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“The fear of being fat is the fear of joining an underclass that you have so readily dismissed, looked down on, looked past, or found yourself grateful not to be a part of. It is a fear of being seen as slothful, gluttonous, greedy, unambitious, unwanted, and, worst of all, unlovable. Fat has largely been weaponized by straight-size people — the very people it seems to hurt most deeply. And ultimately, thin people are terrified of being treated the way they have so often seen fat people treated or even the way they’ve treated fat people themselves. In that way, thinness isn’t just a matter of health or beauty or happiness. It is a cultural structure of power and dominance.”

— Aubrey Gordon

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I've rarely seen a more validating sentence in my entire life.

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Starstruck has amazing character arc with rich emotions, it's sad it is not as well loved as it deserves to be.

But love can also soothe the heart and warm the soul

What I found most heart-warming in the last two episodes of Star Struck is Yoojae’s character development. His development is quite subtle and yet it feels as if he changed completely. The series beautifully highlighted how he found peace in his love for Hanjoon. 

In the previous episodes, Yoojae is seen as being consumed by his jealousy which makes him act on a whim without ever questioning the very root of that feeling. He is restless and overwhelmed by the fear of Hanjoon leaving him again. Him kissing Hanjoon is the very embodiment of these confusing feelings. 

However the one who is most troubled after the kiss is not Yoojae but Hanjoon. This might come off as a surprise because Hanjoon has always been sure of his feelings for Yoojae, whereas Yoojae — up until now — hadn’t realised that his bond with Hanjoon ran deeper than just friendship. 

Although their first kiss propelled the both of them into uncharted territory, Yoojae found tranquility in knowing that his feelings for Hanjoon were feelings of pure love. 

This new-found tranquillity is emphasised by the colours of Yoojae’s clothes. He is wearing a bright yellow cardigan which contrasts with Hanjoon’s grey clothes. The colour yellow here seems to imply the start of a new day — as in a new chapter in their story —  for it echoes the sun’s colour but it also symbolises hope and happiness. As for the colour grey, it symbolises the feeling of loss. Indeed, Hanjoon is convinced that Yoojae will soon come to regret having kissed him. He tries to act as if nothing happened because acknowledging the kiss would mean losing Yoojae, or so he thinks. He must have thought about kissing Yoojae before but he never allowed himself to actually do it (in the series at least) because he dreaded the consequences. To him, his first kiss would have been the last. It only implied the end of the thing he valued most in this world. He had never thought it would turn out to be the beginning of everything (hence Yoojae’s yellow cardigan). 

When Yoobin says to Yoojae that he should not say anything to Hanjoon for missing their study session, the old Yoojae would have talked back or let out a sassy remark. But he remained unusually calm and didn’t say anything. He simply put away his phone and focused on getting the work done. 

Yoobin’s words made him realise that he knew Hanjoon would react that way. Hanjoon being distant and avoiding him was in keeping with his thoughtful and careful nature. He did know him the best after all but he still hoped for another reaction (to their kiss). It was silly of him to think like that and that’s why he remains quiet and listens to Yoobin. 

My favourite moment in episode 7 is obviously that scene in the playground. 

It’s heart-breaking to see Hanjoon so anxious: his eyes flicker and he tries his best to avoid meeting Yoojae’s eyes. His arms are around the swing’s ropes as if he desperately needed to hold on to something. Yoojae however watches Hanjoon steadily. He remains soft-spoken — whereas Hanjoon’s voice quavers and fluctuates because of how worried and afraid he feels — and his body language emphasises how serene he feels. He trusts his feelings and he seems pretty certain that nothing will go wrong. He just needs to let Hanjoon know that he is allowed to express his feelings, the ones he has tried so hard to bury deep inside for who knows how long.  

It’s only when Yoojae says “I’m not here to watch the stars.” that Hanjoon truly looks at him. His eyes are fixed on his and I wouldn’t be surprised to learn that he was holding his breath at that moment. It’s precious how Yoojae saying “Let’s date.” makes Hanjoon let go of the swing’s ropes. He is taken aback but most importantly, he is immensely relieved. 

The fast transition to the basketball court makes us see Hanjoon and Yoojae both playing and smiling but what’s worth noticing is that they both wear dark clothes. Hanjoon is still wearing grey clothes but grey doesn’t mean the same as it used to: the colour grey no longer implies loss but rather a new-found balance. As for Yoojae’s dark blue T-shirt, I’d say it symbolises calmness which is in keeping with this idea of new-found balance that both characters have found since facing their true feelings. 

Star Struck suffered from being only eight-episode-long with each episode lasting less than twenty minutes but I salute In Sung and Zuho who portrayed their characters brilliantly. Their micro-expressions were on point and they successfully conveyed the complex emotions their characters were feeling despite the short length of the series and the many rushed plot points.  

#star struck #스타스트럭 #yoojae x hanjoon #kdrama #kbl #You know when people don't appreciate a show for its story and rather focus on lack of sexual content #Some shows are bl and some shows are queer stories. Don't mistake them to be the same. They are made for diff audiences #*enjoy my nonsense

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i want a shirt that has a QR code on it for some kind of horrible malware so that if anyone ever tries to film me in public their phone will automatically scan the code and be reduced to a functionless brick

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hey tumblr go eat shit you gormless little sex hating bitch

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@stjohnstarling your priest is ACTING UP

TO HORNY JAIL WITH YOU

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I know the 90s are back, but stores are starting to market clothes with “O-rings” again and I’m laughing because I don’t know how many people wearing them know what the fuck they are.

Bringing back memories of cock ring Ken. Screaming. (x)

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Happy Valentine's day, everyday for WangXian ❤

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My taste in romance media or romance in media back then:

My taste now:

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Queer Reading of the Film: Fantasy or Possibility?

I was watching "The Postmodern Horror of TikTok Discourse" on Are They Gay YouTube channel which began with a Reddit post (image attached below). That post is a lot similar to the discussion about Ram and Bheem in the movie RRR being read as queer by (mostly) western audiences which horrified and offended many Indian viewers who regarded it as an insult.

Gender as a framework and gender roles operate differently in Eastern countries than they do in western countries. The west viewed the 'orient' as feminine and weak. Indians were taunted for being too weak to govern themselves. The Britishers mocked Indians for their feminine traits that were celebrated by Indians as hyper-masculine. So naturally, when RRR was screened worldwide people from different cultures have different readings for the same couple/mates Ram and Bheem.

I would love for someone to write an in-depth post that investigates these various readings across the globe and if you think #rambheem can be read as a queer couple?

(I am open to having a civil conversation about this. Don't kill me.)

(I might write the post myself if time permits)

It must be noted that there are a lot of things that need to be addressed like how the concept of 'India' and 'Indian' is a colonial one which was later adopted by the nationalist movement (quite late in the game, actually) to articulate their demands for self-rule.

The culture in the movie is largely that of Telugu people. It is convenient to mistake the symbolism and analogies used in the film to be representative of sentiments across various cultures in India (and most are) but the relationships here cannot be discussed isolated from their roots- that is the Telugu culture.

The movie is heavily fictionalized so it allows us to explore the narrative and character arcs. The heavy religious symbolism in the last part of the movie will make people uncomfortable exploring queer reading of the film, but it is not disrespectful to the main text in the film.

#rambheem #rrr film #ss rajamouli rrr #desi queer #orientalism #history #colonialism #imperialism #rrr

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poem- Red Flags

starve myself,

refuse all help,

waiting for the doom to strike

i relish in pain,

a price well paid

earn my share of the gilded cage

#original poetry #may 25 #when pain makes me feel seen

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Guys, could anyone explain what he means by this?

#daily dracula #dracula daily #may 25

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Guys, could anyone explain what he means by this?

#dracula daily #daily dracula #renfield #dr seward #i am dumb please help me out here

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There’s nothing gayer than a detective who’s been after the same criminal his whole life. It’s the the single-minded, all consuming obsession, the taunting back-and-forths that might or might not be flirtation…

#Why make me cry #this is so beautiful #Scrolled through your account when I saw that you are writing Dracula inspired queer vampire novel #Can't wait for your book!

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Stede + Viago crossover fanart (by @lydsirabella on IG)