byebyetoxicmen

[byebyetoxicmen]

Introduction Post

Hello sisters and brothers,

I’m currently crying my eyes out sprawled on my bed. It’s that ugly crying, I can’t do cute tears. My relationship of three years is over as of five days ago. Another girl is in his bed and it was just confirmed to me.

I’m dumbfounded. I did everything for him. I’m sure if you’re reading this you’ve done the same. I couldn’t hurt him that way, even for a million dollars. So, instead of wallowing in self pity I hired a therapist, went NC for the most part and it’s felt ok. Until I heard he had some girl in my bed. He told me before if i left they’d be 20 waiting to fill the spot. She’s a hooker.

I realized that I’m not in that scene. I don’t have a record and I don’t commit crimes. We have nothing in common and I was living in an fantasy. Thought with enough love he would want to change because he wanted too. What ended it with us was him getting mad at texting him. I am allowed to text him as much as I want and as his gf at the tune, he should have been ok with it.

He’s a chameleon when it comes to whose around. When it was hun and I we were great. Almost like homebodies. Then someone comes along and bam he’s tough Chris. I guess I have to be happy it happened. Because now I’m motivated to actually do the work.

This blog is going to share my journey. I’m going to share my daily journal, articles and beautiful imagery to keep us positive during this hard time. We can do this.

#breakup #narcissist