuuzai #kunichuu #kunizai #soukoku

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Whenever one of them feels down the other two take a day off and go to their favourite places and get favourite food or just stay at home cuddling

Kunikida who sees Chuuya and Dazai as completely and utterly human.

But also Kunikida witnessing loss infront of his eyes and breaking down over his own failures.

And Dazai and Chuuya holding Kunikida in their arms and having to remind him that he's human too.

#Kunichuuzai #bsd kunikida #kunikida doppo #bsd chuuya #chuuya nakahara #bsd dazai #dazai osamu #bungou stray dogs #Bsd

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I kinda want smth like that...

Listen, I posted about this on twitter, but Kunichuuzai breakfast club au!!

Chuuya the “rebel” Kunikida the “nerd” and Dazai the “outcast” end up in detention together for 8 hours under the supervision of one Ougai Mori.

They hate each other at first, but after enough conversations, shenanigans, and some weed, they end up revealing things they’d never shared before. Chuuya talks about his shitty home life, Dazai talks about his suicide attempt, and Kunikida talks about the pressures of being “gifted” and how—hey, his life actually sucks.

And by the end of it, by the time they eave that school, Kunikida has two phone numbers written on his wrist, a hickey hidden under the collar of his shirt, and a promise of a future with two boys he never in a million years would have even spoken to previous to this

#kunichuuzai #Dazai x Chuuya x Kunikida #bungou stray dogs #fanfic #bsd #bsd fic #ao3 #writing

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dazai who needs glasses for distance, but never wears them.

chuuya who has matching compression gloves with kunikida.

dazai who sets up dates.

kunikida who doesnt quite understand his own issues, but gets that theres something wrong with him.

chuuya and dazai, who really do try and help kunikida find out whats wrong.

no diagnosis is given, not yet, but its a start.

#bsd #bsd headcanons #kunichuuzai #autisticbsdfan

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Hirotsu & fukuzawa besties>>>>

mori: this is top secret so don't tell anyone, especially from the agency, alliance be damned

hirotsu, awkwardly exiting out of his chat with fukuzawa where they were making fun of mori and he was telling fukuzawa about how mori was like in this particular meeting: of course sir, i would never

akutagawa, ending his call with atsushi, who he had been talking to when he got asked to come here and never bothered to hang up on <3: i understand. this is port mafia business strictly.

chuuya, still texting everything to his chuuya-kunikida-dazai groupchat (named dazai and his bitches until they stole his phone and changed it and is now untitled): sure thing boss

kajii, asleep: hmm lemon bombs

#pm bsd #port mafia #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd port mafia #chuuya nakahara #ryuunosuke akutagawa #sskk #shin soukoku #hirotsu ryuurou #mori #kunichuuzai

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may I suggest a Chuuya pixel sprite 👀

after much procrastination here he is!! Thank you for your patience 😭🙏

#THE GRAVITY GUY EVER #THIS IS S0 COOOOOL #bsd nakahara chuuya #bsd chuuya #bsd art #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd