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I have this constantly. While getting tested by my psychologist, the tests showed that I have bad short term memory. I often times forget a lot of thongs and I don't know what to do about it.

Things like depression, anxiety, and a whole host of other things can really mess with a person's memory.

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Guh

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this is the best video ive seen in my goddamn life

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the urge to buy cute plushy..

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As time goes on, the want for bottom surgery intensifies. I don't really know what to do about it

#I talk

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Every once in awhile I'll remember Running With Scissors responding to a transphobic gimmick account on Twitter and my day will instantly get ten times better

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So we all know that Tumblr is US-centric. But to what degree? (and can we skew the results of this poll by posting it at a time where they should be asleep?)

Reblog to increase sample size!

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I'm a person that idealizes a lot of ideas. I don't like information that doesn't logically connect to itself. Certain concepts like love have been something that I think I have a pure and naive understanding of. Sociologically, you can consider that love is a socially constructed conception in order to create families and recreate a nuclear family in the future. It's also a means to justify and seek class relations and recreate them.

I think I'm wondering about the conception of love due to the hateful way in which some TERFs post about trans people in relationships. Whether transbians that go out with cis women, whether it's a t4t relationship or whatever possibility of trans masc and trans femme relationships. It seems to me like a double bind of hatred. On one end hating the social concept of relationships and on the other a disdain for queer relationships with a trans partner. The 2 combine to create an interesting mixture of hatred. I'm starting to deeply understand the dehumanization and othering behind some TERF accounts, and I'm not sure that hatred will particularly stop the recreation of the patriarchy.

What I think cis people could learn from trans people and at least my understanding of a relationship is that if your focus will be towards feelings of a partner that isn't tied to one gender identity or presentation, it can be a lot easier to break apart the meanings behind a system that's meant to create families to pump out children and reinforce states and capital. Maybe it's just me, but I don't think trans people are there to seek some capitalistic dream. Many of us are just content with being ourselves.

That's my random thoughts on this.

#I talk #trans #transgender #transblr

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I'm wearing my first ever bra outside. It's a sports bra and I have to say that it's kind of annoying as a sensory experience. I'm doing my best with it though. It's better when I'm focused on something as I forget the feeling of it on my body.

#i talk #transblr #actually autistic

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I'm autistic and trans. Hi

are you autistic and gay?

lesbian and autistic perhaps?

an autistic pan or bisexual?

asexual and autistic?

trans or non binary and autistic?

any autistic member of the LGBTQ+ community?

well guess what...

you're fucken great and I love you

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I really really hate how most art of transfems is just a cis girl with a cock or the most cis passing/adjacent body type ever.

Yeah, girlies like that do exist, but you know what there is so much more of?

Fat transfems, "clocky" transfems, transfems early on in or without hrt, transfems who don't "pass", transfems that don't get rid of or ashamed of their "boyish"/"masculine" features.

Not all transfems look like cis women models or twinks with boobs, please understand

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catboy 🏳️‍⚧️🐈🎸

(he/him)

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I find the experiences really interesting for me on account that I'm also autistic and struggle behaving in a way that's within the social norms. I move my body strangely and the way I speak and express myself is not typical. I'm white and skinny and in some ways can pass as a woman, but my struggles with social behavior and my disconnect from my body just makes it difficult for me.

And I understand that people that aren't white have to struggle with coming off as white enough in social situations. There's an unrealistic expectation that people have to fit within these idealized standards. But we're not a spreadsheet of numbers that should reach the average. Nobody is!

It becomes very clear when people only consider trans people who are white, skinny, pass perfectly, and are stealth as ‘real trans people’

People talk about trans men and it becomes clear they aren’t counting non-passing trans men, pregnant trans men, fat trans men, and trans men of color.

I see this from other trans guys so much. So many other trans guys will act like they are better because they pass, they are white, they are skinny, and/or they don’t want to get pregnant. So they leave trans men of color, non-passing trans men, fat trans men, and pregnant trans men out of the conversation.

#trans #transgender #transblr #actually autistic

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Me every morning when i wake up💞😍

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